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10 hours ago, Theory said:

no one knows what its like

to be the bad woman

to be the sad woman

behind blue eyes

yeah...i was gonna say like "i wonder what it's like..." and then devolved into reciting (with some changes) a song 

also @Hmmm lies now what

I love Behind Blue Eyes. Such a good song. Makes me feel sad when I listen to it. 

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ignore this maybe

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guys is it weird that for, like, a while, i tried to avoid using gendered terms, at least IRL? Perhaps especially for girl/woman/she/her. But like I usually say "they/them" "the person" etc., even when i know or assume their gender.

 

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Posted
32 minutes ago, Theory said:

guys is it weird that for, like, a while, i tried to avoid using gendered terms, at least IRL? Perhaps especially for girl/woman/she/her. But like I usually say "they/them" "the person" etc., even when i know or assume their gender.

That’s good I’m trying to get myself to do that more

Posted (edited)
12 minutes ago, Honors Ghost said:

That’s good I’m trying to get myself to do that more

Do what?

 

maybe u missed the point nvm eeeep ignore it

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Posted
52 minutes ago, Theory said:
Spoiler

guys is it weird that for, like, a while, i tried to avoid using gendered terms, at least IRL? Perhaps especially for girl/woman/she/her. But like I usually say "they/them" "the person" etc., even when i know or assume their gender.

 

Not really. I do it all the time

Posted (edited)
11 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Not really. I do it all the time

(meaning, it's not weird?) phew

 

edit: yall, is it still okay to say "transgender"? Or do ppl just say "trans" now?

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Posted
1 hour ago, Theory said:

ignore this maybe

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guys is it weird that for, like, a while, i tried to avoid using gendered terms, at least IRL? Perhaps especially for girl/woman/she/her. But like I usually say "they/them" "the person" etc., even when i know or assume their gender.

 

same lol. It's just easier. I think everyone does it

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ok...so i just watched a YT video about doubts and stuff and it was basically a perfect description of me. ughh...... but the person said that i gotta see a therapist or something..... or talk out loud about it... so maybe ill just talk to myself...

 

but...i guess my fear is that as soon as I start talking ill just realize im not trans. which i guess would be... fine...as in i'd have an answer at least.

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20 minutes ago, Theory said:

ok...so i just watched a YT video about doubts and stuff and it was basically a perfect description of me. ughh...... but the person said that i gotta see a therapist or something..... or talk out loud about it... so maybe ill just talk to myself...

 

but...i guess my fear is that as soon as I start talking ill just realize im not trans. which i guess would be... fine...as in i'd have an answer at least.

It's good to question yourself. *hugs* Find someone to talk to in person. Or talk to a pet if you have one. Pets are good therapists.

Posted
2 hours ago, Theory said:

Do what?

 

maybe u missed the point nvm eeeep ignore it

Just default to addressing people with gender neutral pronouns?

Also listen to shatter he knows what he’s talkin bout

Posted (edited)

Omg @Theory is already one of the top posters. I've been here almost the whole time and I'm still not even up there...

 

It's been 24 days since you showed up! 615 posts in that short of time! OMG

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41 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Omg @Theory is already one of the top posters. I've been here almost the whole time and I'm still not even up there...

 

It's been 24 days since you showed up! 615 posts in that short of time! OMG

:3 I post a lot I guess. Very active. Especially in the last week, since i started questioning.

@Shatter Also, y'all I went for a walk and talked to myself and I think it helped. Probably gonna do it again.

 

Spoiler

also im ✨ in love ✨ with my new pfp (meaning I like using it...)

and...probably using she/her pronouns too

and Lily

basically the combination of them all

 

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Posted
19 hours ago, Theory said:

Guysguysguys why does it feel weird like now that I'm actually starting to realize that I might actually be trans.

Also what if:

I don't feel euphoria, am I not trans?

I do feel it but don't know how to recognize it.

I don't feel it but make myself feel it

I don't feel it but make myself pretend or think I feel it

I feel it but make myself not

If feel it but make myself pretend or think I don't

I don't feel it enough

My thoughts and expectations are contaminating my euphoria or absence thereof

...And more

Well, something I've heard sometimes is that cis people don't generally think about it that much. It's okay not to label it or make any big decisions until you're ready, but I think it's good to acknowledge there's something you're questioning instead of worrying too much about the specifics of how you think you're supposed to feel. Whatever the case, your feelings aren't fake, even if they're confusing.

Posted
17 minutes ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

Well, something I've heard sometimes is that cis people don't generally think about it that much.

maybe unless they have ocd...

Posted
3 minutes ago, Theory said:

maybe unless they have ocd...

Hmm... I can't speak very well to that. I'd think it might contribute to the second guessing of one's thoughts, or being worried you're making yourself feel a certain way or aren't really feeling something. But ultimately there is something going on. Let yourself explore it. Keep an open mind about the outcome as you adjust.

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3 minutes ago, The Aspiring Archivist said:

Hmm... I can't speak very well to that. I'd think it might contribute to the second guessing of one's thoughts, or being worried you're making yourself feel a certain way or aren't really feeling something. But ultimately there is something going on. Let yourself explore it. Keep an open mind about the outcome as you adjust.

I don't even know if I have OCD but I might. I could see myself obsessing over if I have OCD or not...but luckily not rn.

And yes...

I think the walk helped (I went on a walk and basically just talked to myself (rather than a therapist/gender specialist, which I may see in the future) about all this).

Yeah...

Idk how many of the previous posts you read, but I watched a YT video where this person basically described almost exactly what I've been feeling - with all the doubts and stuff - and said I needed to voice my thoughts. So I did. To myself.

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Posted
1 hour ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Omg @Theory is already one of the top posters. I've been here almost the whole time and I'm still not even up there...

 

It's been 24 days since you showed up! 615 posts in that short of time! OMG

Hollyyyy cowww

Posted
1 minute ago, Theory said:

I don't even know if I have OCD but I might.

And yes...

I think the walk helped (I went on a walk and basically just talked to myself (rather than a therapist/gender specialist, which I may see in the future) about all this).

Yeah...

Idk how many of the previous posts you read, but I watched a YT video where this person basically described almost exactly what I've been feeling - with all the doubts and stuff - and said I needed to voice my thoughts. So I did. To myself.

Well I'm glad it helped! I wish you luck figuring things out further.

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Just now, The Aspiring Archivist said:

Well I'm glad it helped! I wish you luck figuring things out further.

Yep, thx!

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I guess I need to be more active...

5 minutes ago, Theory said:

I don't even know if I have OCD but I might. I could see myself obsessing over if I have OCD or not...but luckily not rn.

 

Do you just have to organize things a certain way, like having your pottery tools at a specific angle every time?

Posted
6 minutes ago, Theory said:

don't even know if I have OCD but I might. I could see myself obsessing over if I have OCD or not...but luckily not rn

OCD associated characteristics include: having an intense interest in being orderly, having control; seeking perfection. OCD is caused by compulsive thoughts (obsessions) and compulsive coping mechanisms (compulsions), large conflated with anxiety and personality disorders.

Either way, you could probably talk to someone about these kinds of things

Posted
Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I guess I need to be more active...

You don't need to; it's not like being online all the time is particularly healthy...

Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Do you just have to organize things a certain way, like having your pottery tools at a specific angle every time?

Oddly specific, is that something you do?

Uhm...sometimes. I also just obsess a lot and then get new anxieties and intrusive thoughts.

But anyway, I don't rlly wanna possibly have a new anxiety to obsess over. So yeah.

 

Just now, Aeoryi said:

Either way, you could probably talk to someone about these kinds of things

Yeah, don't worry.

Posted
Just now, Theory said:

You don't need to; it's not like being online all the time is particularly healthy...

Well, I'm on here a lot, I just don't say much

1 minute ago, Theory said:

Oddly specific, is that something you do?

Uhm...sometimes. I also just obsess a lot and then get new anxieties and intrusive thoughts.

But anyway, I don't rlly wanna possibly have a new anxiety to obsess over. So yeah.

Yeah, I bring a protractor all the time so that I can get set up very quickly.

Posted
Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

 

(Totally not OCD I'm just pedantic hehe)

Ur siggy says "Sharbuds," is that intentional? Or should it be "Shardbuds"? "Shardbuddies?"

Also I don't like exhibiting a possible symptom after just talking about the thing cuz then ppl are like "oMg YoU tOtAlLy HaVe ___"

Posted
3 minutes ago, Theory said:

You don't need to; it's not like being online all the time is particularly healthy...

There's not much to do on the shard tbh 

3 minutes ago, Theory said:

Yeah, don't worry.

Ok good. Because it does quell worries if you talk to someone. Someone who cares.

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