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Does anyone have a wall? A really breakable, weak wall that I can punch holes in? If so, I will pay you for it.
im forfeiting homework and I’m gonna angry draw now.
hope you guys are having a good day!
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Does anyone have a wall? A really breakable, weak wall that I can punch holes in? If so, I will pay you for it.
im forfeiting homework and I’m gonna angry draw now.
hope you guys are having a good day!
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Does anyone have a wall? A really breakable, weak wall that I can punch holes in? If so, I will pay you for it.
im forfeiting homework and I’m gonna angry draw now.
hope you guys are having a good day!
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GUYS!
My dad brought me BIRTHDAY FLOWERS!!!
I took a picture
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Hey.
We miss you.
I miss you.
We love you, and want you to come back.
It's not my decision, but I can promise you, nobody on here hates you.
I sure don't.
Please don't leave.
*hugs tightly*
~ Stick
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Anyone if you see this please pray for Stick tonight. Please pray.
She's struggling greatly tonight and prayers and love and well wishes, whatever you can give, please do.
And please love those around you, the world is full of enough pain and self hate as it is. There's no reason to add to it. You never know what someone else is going through and how a kind or mean word can shape the rest of their life.
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ALSO!!!
I AM MAKING MY BIRTHDAY CAKE AND IT'S MAKING ME
ABSURDLY HAPPY!!
ITS CHOCOLATE!!!
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So Panda here to give y’all a little life update, if you don’t care then don’t read and waste your time.
So earlier this week I went to a counselor outside of school for the first time. She was really nice and gave me some things to work on until next week, so that’s nice. I’m doing a lot better there… I think at least. It’s hard to tell.
I am away on a ski trip right now with my family, I absolutely love skiing. I want to try a black diamond next time if I can. I’ve been doing it for six years already so I think I have skills for it, just need the confidence. I mean I was terrified to do a blue square today, but I kind of just continually told myself that everything as fine and that I’ll never get better if I don’t move forward, or at least until there was no turning back. After I got on the slope itself I panicked and that’s a whole other thought process.
My phone broke this morning, like the screen turned green and shut off. Soooo we are trying to fix that. So I’ll be more on and off.
I can’t think of too much else right now, but I’ll have to think.
Just updating everyone since it’s been a while. Anywho.
How is everyone? What’s new? What’s something good and bad that has happened recently?
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Also, one more thing!
Prayers are welcome for my older brother.
He cut his finger and is going to get stitches at Urgent Care.
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My poetry with @Part Of The Narrative (she told me I have to mention her in all SUs from here on out.)
Okay
SpoilerOkay
I am not okay.I have tried so hardTo be okay.For my family.For my friends.For the people who need me.But no more.I don’t haveTo be okay.I will heal.One day, I will beOkay.But that is not today.That might not be tomorrow.Or next week.I admit it.I’m not “fine”I’m not “good”I am brokenButIn the processOf healing.I amPerfectlyImperfect.That is okay,Even ifI’m not.And that is okay.I’ll get there,One day.One day,I willFinallyBeOkay.~ Stick 1-19-24Save Me
SpoilerSave me
I stretchOutMy armsAnd youSaveMe.You save me.I don’t deserveTo beSaved.But youYou do itAnyway.You died for me.You bled and died for meFor meHow can I notLove who youSaved?Who you died for?It is aDecision.I decidedYears agoTo hate myself.And so I have.I have hatedThis beautiful,Scarred creatureYou callYour Daughter.No More.I am StrongI am BeautifulI am a WarriorI am LovedBy myself.You saved me,So I am choosingRight here,Right now.I love myself.I love how You made me.I am Your handiwork.There is nothing wrong with me.I was madeExactly how I You chose.I am freeBecause youSaved me.~ Stick 1-19-24Where My Thoughts Go
SpoilerWhere my thoughts go
I want to go outAnd lay on the snowI want to forget I everLearned to breatheI want to freezeAll alone in the coldI want to dieI want to fade away with no more painI want to feelMy bodySlowly freezingStiffAndColdAndDeadIt’s hard to laughWhen you’re crying.It’s hard to reactWhen you’re empty.It’s hard to feel safeWhen you’re scared.It’s hard to have hopeWhen you’re hopeless.It’s hard to loveWith no pain.It’s hard to flyWithout wings.It’s hard to prayWithout words.It’s hard to thinkWhen you’re emotionless.It’s hard to holdWhen you’re breaking.The scars don’t define meThe pain doesn’t define meMy stupid brain doesn’t define meI want to dieWithout my thoughtsSpiraling out of controlI want peaceI want nothingnessI want to fade awayI don’t want to existI don’t want the feelingsAnd emotions of something aliveI want to know whyMy brain spiralsWhy it alwaysEnds up in theAbyssI want to know whyI can’t just be normalI can’t just stop shakingI can’t just stop cryingI want to know whyI’m a messWhy I hate myselfWhy I can’t trustAnyoneI want to know whyYour arms are out of reachI want to knowThe answers to my questionsThe pathway to my heartAround and throughMy wallsGetting to my heart is a mazeIt feelsImpossibleI can’t feel the armsI can’t feel the painThe loveAny of itI am numbI asked for thisI made myself this wayI deserve thisI amANumbShadowOfWhoIOnceWasThe lonely mistSurrounds meI can’t seeI can’t breatheI can’t feelI can’t even screamWould I even want to?I’m scaredScared of changeScared of abandonmentScared of the shadowThat I have become.Scared that I will neverBe what I should beFor everyone.This is where my mind goes.~ Stick 1-19-24Blanket
SpoilerBlanket
Every timeI go to the blanketWhenever I’m stressedI’m lonelyI’m cryingI hate myselfI flee to my blanketI hide with my blanketIt holds meWhen my friendsCannotSometimesI go under the blanketAlone in the darkI cryI screamI claw at my skinI hate this thingTrapped inThe airIsn’t under the blanketAnd I’m gladI don’t want the airBreathing is too hardIt’s easier not toI wrap myself in this blanketI hide from theCruelColdWorldI have many blanketsI have named them allAll are suffocatingIn there own wayI have a blanketNamed DepressionI have a blanketNamed AnxietyI have a blanketNamed Self- harmI have a blanketNamedAttention Deficit Hyperactive DisorderI have a blanketNamed StressI have a blanketNamed SuicidalI have a blanketNamed EmptyI sometimes hide underAll my blanket-The emotional onesAnd the physical one.The good thingsFeel likeMistInstead ofBlanketsNot very easy to feelEspeciallyThroughMyBlankets~ Stick 1-19-24Hiding
SpoilerHiding
This is my instinctIn a badSituationI have to hideNo body wants to seeMeSo I hideI feel safeWhen I hideI feel lonelyWhen I hideAnd yetI keepGoingBackToMyHidingI press against the wallSmash myself into the cornerOn the floor“Go unnoticed.”“Make yourself small.”“Put up your hood.”“Nobody wants to see you.”I have to hideRight?This is normalRight?I talk to the voicesThe people who aren’t thereI hold theInvisible handBut it feels realI can feel itBut no oneElseCanI’m not normalSoIHideI hideI hideBecauseI haveToHide~ Stick 1-19-24Weakness
SpoilerWeakness
WeaknessVulnerabilityI have learnedThat without weaknessI can neverBeStrong.I need to be vulnerableOr nothingFeelsReal.It is hard!There is a chanceThat you will get hurt.But which is worse?The numbness?Or the pain?You cannotHaveHealingWithoutPain.You cannotHaveStrengthWithoutWeakness.You cannotHaveJoyWithoutSadness.Look behind you.Look at the journey.Look how far we’ve come!He has been hereFor all of it.He has been guidingYouMeAllOfUsIn hisOwnSpecialWay.Think veryVeryHard.Open your heart.Can you feel him?In your moment of weakness?Can you feelHis handOn your shoulder?Guiding you?Keeping youClose toHim?He is hereRight nowWhen you can hardlyBreatheWhen the emptinessTries toEat youAliveWhen youAre lonelyWhen pain is all you feelGive it to HimHe already felt it allOn a verySpecialTreeAll thoseTearsAgo.He knows.He cares.He will takeYour painYour scarsYour shameYour woundsAll you have to doIs showYourWeakness.~ Stick 1-19-24Those Nights
SpoilerWeakness
WeaknessVulnerabilityI have learnedThat without weaknessI can neverBeStrong.I need to be vulnerableOr nothingFeelsReal.It is hard!There is a chanceThat you will get hurt.But which is worse?The numbness?Or the pain?You cannotHaveHealingWithoutPain.You cannotHaveStrengthWithoutWeakness.You cannotHaveJoyWithoutSadness.Look behind you.Look at the journey.Look how far we’ve come!He has been hereFor all of it.He has been guidingYouMeAllOfUsIn hisOwnSpecialWay.Think veryVeryHard.Open your heart.Can you feel him?In your moment of weakness?Can you feelHis handOn your shoulder?Guiding you?Keeping youClose toHim?He is hereRight nowWhen you can hardlyBreatheWhen the emptinessTries toEat youAliveWhen youAre lonelyWhen pain is all you feelGive it to HimHe already felt it allOn a verySpecialTreeAll thoseTearsAgo.He knows.He cares.He will takeYour painYour scarsYour shameYour woundsAll you have to doIs showYourWeakness.~ Stick 1-19-24In other news... I tried Toblerone for the first time the other day and it's really good!
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To the theatre, regarding magic:
Magic lives,
Within your walls.
And that magic happens
Because we’ve built it.
The magic is there while we perform, yes, but the moments it happens most are seen by none but the cast.
The magic is there after hours of rehearsal.
The magic is there when the tears shed backstage are dried as we enter.
The magic is there when lines oft forgotten are remembered in a moment of utter terror.
The magic is there after a single screamed word, when the audience dares not breathe.
The magic is there when an actor crumples to your floor and weeps for an audience to see.
The magic is there as fake blood oozes off shaking hands.
The magic is there in the condemning gaze of a bloody ghost.
You are filled with magic, and through you we learn witchcraft of our own.
Our spells are built from hours spent with people we never knew before.
And we the cast will cast them together,
In pictures,
And tight hugs,
And laughter,
And tears.
I live for magic,
And I find my magic in you.
I live to love,
And you let me be loved.
I live for pretense,
And there is none more beautiful than that I see on your stage.
So long I have ached
For the magic I now find.
And though today ought to be hopeless
And though we’re barely breathing
And though all that could be right is wrong,
In you I see magic.
And in the actors I see family.
And in their arms I am home.
And so,
Though we struggle,
I can smile.
And that,
Perhaps,
Is the truest magic there is.
To laugh at the dark, though there be no sign of light.
For within your walls,
I am not alone any longer.
Rue
SpoilerSorry I know I just posted an SU...
y'all theatre people give the most wonderful hugs, especially when they're covered in fake blood that looks real and everyone's laughing and for a moment, the world feels right and everything will be okay. Even though I'm not sleeping or working out or eating healthy or doing my homework. Even though the rest of the world is falling apart and our director (rightly) called us the most embarrassing cast he's ever worked with and we open in a week and half the leads aren't memorized...
Even though all that, I'm okay.
I have no explanation but God, and no words to voice my gratitude.
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I love theatre.
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To the theatre, regarding magic:
Magic lives,
Within your walls.
And that magic happens
Because we’ve built it.
The magic is there while we perform, yes, but the moments it happens most are seen by none but the cast.
The magic is there after hours of rehearsal.
The magic is there when the tears shed backstage are dried as we enter.
The magic is there when lines oft forgotten are remembered in a moment of utter terror.
The magic is there after a single screamed word, when the audience dares not breathe.
The magic is there when an actor crumples to your floor and weeps for an audience to see.
The magic is there as fake blood oozes off shaking hands.
The magic is there in the condemning gaze of a bloody ghost.
You are filled with magic, and through you we learn witchcraft of our own.
Our spells are built from hours spent with people we never knew before.
And we the cast will cast them together,
In pictures,
And tight hugs,
And laughter,
And tears.
I live for magic,
And I find my magic in you.
I live to love,
And you let me be loved.
I live for pretense,
And there is none more beautiful than that I see on your stage.
So long I have ached
For the magic I now find.
And though today ought to be hopeless
And though we’re barely breathing
And though all that could be right is wrong,
In you I see magic.
And in the actors I see family.
And in their arms I am home.
And so,
Though we struggle,
I can smile.
And that,
Perhaps,
Is the truest magic there is.
To laugh at the dark, though there be no sign of light.
For within your walls,
I am not alone any longer.
Rue
SpoilerSorry I know I just posted an SU...
y'all theatre people give the most wonderful hugs, especially when they're covered in fake blood that looks real and everyone's laughing and for a moment, the world feels right and everything will be okay. Even though I'm not sleeping or working out or eating healthy or doing my homework. Even though the rest of the world is falling apart and our director (rightly) called us the most embarrassing cast he's ever worked with and we open in a week and half the leads aren't memorized...
Even though all that, I'm okay.
I have no explanation but God, and no words to voice my gratitude.
...
I love theatre.
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Well...
I guess when you start letting the words out, they won't stop for a while...
I had a bit of a poetry night with @Just-A-Stick; Love you, mushroom girl
Safe
SpoilerSafe
Home
Blankets
Friends
Jesus
Safe
You won’t be ,
You think.
You can’t be.
You’re wrong.
You will be
It might be gradual
Slow
You might not notice a change at first
You might be driving home
You might realize your sweatshirt sleeve isn’t as chewed as normal
You might go to church
You might find out that worship doesn’t hurt as much as it used to
Safe
I can’t make you safe
I wish I could
But you and both know
There’s only one person who can do that
You know who
Safe
I wish I could help
Wrap you up in me and a blanket
Hold you
Tight
So you would feel
Safe
I can, one day
Not too far away
It won’t be just me either
It’ll be Love
It’ll be joy
Jesus
Safe
With you
With me
With him
Safe
Eternally.
It will be
SpoilerHard
Scary
Awful
Terrifying
It will be
Empty
Numb
Cracked
Painful
It will be
Fear inducing
Destructive seeming
Easy to break
It will be
That’s healing
That’s what he wants
It’s what I want
Fire
Hammers
Sifting
Burning
It will be
Tempering
Cooling
Refining
It will be
That’s what you are
That’s what you’ve become
It’s not easy
If it was, it would destroy the purpose
It’s not fun
If it was, it’d be pointless
It’s
What
Needs
To
Happen
And eventually
Held
Safe
Laughing
Crying
Emotions
Fleeting
Hold on
You can do it
You’re strong
Unbreakable
Daughter of Christ
Free
Strong
Been there
Done that
Fearless
Beautiful
Clean
You’ve done that too
You will be
You are
Perfectly
Imperfect
The way
God
Designed
You
Loved
SpoilerMaybe
Hard to believe
Sometimes
Hard to breathe
Always
Have to think
To find the words
Loved
Found it.
Breaths
SpoilerYou can do it
1
2
3
Count
The breaths
They help
They heal
They’re hard
It’s hard
To find breath
Sometimes
I can see
I’m trying to understand
1
2
3
I know
The world is ending
The pain
Has faded to numbness
A weight
On your heart
Breathing is adding to it
It’s annoying
Cumbersome
You wonder
Would it really be so bad
To just
Stop
I
Don’t
Know
Don’t think about it
Don’t
Give it
That kind of
Power
Mechanical
It can’t be that complicated
Maybe it is
But you
Can
Do
It
Please
Keep
Breathing
If I could
SpoilerThe things
I’d do
For you
If I could
Take your pain
Your fear
Put it on me
Instead of you
Your situation
Your circumstances
Your life
If I could
I would change it
You know this, right?
I would trade
My life
For yours
If
I
Only
Could
Wait.
Someone…
He already did that
…didn’t he?
Took the pain
The fear
The life
Died
For you
So
You
Could
Live
Not just you, either
Me
My family
Yours
“And what a sorry
Miserable
Waste
My life is
In light of what he did”
THAT
My friend
Is called
A lie
A voice
A whisper
A tremble
Worms it’s way in
Takes over the thoughts
Controls the mind
Don’t listen.
I would take
Those bullets for you
Hear those voices
If
I
Could
But
I
Don’t
Need
To
He
Already
Did.
Trust
SpoilerIt’s time
Don’t you think so?
Time to just
Wait
Open your arms
Let down your guards
Take off the mask
That covers your pain
Your feelings
Your fear
Your numbness
Give it up
Trust
What a funny word
A strange concept
After all that’s been done
Why would you want to trust?
How could anything
Ever
Be ok again?
I have to.
I have to keep going
My responsibilities…
The people I call friends…
They tell me they would crack without me
So I must
Keep going
No
Let
Go
Trust
Not in me
In Him
Yes, it’s hard
Painful
But
Try
That’s
All
We
Can really
Do
Wait
Through
The numbness
Wait
Trust
Life
SpoilerBroken
Shattered
Unfixable
Unwanted
Hopeless
These are the words
We tell ourselves
Day after day
Speaking into ourselves
Lies
But they’re real
To us
In those moments
We’re wounded
Raw scrapes
Cuts
Slashes
Tearing into our souls
Ripping apart the fragile walls we’ve built
Fake smiles
Everything’s fine
Normal
But then we’re crying on the floor of our rooms
Because it’s not fine
It might be normal at this point
But it’s not fine
These wounds
Go deeper
They don’t heal
They become scars
But they don’t heal
They break us from the inside
People say
Scars are a testament
To strength
But hearts can break
And we can pretend
They’re healed
That they don’t need attention
We can ignore them
Don’t face them
Curled up in winter
The tears are gone now
We’re too exhausted to cry
Because we stopped feeling a long time ago
We’re numb
It’s better like that
We can’t feel pain
The pain
Of that person we lost
Of that hope that was crushed
On our knees
Tearing ourselves apart
It’s in these moments
We look up
Desperate
And see open arms
Healing
A strange word
A contradiction at the beginning
An anomaly
Becoming less foreign
Seeming like a possibility
Wounds healing for real
Becoming healthy scars
Permanent
But strong
We can see the same ones
Etched into the people around us
Written in their eyes
Engraved into their actions
Stapled to their hearts
And we remember
Remember how it felt
No hope
Darkness
Afraid
Nowhere to go
When we remember
We reach over
And we take their hand
The person looks up
As we did
And they see the same open arms
They’re crying
We’re crying
We’re shivering
We’re breaking all over again
For this person
We’re praying
We’re loving
We’re living
That’s life
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Y’all I haven’t written anything in forever…
But I can safely say this is probably relatable to someone
love y’all
Understand
Spoiler
You don’t know, right?
You can’t see?
Good
I wouldn’t want you to
Even if
You had the capacity
The brain space
To understand
I won’t bother you
With my thoughts
Just tell me
I’ll know
I’ll understand
Don’t dance around it
That’s my job
Just tell me
“I don’t like your personality”
“I’m closer to my other friends”
“You’re just the comedic relief”
“I talk to her about this stuff”
“You’re the person I laugh with”
“I go to you to be funny”
“I wouldn’t,
Like,
Just
Talk
To you
You
Wouldn’t
Understand”
It’s fine
I don’t care
I’ll live
And while I’m at it
I know about the other one of me
“I can’t stand her for too long”
“She’s great…but she’s too young”
“She’s so unhinged”
“Oh, of course I love her, but, like…”
“She pisses me off”
“I can’t talk to her”
“Oh! Both of you”
“You
Don’t
Understand”
I’m not toxic
Or stupid
I know
When I’m not wanted
So, you!
Want to come over next time?
We can laugh
We can write
Draw
Sing
We have these
In common
Along with
Being
The
Comedic
Relief
We
Understand
Call me
Next time
We can FaceTime
Work on stories
Only you and me
Know about
This
We
Share something
An
Exclusion
But it’s for the best
It’s ok
I’m fine
I understand.
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Here are all the poems I wrote during my exile.
Homeless
SpoilerHomeless
I see it.Their blank, hopeless staresThe way they beg for anythingI was onceSo hopelessLife was bleak.I worked hardTo keep myself breathingI had my familyTo support me.Who do they have?No one.We turn a blind eyeOn their sufferingAnd painTheir problemsWe try not to see.But why?Are they not people too?What’s the difference?A few dollarsA roof over our headsHopeThat’s the real difference.We know whereOur next meal is coming fromThey do not.ButWe can help themFind themselvesPick themselves upGet back on their feetWe can help them to standAgain~ Stick 1-13-24Suicidal
SpoilerSuicidal
The thoughtsLurkingAlways thereReady toSnatch me awayBreak me downSteal my soulMy breathMy lifeThere is no escapeThey follow meDown theTorturedTwistedPathwaysIn my headThey hideBut alwaysResurfaceAnd try againThey always try againThis is meThis is howIt feelsTo beSuicidalI can’t controlMy thoughtsMy urgesThe thingsThat I thinkNeed to happen“Take the pills”They whisper to meI hear the voices“Find the knife”I cannot escape“The rope! Yes!Use the rope!”I am drowningI can’t escape“Drowning? Yes! D r o w n.Escape? No. Never.”If I dieWill my voicesLeave me in peace?“Peace? When have we ever had that?”I don’t know“We never had it. It’s gone, out of reach to us.”But… no. We can find peace!“THE CAR! JUMP IN FRONT!NOW!”No!“You can’t face the world!Look at you!Who wants to see that?Good… hide under the blanketsNo air.Press them against your face…Good…. Good girl…”No! I need to stay!“Stay for who? No one wants to see you. Back under the blankets. NOW!”I believe the voicesI don’t want toButI doThey are taking overMy entireLife“There is no life for you. End it now.”I am“Messed up? Unloved? Stupid? Dis-functional? Outcast? Alone? Unwanted? Better off dead.”Suicidal~ Stick 1-12-24Thoughts
SpoilerThoughts
My mindIt racesAs fastAs it canIt jumps fromTopic toTopicBut only stays one oneThe thought,Always somewhere in my head“Kill yourself, you’re better off dead.”I try not to entertain this fantasyThat I have,But it is taking over.My broken brain thinksDeep downThat everything is betterIf we die.What is there to live for?The Shadow cares about nothing.These thoughtsWill one dayBe the death of me.Welcome to the funeral.She was killedByHerOwnThoughts.~ Stick 1-17-24Love
SpoilerLove
We were created to loveAnd yet… love causes so muchPain.I almost welcome the pain.But I don’t always want the love.Love is a fickle emotion. People say I’m loved, but I can’t believe them, for I do not feel.All I can feel is my heart, breaking inside me, the pain consuming my soul.Let the pain come.The Shadow can stand it.Shut out the love.You don’t deserve it.You can survive in your ownPitifulWorldOfPain.~ Stick 1-17-24Shadow
SpoilerShadow
I am a shadowOf who I once was.A lonely, dark shadow.A shadow andA shellI can never be filedLike I used to beNever againI like being the ShadowI drift through my lifeNever caringShadows cannot be hurtFor they are nothingI am nothingAnd yetI still hurtIf I just become the shadowJust a bit moreI won’t be hurt anymoreI can sink andDrown aloneDrownAloneInMyShadow~ Stick 1-17-24Frightened
SpoilerFrightened
Every soundEvery shadowEvery yellEvery clapEvery laughEvery screamThe noiseThe whispersIn my earsTelling meTo do thingsThe shadowsThat only ICan seeThat lurk in theCornersOf my mindThe peopleWho yellWho screamWho make the noisesWho fightAnd get hurtWho sometimesBecome theShadowsI am so frightenedI cannot breatheMy panicForces the airFrom my bodyI’m shakingYet I feel like ICan’t moveI am weakI get scaredI am nothingButA small childWho isFrightened~ Stick 1-17-14Snowflake
SpoilerSnowflake
Tumbling,Twisting,Falling from the sky.The snowflakesHit the groundAnd pileInto drifts.Fleecy,Delicate,Never alone,They danceThrough the airTo their ownSong.The song of falling snow.The lonely soundOf the winterWindSighing through the treesAccompanying thesong of falling snow.The cold melodyPlays across theFrigidWinter night.The snowflakeIs but aTiny partOf theSymphony.And yet, without it,There would beNoMusic.~ Stick 1-16-24Heartbreak
SpoilerHeartbreak
I miss my friendsI’m lonelyI want to be heldI want to have my tearsWiped awayThe breaking of a heartCan happen anytimeIt can be goodOr it can be badGod can mend our heartsHe can fix our scarsHe can piece our livestogether againWe just have toFling ourselvesOur trust and entireBeingInto his strong armsOnly He can fixMy-OurHeartbreak-Stick 1-15-24Story
SpoilerStory
I wish my lifeWas a story.I could make aCharacterTo be me.I could fix her,Make her perfect,Happy, loved,Wanted.I wonder…How much would I add?What would I take away?What would she be like?Who are her friends?Who is her family?What does she like to do?Would she beHappy?Would she feel loved?Does she care about others?Does she love herself?Does sheBear the scars thatI do?Does her mind work?Is she insane to?Is she worse off than me?Does she want to die?Is she lonely?Is sheSomewhere inside me?TrappedBy the walls aroundMy heart?Is she alone?Did she everFind love?Is she watching meFail my life?From somewhere outside?Is she apart of me?Is she upset at meFor ruining our life?For making the decisions we did?For hearing the voices?The voices that haunt us?What is wrong with her?Does she feel like I do?Like a failure?Or unworthy?Can she write better than me?Does she have more friends?Does she love herself?Is she okay, wherever she is?Is she a mess?Does she hear voices?Does she talk to herself?Do people think she’s crazy?Does she think she’s crazy?I think I’m crazy.Does she try to hide?Her feelings and emotions?Her scars…All the bad things-Or, are there none in her life?Is she happy, wherever she is?Does she know thatIt’s all a story?I wishI could beHerAnd living in aStory.- Stick 1-16-24Anyways... Let me know what you think, and... yeah, I'm back, guys!
I'm watching the Greatest Showman just for fun, (its not as good as I remember)
and I'm reading a very interesting book on Endovascular Neurosurgery, so that's cool
I think what I missed most, is my friend, this guy ->
but, I CANT WAIT TO RP WITH EVERYBODY!!!
thanks for reading and caring,
Love,
Stick
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I know you can't respond yet but hiiiiiiiiii :))
Love you sis
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Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
I know you can't respond yet but hiiiiiiiiii :))
Love you sis
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yyyyyyyeahh..
... I'm not gonna go through all of these..
did anything important happen since last update, though?
also, hi, guys!
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yyyyyyyeahh..
... I'm not gonna go through all of these..
did anything important happen since last update, though?
also, hi, guys!
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yyyyyyyeahh..
... I'm not gonna go through all of these..
did anything important happen since last update, though?
also, hi, guys!
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So I was feeling sick this morning
so my mom told me to drink a bunch of water and go back to bed
AND I SLEPT FOR FOUR HOURS
aka until 11 AM
i feel amazing
moral of the story: drink water and get better sleep!
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The road of Life
By my brother on a mission.
We all walk through the road of life
With twists and turns and hidden strife
With many friends I took my travel
Ready to see my life unravel
On that broad road we walked in laughter
Never thinking what came after
In this my sandal caught a stone
I tripped and fell and broke my bone
I couldn't move on without others
So I looked up to my brothers
And yet their gaze was turned aside
They left me there and never tried
And so I lay and looked around
And then saw others on the ground
Begging groups to give them care
Yet none of them would meet their stare
But know I aaw them and I vowed
That is somehow i were allowed
To start my journey up again
I would help up all the men
And as the words ran through my mind
A man in white so good and kind
Called out to me, my name in full
He seemed to energize my soul
He said stand up and follow me
And help those others to be free
Believing, hoping it was true
I stood again on legs made new
And followed then with that good man
Raising others, letting them stand
And so we followed this man in white
Basking in his healing light
And he turned from that broad road
To a path on which our progress slowed
This was steep and rough and tall
And men below began to call
You fool, come down here, it is smooth
Though for me I made no move
Others left this mannof light
And went back off in to the night
Yet when we reached that final place
We met with God and felt his grace
And others down below who scourned
Now looked up and cried and mourned
This man, who's called the son of God
Who guided us back like a rod
He spoke and said, they made their choice
Come now with me, let us rejoice
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Anybody else really want a fully sized golden doodle?