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  1. Above, stars like twinkling candles shine, defiant, shine the candles, twinkling like stars above.
  2. For all you faithful followers who read the things I write, I'd love for you to check out my long random thing on The Way of Kings. 

    How many of you are rereading SA before #5 comes out this december?

     

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      I…probably will.

      I should.

      I shall.

  3. "How is it you can you always smile?" I've been to many Q&A-type events that Brandon Sanderson has answered questions at, and after 3 years of going to Dragonsteel I think it's interesting that I've heard this same question (or some variation of it) every year. "How do you write (depression/anxiety/mental illness) so well?" I've honestly wondered this many times too. Sanderson's answers vary, from talking about the importance of talking to people, to how a character needs to remain active, but as a writer myself I always hoped there was more of a secret to doing such a good job. Something I could emulate. But unfortunately there's no substitute for hard work. Although I think the works of Sanderson provide their own answer to that question, and that answer has less to do with Sanderson as a writer and more to do with all of us as humans. For those of you who aren't familiar with my essays I'm sure this post will be a little weird, because I don't often see in depth literary analyses on this forum, especially on the Stormlight Archive threads. Many of you who hang out on these threads hardly ever post on any of the other threads, so you might not know me at all. These threads are dedicated more to theories and arguments. However, as much as I like being original I'm not the first one to post this type of literary analysis. I found a thread made by @Spinner16 (who's been inactive for a few years unfortunately) titled "Themes in the Stormlight Archive" and I loved reading through that. (Go check it out and give them some rep if you're interested.) The point he made was the same conclusion I and many other readers have come to. The main theme (Or, to prevent argument, A main theme) of The Way of Kings is about the worth of a soul. More specifically, "The worth of a soul is priceless." I've thought about that theme a lot, but like any well-developed theme there are many facets of it to be explored. That idea of worth is so perfectly encapsulated in the prologue, which has my second favorite chapter title in the whole book, and there are lots of good ones. (Ask me sometime and I'll give you a list.) "Of Most Worth." In that incredibly creepy epilogue, Hoid asks a question that matters a lot to this book. What do men value the most? Hoid gives a variety of answers, before proposing the conclusion that humans most value novelty. Ideas which are new. Art that is new. but while Hoid quickly is able to tell us what we value most, he dodges the much more important question. What is of most worth? The difference between those two questions is at once both tiny and as vast as the world itself. And so that bigger question is left up to us. What is the worth of a soul? What is the worth of a piece of art? What is the worth of a story? Is the imitation of a piece of art intrinsically less valuable just because it's an imitation? And lately a question I've been asking, "what is the worth of a truth?" A theory I've had in the past is that a single truth is priceless, while a lie is completely valueless. That's a neat way of looking at things. Neat, oversimplified, and definitely too extreme. I'm sure after reading a blanket statement like that you can immediately see the problems. "Can the truth about what I had for breakfast this morning really be priceless?" I think it's not completely untrue though, even if it is a little extreme. Some truths really are priceless. Some people might cite religious truths, and I also cite personal ones. Finding out my best friend isn't as happy as he pretends to be. Finding out my coworker is a recovering drug addict, who turned his life around to be worthy to marry the girl he loves. Finding out that I am loved. Some truths are priceless, and when you find one it's easy to believe the first part of the statement. So what if it's the second part of the statement that's untrue. Are there cases where a lie is valuable? Stories come to mind. There are lots of jokes about authors and politicians both being professionally employed liars, and it's definitely worth considering what actually counts as a lie. Is a fictional story a lie? I think it's fair to assume most people wouldn't think so, but that begs a lot of questions about where to draw the line, and those aren't questions I want to get into in this essay. But before I tell you why this is relevant, I think we should return to the quote that I began this essay with. A question Kaladin asks his brother, Tien. How is it that you can always smile? It's dreadful outside, your master treats you like crem, and your family is slowly being strangled by the city lord. And yet you smile. How, Tien? What is the worth of something as simple as a smile? It's a question I can answer easily. On a rough day when everything feels heavy, the beautiful smile of someone I love can mean the world. To me? A smile is priceless. How can something so simple be so valuable? Maybe because I know how much strength it takes to smile. I have been smiling for years, because that's what people expect. I love what people see, I love pretending to be happy. But at the same time... I hate that my smile is fake. I hate that it looks so real, I hate that I can look in the bathroom mirror after five minutes of crying, and even I can't detect a crack in that perfect smile. No wonder nobody can see me. But sometimes... I'm really tired of smiling. My strength runs out and I ask myself, "How is it that you always smile? Your friend is dead, you've been abandoned again and again, and your family barely even cares that you exist. And yet you smile." I think Kaladin knew the answer to his own question as well as I know the answer to mine. How do you smile, Tien? And why is it that you make me want to smile too? Tien's smile —To Kaladin— is priceless. Because it gives him the strength to smile too. With Tien's death, Kaladin decides he's going to smile too. Not because it's easy, but because there's people who need that smile. "Kaladin smiled at him. A forced smile. Sometimes that was all one could offer." Kaladin gives Bridge Four the gift of smiles, of laughter. But isn't it all a lie? In chapter 30 Kaladin even acknowledges this. "He gave Skar an encouraging smile. A lie. But an important one." I wonder if Tien's smile was always real. He certainly doesn't smile forever. In the end, after being recruited to the military, his strength finally fails. His smile finally wavers. Kaladin finds it physically painful to see that smile falter. "Tien should smile. That was who he was." But maybe Tien's sacrifice was making that smile look easy, so that other people could smile with him. Everybody is more than a smile. But we see a similar reaction when Kaladin first meets Lopen. "This man obviously didn't understand what awaited him as a bridgeman. No person would smile if they understood that." Kaladin doesn't believe that anyone could smile, because he can't. But sometimes even people who are so deeply sad can find the strength to smile. And sometimes we take it for granted. Most days my smile is fake. Sometimes I feel guilty for showing people something that isn't real. But nobody should ever feel guilty for trying to lift others up. A fake smile meant only to hide or deceive might be valueless, but a smile meant to inspire? It may be a lie, but it's an important one. It takes strength to cry too, and I don't devalue displays of real emotion, but I do want to explain why I keep smiling. Because I know when someone else smiles it makes it easier for me. And I believe my smiles have the same effect. How does Brandon Sanderson do such a great job writing people? Whether it's mental illness, depression, grief, or just emotion at all, Sanderson can convey it beautifully. And he can do it because writing is his fake smile. The stories may not be real, but he writes them to inspire others. He writes them to give people permission to feel those real emotions. Depression. Love. Grief. Fear. He shows those for what they are, how they can be terrible and how they can be beautiful. Because he wants us to be able to feel human without being ashamed of it. You want to know what else is amazing? Those fake smiles don't stay fake forever. Kaladin discovers this in chapter 57. "He smiled. Odd that he could still do that." I figured it out too. And just like the smiles, good writing is more than a valuable lie. In us, eventually writing becomes real. It inspires us and changes us. Maybe that's why I wanted to write this essay in the first place. I want to plead with all of you to keep smiling. Even if it feels fake. Even if it feels forced. Even if you don't see who it's changing. I love your smiles. I can sometimes tell you're smiling even though I might never see any of you in real life. And that is worth more than you know. I know that was long, I hope you'll forgive me for not having any creative theories or hot takes, and if you have any thoughts feel free to share them. On this thread I'll just briefly note that I'm not looking for criticism or argument, these words are just my opinions, and they're very precious to me. Thank you for taking the time to read the ramblings of a smiling author, I love you all.
  4. Something needs to change.

    Why are so many teenage boys absolute idiots? It frustrates me so much, because I feel like I've spent years advocating for men, saying the idiots are in the minority, and society should give men a little more benefit of the doubt. I still think there's not a lot that's more hurtful to anyone than walking up to them and telling them their life is easy. I've had those words said to me over and over again. 

    You're a guy, you have no idea what it even means to have a hard life.

    That's not true. I know that. But people who don't know me still insist I have no pain tolerance, and no understanding. 

    But then... Then I see a bunch of teenage idiots hurt the girl I love, and I start to think about how many of my friends would have done something to stop it, if in that group of teenagers who were too arrogant to even realize how possessive and awful they were being. Maybe one or two of my friends would have stopped it. But guys are really good at working as a group. It's really hard to be the odd one out. And so because of how the world works, there are so many girls that suffer because of guys, and that makes me so angry. Something needs to change.

    I think groups of people need to hold themselves accountable, because there's so much loss of trust between groups. And so I feel like I need to hold other guys accountable, and say again: Something needs to change. I don't know what that looks like, I'm sure when I'm less tired and have more time I'll write something more cohesive, but for now I just want to rant a little. And for you guys, my advice is simple. There's a lot I could say, like always assume a girl doesn't want to touch you unless she says otherwise instead of assuming a girl does want to touch you until she says otherwise, and other rules like that, but I think the deep-rooted problem comes from arrogance, and failure to see who we all really are. That goes for a lot of women too, but I don't know that it's my place to get into that right now. Somehow, you have to change your mindset so that women are people with stories, emotions, and agency. They are not achievements to collect. Your responsibility to be careful is directly tied to your ability to cause harm. That gives all of us a great deal of responsibility, which is why I felt like I needed to write this. I've made mistakes too, and right now I'm holding myself accountable. Let's change together.

  5. Brand is Iridium Point Germany (according to the tip?) and because pen and ink were both gifts I'm not positive of brand otherwise. The cartridge loads by breaking the end of it by stabbing it on to the end of a thingy. Ugh, I'm too new to any of this to understand the terminology. Ink stops in the middle of a word, pretty randomly throughout my writing. Hopefully that's enough information?
  6. Finally got a fountain pen (On Easter Sunday a few months ago) so now I'm here to join y'all. I freaking love these pens. My issue is sometimes they stop writing for a minute, like the ink got clogged or something. Is this normal? Never thought I'd need a fancy pen until I got one, I absolutely love it.
  7. On that subject... Fountain Pens. Writing letters while rain hits my window. Sealing wax. My custom wax stamp.
  8. Hey everybody. The birds are chirping, and the airplanes are also chirping, and if that's not a sign of the apocalypse I don't know what is! That's right, for the first time in at least 6 months, it's the moment you've all been waiting for. Today is very special, because I'm going to answer a total of 3 questions. The first is quite simple. No. I don't like to play ping pong. Ping pong is not a child's game, you simpleton! It's not something to be played! It's a competitive sport. (1) I compete at ping pong. And I win. Usually. (2) On to the second question. It's time for some hard core math. First lets list some possible world-ending disasters. To keep it simple, we'll only list five of the most deadly. (3) 1. Asteroids 2. Solar Flares 3. Very Big Volcano 4. Time Travelers 5. Spontaneous Combustion Now we have to calculate the most probable time for each of them to end the world, by setting time [T] to zero [0] and then we'll take the average of all five to figure out how many years until we have to be worried. Let's begin. According to BBC a large asteroid will only hit earth once about every 100 million years. (4) I encourage you to follow the citation link and check their math, but for now we'll assume they're correct. The last world destroying asteroid was the one that killed the dinosaurs, which hit about 66 million years ago. (5) That means for #1, T = ~34,000,000 years Now, some silly scientists believe there IS no probability of a solar flare destroying earth, (6) but I feel like they're just saying that. I saw the northern lights a few nights ago, that crap is crazy. And if it's crazy now, it'll only get crazier. The largest recorded solar flare was in 1972 (6) and I'd bet there was a good chance of that destroying us even, and that was 52 years ago (7) time [T] for #2 equals -52 A very big volcano may also destroy the earth, but scientists seem to agree that for the time being that's unlikely. The chances of that are about 1 in 730,000. So statistically it will take 730,000 more days, or 1995 years give or take. So time for number 3 equals 1995. (9) Time travelers are equally likely to destroy us every day through all time, so the negatives and positives cancel out to create T=0 Spontaneous combustion is most likely to destroy the earth sometime this year, (10) so for that we'll say T = 1 Okay so now we have T(1) = ~34,000,000 T(2) = -52 T(3) = 1,995 T(4) = 0 T(5) = 1 So now we do [T(1)+T(2)+T(3)+T(4)+T(5)]/5 That gives us probably about 6800388.8 years to live. (11) I wish I had better news. Do you guys want some real life advice for your wisdom? Maybe I'll give you some serious advice after all that. I'll put it in a spoiler tag though, so you know you've been warned. Citations: Thanks you for reading, but just know I'm expecting cheers of joy when y'all see I posted this.
  9. Numberless...

    Like stars in the sky

    The lights of the city shine

    A thousand stories I'll never know

    There are too many for human minds to ever see

    I'm alone.

     

    Lights flash red

    Like scars on my arm

    Like panic inside my chest

    It's distinct against white city lights

    A story I don't know, I cry anyway.

    Ambulance.

     

    True stories

    Forever we hide

    Smiles we fake, tears we smother

    When will we see each other clearly?

    Instead of lights we see a twink'ling city

    and never think about the ones whose stories are lost.

    My story. 

  10. Dear... Hypothetical.

    I wish I still cared, about... well anything. I used to love this forum, although maybe it was just my need for validation from people who don't know me well enough to reject me. 

    I used to love writing, books, speeches, essays... letters. And now I can barely even type. 

    I broke 5 in my last mile race, which just a year ago would have made me so happy, and now I barely care. 

    Now there's only one thing I care about, but eventually I know I'll lose her too. 

    If I was sad, or stressed, I'd be okay, because I would care. I know how that feels. But this apathy is terrifying.

     

    I've wanted to ask the few followers who still read these, what's the point? What's the point of these status updates, of these conversations, of these games and five-paragraph theories. What's the point of having friends here? We all spend our nights telling ourselves stories about each other, who the others might be in relation to us. But the truth is, we all live in our own universe. Completely isolated. All this beauty might as well be fake, right? Even this status update looks show-offy on a page, because these words are meant to be spoken. And not to just anyone, but to someone who loves me, cares about me, or even just knows me. So why am I writing to you? Dear, Hypothetical reader? Because it's easy. It's easy to complain to one or two people I'll never meet. It's easier to make you feel my burden, because nobody 'real' deserves to carry it. Neither do you, really. But you won't. Because I'm one name, one profile, and one status update among thousands.

    I've been gone for weeks, and I come back to see I got four reputation points. And... that made me way happier than it should have. The happiness immediately turned into guilt when I realized how much weight I put in that online number, that should be meaningless. I'm addicted to the feeling that someone cares. And so I become more preformative, I start saying things to get reputation instead of saying them to make this space happier. It's all so fake. You're all so hypothetical. 

    Even this. I want those replies, those points, that feeling that someone is watching. But it'll never be enough. So please, just this once, don't love this update. I need this to be for something more than reputation, and that's the only way to prove this letter is different. 

    What's the point? I don't deserve to be remembered, but I just want to stop feeling alone. I turn here to this fictional, preformative profile, because reality isn't enough for me. What's the point of staying in either reality? We're all alone. And I don't deserve to be here. You don't want to know... me. 

    Thank you for making me feel real.

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      I think…being addicted to being cared about is like being addicted to eating. Or sleeping. Too much of it will certainly hurt, but you need it to survive. Maybe in a different way, but it is human to need to be loved. 

      And…I can’t promise answers, or explain away the loneliness, but I think we turn here because it’s easier. It’s easier to see a like and tell ourselves it means we matter. It’s easier to interact without obligation. It’s easier than in the real world. 

      And while I don’t know much else, I do know that no matter what else happens with ‘real’ people or ‘hypothetical’ people or anything at all, there is a God who loves you. Who won’t forget you. Who cares for you and can help you care, if you turn to Him. I know religion is laughable to a lot of people, but…I believe it. And it helps.

    2. Slowswift

      Slowswift

      Well, that's terrifyingly relatable. 

  11. In the rain, I don't walk alone

    It matters not if I'm far from home

    Because I can't see

    and do not know

    In the greyness of the storm.

     

    In the mist

    or in the fog

    the whole world fades

    and I just jog.

     

    When rain clouds smother

    what I can see

    then I'm not alone, 

    because next to me

    Are a hundred spirits,

    a hundred eyes

    Guiding me

    watching me

    through the pines.

     

    When the sun shines bright I cannot hide

    I can be seen by passers by

     

    I can be seen

    but not quite seen...

    but they can tell I walk alone.

     

    But it's not just them, it's me who sees

    The vacant path, through empty trees.

    know the path, and can't get lost

    and I know I can't continue this walk.

     

    Because when the fog fades,

    and the illusion is gone

    it's just me who walks

    -so lonely- along.

     

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    2. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      :wub:

      Well…I felt it a lot, and it was very well written. You’ve got talent, dude <333

    3. Silver Phantom
    4. Just-A-Stick

      Just-A-Stick

      Wow...

      I absolutely love this!!

      Thank you for sharing!!

  12. There are good places and bad places to go for help when you need emotional support. 

    You're not wrong for feeling hurt, or broken, or useless, or lonely, or like a burden, but don't take my word for it. The internet is not where you should go for support because you won't leave feeling fulfilled like you would after talking to real people. 

    Go talk to someone, like I did. It's worth it so you can feel the way I do right now. Lifted, light, meaningful, and confident.

    It's worth it.

  13. Is it crazy how saying sentences backwards creates backwards sentences saying how crazy it is?
  14. Oh definitely, how could you tell?
  15. I finally finished another essay, if you have a minute please read it and let me know what you think. 

    In case any of you didn't know, I occasionally write essays about great stories that I feel like have changed my life for the better, and Spider-Man Across the Spider-Verse is one such story. I would love to hear if you have thoughts! And if you haven't, you're also welcome to check out my other two essays, link in the "About Me" or in my signature.

    Love you guys.

     

  16. "I don't know how to fix this." Let's do things differently this time. Like, so differently. Every good story starts with a question. It's a simple question really, but in recent years hollywood has done a terrible job of asking this one question. In fact it just might be the one thing that could save the hundreds of mediocre movies that are released and forgotten every year. It's a question I ask myself every time I start a story, and it's a question I keep asking myself until I finish it. It's the only thing that makes writing worth it. That question is: Why do I care? It always starts with the storyteller, asking himself "Why do I care about this story?" If you're an author --or even just a reader-- you may understand the type of commitment it takes to write a story, but a film like Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse is much harder to produce even than a book. So why did the creators decide to tell this story when they could have told any other. Why did they invest a hundred million dollars on these characters? But this question has two sides, and the other side of the question is on us, the viewers. Whether we like it or not, from the second a movie begins every viewer is unconsciously asking themselves the exact same question. "Why do I care?" Why should this fictional story matter to me? These are characters that don't exist, so why should I care what happens to them? Ultimately, that is the question that decides who likes a movie. Marvel movies have been suffering lately because nobody quite remembers why they should care. Marvel expects us to care about these characters because they had a cameo in a previous movie, or because they're related to characters we do love. They expect it's enough that we recognize the character's name, and they forget to give us any reason to care. And so many people don't. "Superhero fatigue" is getting worse all across the world as people get tired of seeing generic characters that they can't relate to, and seeing recycled plots that barely matter. And so for months I've sat down in movie theaters, asking myself why do I care? And the sad answer is... I don't. I no longer care about the MCU. I no longer care about the Star Wars universe. And my apathy comes from those writing the stories. If they knew why they were telling those stories, maybe they could convince me to care too. But I almost feel like Marvel barely cares about their stories anymore, only caring about their algorithm and their box-office numbers. And that is why Across the Spider-Verse surprised me so much. For the first time in a long time, I care. In fact, I care deeply. The characters in this beautiful movie are characters I'd follow forever. So what made this movie different? Why do I care so much, and relate so deeply to characters that won't ever exist in reality? Across The Spider-Verse starts differently from the very beginning, and the opening scene of the movie is only a hair's breadth away from perfect. We're introduced to a character we thought we knew. It turns out... We didn't. Gwen isn't the girl we thought she was. But this movie does something absolutely brilliant. It doesn't introduce us to Gwen by talking about her, the movie starts with her talking about someone else entirely. His name is Miles Morales. He was bitten by a radioactive spider. And... He's not the only one. That phrase, "He's not the only one," becomes a theme that follows every sentence Gwen uses to describe her best friend. But even at the very beginning of the movie she's telling his story, instead of her own. That's when the movie hooked me. Because I think we can all relate. Every day starts with the same question. I ask myself this question at the beginning of my day, and I keep asking myself until I get to the end. Why do I care? Why does it matter if I get out of bed, who would notice if I just lay here forever? Why should I go to school, or work, when it'd be so much easier to just give up? Every day the answer to that question is different, and some days we don't have an answer at all. Some days we don't even care enough to get out of bed, and I know I've felt the weight of my own mistakes, or inability to do the most simple things, and in my head I cry out I can't do this alone. Or like Gwen Stacy, at the end of the opening scene in Across the Spider-Verse, I find myself whispering I don't know how to fix this. I think that's what Across the Spider-Verse is really about. The first movie's theme was "anyone can wear the mask" but the sequel asks the question "why would you want to?" Being Spider-Man costs everything. So why is it worth it? What are you fighting for? Miguel O'Hara gives Gwen Stacy something to care about, tossing her a watch and muttering "Join the club." But even more importantly, he gives her something to believe in, because she can no longer believe in herself. That cause --the preservation of the multiverse-- is enough for Miguel. But... it's not enough for Miles. For some reason, he's different. He begins the movie by telling his story, and concluding with the statement sometimes I just wish I wasn't the only one. Miles is also searching for a reason to fight, for something to believe in, but he's not like the others. He doesn't find that in the spider society, or in the preservation of the multiverse. He finds it in his dad. And also in himself. This place isn't what I thought it was. [...] People keep telling me how my story is supposed to go. But nah, I'm gonna do my own thing. Gwen is too scared to tell her own story, so even at the beginning of the movie all she believes in is Miles. But Miles is different. At the climactic moment of the movie, Miles realizes who should be telling his story. And the strangest thing... others begin to follow him. My first time watching, I found it a little annoying how everyone around Miles was perfectly happy to forsake the fate of the multiverse to help him, but I think I understand now exactly what they were feeling. They were tired of telling their own tragic stories of failure. They were all thinking I don't know how to fix this. So it only took one person who was willing to stand anyway, to give them something to believe in. Suddenly they all found themselves believing that it was possible to change the cannon. For the first time ever, they started to hope they could write their own stories. I've wondered before how we can care so deeply about characters that aren't real. They shouldn't matter to us, but for some reason they do. I think Miles is the answer to that question. We care because characters like miles show us hope we don't have in ourselves. They give us something to believe in. They're another story we can tell when we're too scared to tell our own stories of failure over and over and over again. They make us believe that we can change the cannon, be someone different. Someone better. But... You can't tell someone else's story forever. You can't spend your life only believing in other people. And the best part of Across the Spider-Verse, is that even Gwen realizes that. At the end she says that she always wanted to join a band, but never found the right one. And so she made her own. Stories give us something to believe in when we feel like we can't believe in ourselves. But I want to tell you that you can believe in yourself. You write your story. I truly believe that. I know how it feels to fail over and over and over again. I know how it feels to not even care enough about your life to get out of bed. So if you can't believe in yourself yet, I'll just say that I believe in you too. And when I get frustrated trying to write my story, I'll believe in yours. It's been a while since I've posted an essay, and this is an essay I meant to finish a lot earlier, but for an essay about finding something to care about and believe in, I found I cared very little about it for the longest time. After seeing this movie for the fourth time, I finally feel like I was ready to write this. It's still a little all over the place compared to my other essays, but I hope you can tell that this is something that matters to me. And so, thank you. I love knowing you guys care about my thoughts. It inspires me every day. I know these are long, so thanks again for taking the time to read the ramblings of another absurdly busy author. I hope to hear your thoughts too!
  17. I'm an Ookla until December 23rd which isn't too bad actually.
  18. So you could say I missed a few status updates... I'm sure it looked like I just gave up. But nah, my work just... stalled. I've still gotten a lot done, just nowhere near as much as I would have liked to get done. Alas. I'll survive though. I stopped posting constant status updates for other reasons, which I'll maybe get into at the conclusion of NaNoWriMo.

    Anyway, you may have noticed the late name change. Do I have any idea what the whole "Ookla" thing is about? No.

    Am I going to let that stop me from conforming to online trends that are popular and perceived as cool by my peers, based on no evidence and without reason, despite name changing being a limited privilege? Heck no.

    There's a life lesson in here somewhere, but I refuse to learn it.

    Total W count: 27,462

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Ookla season is fun!! I think you made the right choice :)))

  19. I did it. Day 16 was split up a lot because I've been traveling, but at least I got it done. Hopefully I'll be able to do the same tomorrow. Only a quick update today, because I need sleep, but thank you guys for reading these.

    Tomorrow I'll also have to do lots of revision to these words, because I don't love lots of it. But hey, you gotta just keep moving forward.

    Today's W Count: 2157

    Total W Count: 24,358

  20. Day 15 done! Today officially marks the halfway point through november. I'm not halfway through my word count goal, but we'll ignore that for now.

    Things are going great basically, not that much needs to be said. I'll be back tomorrow with another update, we'll just hope and pray I can get the word count in, even though I'll be traveling for a cross country meet.

    Thanks for everything guys!

    Today's W Count: 2226

    Total W Count 22,201

  21. Day 14 complete. 

    Let's talk about my book. (Yeah, I know, It's probably unhealthy how much I love talking about myself.) So... these chapters are also pretty weak. I wish I could share the end of my book with you, but the beginnings are rough for me. I think I did a fair job of establishing plot, character, and setting, but overall I think I could have executed this a lot better. 

    The idea though, was mostly that I'm tired of the orphan who hates his life being recruited by secret organizations of wizards, and wondered what it'd be like if one of those generic secret organizations kidnapped a spoiled rich kid instead. They're showing him all these amazing things with magic and he's like "yeah, but I also kinda just wanna go home. Warm baths were nice."

    That's how I get my ideas. I see an overdone trope that annoys me, and I'm like, "That could be interesting if they just did the exact opposite...

    Anyway, I don't actually have lots to say, only that sometime next year after doing some revisions I will want proofreaders. (I was hoping to get this by dragonsteel, but like, I'm doing NaNoWriMo and not failing school instead.) Basically if you'd be interested in reading more of my story let me know and I'll put you on the list. I'll mail as many of you that want it a free hardcover copy of my book (signed for the memes) or digital files that can be sent to kindle or read as PDF documents (like Brandon Sanderson's secret projects.) The physical copies are fire though, and I know it's weird to give me your shipping address but to be fair it's not like you all haven't given your shipping address to other websites that your order stuff from, so I can't be that much less trustworthy then them. And if you want to meet me, I'll be at dragonsteel. Still, I need proofreaders, so I'll say this again at the end of the year, but if you're interested I want your help. I'll even credit you in the acknowledgments. Think how cool that will be once I'm rich and famous.

    Oh yeah, speaking of which, I'm going to dragonsteel. I will be wearing a blue suit (for the style) and you never know if a lemon shirt may also be present. Come say hi and be like "Hold up, you're a child!" It'll be funny I promise. I'm really excited. 

    Alrighty bye guys.

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    2. The Isochronism

      The Isochronism

      Yeah, you will. Short stories give you lots of practice too though on actually finishing stuff which is super helpful. I do recommend finishing something long one day though, because it gives you a huge confidence boost writing-wise.

    3. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Yeah, and I’d definitely love to. I think I will get there, it’ll just take time and work.

  22. It's kind of amazing how happy all the apostles are. I feel like they always leave this world with a smile, which is uncommon. It comes from them not having to fear what's beyond this world I guess, because they all have personal witnesses of Jesus Christ and his gospel. It's weird to think that president Oaks or Holland will be our next prophet. We have interesting times ahead for sure...
  23. I actually didn't want to stop writing today, I was having such a fun time. Things are looking good for this story, although it's obviously far from a final draft. But it's a draft, and that's what matters.

    I had a few people ask me about my book's total word count, and I'm proud to say that I just crossed 71,000, which is really good. And if I'm counting all my projects, I've written somewhere over 205,000 words which is just crazy to think about. I started this book May 5th technically, and I hoped to finish it over the summer, but I'm glad it's looking like it'll be done by the end of the year. I'm really excited for this one. But then again, I always am. 

    Thanks so much for following my progress, you guys are amazing. You keep me motivated, and I love seeing your comments even if I don't reply to them (which I do try to do, but often fail.) 

    Tomorrow maybe I'll talk about the first few chapters I posted here a few days ago, but as always I love to hear your thoughts before I give mine. At this point I realize my book is very clearly an early draft, so don't worry about offending me. :D 

    I'm looking forward to the time I have to sleep tonight.

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    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Ooh yay!! I'm looking forward to sleeping tonight too :) 

  24. NaNoWriMo day 12 Status: I'm still here. I haven't given up yet.

    I love how my story is coming along. Yes I'm a little slower than I hoped to be, but that's never been a problem in the past. If you wait until the last minute, it only takes a minute. I have a feeling I'll be able to catch up when I need to.

    Also I meant to say this when I was talking about tragic love songs, but I have a few recommendations if any of you need music recommendations. First of all the new beatles song "Now and Then" is amazing.  I know it technically was released with AI software fixing corrupted files or something (not a story I did much research on, so please correct me if you know how it worked, because it sounds really interesting) but I love that freaking song. Also, the love theme from St. Elmo's Fire is amazing, please go listen. And my favorite song of all time is of course "Ghosts (how can I move on)" by muse. Then "Open Arms" by journey is also amazing if you like less tragic love songs. But that's just what I've been listening to lately while I write. (and a bunch of other songs that I wish I had time to mention)  

    Also I ran another half marathon yesterday so that was fun. I know it's a pretty regular occurrence for me, but I'm still impressed with myself. 

    That's all I've got for today's SU, see you guys tomorrow.

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    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Nice job on all of that, especially the half marathon!! I don't understand how people can run, I would take biking 100 miles over running 3 any day. Running 13 sounds...wow.

    2. The Isochronism

      The Isochronism

      Thanks so much guys!

  25. So first of all, I know I haven't hit you with a status update in a few days, and that's partly because I was super busy, partly because I needed a break, and partly because I remembered why I love writing. 

    Sometimes, under the weight of self-imposed deadlines, unrealistic goals, and forced momentum, it's easy to forget that I'm not writing to hit a deadline. I'm not writing so I get 65,000 words in november, or so that I can say I wrote more than Brandon Sanderson. I'm writing because I genuinely, unironically love it. I don't love every second of it, but I love the satisfaction of completion, and I love thinking and sitting here at my desk, decorated with postcards from all around the cosmere, creating something new.

    I took a breather, because I felt like I wasn't writing for the reasons that I want to be writing. I create because it's what I love to do. If you aspiring authors want some advice from an idiot, I'd just say this: Writing is amazing, but you shouldn't be writing so that you have a book, you should be writing so you can become a writer. That is your final goal, the book is just how you get there. If you burn out, get hyper focused on the perfection of one book, or get discouraged when you can't write the book you imagined, you'll just be hindering your progress as an author.

    As a reward for those of you who've followed me for this long, you'll find the first three chapters of my book below. I'll give you guys a few days to read them before posting my thoughts, because your lives are busy, but I'd love to hear what you think. (Formating note: pasting text removes all formatting like italics, so I went through and italicized a bunch of stuff, but I probably missed a bunch of stuff too so I apologize.)

    Spoiler

    Chapter One

    Laeho sat in his luxurious bed, still dressed in his white bedclothes, and turned the letter over in his hands. It was plain, and unornamented. On the back, in neat handwriting, it said:

    To: Areon Ebar. From: Shale.

    They were the only words written on the white envelope. He’d already tried holding it up to the light but he couldn’t see the note inside. The only thing he was sure of was that the note was addressed to his younger brother, Areon. He couldn’t remember who Shale was, but he assumed she was one of his brother’s friends. Laeho was itching to break its seal before his brother returned. 

    Areon was gone from the mansion, and Laeho could guess where he was. He was probably on the streets again, dressed as a beggar and experiencing life from the perspective of “regular” people. Laeho still didn’t understand why Areon loved to do that so much.

    “Laeho?” someone called. 

    Laeho jumped and shoved the letter under his pillow. He couldn’t let Areon couldn’t see that he’d taken it; Areon wouldn’t understand. I’m going to give it back, Laeho thought. I’m just looking at it. There’s no harm done.

    The heavy wooden door creaked open, and Areon poked his head in. He looked terrible, his face caked in mud, and his beggar clothes torn and rumpled.

    “Who are you?” Laeho asked. “And what are you doing in my house? You realize this mansion belongs to the Ebar family, right? We control more than a quarter of the king’s armada, so you clearly chose the wrong house to rob.”

    Areon glanced down at himself and rolled his eyes. He pushed open the door wider then walked in and sat on Laeho’s rug. The mud on his clothes would probably make the rug dirty, but Laeho tried not to worry about it. He was sure someone would clean it, as they always did. 

    “I need to talk to you, Laeho,” Areon said. 

    Laeho smiled a fake smile, trying not to think about the letter under his pillow. “Oh, Areon? That’s you? I didn’t recognize you beneath your beggar costume. What do you need?”

    “I need you to listen,” Areon said, sounding a bit exasperated. “I’ve told you before about the disappearances, but I think it’s getting worse.”

    Laeho looked away, blushing. “I… I don’t remember.” 

    Areon put out his hand. “That’s fine. I just need you to listen. As far as I can tell, orphans and beggars have been going missing for at least months, but it could be much longer. This could have been happening for years, but we never noticed because it was always people without families, too unimportant for anyone like our family to notice. I’m getting close. But I think this is bigger than a gang I didn’t know about, or a kidnapper.”

    Laeho pursed his lips. “Have you taken this to Father?”

    “Of course I took it to Father,” Areon snapped. “He said it wasn’t our problem.”

    “That’s because it’s not our problem. We’re not kings! We just decide when to go to war! We’re a powerful family, but we aren’t responsible for protecting this peninsula from anything other than the eastern islands.”

    Areon threw his hands up. “Well, how in the name of Tare are we supposed to do that? If any of the eastern islands attack us, we won’t stand a chance, let alone all of them!” Areon was yelling now.

    “Please lower your voice,” Laeho said. “We’re not arguing about the armada right now. Areon, you’re not responsible for single-handedly saving this kingdom. You’re just a kid—”

    “I’m one year younger than you,” Areon snapped.

    “Fine,” Laeho said. “You’re not a kid, but this still isn’t your responsibility. Let it go.”

    Areon stood suddenly. “That’s pretty easy for you, but not all of us have the luxury of being able to forget.”

    Laeho’s face turned red. The comment cut deep, and Areon immediately looked ashamed.

    Areon turned away. “My friend vanished yesterday. Her brother was an Obsidian Sentinel, and he came for me, because he thought I would know where she was. He said she sent me a letter, telling me where she was, which isn’t even true.”

    Laeho felt his face break out in a cold sweat, and he was glad Areon was turned away, and couldn’t see his face. Laeho was terrible at lying, even by omission. 

    “This is about a girl?” he teased, trying to keep his tone light.

    “I never said it was a girl,” Areon grumbled. 

    Laeho smiled slightly. “That’s exactly how I knew,” he said.

    Areon sighed, and walked out of the room. Laeho closed the door behind him, and let out a sigh of relief. Then with a shaking hand he withdrew the letter from beneath his pillow. It wasn’t too late. He could leave it on the dining room table, and Areon would never be the wiser. But… Areon was becoming obsessed with the “disappearances,” and he’d been spending more time than ever dressed as a peasant, walking the streets of the peninsula. 

    Laeho didn’t want to lose his brother. Not like he’d lost his mother. Areon was all he had. He was Laeho’s only friend. Laeho loved his life, he loved the Ebar mansion, and he didn’t want that all to be shattered. Not again. That’s why he’d taken the letter in the first place. He thought it was a love-letter. He wanted to know how serious things were, and how long it’d be before Areon would abandon him. But it might be so much more than that.

    Laeho broke the seal. He regretted it the instant he did it, but there was no going back now. Carefully, he removed the letter from the envelope.

    Dear Areon, he read.

    If you’re reading this, I’m already gone. 

    Laeho stopped reading, dropping the letter. He stood back, his eyes wide. He knew he’d read it correctly, but his mind was slow to comprehend what it could mean. At that moment, he decided that Areon could never see the letter. He would shove it in the back of his giant dresser, and forget about it, like he did everything else. If Areon didn’t see the note, he would think that the girl who’d written it had just left, without saying goodbye. If he knew there was more to her disappearance, he’d never stop searching until he found her. Laeho might lose his brother forever. 

    He picked up the letter, and shoved it into its envelope, which he tucked away where he’d never see it. He couldn’t afford to be reminded.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Chapter Two

    A middle-aged woman who Laeho didn’t recognize sat down across from him. His Father was off doing something important, and Areon never joined them for breakfast. Father made him come to dinner, but otherwise he didn’t force Areon to do anything he didn’t want to do. 

    “Good morning, Laeho. I’m Hyla,” the woman said, smiling prettily. 

    Laeho grunted in response, staring at his soup.

    “Are you excited about your sword fight tomorrow?”

    “Why would I be?” Laeho asked, reaching for his spoon. Maybe if she could see he was eating, she wouldn’t keep trying to talk to him.

    “I assume you’ve been practicing with that nice Gerrion boy, right?” she asked.

    “Why do you care?” He glanced up to see if her smile would waver, but it stayed firm.

    “I care because I care about you,” she said with a smile.

    Laeho wondered briefly if she was always happy, or if the smile was just as fake as her makeup. 

    “I don’t know you,” he said. 

    She laughed, her soft tinkling laugh. “Of course you know me,” she said. “I’m your father’s wife.” 

    “No, you’re not.” 

    The woman shook her head. “Do we have to do this every day?” she asked, still smiling. Her eyes, however, just looked tired.

    “I’ve never seen you before in my life,” Laeho insisted.

    “So you’ve said. Every day now for the past year. Maybe we could stick to small talk for now?” 

    “You’re not my mother,” he said. “That will always be true. I remember my mother. She had blonde hair, like mine. She was kind, and beautiful. She was nothing like you.” 

    The woman’s smile wavered, and Laeho felt an unexplainable surge of satisfaction. Maybe he had met this woman before. He couldn’t remember it, but the familiarity was there. 

    “Have you talked to the physicians lately?” the woman asked brightly, as if she was just making more small talk. 

    “No,” Laeho said, turning back to his soup. 

    “Maybe you should—”

    “Stop,” Laeho commanded. 

    The woman seemed surprised by his harsh tone. 

    “I’m not going to talk to them again. They’ll tell me the same thing they tell me every time. They’ll put on their pitying looks and pained expressions and tell me, ‘You’re not sick. There’s nothing to cure. You just think differently than everyone else and what’s wrong with that?’ as if this is the same as someone not being able to tell the difference between red and green.”

    “I know this is hard for you, but—”

    “You could never know what it’s like to be unable to make more memories. Everyone who talks to me pities me, introducing themselves regardless of how often we’ve talked, because they know I won’t remember a word they say. And at the end of every conversation, they say ‘don’t forget,’ as if this is all my choice.” 

    Laeho stood, and walked out of the room, slamming the onyx lined door behind him. Then he took a deep breath, relaxing on the other side. A second later he glanced at the door, wondering if he was supposed to be eating breakfast right now, but he didn’t feel hungry so he just turned and walked away.

     

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    Areon was waiting in front of Laeho’s room, and Laeho could tell instantly that something was wrong. In his hand, Areon held a small letter. 

    Laeho’s heart dropped. “Areon…”

    “Did you know about this letter?” Areon asked, not waiting for Laeho to finish. His voice wasn’t loud, but it wasn’t calm either. It didn’t sound angry, it sounded hurt. 

    “How’d you find it?” Laeho asked in a small voice. 

    Areon rolled his eyes. “I asked one of the servants if there’d been any letters for me. He told me you’d taken a letter for me. And look what I find tucked away in your room.” 

    Laeho felt close to tears. “I was going to tell you, but—”

    “But you’d rather run from your problems than confront them,” Areon finished bitterly. 

    “It’s not my problem,” Laeho said without thinking. “It’s not yours either. You can’t let this consume you.”

    Areon looked up from the floor. “How could you care so little about the things that are happening around you?” he asked. “Why am I the only one in this world that gives a crap about any of this? You think anything that doesn’t affect you directly is someone else’s problem. I’m done with you.” 

    He turned and walked toward his own room. “Wait!” Laeho called. Areon pretended not to hear him. 

    “Where are you going?” Laeho asked desperately. 

    “I’m going to find my friend,” he said without turning around. All Laeho could do was watch. Unless… Maybe he could still save his brother, before he did something stupid. Laeho watched Areon go into his room, and Laeho waited in the hall. He stepped into his room when Areon’s door opened again. 

    Laeho had only seen Areon like this once before, when he’d fallen in love with a sailor girl, and tried to sneak away from the peninsula stowed away on her ship. He’d wanted an adventure, but he’d been discovered before the boat even launched. She’d left, and he’d stayed, and it had broken his heart. 

    Areon was in love again, or at least he thought he was. Laeho could tell. 

    Laeho walked to Areon’s room and opened his door, before he even knew what he was doing. There were multiple sets of raged beggar clothing in Areon’s dresser, so Laeho grabbed one of them. He changed quickly, knowing he would regret this. But at least he wouldn’t be alone. 

    Laeho was able to slip out of the house without any servants noticing, and he was fast enough that he caught sight of Areon walking away from the house. He scooped up some dirt which he scrubbed into his clean curly blonde hair, making him look less clean. Laeho followed Areon at a distance, and was careful to keep his eyes fixed on him. The main square was crowded, but Laeho still felt unsettled. He felt exposed. He really hoped this would be worth it. 

    Areon walked quickly through the streets, looking back every few seconds but not seeming to notice Laeho. Soon the crowds started thinning out, and Laeho had to follow at a greater distance to avoid being seen. Briefly Areon’s eyes flicked over him, but he didn’t even recognize Laeho. Laeho realized that he’d never worn anything other than his tailored clothing, because he’d never been one to sneak out onto the streets like Areon. He still didn’t understand the appeal of being completely and totally forgettable. Eyes passed over him like he was nobody, and even in a street of people who saw him as an equal, he was completely alone. He felt removed from it all. He’d never be one of them. But that didn’t mean he couldn’t walk these streets with his head held high. He knew who he was. 

    Still he was becoming less nervous, and more outright scared as he followed Areon into the poorer parts of the city. He could feel eyes watching him from the alleyways. They didn’t watch him like they would if they knew who he was, but he could sense the beggars and thieves all asking themselves the same question: What could I get from him?

    Laeho shivered. Maybe he should just go tell Areon he was following. He didn’t like feeling alone. He didn’t like a single bit of this. He was starting to question his decision to come at all. He’d always been impulsive, but this had the potential to actually get him hurt.

    Areon knocked on the door of an older building that looked like it’d been abandoned a long time ago, and Laeho stopped walking to watch from far enough away that Areon wouldn’t notice him. What was he doing here? The door opened, and someone let Areon inside. LAeho took another step forward. Was Areon in danger?

    “You’d better have a really good reason for spying on us,” a voice said. Laeho’s blood froze, and he turned and saw a kid who looked a lot younger than him leaning against the building. The boy smiled at Laeho’s look of surprise.

    “‘dey always post a lookout when some’ting important’s going on. You shoulda stayed hidden.” The boy smiled again, then whistled. Two more boys walked out of the alley beside the house Areon was in. They looked much burlier than the lookout, and they both carried long knives. Laeho was frozen with fear. He’d come here to keep an eye on his brother, but who was going to save him?

    “Which gang are ya part of?” The lookout asked.

    “I’m not part of a gang,” Laeho stammered. “I was just waiting for…” Laeho trailed off. “I didn’t mean to bother you,” he said instead. 

    “Do you have a family?” The kid asked.

    “I’m an orphan,” Laeho said nervously. “I have no family, and I’m not worth anything to you.” Maybe they would let him go if they didn’t think he was anyone important. He couldn’t afford to let them take him and demand a ransom. Why had he thought this was a good idea?

    The lookout glanced at the other two boys. “Is’sat good enough for you?” He asked. One of them nodded, the other shrugged. 

    “It’ll do,” said a new voice, and out of the shadows stepped an Obsidian Sentinel. Laeho’s jaw dropped. He’d seen the sentinels roaming the streets before, the king had some sort of deal with them, but he’d never even heard one speak. They just walked along silently, in their black obsidian armor. There were all sorts of legends surrounding them, but Laeho didn’t wait to find out what this one wanted with him. Laeho turned, and ran.

    “Wait!” the sentinel called. Laeho barely heard him. He should have talked to his father about this a long time ago. He just needed to find his way back.

    Laeho glanced back and saw the Obsidian Sentinel was following him, more quickly than Laeho would have expected. He would have assumed that the obsidian armor would slow the sentinel down, but the man seemed as spry as ever. 

    The lookout followed the sentinel—though he was a bit slower. He didn’t look the slightest bit surprised at the appearance of the Obsidian Sentinel. Laeho wondered why they were chasing him. Why did he matter to them, there was no way they knew who he really was! 

    “Stop him,” the Obsidian Sentinel grumbled to the kid beside him. The kid nodded, and raised a hand. Then the world fell silent. No chirping birds or distant voices. It was like a blanket of silence had fallen over the entire city. Then Laeho felt his arms get suddenly weak. They became too heavy for him to hold up, and they fell limp at his side. Laeho tried to call for help, but he couldn’t seem to make any sound. 

    “I swear you’ll thank us later,” the Obsidian Sentinel said as Laeho fell to his knees. “I’m sorry about this.” 

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Chapter Three

    Laeho woke up feeling disoriented. He felt like he’d fallen asleep in the middle of the day, and he was waking up to a dark evening instead of the bright morning. He was lying on a comfortable bed, though he could tell it wasn’t his. 

    Laeho was used to being disoriented, though he wasn’t used to the headache he currently had. He strained his mind to remember what the last thing he’d done was. Was the duel already over? Had he slept through it? Where was Areon? Laeho finally opened his eyes to examine his surroundings. He was greeted by a familiar bedroom. It was his bedroom, and evening sunlight streamed through the window. He could hear carriages driving through the streets below his house, and a servant spoke quietly right outside his door.

    Everything lined up. Except this wasn’t his bed. And everything felt almost too normal. Where was his father, yelling at him for missing the duel? And where was Areon?

    Laeho rolled off the bed, falling into a crouch. He walked carefully over to the window, and peered out. Outside he could see people walking, and he could almost make out their features…

    Laeho cried out, and leapt away from the window. 

    The people walking below didn’t have faces. Otherwise they looked normal, but where their faces were supposed to be there was only a blur. He risked another glance out the window, and was greeted by the same sight. This time he just stared, trying to ensure his mind was comprehending the sight below him properly. One of the people looked up, and waved. Laeho just gaped. 

    Laeho stumbled away from the window, and quickly walked over to his washroom. He threw open the door, and worked up his courage to look into the black mirror. 

    His face was normal. Laeho breathed a sigh of relief, though the feeling was short-lived. What was going on?

    “You’re already up?” said the voice of one of his manservants. 

    “Yeah,” Laeho said, unable to tear his eyes away from his mirror. “Can you look out the window for me?”

    “Of… course, my lord.” The manservant said, sounding confused. “A very nice view, my lord.” The manservant said a moment later.

    “Yes of course, but do you notice anything off about it?”

    Laeho turned to his servant, and froze. His servant was faceless too. His face was nothing more than a blur, and his hair was strange too. It looked like it was constantly changing color, fading between brown and black and blonde.

    “‘Off’ my lord?” the servant asked, as if nothing was wrong. 

    Laeho ran. He opened his door, and spirited away down the hall. This wasn’t real. This was some sort of dream, or hallucination. Where in Penaral is Areon! 

    “I’ve been in here countless times, and never have I seen anything like this,” a voice said slowly. Laeho slowed, looking around. 

    “Hello?” he said nervously. “Who said that?” 

    “I’m sure you’re feeling very confused, as you should. But it takes most people a little longer to notice the inconsistencies in the illusion. I’m impressed. Then again, the inconsistencies in yours are a little more prominent than usual.”

    Laeho started running again, but the voice just laughed. 

    “I have some questions for you, ‘my lord.’ Running seems counterintuitive for the time being, though I’m happy to wait for you to realize that on your own if you’d rather.”

    Laeho paused uneasily. “Show yourself,” he commanded. “If you know who I am then you’ll know what’ll happen if you don’t start explaining yourself right now!”

    “But I don’t know who you are,” the voice responded, “and that’s what makes you interesting. But I suppose it’s only fair that you get to see reality. Welcome to Chanevera.”

    The name seemed almost resonant. Laeho could have sworn it sent vibrations through the room. It felt ancient, and full of secrets. Then the walls began to crumble. The tapestries on the walls burned away, and the windows darkened. The carpet disappeared, replaced with a floor that was black and reflective. Through the windows Laeho could see new buildings appearing, replacing the familiar ones. Every street and every building matched the one that Laeho currently stood within. It was a city. And it was made entirely of obsidian.

    Thanks for being awesome.

    Today's W count: 2348

    Total W Count: 13,128

    1. Edema Rue

      Edema Rue

      Ooohh!! Yay!! Thanks for sharing!

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