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Okay so. I have two options.
1: live in my college town for the summer, it would be $775 plus utilities (about $25/month) for the full summer. I'd have to pay for my own gas and buy my own food. I would continue working my current job, which doesn't have very regular hours, but it pays pretty well. I would also want to get a more regular job, maybe at a thrift store or a coffee/drink shop or a cute little local restaurant. I would be near a lot of my college friends, so I could do things with them and continue wearing my less "modest" outfits and going by a more gender-neutral nickname sometimes and using multiple pronoun sets and just in general continue figuring myself out in that way.
2: move back in with my parents. Free housing, free food, they'd probably even pay for my gas, I'd already have a regular, well-paying job that I mostly enjoy lined up, and I could try out for a production of Aida that would also pay. But I would either have to act like the version of me that my parents knew from when I was in high school, or let them meet this version of me when I'm not even sure I like this version of me and I'm actively trying new things to figure myself out. I know everyone is always a "rough draft" of themselves, but my current draft feels especially rough, and I don't feel ready for my parents to see it. There have already been times just over phone calls where it's felt like my parents and I are on the brink of a breaking point regarding my identity, and if I live with them over the summer it'll be even more difficult.
However, my program is also next year incorporating travel opportunities, so next year I could travel with a faculty mentor to New York, and the following year to London. I would, however, have to pay my own way. So, saving money by going home would be really helpful for that. But is it worth it if I would be living a lie all summer??
Oh and I need to decide by Tuesday, because the girl whose lease I'd be buying if I stay needs to know by then.
Any input/advice is welcome, lmk if you have any questions lol
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Hey guys you should read the Webtoon Realta, it's what the bird in my new pfp is from and it's incredible.
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Yesssss good
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The sass radiating off of amity is golden
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I simultaneously want to be Amity and date her lmao
Equal parts gender envy and attraction
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Tell me what Sanderson character you relate to most and I'll tell you a Taylor Swift song to listen to.
(Please check my about me to make sure I've read the book your character's from)
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Oh
Tien (to Kaladin): Safe & Sound
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Tell me what Sanderson character you relate to most and I'll tell you a Taylor Swift song to listen to.
(Please check my about me to make sure I've read the book your character's from)
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The choices I'm most proud of are mirrorball for Shallan and You're On Your Own, Kid for Vin. Like. Get me a Vin YOYOK animatic STAT.
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Tell me what Sanderson character you relate to most and I'll tell you a Taylor Swift song to listen to.
(Please check my about me to make sure I've read the book your character's from)
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Tell me what Sanderson character you relate to most and I'll tell you a Taylor Swift song to listen to.
(Please check my about me to make sure I've read the book your character's from)
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I cannot for the life of me figure out Alcatraz or Teft, but here's everyone else, plus some extras I came across while searching :))
SpoilerSpook: I Can See You, Karma
Lift: A Place in this World, Shake It Off
Shallan: mirrorball, Anti-Hero
Jasnah: You Need To Calm Down, I Did Something Bad
Kaladin: this is me trying, epiphany, Bigger Than The Whole Sky
Dalinar: Castles Crumbling
Elend: When Emma (Elend) Falls In Love
Adolin: 22, Slut!, New Romantics
Vin: You're On Your Own Kid, Enchanted
Vin + Elend: Enchanted, Wildest Dreams, Starlight, Everything Has Changed, Love Story, Daylight, Today Was A Fairytale (literally can we make a Taylor Swift jukebox musical of Mistborn??)
Navani: tolerate it, Mastermind
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I promise I'll get to my Taylor recs, but first.
SPOTIFY WRAPPED!
I was in the top 0.5% of Taylor Swift listeners (and got a special message from her ), and with how many MASSIVE Swifties there are in the world, I feel like that's a pretty big deal idk.
Shocked that Clockmaker's Daughter isn't represented on here more...
Oh but my top song? I didn't know it existed until September 9th, and I still listened to it that much. It was a recommendation from my crush, so. Checks out.
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I think it was sent out to anyone who had her as their top artist or some other qualification idk
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Y'all y'all y'all okay so
I'm a theatre major, if you didn't know that before, now you do.
In the spring, I'm going to be in a production of Shakespeare's The Tempest.
I'm one of four people playing the character of Ariel.
"Wait, what? One character played by four actors???? How does that work?"
Allow me to elaborate.
Within the show, Ariel says that they "divide and burn in many places." Hence, we are all the divisions. There are two actors who will be kind of the "main" Ariels, so they'll have the bulk of the lines, but then me and the other other Ariel are internally understudying the main two, so that no matter how many Ariels go out (which, hopefully, no one will), as long as there's at least one Ariel left, we can still have the full character of Ariel.
We're also going to do a lot of really cool movement stuff and I GET TO CLIMB ON THE SET AND STUFF. I GET TO USE THE SET BASICALLY AS A PLAYGROUND??? YES PLEASE OMG.
And the COSTUMES??? I'm so excited. If you don't know, Ariel is a nature/wind spirit on an island, so they do a lot of magic stuff and aren't. Human. I love love love I'm so excited aaaaaaaaa.
Also the other three Ariels are all gender-wiggly in some way and I have lately been having a bit of a gender crisis so it's possible that all of the Ariels are gender-wiggly lol.
SpoilerAlso uh doesn't hurt that my crush is one of the other Ariels, that's cool too ig.
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We don't even start rehearsals until March and I don't know how I'm going to survive until then. Send help.
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Taylor Swift is a genius that is all thank you for coming to my TED Talk
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Listen, even if you don't like her music, you have to admit that she's clearly talented and smart enough to have built up such a huge fan base and become as successful as she has. Especially now that she is her own manager and is taking the time and effort to re-record all of her music that she didn't actually own, like. She is building an empire, and she's the one running her own career.
Her storytelling and lyricism are also absolutely incredible, she puts words to emotions I didn't even know I was feeling. And I know for a fact that I'm far from the only one who feels that way.
It doesn't really matter what you think of her music itself, but you can't really deny the effect she has had, both on the world of music and, honestly, the world as a whole. Her fans literally caused an earthquake at one of her concerts. She is on track to break the record of the most successful music tour of all time, by a long shot. She changes her music style with the times, she has written music in a ton of different styles because the same stuff just doesn't stay popular, but the most impressive thing about this is that every style she has written, she's done well. Taylor Swift is the music industry, or at least one of the biggest parts of it, whether you like it or not. And getting to and staying at that point for as long as she has takes genius.
I don't care if you like her music or not. But you can't truthfully say that she's not a genius. She hasn't just gotten lucky (have you seen the way the media has railed on her in the past? It's bad), she is genuinely talented and smart and has taken the bad situations and flipped them around. As she says in her song New Romantics, "I could build a castle out of all the bricks they threw at me." She has been knocked down again and again and again and every time she has gotten back up, stronger than before.
I don't care if you don't think her music is genius. But you cannot deny that she is genius.
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Irrelevant: I always imagined you with blonde hair, I never thought it would be blond…
@Ravenclawjedi42 do you mean you never thought I'd be brunette? Huh, I don't think I give off blonde vibes, that's really interesting!
QuoteOH MY GOSH- GIMME YOUR HAIR- THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANT BUT I CANT SEEM TO DO IT AHHHH
@SmilingPanda19 I literally showed them a picture of short-hair Rapunzel lol, although my hair is also naturally pretty thick (and curly, though I straightened it in these pictures), so that might also help.
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OH I totally forgot to include Draco Malfoy from the first movie. Definitely had a crush on him.
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The story behind that one:
SpoilerMy brother was TERRIFIED of the Quaker Oats Guy, so I fell in love with the Quaker Oats Guy literally just to torment my brother.
True love, amiright?
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I'm curious.
What's everyone dressing up as for Halloween?
And if you're not dressing up, why not?
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If you're following me, you probably already know that I'm dressing up as short-hair Rapunzel. I got my hair cut and my green colored contacts, so almost everything is ready.
Still gotta add the embellishments to the skirt, which is very intimidating.
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My Spotify does that tooooooo!
And YouTube is not better than Spotify, I'll be on the Spotify hill till the day I die.
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Oh that is incredible
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Ever feel like you don't actually know anything at all?
Cuz me too.
How did I get this far? Idk, just kinda BSed my way.
Do my thing, freak out over things, somehow panic-mode my way through those things, repeat.
All while also procrastinating and not getting enough sleep and not eating healthy and sometimes not eating enough and trying to look cute and making some dumb financial decisions and never letting myself actually have time to do the things I actually want to do.
Forming opinions and trying to defend those opinions, even when the person I'm defending them to is my dad who has so much more life experience than me and is much better at standing his ground against me than I am and a lot of the time I end up crying because I'm so passionate about it and I know what I believe but I DON'T KNOW how to explain it in a way that he will understand.
Challenging opinions that I've had my whole life and trying to come out of challenging them with a stronger belief in them than before but it's so hard to find time to work on that so I'm just in a constant state of challenging AND believing which is NOT fun.
Trying to keep my social life alive.
Trying to keep myself alive.
Trying to imagine how I could ever possibly be a mother and a wife and have a family and a house (and a job??? Idk???) when I can hardly balance college, work, and feeding myself.
And pushing forward anyways because that's what we do.
Time doesn't stop.
There's not really any way to just. Hit pause on life so you can catch up.
There are things I want in the future, things I've looked forward to for my entire life. Can I at all see how I'm going to get there? No. But I know I want to, and the longer I keep going, the closer I'm going to get to being able to reach those things.
I don't know where I'm going to be in five, ten, fifteen years.
Where I am now is different from where I thought I'd be five, ten, fifteen years ago (although I don't think I thought much about this when I was four. Or nine. But still.)
But I know that where I am has so far worked out and been okayish because of (some of) what I did years and years and years ago.
So...I keep going. Because time will always keep going. Because I know there's something I'm going towards.
I just don't know what it is yet.
But I think it'll be good.
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Ever feel like you don't actually know anything at all?
Cuz me too.
How did I get this far? Idk, just kinda BSed my way.
Do my thing, freak out over things, somehow panic-mode my way through those things, repeat.
All while also procrastinating and not getting enough sleep and not eating healthy and sometimes not eating enough and trying to look cute and making some dumb financial decisions and never letting myself actually have time to do the things I actually want to do.
Forming opinions and trying to defend those opinions, even when the person I'm defending them to is my dad who has so much more life experience than me and is much better at standing his ground against me than I am and a lot of the time I end up crying because I'm so passionate about it and I know what I believe but I DON'T KNOW how to explain it in a way that he will understand.
Challenging opinions that I've had my whole life and trying to come out of challenging them with a stronger belief in them than before but it's so hard to find time to work on that so I'm just in a constant state of challenging AND believing which is NOT fun.
Trying to keep my social life alive.
Trying to keep myself alive.
Trying to imagine how I could ever possibly be a mother and a wife and have a family and a house (and a job??? Idk???) when I can hardly balance college, work, and feeding myself.
And pushing forward anyways because that's what we do.
Time doesn't stop.
There's not really any way to just. Hit pause on life so you can catch up.
There are things I want in the future, things I've looked forward to for my entire life. Can I at all see how I'm going to get there? No. But I know I want to, and the longer I keep going, the closer I'm going to get to being able to reach those things.
I don't know where I'm going to be in five, ten, fifteen years.
Where I am now is different from where I thought I'd be five, ten, fifteen years ago (although I don't think I thought much about this when I was four. Or nine. But still.)
But I know that where I am has so far worked out and been okayish because of (some of) what I did years and years and years ago.
So...I keep going. Because time will always keep going. Because I know there's something I'm going towards.
I just don't know what it is yet.
But I think it'll be good.
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Ever feel like you don't actually know anything at all?
Cuz me too.
How did I get this far? Idk, just kinda BSed my way.
Do my thing, freak out over things, somehow panic-mode my way through those things, repeat.
All while also procrastinating and not getting enough sleep and not eating healthy and sometimes not eating enough and trying to look cute and making some dumb financial decisions and never letting myself actually have time to do the things I actually want to do.
Forming opinions and trying to defend those opinions, even when the person I'm defending them to is my dad who has so much more life experience than me and is much better at standing his ground against me than I am and a lot of the time I end up crying because I'm so passionate about it and I know what I believe but I DON'T KNOW how to explain it in a way that he will understand.
Challenging opinions that I've had my whole life and trying to come out of challenging them with a stronger belief in them than before but it's so hard to find time to work on that so I'm just in a constant state of challenging AND believing which is NOT fun.
Trying to keep my social life alive.
Trying to keep myself alive.
Trying to imagine how I could ever possibly be a mother and a wife and have a family and a house (and a job??? Idk???) when I can hardly balance college, work, and feeding myself.
And pushing forward anyways because that's what we do.
Time doesn't stop.
There's not really any way to just. Hit pause on life so you can catch up.
There are things I want in the future, things I've looked forward to for my entire life. Can I at all see how I'm going to get there? No. But I know I want to, and the longer I keep going, the closer I'm going to get to being able to reach those things.
I don't know where I'm going to be in five, ten, fifteen years.
Where I am now is different from where I thought I'd be five, ten, fifteen years ago (although I don't think I thought much about this when I was four. Or nine. But still.)
But I know that where I am has so far worked out and been okayish because of (some of) what I did years and years and years ago.
So...I keep going. Because time will always keep going. Because I know there's something I'm going towards.
I just don't know what it is yet.
But I think it'll be good.