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  1. Thaidakar the Ghostblood
    Later
  2. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

    well...

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    Spook blinked, "Well... I do believe that is my cue to go. Pleasure to meet you, Ene." He turned, snapping his fingers and disappearing in a burst of mist. @AonEne(Nearly pinged the wrong person-) A flask of wine walked up to Uncle Brandy and clocked him with a grandfather clock.
  4. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

    (Warning, this is a long one, but a really important one in regards to me and the Shard. Please, please, read it if you want to know beforehand about certain things.)

    I am realizing how much I've grown over my time online and just altogether.

    This journey... It's the journey that I've loved, and the destination I am seeing come into view, even if it is still far off in the distance.

    this is both a goodbye and a raise a glass to more times post.

    I am not saying goodbye, but I also am in a way.

    Because... who I was is going in favor of who I am becoming. Someone who is independent. Someone who can pay attention. Someone who can take responsibility for his actions and can make those actions responsible in the first place. Someone who can help others appreciate the journey. 

    I see myself becoming a better person, but I cannot help but see my faults and wonder "Have I really progressed?" But... I have. I do think that I have. Looking back on my older posts, I was abrasive, I was ill tempered and got scathing when someone presented an opinion I didn't like. I look back at that with deep shame. But... I also see how getting to that low helped me to realize that I could go to the opposite, go to my high, get to a place where I can see their opinions, compare them to my own, and say "You know what, that's fine. They have their opinion and I have mine. And, at the end of the day, we need to be unified despite our differences." 

    All of you have helped me grow so much as a person. I'm sorry for all the ridiculous, highly opinionated, at times offensive, horrible things I've said in the past. I'm not proud of those moments, but I see how they've helped me become who I am today, and so I am grateful for them in that. 

    My time on the Shard might become a bit more limited soon... I have to get used to doing a lot more school work than I'm used to doing. I'm taking on a bigger work load than before. I'm realizing that to get into college eventually, I need to be working more and paying attention. I've been needing to take higher priority to my work. I haven't done so in the past, unfortunately.

    Which is why this post is here in the first place.

    I'm here to warn you that, if it gets too much for me, I might have to quit for a season. Just for a little while so that I can regain control of my school, of my personal life and take the time to go make a few friends (and no, that doesn't mean actually create friends out of shoes, or write some to life... *sudden idea pops into head*). But.. I really do need to be doing more in my own life instead of fabricating a digital life on here. While it is fun, it isn't what I need. 

    In the past... well... while, I've been realizing that even if something is good, it isn't always what I need. A prime example of this is something recently. I recently started reading Babel. I was loving it so much, but then I started feeling horrible about it. I don't know why. I don't know what was wrong with it. I was loving it. But I had a horrible feeling inside, paired with some feelings from one or two other things I did wrong. I knew I had to quit because that's what the spirit was telling me (I think? I was in a kinda funk with spiritual things a few days back and had to figure that all out. Still figuring out tbh...). I've really been learning to prioritize the things that will benefit me in the long run, such as writing, hanging out with family, making new friends where I am, school work, scripture study, etc.

    And... in that... the Shard isn't one of them.

    I love the Shard, I love this place, and I want to stay here. But I really don't want to be constantly on here as I have been in the past, as I have done in part today when I was trying to write. I just sometimes randomly open it up if I'm not focusing on my writing as much in a given moment. 

    I hope that I can stay here, I hope that, in the end, I will be able to have control enough over myself that I will be able to have a specific time when I can come on here and hang out. But currently I really need to focus on other things. 

    And that is also why this is partially a goodbye.

    I will not be as active for at least a few weeks. I'll be on here Saturdays definitely, but not all day. I'll be on here for maybe like half an hour a day at most for a good while until I find the proper balance. 

    I love all of you, I love this place, I love the how it's run, I love the mods (I wouldn't have said that as easily (Not to say that I didn't like the mods before, I did like the mods before, but yeah-) before I started listening Shardcast, but after- my gosh- it made me realize that they aren't just the big scary people in the background who occasionally hammer someone into ban-nation (:P), they're here because they're nerds too.), I love all of the theories, the RPs, the reputation levels, the revolutionary causes about the rep limit, the art commission's, the chatting, the fierce arguments about whether Kaladin is a good character or not... It's all just so wonderful.

    I don't want to end it, I really don't. But I have to realize that there is a possibility I will have to end this experience, I will have to stop coming on here, I will have to not talk to a lot of you again. And that scares me and makes me sad all at once. I don't want to leave. 

    I'm sorry that this post has been so long, so conflicting, so convoluted and contradicting, but I really feel like I had to write it.

    And, so, in conclusion... I'm sorry for everything. I won't be on here much for a good while, but that is only a thing of what has to be so that I can run instead of a meandering walk. This has to be for so many reasons, a portion of which I discussed above (as anyone who has gotten to this point will realize). 

    So... goodbye, my friends! Till Saturday! I won't be fully back for a long time.

    I will miss all of you, those who are active and those who are not! 

    I love all of you and remember that someone believes in you, that someone loves you for who you are truly. Remember that someone enjoys your company and thinks that you can accomplish anything that you set your mind to. 

    And... most importantly remember that you deserve love. You deserve to be loved and to be cherished. You deserve to share your opinion and to talk to others. You deserve to be your own person. You deserve to take control of your destiny and shape it how you would! 

     

    P.S. @CalanoCorvus I have officially made Cross Stitching In The Morning one of my writing songs. 

    P.P.S. God be with you till we meet again, my dear friends!

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    2. kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

      kajsa ㅇㅅㅇ

      this is the kind of post i shoulda written as my goodbye post. i share many of your sentiments. we love ya thaid. <3

    3. Immortal Platypus

      Immortal Platypus

      I felt a lot of the same feelings last year. Over the summer I learned to better balance it. there are still things that I'm working on, but it does help. Have a good week.

      Until we meet again!

    4. Cinnamon

      Cinnamon

      We love you <3 

      do well at life Thaid! I hope to still see you around even if it’s less often :)

  5. Thaidakar the Ghostblood
    If that's a genuine question, my answer will be a definite no. Taking what we have, even if it's a nice narrative as it is, won't just become a novel. The style is sooo different. The Narrative voice is odd and, I just realized, we'd have to figure out how to make the Authors work with it all and explain certain things, or just remove specific terms and creatures for continuity's sake.
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    Of course you're important! Platypus is a great character that should be in it more! A long series of short stories would be epic if we had an idea for how the plot would go. Big bads can work in like arcs of, say, five short stories each. Like, Feanor would only come later once Thaidakar is developed as a character. What we would need is an idea for what we'd want and assign different parts and chapters to different people .We would also need to familiarize different people with different characters in an intimate fashion, such as how they act. This would be very difficult with a large cast, which is why I suggested a smaller, more focused, set of characters. I think it's possible, but I don't know if we can feasibly achieve more than one story. It would be a gargantuan effort to make one arc, let alone several. If each book is 200-500 pages long, each five books (an arc as I'm suggesting) would be 1,000-25,000 pages long. That's a lot of writing. It would be the undertaking of a life time. Don't get me wrong, making a novel or two based off of TLT would be a load of fun. But only if it's super focused and concise. I, for example, can see writing a novel at about 400-800 pages in length about the Feanor arc as a possible thing that can happen if I really wanted it to. But there's the issue of I have other projects that I've already started and have less lore than TLT. TLT is a 2,000 pages and a half thread with loads and loads of lore, even more characters and a complex plot weaving that would take at least 6 months to figure out and decide what could be made into a book and what couldn't be. What I'm saying is that, while it would be fun, it isn't as easy as some would think. There's so much, as y'all are saying, that would make it hard to adapt. It isn't the type of project that I really want to be doing, especially when my own novel is just starting to get its footing in writing. It would be! It would just take soooo loooong to get to the point where we have enough of it written down in a way that readers can digest it without feeling overwhelmed and confused.
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    My only thing is that do we want it to be a novel or do we want it to be a never ending story about loads of characters that are all having perspectives and doing all sorts of crazy stuff OR do we want to consolidate into different POVs for different segments, like how, say, the Percy Jackson: Heroes of Olympus novels do it. They have like, say, 4 or 5 POVs for most of those books who are present for most of the events of said novel. Then it changes for the next one and so on. I myself would prefer a cohesive story that is focused on one specific plot that isn't just randomness, even if that's what TLT is. I would much like something that takes what we have in TLT and transform it into a story that people who know nothing about TLT can enjoy, and so that even those who are familiar with it would like to read without being confused at every twist and turn. It would need a lot of rewriting to make it work together anyways. An Alcatraz vs the Evil Librarians combined with The Stormlight Archive approach would be something I would want. It's Stormlight with Alcatraz here and there. If it were to be a true adaptation of TLT, a tv show, a graphic novel or just a large series of short stories would work faaaaar better. It's that serialization which would, I think, work best to tell TLT as it is. I do think that a more serious approach, though still with the randomness and funny moments, would be better over all to tell a cohesive (there's that word again) story. I would want to see something that is complete and has a good ending with good characters and with a good explanation for everything. It would be a lot more work to do what I'm suggesting, but that's what writing is anyways. However, I think I need to clarify what I'm saying here: I'm not saying we remove a lot, I'm saying we take what we have and adjust it slightly, omitting a few things to make the story flow and adding things to give more clarity and make it a better read altogether. It would be awesome if we ever do this to see you helping out, Panda!
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    I would, in general, want to get some of the ridiculousness into a good bit of the first part (excepting the prologue which should be dead serious to match some of the plot) That depends on what the Narrative would be focused on. Who's the main villain? Who are the pov characters? If we want Feanor/Thaidakar to be the main character I suggest we start around the time where I have Spook and Mythos competing to become Thaidakar's heir which leads into the Temple of Plot. There would be a load of flashbacks, though, especially from Thaidakar's POV if we're going for that. The Witherlord would, of course, be involved in those flashbacks. I would want it to focus on the tragedy of Thaidakar's arc in this potential storyline. Subversion, Platypus and Spook would most likely be the main povs, with a few different ones from different people sprinkled in. And, perhaps, other main ones, but those are the ones that come to mind. If we're going for a Narrative of the fight against the Witherlord, I think it would vary greatly on which one and how Xino would want us to approach that. Though I would say that this one is a little less serious than the previous one since the Witherlord is far more of a Sauron than Thaidakar is. Thaidakar is more of a Moash mixed with Homelander, a far more complex character which gives more opportunity for moral questioning. (I think you can tell that I'm leaning towards wanting my own character as an enemy, but that's merely because they're mine so I know exactly how it could play out with them.) There is also the opportunity to construct a completely new storyline taking place wherever and whenever we want. It all really depends on whatever we would want from the story.
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    "The outcome is the concern for me, however," Feanor said. "At any other time, I would agree, but the events of this time are a hinge point in TLT. It is important, both for me and the general populace. However..." He considered for a long moment, "You know what.. I have a better idea that I think you could agree with." Feanor leaned forward, grinning, "See... it would entail..." He began to speak, but as he did, he snapped his fingers and disappeared, leaving a hole in the Narration, Plot weaving, and more in the room. Thaidakar was gone, leaving a small piece of paper drifting down into Subversion's hands. "Sorry!" The paper said. "I have things to do instead of sticking around near you, Subverted one! Good luck!"
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    Here's how I would be involved if this ever happened: I would love to write chapters here and there especially to do with my characters. I want to help with an outline and be there to talk about it and organize it. I would want to be one of the main people figuring it out, if not the main one writing. I want to be, if this would happen, the producer and director. Not the screenwriter for most of it. I can do touch ups here and there, writing scenes when necessary and just when I'm hyped. I would love to set it up and keep it organized though.
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    you know who else lost? You, @SmilingPanda19, my good friend!
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    You know about the place, the Alleyverse? Well... I heard that one of the alleys is called E-lane-tris.
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    I would be interested, definitely, but I shouldn't be since I have loads of other projects to attend to. I was a part of some of the last posts on there.
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    If we did wind up doing it, I have a list of people who would need to be involved. Xino and Nameless definitely, I would want to be involved most definitely. Seeing it as TLT would help me blast writing. Cacophony definitely should be one of the people who does some of the main writing. But we would also want to get the permissions of a lot of the people involved in the actual thread. I honestly think TLT, if turned into some form of media, would work best as a tv show or a series of short stories that start out as complete randomness and slowly evolves into what it is today.
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    no kidding. The plot would be all over the place. But... if done right... it could be a masterpiece. Frick, this could be so good-
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    aaaand? so much would be lost... so much good story would just be kicked out in favor of a newer one. It would take an epic amount of- ... ..... I see it now, but it would require a level of flashbacks and world building beyond legend. It would need to have so much implied and so much context given to make it work well with how much history there is in the entire world of TLT. There is just sooo muuuuuuch. And there's the issue of who the POVs would be... then there's the issue of getting the right people and- I'm thinking of this way to technically and as an actual endeavor, aren't I?
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    starting when the brave adventurer came in? But that would remove a load of the complexity and so much of the important background info and just all around good plots.
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    Suddenly in tears right now

    Spoiler

     

    He didn't deserve to die! Justice for guy with a kid who gave him a watch!

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    "Ah, yes, but it wouldn't truly solve it. There wouldn't be a true ending. An outcome would still be needed even if it is not narrated entirely." Thaidakar pointed out. "There would still be a discussion, if unspoken, of who would win. It's not a true way to solve this, merely a method to carry the solution that is decided upon by our Authors. There is no tangible difference in outcome, to sum my words into a sentence."
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    Nearly forgot about this in the midst of a ton of other things- thanks for the reminder. "Differently?" Thaidakar asked, standing. "And what would that mean... And," He added, "You are right, I would not let you kill me despite how much I would enjoy being back in the sweet embrace of death. I am interested, however, what this trump card is." Feanor flicked his fingers, a dagger appearing in them, twisting as he maneuvered them with pure delight. "There are several ways to end this, Subversion, but which one are you suggesting?"
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    the second one by far.
  22. Thaidakar the Ghostblood

    happy birthday!

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    Doesn't appear to be. The mods would know most likely, but they've got a lot on their plate even without the secret projects and shard cast. Probably best to occasionally remind them in a casual and polite way, but not to be pestering them about it. I'm sure they'll get around to this eventually.
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    wow... I'm a LotR lover. I used to hate WoT, I did on the first read, but then I reread it once I'd read more stuff and was like "yoooo this is actually awesome." Though, I did eventually stop reading it, but that had nothing to do with the prose, the world building, characters, etc. It is a shock though from other fantasy books, I find the. characters way more realistic in WoT than in other places. Nyneave was so annoying in the first read of the first five, then I read it again and was like "Yo, Nyneave is actually awesome." Though, they do need a slap in the face now and then... specially Rand, Nyneave, Moraine and Faile (not to diss any of them, they're my fave characters in the series, plus my boy Perrin). For LotR... I get that, it's not as modern in language and I had a hard time reading it fairly recently, but I think it was kinda a phase for me. I recommend you give it a try after awhile, but then again you didn't like WoT so... idk if you'll ever like it, my friend.
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    Little sister: *toddles over, grabs a blanket and starts laughing evilly like she has a plan to take over the universe*

    Me: *looks up from computer* *fear*

    1. The Paradoxical Phenomenon

      The Paradoxical Phenomenon

      #relatable

       

      #waytoorelatable

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