InfiniteInsanity

Okay okay so went to the doctor a few hours ago and got home a few hours ago too but here's what she said.

1. I can go to high adventure
2. Try to walk around (no crutches!!) (Also really hurts sometimes)
3. But keep the crutches on hand just in case or for when I'm tired
4. No climbing which I'm gonna assume means no dancing
5. Up the painkillers
6. Dont be stupid or crazy
7. Listen to the pain
8. If it's not improving in two weeks we need to go back and then they'll send me to different doctors (probably) for further examination
9. She's pretty sure I just strained it

So anyways I'll disappear again Thursday to Saturday cause I'm going to high adventure!!!!

...My doctor is probably gonna tell me I can't dance for now isn't she? And that I need an MRI... I've done those before though. Its fine. My parents are somewhat worried about letting me go to High Adventure on Thursday... but the stake YW president said I should be fine. And she's a physical therapist so she knows about these kinds of things.

The doctor will probably also tell me I need to wear an immobilizer. 

At least that's what my parents say.

Guess I'll find out for sure in 6ish hours.

Back from girls camp.

I had an amazing time. Except from about 4:30 to 5:30pm yesterday. 

It was pouring and we were trying to do a group scripture study with all my girls (13 year olds) and I was running to 1) get out of the rain and 2) tell the leaders that my tent was leaking. And then I slipped in the wet grass and as I fell I felt and heard my knee pop and then I was in pain. So now my knee is wrapped, I'm on crutches, and I need to go take some more pain killers.

But the worst part of it was I had to fight my dad in order to stay. I won. I couldn't do a whole lot this morning, not that they would have let me anyway but I can say I finished girls camp strong. 

I have been a lot louder and more outgoing and silly than I have with people I don't know in a long time.

Okay so right now all my cousins on my mother's side of the family are here in Nebraska.

And because I leave this afternoon and go to girls camp they let me plan what we did yesterday.

So we went to the pedestrian bridge that goes over the Missouri River and you can cross over the border and into Iowa. So we went over the bridge and spent a little while in Iowa at a playground and then we came back. The border is literally just a little line on the bridge.

And then we went to this place called Leahy mall. It's where I would like to take my senior photos. So my grandma had me take some pictures in one of the basic senior picture poses. Which actually turned out okay. I think. 

We spent a while at my grandparents house. Then we left my 10 year old brother and 8 year old sister there. They were supposed to spend the night in a tent with some of my cousins. Not sure how that turned out.

But we got home which took.... too long. And then I had a nightmare and I am not gonna be able to fall back asleep. 

I'm gonna get my hair cut this morning so its not an absolute mess at girls camp and then I'll leave in the afternoon.

I'm hoping everything goes well with girls camp. I'm kind of nervous cause they asked me to be a lead YCL so I've planned most of everything that's gonna happen. And I have anxiety issues. Its great.

My siblings and I miraculously have started getting along. Which of course means chaos.

We gave my parents headaches from belting songs very loudly.

Then my 10 year old brother and 8 year old sister started planning my brother's future proposal. Which will apparently take place at my house and I'm supposed to be married. He said I have to be there when he proposes to whoever he's gonna marry.

It all ended (for a short amount of time) though when my mom gave them the Alcatraz books she got from the library. They started fighting over who gets to read them first.

And now they're just attempting to annoy each other but its not really working. They just think its all really funny.

I think I found the thing that maybe might be the thing that makes me happy. Like really really happy.

Fixing things and building things. 

I love the concept of being an engineer but the reality is it's lots of computer work that I am not good at and don't understand it.

But y'all... I got covered from head to toe in grease and other things because I spent hours fixing a car. And doing things hasn't made me that happy in a while. People have but not my own actions. 

But I was happy and I actually want to be doing it. Like every bit of me wanted to be doing it. But not only that but I could see myself doing those kinds of things in the future. Course my dad thinks that's rather stupid and that engineering is better but I'm just gonna try to ignore that for now.

My mom's dad came to help and that was so much fun. I didn't actually get to do much while he was there but he told me lots of stories about when he was in the Air Force and may have accidentally planted a few seeds in my head. 

And I'm starting to think that my dad doesn't really like fixing the cars all that much and just does it because it's cheaper. 

But I LOVE it.

I think I'm allergic to cats. 

Which makes me sad.

Cause they are cute.

I have a really bad habit of forgetting the real names of people I know who are on here.

I even forgotten Bookwyrm's name. 

Wizard says its okay but I still feel really really bad about it.

So um... if I know you're real name just know that at lead 70% of the time you reside in my head as your username.

I forget a lot of stuff its okay.