Akimikoisthecutest Posted January 22 Posted January 22 1 minute ago, Theory said: It's hard for me to decide if that's me or not. I think I sometimes feel like that. Or it depends. I actually edited my post to include something similar. Let me know if you have any other questions! 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 1 hour ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: Let me know if you have any other questions! Yep! Thx! 1 hour ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: Let me know if you have any other questions! I guess this is one one those things where sometimes it's hard to tell because you don't know what the other side is like. For example, I've heard/read about trans ppl thinking "everyone does/thinks this" or like not knowing that cis ppl don't feel like that, since they're not cis. So, how do I know what sexual attraction feels like? I'm not sure if I've ever experienced it or not, but I find people attractive. Which, again, might also be gender envy... Or just in general finding people attractive but still being asexual. Is that a thing? I might be ace or something @Hmmm lies you were the one who talked about being super attracted to women, right? Can you tell me what it's like so I can see if I relate or not? Because I think I might be on the ace spectrum. On 1/10/2026 at 10:38 PM, Aeoryi said: I just merely realized that me not ever having any relationships ever doesn't mean I'm aro ace POV Me: Also these are literally my favorite colors (I'm fr): Spoiler Technically, my faves are purple and black, but I also like things that are black-grey-white (like plannel (plaid + flannel) PJs) Edited January 22 by Theory
Shatter He/Him Posted January 22 Posted January 22 On 1/10/2026 at 10:38 PM, Aeoryi said: I just merely realized that me not ever having any relationships ever doesn't mean I'm aro ace Yup. This do be me.
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) Just now, Shatter said: Yup. This do be me. Idk if it's me or not yet Edited January 22 by Theory
Hmmm lies she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 1 hour ago, Theory said: @Hmmm lies you were the one who talked about being super attracted to women, right? Can you tell me what it's like so I can see if I relate or not? Because I think I might be on the ace spectrum. I'll do my best! Romantic attraction, or yearning I suppose (I want someone to love, but don't actually have any real crushes on anyone right now) manifests to me as a desire to be as close as possible with a woman. To be her most important thing, and for her to be the most important thing to me. The idea of cuddling, hugging, and kisses comes to mind, and I'd be crying from the sheer joy of having this person in my life. The wanting of a woman to tell me how much she loves me, to make sure I know how she treasures me, and feeling more and more ecstatic as she does so, and then doing the same to her, because how could I not love her just as much after everything she's done for me? I'm not sure if that was helpful, but I find the best way to communicate how I feel attraction is through my fantasies. Sexual attraction... well... Hmmm (lies) how can I helpfully communicate this but also not feel uncomfortable saying it...? Lust is a word I hear used often. Thirst, I think, works well as well. For me, it's the desire to experience. To see, to hear, to feel, to smell, to taste. A desire for physical pleasure, delivered by a woman. When I see a hot women, my brain gets all... melty? Idk if that's the right word, but it feels as though I can't focus on anything else. Maybe a little mental short-circuit? I kind of forcibly have to get my brain focused again. Regardless, I didn't really feel this until a few months before my egg cracked, and it wasn't very powerful back then. Everyone feels sexual attraction differently. I didn't give many details of my own experience, but it's different than a lot of other people. Also sexual and romantic attraction often mix for me, but not always, and this doesn't happen for everyone. 4
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 20 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: The idea of cuddling, hugging, and kisses comes to mind, Sameeeeee. Definitely cuddling, and maybe hugging, and maybe kissing but probably not. 20 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: Hmmm (lies) how can I helpfully communicate this but also not feel uncomfortable saying it...? Yeah, sorry 'bout that. 20 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: Lust is a word I hear used often. Thirst, I think, works well as well. For me, it's the desire to experience. To see, to hear, to feel, to smell, to taste. A desire for physical pleasure, delivered by a woman. Hmmm (Lies. I didn't actually intend that lol) I'm not sure if I feel this or not. 20 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: When I see a hot women, my brain gets all... melty? Idk if that's the right word, but it feels as though I can't focus on anything else. Maybe a little mental short-circuit? I kind of forcibly have to get my brain focused again. For me it's nothing like this. I basically just see women and be like "she's pretty" or "cool" or something. I think some of it may be "I want to be her..." . Idk. I guess I might get a little distracted, but barely. More like my eyes keep returning to her or I make excuses (to myself) to look in her direction... which hopefully isn't weird or bad... anyway or I look away but want to look that's one thing i related to in the GDB uhmmmm also I think my thoughts have changed from the above since I started questioning because now I'm constantl thinking of me and trans, though not as much as the first few days. but every time I see a woman I think of me trans. every time I see a man i think of what my feelings are or should be and how guys arent as cool as girls. 20 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: Regardless, I didn't really feel this until a few months before my egg cracked, and it wasn't very powerful back then. i dont think ive ever felt the melty brain thing. also I think I was gonna say something else but forgto lol basically i want cuddles and very close friendship. at least that's what I "fantasized" about before. now i dont even know if I like (as in "have a crush on" or "attracted to") anyone... in the past few days, if u asked me about who i am attracted to, I wouldve said "I think I like girls and idk about guys." also...I get a little uncomfortable? when ppl talk about "creepy guys" if you know what I mean cuz Im not one (not creepy and not a guy) so idk mb thats cuzz anyway now im starting to sound like a loser ummmmmmmmmm i never understood "hot." Like irl or in movies/shows/books, people call each other hot. I find people "pretty" or "attractive." Is that the same as hot? I just don't feel like "hot" describes what I feel. eeeeerrrrrr what else... ive never been in a relationship but also didnt have much opportunity i guess. And perhaps the same could be said for desire. ummmmmm yeah anyway edit: 777th post Edited January 22 by Theory
Shatter He/Him Posted January 22 Posted January 22 1 hour ago, Theory said: @Hmmm lies you were the one who talked about being super attracted to women, right? Can you tell me what it's like so I can see if I relate or not? Because I think I might be on the ace spectrum. I'll answer to give another opinion. It feels like a euphoric feeling to me. The person would intrude into my thoughts without effort. I'd also have a surge of motivation and confidence (which would immediately vanish if I opened my mouth to talk to them). Other things may seem slightly dimmer or less significant. I'd also replay interactions in my head that I had with them. I'd feel a 'fluttery' feeling when I was near them, and I'd also become more aware of how I look. I'd feel nervous, and I'd feel a 'pull'. My stutter would get also worse. I would also be generally more cheerful near them. Notes: I'm a religious Jew, so physical touch is off-limits until marriage, full stop. I also have autism, which may change how I feel attraction. I'm also more sensitive to the personality of the person and less to their looks. (In general, I'm an odd case, but I do believe what, I felt was what most people feel.)
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 1 minute ago, Shatter said: I'll answer to give another opinion. It feels like a euphoric feeling to me. The person would intrude into my thoughts without effort. I'd also have a surge of motivation and confidence (which would immediately vanish if I opened my mouth to talk to them). Other things may seem slightly dimmer or less significant. I'd also replay interactions in my head that I had with them. I'd feel a 'fluttery' feeling when I was near them, and I'd also become more aware of how I look. I'd feel nervous, and I'd feel a 'pull'. My stutter would get also worse. I would also be generally more cheerful near them. Notes: I'm a religious Jew, so physical touch is off-limits until marriage, full stop. I also have autism, which may change how I feel attraction. I'm also more sensitive to the personality of the person and less to their looks. (In general, I'm an odd case, but I do believe what, I felt was what most people feel.) Doesn't really sound like me... But is that because I'm ace or because I've just never like had any friends rlly What I mean is are you attracted to or do you get those feelings you mentioned from people you just see around or share a class with or something? Or are you already friends with them and talk to them?
Shatter He/Him Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 2 minutes ago, Theory said: Doesn't really sound like me... But is that because I'm ace or because I've just never like had any friends rlly What I mean is are you attracted to or do you get those feelings you mentioned from people you just see around or share a class with or something? Or are you already friends with them and talk to them? People I just see around or shar a class with. 15 minutes ago, Theory said: Sameeeeee. Definitely cuddling, and maybe hugging, and maybe kissing but probably not. Yeah, sorry 'bout that. Hmmm (Lies. I didn't actually intend that lol) I'm not sure if I feel this or not. For me it's nothing like this. I basically just see women and be like "she's pretty" or "cool" or something. I think some of it may be "I want to be her..." . Idk. I guess I might get a little distracted, but barely. More like my eyes keep returning to her... which hopefully isn't weird or bad... anyway or I look away but want to look that's one thing i related to in the GDB uhmmmm also I think my thoughts have changed from the above since I started questioning because now I'm constantl thinking of me and trans, though not as much as the first few days. but every time I see a woman I think of me trans. every time I see a man i think of what my feelings are or should be and how guys arent as cool as girls. i dont think ive ever felt the melty brain thing. also I think I was gonna say something else but forgto lol basically i want cuddles and very close friendship. at least that's what I "fantasized" about before. now i dont even know if I like (as in "have a crush on" or "attracted to") anyone... in the past few days, if u asked me about who i am attracted to, I wouldve said "I think I like girls and idk about guys." also...I get a little uncomfortable? when ppl talk about "creepy guys" if you know what I mean cuz Im not one (not creepy and not a guy) so idk mb thats cuzz anyway now im starting to sound like a loser ummmmmmmmmm i never understood "hot." Like irl or in movies/shows/books, people call each other hot. I find people "pretty" or "attractive." Is that the same as hot? I just don't feel like "hot" describes what I feel. eeeeerrrrrr what else... ive never been in a relationship but also didnt have much opportunity i guess. And perhaps the same could be said for desire. ummmmmm yeah anyway edit: 777th post This could be just romantic and/or platonic attraction. This may also because you haven't had much opportunity or you don't experience intense attraction. Now for the hot vs pretty thing. This is something I experience. I find people beautiful or pretty. Hot doesn't really register for me. You may be romantic but low-sexual, demi-romantic, asexual but not aromantic or simply not activated yet. There is nothing wrong with attraction that waits for meaning. I'd advise to just wait and see if anything happens. Edited January 22 by Shatter 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 4 minutes ago, Shatter said: People I just see around or shar a class with. This could be just romantic and/or platonic attraction. This may also because you haven't had much opportunity or you don't experience intense attraction. Now for the hot vs pretty thing. This is something I experience. I find people beautiful or pretty. Hot doesn't really register for me. You may be romantic but low-sexual, demi-romantic, asexual but not aromantic or simply not activated yet. There is nothing wrong with attraction that waits for meaning. I'd advise to just wait and see if anything happens. Ok, cool I guess... The thing is I never really expected myself to get/be in a relationship. Not that I didn't want one (at least off-and-on, mildly, or sometimes), it just didn't seem realistic. Maybe just cuz I'm socially inept and "weird"/neurodivergent. It just seemed right that no one would ever love me that I would never be in one. Tbh it's soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much easier to talk to ppl online. Like a barely talk to ppl (excluding family and my D&D group) IRL. Edited January 22 by Theory 1
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 38 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: I'll do my best! Romantic attraction, or yearning I suppose (I want someone to love, but don't actually have any real crushes on anyone right now) manifests to me as a desire to be as close as possible with a woman. To be her most important thing, and for her to be the most important thing to me. The idea of cuddling, hugging, and kisses comes to mind, and I'd be crying from the sheer joy of having this person in my life. The wanting of a woman to tell me how much she loves me, to make sure I know how she treasures me, and feeling more and more ecstatic as she does so, and then doing the same to her, because how could I not love her just as much after everything she's done for me? I'm not sure if that was helpful, but I find the best way to communicate how I feel attraction is through my fantasies. Sexual attraction... well... Hmmm (lies) how can I helpfully communicate this but also not feel uncomfortable saying it...? Lust is a word I hear used often. Thirst, I think, works well as well. For me, it's the desire to experience. To see, to hear, to feel, to smell, to taste. A desire for physical pleasure, delivered by a woman. When I see a hot women, my brain gets all... melty? Idk if that's the right word, but it feels as though I can't focus on anything else. Maybe a little mental short-circuit? I kind of forcibly have to get my brain focused again. Regardless, I didn't really feel this until a few months before my egg cracked, and it wasn't very powerful back then. Everyone feels sexual attraction differently. I didn't give many details of my own experience, but it's different than a lot of other people. Also sexual and romantic attraction often mix for me, but not always, and this doesn't happen for everyone. What lies said
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 1 minute ago, Aeoryi said: What lies said Sis at least offer some advice lol Or describe ur feelings Edited January 22 by Theory
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 Just now, Theory said: Sis at least offer some advice lol I will. After I eat dinner. 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 3 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: I will. After I eat dinner. I was gonna ask u yesterday if u enjoyed ur dinner but decided not to cuz that's not smth ppl say online so lemme know if u liked this dinner lol also help guys I need to write something before the day's end for my blog helppppppppp gimme a one-word prompt or smth and ill try to write smth meaningful Edited January 22 by Theory
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 5 minutes ago, Theory said: gimme a one-word prompt or smth and ill try to write smth meaningful recursive 1
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 (edited) 3 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: recursive im rlly not in the mood for writing but ill try i guess i can write it abt programming or depression/anxiety/obsession/bad-stuff-in-general as always perfect! ill use the word "recur" as in recurring bad stuff!!!!! yayayayay! Edited January 22 by Theory
Through The Living Glass She/They Posted January 22 Posted January 22 1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ DYSPHORIA (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ *hughug* grr *takes ax to table*
Aeoryi she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 19 minutes ago, Theory said: Sis at least offer some advice lol Or describe ur feelings Okay so, here's the thing: I've known I was like, into women long before I was ever starting to even consider I was trans. Now, for the longest time, I'd consider myself aroace. This probably seems contradictory but it makes sense eventually. The thing is, I know that I prefer women over men. That wasn't hard to figure out. However, to me, I knew I could only love a woman if I was a woman myself. F/F relationships have always interested me, and I have basically never expressed interest in heterosexual relationships. This is probably best exemplified by the media I'm interested in. I read Yuri frequently (which basically means girl/girl relationship) and I've done that for a while. I don't read the gay equivalent to that kind of stuff, or lame generic heterosexual romance novels. The things that appeal to me in the kind of media I consume tends to be the nature of the relationship- the mutual feeling of being cared for, and caring for someone else. Physical touch is sometimes involves but like in general it's like... The way it comes about is often also very appealing. Idk why but for me the other equivalents to it just feels repulsive and/or gross. Let's talk about what that feels like irl Nothing. The thing is, I've kinda just repressed these feelings over time. It's not really viable for a guy to be yearning for a girl-girl relationship, especially considering he's not a girl, plus it's not really considered something that's "normal" and moreso probably considered something that's weird. So I just repressed it. Come to terms with the fact that it'll never be me, and that I won't enjoy other kinds of relationships as much knowing that there's one I'd enjoy more To say that I don't feel strong attraction towards anyone, okay, maybe that's a lie. There are some women I am more attracted to than others. But once again, I don't actually want to have a relationship in my current state, because to me that'd be akin to having a heterosexual relationship (regardless of how I identify). I doubt, in fact, I'd ever feel comfortable entering a relationship, unless I had my bottom dysphoria cured, and that's mostly because it lacks that genuine aspect that other f/f relationships seem to have. Now, the fact that I don't feel comfortable entering a relationship is not grounds for identifying as asexual. Just because I feel like I have no chance doesn't mean I don't feel anything or I don't have a preference or that I don't want a relationship. For me, my sexual orientation isn't necessarily who I am actively seeking out a relationship for but rather my ultimate preference. I don't get the melty brain thing (I did once when I had a crush back when I was 14) and I don't get like completely unfocused when hot women are around. But I still yearn for something I'm not able to have... yet That's how I know I'm not asexual 1
Shatter He/Him Posted January 22 Posted January 22 52 minutes ago, Theory said: Ok, cool I guess... The thing is I never really expected myself to get/be in a relationship. Not that I didn't want one (at least off-and-on, mildly, or sometimes), it just didn't seem realistic. Maybe just cuz I'm socially inept and "weird"/neurodivergent. It just seemed right that no one would ever love me that I would never be in one. Tbh it's soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much easier to talk to ppl online. Like a barely talk to ppl (excluding family and my D&D group) IRL. :3 That's what we're here for!
Hmmm lies she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 1 hour ago, Theory said: Sameeeeee. Definitely cuddling, and maybe hugging, and maybe kissing but probably not. Yeah, sorry 'bout that. Hmmm (Lies. I didn't actually intend that lol) I'm not sure if I feel this or not. For me it's nothing like this. I basically just see women and be like "she's pretty" or "cool" or something. I think some of it may be "I want to be her..." . Idk. I guess I might get a little distracted, but barely. More like my eyes keep returning to her or I make excuses (to myself) to look in her direction... which hopefully isn't weird or bad... anyway or I look away but want to look that's one thing i related to in the GDB uhmmmm also I think my thoughts have changed from the above since I started questioning because now I'm constantl thinking of me and trans, though not as much as the first few days. but every time I see a woman I think of me trans. every time I see a man i think of what my feelings are or should be and how guys arent as cool as girls. i dont think ive ever felt the melty brain thing. also I think I was gonna say something else but forgto lol basically i want cuddles and very close friendship. at least that's what I "fantasized" about before. now i dont even know if I like (as in "have a crush on" or "attracted to") anyone... in the past few days, if u asked me about who i am attracted to, I wouldve said "I think I like girls and idk about guys." also...I get a little uncomfortable? when ppl talk about "creepy guys" if you know what I mean cuz Im not one (not creepy and not a guy) so idk mb thats cuzz anyway now im starting to sound like a loser ummmmmmmmmm i never understood "hot." Like irl or in movies/shows/books, people call each other hot. I find people "pretty" or "attractive." Is that the same as hot? I just don't feel like "hot" describes what I feel. eeeeerrrrrr what else... ive never been in a relationship but also didnt have much opportunity i guess. And perhaps the same could be said for desire. ummmmmm yeah anyway edit: 777th post This sounds like it could be asexual, maybe aromantic too but it might be something in between alloromantic and aromantic, (please don't take my advice completely, I'm not aro or ace, so I don't have a complete handle on everything.) I'd say pretty and hot aren't the same thing, but there's a lot of overlap. And like, the way it works is weird. I can tell that a guy is "hot", but I wouldn't see him as hot, I just know that he fulfills the criteria of what people find hot in men, as opposed to women, where I would see her as "hot". Of course, there's nothing wrong with continuing to discover, and getting a better handle on stuff. A lot of people have their sexuality shift. 5 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: Okay so, here's the thing: I've known I was like, into women long before I was ever starting to even consider I was trans. Now, for the longest time, I'd consider myself aroace. This probably seems contradictory but it makes sense eventually. The thing is, I know that I prefer women over men. That wasn't hard to figure out. However, to me, I knew I could only love a woman if I was a woman myself. F/F relationships have always interested me, and I have basically never expressed interest in heterosexual relationships. This is probably best exemplified by the media I'm interested in. I read Yuri frequently (which basically means girl/girl relationship) and I've done that for a while. I don't read the gay equivalent to that kind of stuff, or lame generic heterosexual romance novels. The things that appeal to me in the kind of media I consume tends to be the nature of the relationship- the mutual feeling of being cared for, and caring for someone else. Physical touch is sometimes involves but like in general it's like... The way it comes about is often also very appealing. Idk why but for me the other equivalents to it just feels repulsive and/or gross. Let's talk about what that feels like irl Nothing. The thing is, I've kinda just repressed these feelings over time. It's not really viable for a guy to be yearning for a girl-girl relationship, especially considering he's not a girl, plus it's not really considered something that's "normal" and moreso probably considered something that's weird. So I just repressed it. Come to terms with the fact that it'll never be me, and that I won't enjoy other kinds of relationships as much knowing that there's one I'd enjoy more To say that I don't feel strong attraction towards anyone, okay, maybe that's a lie. There are some women I am more attracted to than others. But once again, I don't actually want to have a relationship in my current state, because to me that'd be akin to having a heterosexual relationship (regardless of how I identify). I doubt, in fact, I'd ever feel comfortable entering a relationship, unless I had my bottom dysphoria cured, and that's mostly because it lacks that genuine aspect that other f/f relationships seem to have. Now, the fact that I don't feel comfortable entering a relationship is not grounds for identifying as asexual. Just because I feel like I have no chance doesn't mean I don't feel anything or I don't have a preference or that I don't want a relationship. For me, my sexual orientation isn't necessarily who I am actively seeking out a relationship for but rather my ultimate preference. I don't get the melty brain thing (I did once when I had a crush back when I was 14) and I don't get like completely unfocused when hot women are around. But I still yearn for something I'm not able to have... yet That's how I know I'm not asexual Oh my god this is like almost identical to how I felt. For most of my life, I thought I was ace (while I did eventually start feeling sexual attraction as an egg, it increase a LOT after egg broke). And I always liked f/f romances more than any others, and even would at times think about being in one. I also get not feeling comfortable entering a relationship. I kinda felt like that, but that didn't mean I didn't fantasize about it. Like, I didn't wanna get in a relationship until I was on HRT, but I still imagined what it would be like. There's also a little more I wanna say, so I'll PM you when I get the chance. 2
Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾ Posted January 22 Posted January 22 10 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: F/F relationships have always interested me EEPE EPPEPPE EEEPE SSAMEEMEMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SAMEE SAMEEE 11 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: I don't read the gay equivalent to that kind of stuff, or lame generic heterosexual romance novels. The things that appeal to me in the kind of media I consume tends to be the nature of the relationship- the mutual feeling of being cared for, and caring for someone else. Physical touch is sometimes involves but like in general it's like... The way it comes about is often also very appealing. Idk why but for me the other equivalents to it just feels repulsive and/or gross. Ok so...im a bit diferent. except i read this amazing book that wasnt really a romance novel but about someone who i think was ace or aro or aroace or something similar and that mightve actually been my first exposure to it now that i think of it but anyway it was great even tho they were just friends/platonic in the end ive always (pretend i use lots of big positive happy words here) REALLY LOVED OR WANTED books where the characters are...like...friends? its hard to explain and my thoughts are fast rn but basically like cuddling kinda? Or friends. AH! Friends/people that comfort each other when they are sad. That's what I rlly want to read. Tho idk how much ive read, but its what I like. Think Shallan and Kaladin in the chasm during the Highstorm. Kinda like that. I guess. *me realizing ive read yet another trans book without realizing it* anyway uhm idk i dont rlly wanna say too much abt romance novels bcz yk 15 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: The thing is, I've kinda just repressed these feelings over time. It's not really viable for a guy to be yearning for a girl-girl relationship, especially considering he's not a girl, plus it's not really considered something that's "normal" and moreso probably considered something that's weird. So I just repressed it. Come to terms with the fact that it'll never be me, and that I won't enjoy other kinds of relationships as much knowing that there's one I'd enjoy more Girl SAMEEE so i read something similar maybe in the GDB and i rlly related. like i was/am just fascinated with f/f relationships, idk. but i unfortunately havent had much...content? with them, so..yeah.. 18 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: To say that I don't feel strong attraction towards anyone, okay, maybe that's a lie. There are some women I am more attracted to than others. But once again, I don't actually want to have a relationship in my current state, because to me that'd be akin to having a heterosexual relationship (regardless of how I identify). I doubt, in fact, I'd ever feel comfortable entering a relationship, unless I had my bottom dysphoria cured, and that's mostly because it lacks that genuine aspect that other f/f relationships seem to have. I think that's actually what I'm feeling. Like I can't rlly imagine myself - as I am now - in a relationship. I don't even see myself - as i am now - being capable of one. its just not something that would be natural. ive always attributed this to my social ineptitude/incompetence/sadness, and maybe that's correct, maybe not, idk. the thing is, i want a relationship, but i also don't. Same with friends i guess. I want the concept, but can't see it when applied to myself-as-i-currently-am. im totally not self-deprecating. hehe. hehe.... 22 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: Okay so, here's the thing: I've known I was like, into women long before I was ever starting to even consider I was trans. Now, for the longest time, I'd consider myself aroace. This probably seems contradictory but it makes sense eventually. The thing is, I know that I prefer women over men. That wasn't hard to figure out. However, to me, I knew I could only love a woman if I was a woman myself. F/F relationships have always interested me, and I have basically never expressed interest in heterosexual relationships. sorry im quoting this down here but whatevvvsss anyway yes i definitely relate to u in that i prefer women to men. 23 minutes ago, Aeoryi said: But I still yearn for something I'm not able to have... yet same sis... i guess its like i cant have a relationship until... and even then, will my lameness carry over? also: (the words line up :3) 18 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: Oh my god this is like almost identical to how I felt. i love getting more proof that im (probably) trans :3 19 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: For most of my life, I thought I was ace (while I did eventually start feeling sexual attraction as an egg, it increase a LOT after egg broke). And I always liked f/f romances more than any others, and even would at times think about being in one. f/f romances are just better :3 while i actually sometimes like "classic" romances, f/f (or the concept of one) is more appealing. Because, who needs a guy? Plus, if I had to fulfill that role... yuck. Idek what guys are s'pposed to do in relationships. Or girls I guess. But yeah. It's kinda weird, yk? Like we imagine ourselves in an f/f relationship, but don't really? At least that's what it's like for me. Because I wasn't thinking I was trans, so that didn't make sense, but I guess I imagined f/f and then put me as one of them. Idk. Also guys are soooo lameeee Not all guys of course Every time someone says "guys are lame" i feel weird bcz i think/thought of myself as one, and im not lame. at least not in those ways. anyway 24 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said: I also get not feeling comfortable entering a relationship. I kinda felt like that, but that didn't mean I didn't fantasize about it. Like, I didn't wanna get in a relationship until I was on HRT, but I still imagined what it would be like. yep, same 2
Honors Spectral Image She/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 11 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ DYSPHORIA (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ Me too gurl
Akimikoisthecutest Posted January 22 Posted January 22 One of my friends said, 'Everyone thinks I'm trans. I'm not but it would be fun if I was. I mean, how hard can it be?" And I don't say anything but I'm like, Oh you sweet naive child. You have no idea what it's like... 4
Hmmm lies she/her Posted January 22 Posted January 22 4 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said: One of my friends said, 'Everyone thinks I'm trans. I'm not but it would be fun if I was. I mean, how hard can it be?" And I don't say anything but I'm like, Oh you sweet naive child. You have no idea what it's like... ...sounds a little eggy to me (i basically had this same thought) 2
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