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  1. That1Cellist
    Pokemon has gotten really weird since I kinda stopped paying attention after USUM. I've completed that pokedex at least. You guys pay a whole lot more attention to the meta than I do.
  2. That1Cellist
    And I don't really care whether or not I win I just want to post something because I feel like it.
  3. That1Cellist

    Happy birthday!

  4. That1Cellist

    You know when you want to cry, but tears won't come? Who knows why they don't. Maybe you've exhausted them. Perhaps you are simply too tired to form tears. Perhaps you have realized that there is no point in crying. And then the thought occurs to you. Maybe it's not that you can't cry, it's that you aren't sad. You're just a dramatic fool who wants others' sympathy and attention.

    Really,

    What's

    The

    Point?

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    2. The Aspiring Archivist

      The Aspiring Archivist

      I once felt similarly, like I couldn't cry even though I wanted to. I used it as a verse in a poem, even. I don't have an exact explanation, but it isn't attention seeking.

      I'm sorry. It's hard.

    3. kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

      kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

      I feel like this a lot, actually. I don't know if I'm just being overdramatic or if I'm actually anxious and sad. Just know that you're not alone.

    4. SymphonianBookworm

      SymphonianBookworm

      I understand this. I hadn't cried in a year until something happened, and then I started to. It's not attention seeking. Sometimes you just don't cry. And that doesn't say anything of how sad you are.

      Also, if you really were attention seeking, I don't know if you'd be able to talk about it like this.

  5. That1Cellist
    Evil! Villainous! There is not question here in this post!
  6. That1Cellist
    Fire. Fire. Fire fire fire fire fire. The others would be cool, especially lightning. But fire. fire fire fire. Well, I suppose it does depend on what I can do with the fire, but that is almost certainly my pick.
  7. That1Cellist
    Fire, without question. My second pick would be earth, though depending on what you could do with air that would be nice too.
  8. That1Cellist

    Happy birthday!

  9. That1Cellist

    Loneliness. This feeling accompanies me everywhere. Isn't that funny? I have friends. I love them. You'd think it would keep the loneliness away. It does, somewhat. I'm a lot less lonely than I could be, but sometimes it sneaks up on you. I suppose I've spent most of my life feeling lonely. It looms over me always. Maybe that is why I crave attention so badly. No matter what you say, I do crave it, I think. I don’t particularly like physical contact with other humans, but sometimes it would be nice to be hugged. To be held and hold back. Isn’t that odd? Maybe I just want to know that I’m not alone. That someone cares about me truly, not just with surface level words. Or perhaps I am needy. I find that more likely. I want these things, but it is absurd at this point, I think.

    I don’t even know at this point.

    Silence and loneliness are my lot, I think.

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    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Emotions are utterly illogical. I wonder too, what it would be like to have someone to hug, someone to hold me. But you aren’t alone. Emotions are like…Ruin. In your head. Telling you to do or feel things that you shouldn’t. 

    3. kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

      kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

      I have felt similar to this and some days I feel as if I'm going through the motions but not LIVING. Hanging out with friends but not CONNECTING. Lonely and sad and wondering if I'll crash. I'm not sure how to help, but you're not alone. 

    4. Telrao

      Telrao

      Cellist, we all crave attention, in some way shape or form. Feeling lonely and longing for a hug - despite the fact that you don't really enjoy physical contact - my dude, I feel that so much. During COVID, I was perfectly happy to be by myself... but sometimes, I really craved some contact, someone to talk to other than familial relations. But, then again, I wanted to be by myself. A living dichotomy... but aren't we all? There is nothing wrong with craving attention, and nothing wrong with wishing for a hug. Silence is nice, but sometimes you need someone to break up the monotony.

      We all want to know that we're not alone. It's okay! It means you're human, Cellist! And it's a wonderful thing that you're here and with us *hugs*

  10. That1Cellist
    "No... no... no... we've lost. I couldn't save them. I didn't help at all. That's all I am. A weak, helpless bunnyrabbit. I am not ferocious." Shark didn't even know what to do anymore. He stared blankly, not noticing or caring about anything around him. "I'm sorry." he whispered over and over.
  11. That1Cellist

    Nothing I feel is real. Nothing I want is achievable Do I even want what I think I want? Why do I try for attention so much? Why does it matter to me? Why do I insist on being mean to myself? The behavioral patterns don't lie. It's not real. None of this is real. I'm not real.

    For something more substantial to quantify my thoughts, albeit different ones, I wrote another thing.

    Falling, falling
    Quiet like snowflakes we drop
    Empty corpses
    They had the whole sky for them
    The wind to play in
    And yet we fall
    Why do we fall with the rest?
    What's the point?
    But even so
    There really is no choice anyway
    The earth yearns, gravity beckons
    So we fall
    Dying
    Moving, swirling, living
    Unaware of the looming ground

    My soul ached
    And was met with silence

    Hmmmm, in retrospection, this one isn't very good, but it is what it is.

    I'm tired and confused, humans.

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    2. That1Cellist

      That1Cellist

      Everyone says that, but what are those things then? What makes it better? I don't see anything in this wasteland, save that which I cannot have.

    3. The Paradoxical Phenomenon

      The Paradoxical Phenomenon

      I don’t know if you’re Christian, but Jesus comes to mind 

    4. That1Cellist

      That1Cellist

      Fair point, that. Without my religion I'd probably feel even worse than I do.

  12. That1Cellist
    Yes, I have, as well as the sequel and companion book. I very much enjoy both the book and the movie.
  13. That1Cellist

    Happy birthday! I want to add to your notif count for when you get back!

    1. The Aspiring Archivist

      The Aspiring Archivist

      Consider changing your pfp in celebration?

  14. That1Cellist
    *Beats up Wizard for unbeating me up and beats up myself again* *Also beats up that stupid drained lake that Mexico City is on top of* Like seriously, the city is sinking into the ground.
  15. That1Cellist
    *beats up Wizard again so that it's fair and then beats up self so that everyone gets beat up*
  16. That1Cellist
    Violin solo? Noooooo... Poor basses. You guys need a solo sometime.
  17. That1Cellist
    Correct! Well done!
  18. That1Cellist
    The character is not TenSoon, Frost, or Mraize's chicken. Clue 1: This character is not a human Clue 2: This character kills an animal Clue 3: This character lives on Roshar
  19. That1Cellist
    It is neither TenSoon nor Frost. Clue 1: This character is not a human Clue 2: This character kills an animal
  20. That1Cellist
    Okay then! Clue 1: This character is not a human
  21. That1Cellist
    Shallan?
  22. That1Cellist
    I'm a stupid, stuck up, idiot lighteyes who doesn't particularly care about the value of human life and has been given far too much power in the political system.
  23. That1Cellist
    If it was in total, it would be a hasty generalization fallacy, so more likely it's the ones that Mr. Bassist knows.
  24. That1Cellist
    The Lament of Falling Stars: Pokemon ORAS Terra's Theme: FF6 Edward Elgar, cello concerto in E. minor, as always. If you're looking for something that literally rips at the fiber of my being, especially the first movement. Cello is my favorite string instrument for good reason.
  25. That1Cellist
    Well, ummmm see, those kids in that outside school orchestra I'm in are kind of annoying too... But I do think it's probably a bad idea to be so mean to violinists. Though, I don't really see why you would want a violin over other string instruments. I prefer the sounds of the others quite a bit. I guess every instrument has a role.
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