InfiniteInsanity

Is there anyone who can explain to me what the Squeeze/Sandwich Theorem is how I'm supposed to use it to find the limits of things?

I'm really confused, and tired. I don't have the energy to sit down and watch a video on it. It'll just put me to sleep.

If anyone knows and could explain it to me that would be very nice. If not don't feel bad or anything I'm sure I'll figure it out soon.

13 hours at school!!

It was lovely.

Somewhat painful and really hard to get through but... its fine.

I definitely didn't cry... twice....

Welp. 

No matter what happens this is what my week looks like and... yay!! 

I'm a Who!

And I've been on a happy high for over 12 hours.

I GOT A SOLO/DUET THING FOR GUARD!!

...i'm actually rather conflicted about this...

...and like its a good thing...

...but its a scary thing...

...and I'm happy...

...but also...

...I kind of want to cry.

Its fine though.

I'll adjust and be okay.

Also cast list gets posted at 4:30 today.

So now I be nervous and stressed about that until its time.

I had to do all the makeups and put on contacts and such for a band thing today because guard!!

But....

It is so hot...

And my makeup is not heat proof if that's even a thing.

So I leave my house and the car ride is fine but I get out of the car and immediately the lipstick like dissolves.

And I can feel it and then the edges of my makeup follow.

It was just like why? Why make me put in all this effort just for it to die as soon as I step outside??

It wasn't good makeup so I'm not like mad or upset about it just a little disappointed. 

And I had musical auditions today. Tomorrow they announce call backs, and then Wednesday is call backs and Thursday is when they post the cast list. 

Also I found the music for my favorite ballet like floor routine thing. I'm not sure what its called. But it was for turns and the only way I can think about this song is how I remembered the counts. "Chaîné, Chaîné, Chaîné, and then a Soutenu." And it like went with the music and that's how I remembered what I was supposed to be doing. And now its stuck in my head.

Y'all... 

...this history teacher....

I don't know how well I'll make it this year...

I've learned things yes but they don't feel like things that I needed to know. They've just sort of made me feel somewhat like a bad person? I don't know. I'm just confused. And lost on so many levels.

I also can't make up my mind about my new choir director. She's different.... and I really miss my old one... so... I don't know.

I really wanted to take a nap when I got home but then physical therapy and... now I have energy and I feel like I can do almost anything.

Like rant about things for English.

Or rant.

Or maybe even get down choreo for musical auditions... I should probably go do that....

I'll stop bothering y'all now.

First day of school. Lovely. Wonderful.

We have a new phone policy which is kind of annoying.

I'm the only Junior in my math class. The rest of the class are all Seniors. My teacher has pointed it out pretty much every chance he had.

Also in US History my teacher started talking about how you need to know what you want when you're looking for a significant other and how you should try your best to be what you're looking for. Which was fine and nice and all but... the reason she went on this like 20 minute rant about it was because... its why we have rules?? 

And now I'm just confused.

How is one supposed to start figuring out the steps to take to start making their way to the future when they have absolutely no idea how to even start? 

When their plan has been severely challenged enough that it is definitely not right?

And now its time to start piecing together a new one?

Where are you supposed to start?

I have some questions.

1.  If I eat say 2000 calories a day and then I burn 3/4 of those calories am I actually eating enough food? 
2. I learned this thing at girls camp. We're all supposed to have a little bit of fat on our stomachs. It's normal. It natural. It actually means you're healthy. So why have we gone so far as to thinking it's not? And not only that putting ourselves down for it? Why? Why? Why?
3. Why is it so hard to believe that beautiful and pretty are concepts that change and are different to every single person? 
4. Why is it so hard to believe that even when aren't trying it is very very possible for someone to look at us and think we are pretty or beautiful or hot or handsome or whatever?

I'm having an argument with myself. I'm afraid the wrong side is kind of starting to seem more appealing. 

But on the bright side my little brothers are like the cutest things ever right now. They're having lots of fun.

I wrote a new thingy!!! 

and it's a thing that I can feel justified editing as much as I want to because there will always be things for me to add on!!!