DramaQueen

Y'all y'all y'all okay so

I'm a theatre major, if you didn't know that before, now you do.

In the spring, I'm going to be in a production of Shakespeare's The Tempest.

I'm one of four people playing the character of Ariel.

"Wait, what? One character played by four actors???? How does that work?"

Allow me to elaborate.

Within the show, Ariel says that they "divide and burn in many places." Hence, we are all the divisions. There are two actors who will be kind of the "main" Ariels, so they'll have the bulk of the lines, but then me and the other other Ariel are internally understudying the main two, so that no matter how many Ariels go out (which, hopefully, no one will), as long as there's at least one Ariel left, we can still have the full character of Ariel.

We're also going to do a lot of really cool movement stuff and I GET TO CLIMB ON THE SET AND STUFF. I GET TO USE THE SET BASICALLY AS A PLAYGROUND??? YES PLEASE OMG.

And the COSTUMES??? I'm so excited. If you don't know, Ariel is a nature/wind spirit on an island, so they do a lot of magic stuff and aren't. Human. I love love love I'm so excited aaaaaaaaa.

Also the other three Ariels are all gender-wiggly in some way and I have lately been having a bit of a gender crisis so it's possible that all of the Ariels are gender-wiggly lol.

Taylor Swift is a genius that is all thank you for coming to my TED Talk

Rapunzel!!!

Rapunzel!!!

My childhood crushes but they get progressively more unhinged:

My childhood crushes but they get progressively more unhinged:

My childhood crushes but they get progressively more unhinged:

just got a new phone

tell me what i should set my wallpaper to, and i’ll take all the replies and put them in a rotating playlist

I'm curious.

What's everyone dressing up as for Halloween?

And if you're not dressing up, why not?

that got a little personal, spotify...

that got a little personal, spotify...

I took such a beautiful photo a few days ago-

Ever feel like you don't actually know anything at all?

Cuz me too.

How did I get this far? Idk, just kinda BSed my way. 

Do my thing, freak out over things, somehow panic-mode my way through those things, repeat.

All while also procrastinating and not getting enough sleep and not eating healthy and sometimes not eating enough and trying to look cute and making some dumb financial decisions and never letting myself actually have time to do the things I actually want to do.

Forming opinions and trying to defend those opinions, even when the person I'm defending them to is my dad who has so much more life experience than me and is much better at standing his ground against me than I am and a lot of the time I end up crying because I'm so passionate about it and I know what I believe but I DON'T KNOW how to explain it in a way that he will understand.

Challenging opinions that I've had my whole life and trying to come out of challenging them with a stronger belief in them than before but it's so hard to find time to work on that so I'm just in a constant state of challenging AND believing which is NOT fun.

Trying to keep my social life alive.

Trying to keep myself alive.

Trying to imagine how I could ever possibly be a mother and a wife and have a family and a house (and a job??? Idk???) when I can hardly balance college, work, and feeding myself.

And pushing forward anyways because that's what we do.

Time doesn't stop.

There's not really any way to just. Hit pause on life so you can catch up.

There are things I want in the future, things I've looked forward to for my entire life. Can I at all see how I'm going to get there? No. But I know I want to, and the longer I keep going, the closer I'm going to get to being able to reach those things.

I don't know where I'm going to be in five, ten, fifteen years.

Where I am now is different from where I thought I'd be five, ten, fifteen years ago (although I don't think I thought much about this when I was four. Or nine. But still.)

But I know that where I am has so far worked out and been okayish because of (some of) what I did years and years and years ago.

So...I keep going. Because time will always keep going. Because I know there's something I'm going towards.

I just don't know what it is yet.

But I think it'll be good.

Ever feel like you don't actually know anything at all?

Cuz me too.

How did I get this far? Idk, just kinda BSed my way. 

Do my thing, freak out over things, somehow panic-mode my way through those things, repeat.

All while also procrastinating and not getting enough sleep and not eating healthy and sometimes not eating enough and trying to look cute and making some dumb financial decisions and never letting myself actually have time to do the things I actually want to do.

Forming opinions and trying to defend those opinions, even when the person I'm defending them to is my dad who has so much more life experience than me and is much better at standing his ground against me than I am and a lot of the time I end up crying because I'm so passionate about it and I know what I believe but I DON'T KNOW how to explain it in a way that he will understand.

Challenging opinions that I've had my whole life and trying to come out of challenging them with a stronger belief in them than before but it's so hard to find time to work on that so I'm just in a constant state of challenging AND believing which is NOT fun.

Trying to keep my social life alive.

Trying to keep myself alive.

Trying to imagine how I could ever possibly be a mother and a wife and have a family and a house (and a job??? Idk???) when I can hardly balance college, work, and feeding myself.

And pushing forward anyways because that's what we do.

Time doesn't stop.

There's not really any way to just. Hit pause on life so you can catch up.

There are things I want in the future, things I've looked forward to for my entire life. Can I at all see how I'm going to get there? No. But I know I want to, and the longer I keep going, the closer I'm going to get to being able to reach those things.

I don't know where I'm going to be in five, ten, fifteen years.

Where I am now is different from where I thought I'd be five, ten, fifteen years ago (although I don't think I thought much about this when I was four. Or nine. But still.)

But I know that where I am has so far worked out and been okayish because of (some of) what I did years and years and years ago.

So...I keep going. Because time will always keep going. Because I know there's something I'm going towards.

I just don't know what it is yet.

But I think it'll be good.

Ever feel like you don't actually know anything at all?

Cuz me too.

How did I get this far? Idk, just kinda BSed my way. 

Do my thing, freak out over things, somehow panic-mode my way through those things, repeat.

All while also procrastinating and not getting enough sleep and not eating healthy and sometimes not eating enough and trying to look cute and making some dumb financial decisions and never letting myself actually have time to do the things I actually want to do.

Forming opinions and trying to defend those opinions, even when the person I'm defending them to is my dad who has so much more life experience than me and is much better at standing his ground against me than I am and a lot of the time I end up crying because I'm so passionate about it and I know what I believe but I DON'T KNOW how to explain it in a way that he will understand.

Challenging opinions that I've had my whole life and trying to come out of challenging them with a stronger belief in them than before but it's so hard to find time to work on that so I'm just in a constant state of challenging AND believing which is NOT fun.

Trying to keep my social life alive.

Trying to keep myself alive.

Trying to imagine how I could ever possibly be a mother and a wife and have a family and a house (and a job??? Idk???) when I can hardly balance college, work, and feeding myself.

And pushing forward anyways because that's what we do.

Time doesn't stop.

There's not really any way to just. Hit pause on life so you can catch up.

There are things I want in the future, things I've looked forward to for my entire life. Can I at all see how I'm going to get there? No. But I know I want to, and the longer I keep going, the closer I'm going to get to being able to reach those things.

I don't know where I'm going to be in five, ten, fifteen years.

Where I am now is different from where I thought I'd be five, ten, fifteen years ago (although I don't think I thought much about this when I was four. Or nine. But still.)

But I know that where I am has so far worked out and been okayish because of (some of) what I did years and years and years ago.

So...I keep going. Because time will always keep going. Because I know there's something I'm going towards.

I just don't know what it is yet.

But I think it'll be good.

Petri approves

Petri approves

Facts (Star Wars edition!):

• People who ship Anakin and Ahsoka are lunatics
• People who don't ship Ahsoka and Barriss are homophobic (jk, jk... or am I?)
  • (F, btw, in the chat for Barriss)
• There was a fight between Obi-Wan Kenobi and Darth Maul in Star Wars: Rebels that lasted approximately five seconds. It was the best goddamn scene in the entire show.
• There was a fight between Ahsoka Tano and Darth Maul in Star Wars: the Clone Wars that lasted approximately five minutes. It was not the best scene in the entire show, but it was certainly close.
• The best scene in the entire show was during the final episode of the final season of Clone Wars, during which Ahsoka and Rex are desperately trying to escape a doomed cruiser while an army of Order 66 clones are trying to kill them. It is choreographed magnificently, the emotions are painful, and the spectacle is incredible.
• Rey is a stupid character. Daisy Ridley is fine, but Rey is a stupid character.
• Sequel Defenders who play the Sexist card against people who don't like Rey's character have an intelligence score of approximately three and a half. "You can't stand a strong female character" Princess Leia was objectively the most badchull in the original original movie, and then proceeded to become more awesome as the trilogy went along. Mon Mothma? Ahsoka Tano? Padme Amidala? Friggin... Barriss, again!
• Andor is the best Star Wars show.
• Actually, it might just be the Best show.
• The Last Jedi could have been good and had the exact same plot if Luke Skywalker hadn't been a whiny little toddler throughout the whole thing. Have him trapped on the planet, or crippled from a battle, or heckin' already friggin' dead for all I care. I can see him refusing to teach Rey the ways of the Jedi because of trauma, but I can't see him completely shunning the ways of the Jedi altogether just because nipple boy got all emo about it.
• I hate Rise of Skywalker as much as the next guy, but I will defend a single "plot hole" that people keep pointing out for some reason. "Why didn't Rey heal Ben after he healed her" because the surprisingly well-paced (not well-written, but at least it was paletable) exposition clearly stated that you're transferring your own life force to someone else in order to heal them. They probably could've continued going back and forth for awhile, but unless they're straight-up Carnot Force Engines then they'd run out eventually.
• Every other plot hole in Rise of Skywalker is terrible and I will not defend them.

• Phantom Menace? Eh. It's not as bad as people say.
• Attack of the Clones? Bleh. It's worse than people say (good memes tho).
• Revenge of the Sith? BALLIN. It has its downs but its ups are worth it.
• A New Hope? HECK YEAH. Gimme that tasty greenscreen practical miniatures! I miss those things!
• Empire Strikes Back? BEST STAR WARS MOVIE. I would die on this hill, but not before I slaughter all the rest who would come to test me.
• The Last Jedi? HECKIN GOOD. Excellent conclusion to an excellent saga.
• The Force Awakens? Not great, but it's fine! It's pretty much just the first Star Wars movie to have decent CGI, and really that's all I ask for.
• The Last Jedi? I loved it as a kid, but have come to be rather jaded in my opinions. I'm with Mark Hamill on this one.
• The Rise of Skywalker? Absolute dogwater. And don't try to defend it by saying "it was just trying to fix all the mistakes from The Last Jedi" because even if it was it's STILL DOGWATER.
• Rogue One? Love it. So much. Probably my favorite Star Wars movie, though I might get lynched for saying that.
• Solo? It was fine. Did we need it? No. Was it fine? Yeah.

• There is no objectively "cooler" lightsaber color (except, of course, purple). My tastes between blue and green change periodically.
• Anakin Skywalker at the peak of his power would not defeat Son Goku, but you'd best believe he'd hold his own for a good while at least.
• Obi-Wan Kenobi would, in fact, defeat Son Goku. But only by entrapping him in a philosophical debate about ethics a few minutes into the fight, such that he eventually turned the saiyan to the Way of the Jedi.
• The Original Trilogy are not to be defiled by the hands of man. The Sequel Trilogy is a disgrace and an insult to Star Wars and the universe. The Prequel Trilogy, on average, is not good; but it's always Star Wars, through and through, which means I respect it.
• I could still totally rewrite it to be totally epic, tho. Imagine if it had a decent CGI budget as well.
  • (The prequels)
• I've been soaking up too much Star Wars content of late.

Facts (Star Wars edition!):

• People who ship Anakin and Ahsoka are lunatics
• People who don't ship Ahsoka and Barriss are homophobic (jk, jk... or am I?)
  • (F, btw, in the chat for Barriss)
• There was a fight between Obi-Wan Kenobi and Darth Maul in Star Wars: Rebels that lasted approximately five seconds. It was the best goddamn scene in the entire show.
• There was a fight between Ahsoka Tano and Darth Maul in Star Wars: the Clone Wars that lasted approximately five minutes. It was not the best scene in the entire show, but it was certainly close.
• The best scene in the entire show was during the final episode of the final season of Clone Wars, during which Ahsoka and Rex are desperately trying to escape a doomed cruiser while an army of Order 66 clones are trying to kill them. It is choreographed magnificently, the emotions are painful, and the spectacle is incredible.
• Rey is a stupid character. Daisy Ridley is fine, but Rey is a stupid character.
• Sequel Defenders who play the Sexist card against people who don't like Rey's character have an intelligence score of approximately three and a half. "You can't stand a strong female character" Princess Leia was objectively the most badchull in the original original movie, and then proceeded to become more awesome as the trilogy went along. Mon Mothma? Ahsoka Tano? Padme Amidala? Friggin... Barriss, again!
• Andor is the best Star Wars show.
• Actually, it might just be the Best show.
• The Last Jedi could have been good and had the exact same plot if Luke Skywalker hadn't been a whiny little toddler throughout the whole thing. Have him trapped on the planet, or crippled from a battle, or heckin' already friggin' dead for all I care. I can see him refusing to teach Rey the ways of the Jedi because of trauma, but I can't see him completely shunning the ways of the Jedi altogether just because nipple boy got all emo about it.
• I hate Rise of Skywalker as much as the next guy, but I will defend a single "plot hole" that people keep pointing out for some reason. "Why didn't Rey heal Ben after he healed her" because the surprisingly well-paced (not well-written, but at least it was paletable) exposition clearly stated that you're transferring your own life force to someone else in order to heal them. They probably could've continued going back and forth for awhile, but unless they're straight-up Carnot Force Engines then they'd run out eventually.
• Every other plot hole in Rise of Skywalker is terrible and I will not defend them.

• Phantom Menace? Eh. It's not as bad as people say.
• Attack of the Clones? Bleh. It's worse than people say (good memes tho).
• Revenge of the Sith? BALLIN. It has its downs but its ups are worth it.
• A New Hope? HECK YEAH. Gimme that tasty greenscreen practical miniatures! I miss those things!
• Empire Strikes Back? BEST STAR WARS MOVIE. I would die on this hill, but not before I slaughter all the rest who would come to test me.
• The Last Jedi? HECKIN GOOD. Excellent conclusion to an excellent saga.
• The Force Awakens? Not great, but it's fine! It's pretty much just the first Star Wars movie to have decent CGI, and really that's all I ask for.
• The Last Jedi? I loved it as a kid, but have come to be rather jaded in my opinions. I'm with Mark Hamill on this one.
• The Rise of Skywalker? Absolute dogwater. And don't try to defend it by saying "it was just trying to fix all the mistakes from The Last Jedi" because even if it was it's STILL DOGWATER.
• Rogue One? Love it. So much. Probably my favorite Star Wars movie, though I might get lynched for saying that.
• Solo? It was fine. Did we need it? No. Was it fine? Yeah.

• There is no objectively "cooler" lightsaber color (except, of course, purple). My tastes between blue and green change periodically.
• Anakin Skywalker at the peak of his power would not defeat Son Goku, but you'd best believe he'd hold his own for a good while at least.
• Obi-Wan Kenobi would, in fact, defeat Son Goku. But only by entrapping him in a philosophical debate about ethics a few minutes into the fight, such that he eventually turned the saiyan to the Way of the Jedi.
• The Original Trilogy are not to be defiled by the hands of man. The Sequel Trilogy is a disgrace and an insult to Star Wars and the universe. The Prequel Trilogy, on average, is not good; but it's always Star Wars, through and through, which means I respect it.
• I could still totally rewrite it to be totally epic, tho. Imagine if it had a decent CGI budget as well.
  • (The prequels)
• I've been soaking up too much Star Wars content of late.

Facts (Star Wars edition!):

• People who ship Anakin and Ahsoka are lunatics
• People who don't ship Ahsoka and Barriss are homophobic (jk, jk... or am I?)
  • (F, btw, in the chat for Barriss)
• There was a fight between Obi-Wan Kenobi and Darth Maul in Star Wars: Rebels that lasted approximately five seconds. It was the best goddamn scene in the entire show.
• There was a fight between Ahsoka Tano and Darth Maul in Star Wars: the Clone Wars that lasted approximately five minutes. It was not the best scene in the entire show, but it was certainly close.
• The best scene in the entire show was during the final episode of the final season of Clone Wars, during which Ahsoka and Rex are desperately trying to escape a doomed cruiser while an army of Order 66 clones are trying to kill them. It is choreographed magnificently, the emotions are painful, and the spectacle is incredible.
• Rey is a stupid character. Daisy Ridley is fine, but Rey is a stupid character.
• Sequel Defenders who play the Sexist card against people who don't like Rey's character have an intelligence score of approximately three and a half. "You can't stand a strong female character" Princess Leia was objectively the most badchull in the original original movie, and then proceeded to become more awesome as the trilogy went along. Mon Mothma? Ahsoka Tano? Padme Amidala? Friggin... Barriss, again!
• Andor is the best Star Wars show.
• Actually, it might just be the Best show.
• The Last Jedi could have been good and had the exact same plot if Luke Skywalker hadn't been a whiny little toddler throughout the whole thing. Have him trapped on the planet, or crippled from a battle, or heckin' already friggin' dead for all I care. I can see him refusing to teach Rey the ways of the Jedi because of trauma, but I can't see him completely shunning the ways of the Jedi altogether just because nipple boy got all emo about it.
• I hate Rise of Skywalker as much as the next guy, but I will defend a single "plot hole" that people keep pointing out for some reason. "Why didn't Rey heal Ben after he healed her" because the surprisingly well-paced (not well-written, but at least it was paletable) exposition clearly stated that you're transferring your own life force to someone else in order to heal them. They probably could've continued going back and forth for awhile, but unless they're straight-up Carnot Force Engines then they'd run out eventually.
• Every other plot hole in Rise of Skywalker is terrible and I will not defend them.

• Phantom Menace? Eh. It's not as bad as people say.
• Attack of the Clones? Bleh. It's worse than people say (good memes tho).
• Revenge of the Sith? BALLIN. It has its downs but its ups are worth it.
• A New Hope? HECK YEAH. Gimme that tasty greenscreen practical miniatures! I miss those things!
• Empire Strikes Back? BEST STAR WARS MOVIE. I would die on this hill, but not before I slaughter all the rest who would come to test me.
• The Last Jedi? HECKIN GOOD. Excellent conclusion to an excellent saga.
• The Force Awakens? Not great, but it's fine! It's pretty much just the first Star Wars movie to have decent CGI, and really that's all I ask for.
• The Last Jedi? I loved it as a kid, but have come to be rather jaded in my opinions. I'm with Mark Hamill on this one.
• The Rise of Skywalker? Absolute dogwater. And don't try to defend it by saying "it was just trying to fix all the mistakes from The Last Jedi" because even if it was it's STILL DOGWATER.
• Rogue One? Love it. So much. Probably my favorite Star Wars movie, though I might get lynched for saying that.
• Solo? It was fine. Did we need it? No. Was it fine? Yeah.

• There is no objectively "cooler" lightsaber color (except, of course, purple). My tastes between blue and green change periodically.
• Anakin Skywalker at the peak of his power would not defeat Son Goku, but you'd best believe he'd hold his own for a good while at least.
• Obi-Wan Kenobi would, in fact, defeat Son Goku. But only by entrapping him in a philosophical debate about ethics a few minutes into the fight, such that he eventually turned the saiyan to the Way of the Jedi.
• The Original Trilogy are not to be defiled by the hands of man. The Sequel Trilogy is a disgrace and an insult to Star Wars and the universe. The Prequel Trilogy, on average, is not good; but it's always Star Wars, through and through, which means I respect it.
• I could still totally rewrite it to be totally epic, tho. Imagine if it had a decent CGI budget as well.
  • (The prequels)
• I've been soaking up too much Star Wars content of late.

Petri approves

Petri approves

Literally DONE (except skirt embellishments and buttons but those don't require a sewing machine so they can wait) (also ignore my awkward af pose idk how to pose)

Literally DONE (except skirt embellishments and buttons but those don't require a sewing machine so they can wait) (also ignore my awkward af pose idk how to pose)

Literally DONE (except skirt embellishments and buttons but those don't require a sewing machine so they can wait) (also ignore my awkward af pose idk how to pose)