Mental health club!

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

I HIT THE BALL I HIT THE BALL

I GOT UP TO BAT AND AFTER A PEP TALK FROM ONE OF MY TEAMMATES I HIT THE BALL

then time stopped I froze then after snapping out of it ran to first and got out.

BUT I HIT THE BALL AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAGAGAHAG

And it was my last game.

No *hugs*

Nice job

sigh ok *falls into hug*

[Keke They/he]

26 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Nice job

sigh ok *falls into hug*

That was supposed to say np not no stupid auto correct. 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

alr

sorry I don't have time to read through everything

but

*hugs for everyone*

you're loved and wonderful and you can get through this

it'll be okay

[That1Cellist he/him]

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

5 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

*hug*

*sigh*

yeah

I'm sorry

*hugs again*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

13 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

*hugs*

[Through the Living Hope]

7 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

*hug*

[Shatter He/Him]

12 hours ago, Hawks said:

I HIT THE BALL I HIT THE BALL

I GOT UP TO BAT AND AFTER A PEP TALK FROM ONE OF MY TEAMMATES I HIT THE BALL

then time stopped I froze then after snapping out of it ran to first and got out.

BUT I HIT THE BALL AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAGAGAHAG

And it was my last game.

YAY!

10 hours ago, Hawks said:

That was supposed to say np not no stupid auto correct. 

your autocorrect does that a lot

8 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

I get you. I have to get a summer job as well. It ain't fun, that's for sure. 

*hugs*

Also, what nickname should we give you

Chelly?

Cellist?

Edited May 13, 2025 by The Shattered Cosmere

[That1Cellist he/him]

1 hour ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

YAY!

your autocorrect does that a lot

I get you. I have to get a summer job as well. It ain't fun, that's for sure. 

*hugs*

Also, what nickname should we give you

Chelly?

Cellist?

Uh, I dunno. I think I was called "Cellist" before. I'm not nearly as active as I used to be, so I don't really remember.

Wow my account is like 3+ years old now I think. That's crazy to think about.

EDIT: Okay it's not quite 3 years old, but it's pretty close.

Edited May 13, 2025 by That1Cellist

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

9 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

*hug* I feel you as someone who will be getting their first job ever this summer I’m not looking forward to it but I think the end goal is to find something you are passionate abt to do once your an adult

[That1Cellist he/him]

33 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

*hug* I feel you as someone who will be getting their first job ever this summer I’m not looking forward to it but I think the end goal is to find something you are passionate abt to do once your an adult

That's my goal as well.

Unfortunately, nothing that I truly enjoy doing makes very much money...

I'm fully expecting to just not enjoy the majority of my life very much.

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

9 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

That's my goal as well.

Unfortunately, nothing that I truly enjoy doing makes very much money...

I'm fully expecting to just not enjoy the majority of my life very much.

Well then that brings the question would you rather do something you love or make money?

[That1Cellist he/him]

1 minute ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Well then that brings the question would you rather do something you love or make money?

I don't know.

It also depends on if I have to support a family or not.

Though I also doubt my ability to get married in the first place, so who knows.

[Shatter He/Him]

2 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

I don't know.

It also depends on if I have to support a family or not.

Though I also doubt my ability to get married in the first place, so who knows.

eh. dont doubt yourself. im sure someone will come along and find you. my parents got married at ages 35 and 39. believe me, you have a chance

[Mags she/they]

22 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

okey dokey

me complaining about my appearance

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I hate my appearance

I just don't like how I look.

I used to have pimples which I picked and now I have scabs. And they refuse to heal.

Ugh.

 

I was actually kinda thinking about this yesterday, because I also feel really ugly even though most people tell me I look fine. Just saying 'oh you look fine!' doesn't really mean much, because people will say that either way in my experience (and no hate to them, they're just being polite). 

That's not to say you are ugly, beauty is subjective and different for everyone. I personally think you look great, you like kind and healthy.

I think the thing that has helped me most was trying to shift my focus on what I can't do to what I can. I can't fix some of the facial features I'm insecure about, but I can grow out my hair so I like it more. I can't change how tall I am, but I can work for a healthier body that I feel more comfortable in. I can't get rid of my eczema, but I can wear clothes that fit me and that I like. Obviously, that's easier said then done, and I suck at it, but it does help.

And of course I could go on a rant about how beauty isn't everything, but I'm sure you've heard it somewhere before. Just remember that you're worth as a human has nothing to do with what you look like--that and being a kind, friendly person can often override how you look.

Also this might just be me, so take it with a grain of salt, but I don't really look at peoples faces that much? I have a hard time doing eye contact about half of the time (suspected autism yayyy)  so peoples faces are mostly just a blend of their strongest features and usual expression in my memory. I don't really look closely enough to notice flaws, certainly not as close as I look at my own face in the mirror.

I know you mentioned the acne, so I'll be honest and say that most of the time I don't notice it on people. Maybe it's because I'm a teenager, so I just see it a lot, but I don't really register it as something separate from someones skin. They're just like freckles, y'know? They just sort of blend in to people. We always overestimate how much people are looking at us, and judging how we look. Most of the time, people are focusing on the way your face is moving so they can read your expression and body language, then focusing on what your face actually looks like. Maybe that's just me?

At the very least, if someone does focus on your appearance more then your actions, then they're a weirdo who doesn't deserve your time.

That's it for my half awake ramblings  I hope you have a great day *hugs*

9 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

Me  Cellist, dreading our summer jobs

Honestly, the state of the future sucks and I don't know what to say that will help you feel more hope. I guess, I'm trying not to dread this summer by focusing in the stuff I will get to do in my free time. I have a ton of hobbies I want to work on, and having a job to fund them is gonna be great, even if the actual job sucks.

The world is really awful right now, but the sun still shines in the morning and that's pretty cool. I like making little things with my hands to hang around my room because they help cheer me up.

Also this is gonna sound weird, but I know vague advice is less then helpful, so here's a stupid tip: watching shows meant for kids in your free time is awesome. It gives your brain a nice break from the complicated dark stuff, and it takes you back to a time when you were less stressed. I've been watching a minecraft smp (an unproblematic one don't worry) and it really helps me. Do with that what you will, I don't pretend to know what I'm doing lol 

*hugs*

[Shatter He/Him]

Just now, Mag said:

I was actually kinda thinking about this yesterday, because I also feel really ugly even though most people tell me I look fine. Just saying 'oh you look fine!' doesn't really mean much, because people will say that either way in my experience (and no hate to them, they're just being polite). 

That's not to say you are ugly, beauty is subjective and different for everyone. I personally think you look great, you like kind and healthy.

I think the thing that has helped me most was trying to shift my focus on what I can't do to what I can. I can't fix some of the facial features I'm insecure about, but I can grow out my hair so I like it more. I can't change how tall I am, but I can work for a healthier body that I feel more comfortable in. I can't get rid of my eczema, but I can wear clothes that fit me and that I like. Obviously, that's easier said then done, and I suck at it, but it does help.

And of course I could go on a rant about how beauty isn't everything, but I'm sure you've heard it somewhere before. Just remember that you're worth as a human has nothing to do with what you look like--that and being a kind, friendly person can often override how you look.

Also this might just be me, so take it with a grain of salt, but I don't really look at peoples faces that much? I have a hard time doing eye contact about half of the time (suspected autism yayyy)  so peoples faces are mostly just a blend of their strongest features and usual expression in my memory. I don't really look closely enough to notice flaws, certainly not as close as I look at my own face in the mirror.

I know you mentioned the acne, so I'll be honest and say that most of the time I don't notice it on people. Maybe it's because I'm a teenager, so I just see it a lot, but I don't really register it as something separate from someones skin. They're just like freckles, y'know? They just sort of blend in to people. We always overestimate how much people are looking at us, and judging how we look. Most of the time, people are focusing on the way your face is moving so they can read your expression and body language, then focusing on what your face actually looks like. Maybe that's just me?

At the very least, if someone does focus on your appearance more then your actions, then they're a weirdo who doesn't deserve your time.

That's it for my half awake ramblings  I hope you have a great day *hugs*

Me  Cellist, dreading our summer jobs

Honestly, the state of the future sucks and I don't know what to say that will help you feel more hope. I guess, I'm trying not to dread this summer by focusing in the stuff I will get to do in my free time. I have a ton of hobbies I want to work on, and having a job to fund them is gonna be great, even if the actual job sucks.

The world is really awful right now, but the sun still shines in the morning and that's pretty cool. I like making little things with my hands to hang around my room because they help cheer me up.

Also this is gonna sound weird, but I know vague advice is less then helpful, so here's a stupid tip: watching shows meant for kids in your free time is awesome. It gives your brain a nice break from the complicated dark stuff, and it takes you back to a time when you were less stressed. I've been watching a minecraft smp (an unproblematic one don't worry) and it really helps me. Do with that what you will, I don't pretend to know what I'm doing lol 

*hugs*

*hugs*

[That1Cellist he/him]

6 minutes ago, Mag said:

Me  Cellist, dreading our summer jobs

Honestly, the state of the future sucks and I don't know what to say that will help you feel more hope. I guess, I'm trying not to dread this summer by focusing in the stuff I will get to do in my free time. I have a ton of hobbies I want to work on, and having a job to fund them is gonna be great, even if the actual job sucks.

The world is really awful right now, but the sun still shines in the morning and that's pretty cool. I like making little things with my hands to hang around my room because they help cheer me up.

Also this is gonna sound weird, but I know vague advice is less then helpful, so here's a stupid tip: watching shows meant for kids in your free time is awesome. It gives your brain a nice break from the complicated dark stuff, and it takes you back to a time when you were less stressed. I've been watching a minecraft smp (an unproblematic one don't worry) and it really helps me. Do with that what you will, I don't pretend to know what I'm doing lol 

*hugs*

Yeah, I think working on my hobbies would probably be good. The problem is that I feel this need to prepare for the future and stress out about it at all times. The problem is that my actual ability to get things done is low, so I end up just stressing and not doing anything.

I spend all my time stressing about the future, trying to avoid stressing about the future, and preparing for a future that I know in 99% of circumstances will most likely be a very unhappy one.

[Mags she/they]

19 minutes ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

*hugs*

*hugs back* *really tightly* ehehehehe

11 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Yeah, I think working on my hobbies would probably be good. The problem is that I feel this need to prepare for the future and stress out about it at all times. The problem is that my actual ability to get things done is low, so I end up just stressing and not doing anything.

I spend all my time stressing about the future, trying to avoid stressing about the future, and preparing for a future that I know in 99% of circumstances will most likely be a very unhappy one.

Oh yeah, that's rough. I'm sorry you feel that way! I also waste a lot of time, Have you tried getting medical help at all? I know it's not an option for everyone, but sometimes getting outside help can do a lot (I sat as I procrastinate talking to the doctor about it myself . . . be braver then me )

[That1Cellist he/him]

44 minutes ago, Mag said:

*hugs back* *really tightly* ehehehehe

Oh yeah, that's rough. I'm sorry you feel that way! I also waste a lot of time, Have you tried getting medical help at all? I know it's not an option for everyone, but sometimes getting outside help can do a lot (I sat as I procrastinate talking to the doctor about it myself . . . be braver then me )

Medical help? Well, I have medication for depression,  and I talk to a doctor every few months.

But other than that no, I'm not getting medical help.

[Mags she/they]

Just now, That1Cellist said:

Medical help? Well, I have medication for depression,  and I talk to a doctor every few months.

But other than that no, I'm not getting medical help.

Alright, I just thought I'd mention it. Do you think counselling would help? I know it can be really expensive, but if it's an option it might be worth looking into. Either way, I hope you find something that works well for your soon 

[That1Cellist he/him]

Just now, Mag said:

Alright, I just thought I'd mention it. Do you think counselling would help? I know it can be really expensive, but if it's an option it might be worth looking into. Either way, I hope you find something that works well for your soon 

I dunno. I did a little for a while, but I'm not sure it helped all that much. I have been looking into it again recently though, since I haven't been too well.

[Keke They/he]

3 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

YAY!

your autocorrect does that a lot

I get you. I have to get a summer job as well. It ain't fun, that's for sure. 

*hugs*

Also, what nickname should we give you

Chelly?

Cellist?

Ope

chelly!!!!

11 hours ago, That1Cellist said:

Depression has really been going at it lately. To be fair, I suppose that's mostly my own fault, since I'm having trouble keeping up on schoolwork, I waste too much, time, and I stay up to late.

My eyes hurt. It's not pleasant.

Also not looking forward to getting a summer job. I mean, making money is nice, but having commitments and having to go places, even if it isn't that long, is still rather uncomfortable, especially since I'll be taking precious time out of my summer to do it.

Oh well, it's supposedly and most likely good for me, I guess. Plus, my whole life will be like that in the future, except it will be all day instead of a couple hours. I might as well try to get used to it.

huzzah

doesn't it seem like so much fun to live?

*hugs* 

15 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

Medical help? Well, I have medication for depression,  and I talk to a doctor every few months.

But other than that no, I'm not getting medical help.

I recommend getting some

12 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

I dunno. I did a little for a while, but I'm not sure it helped all that much. I have been looking into it again recently though, since I haven't been too well.

Sometimes it’s an about finding the right one. There are a lot of crap therapist out there

 

ok here to rant abt something

tw suicide 

 

 

Spoiler

well…. Last night was rough. But to sum it up. Talking with dad about lgbtq stuff, turned into an argument turned into be running out of my house literally having a mental breakdown. And the rough part was some of the bs things he said like how it’s satans way of tearing the family apart. I think he forgot we are literally going through a divorce. Yes dad tell me my identity is tearing family’s apart as this is happening. Anyways i started crying he continued bringing up sewerslide rates among trans and guys and like i was swerlisdal as a girl i will be as a boy storm off slontze. And it spiraled and i almost didnt go home but i had to bc i was tired. Eventually i fell asleep and now im so tired i actually fell asleep in class somehow. Five times.

later he apologized and said when i can find it in my heart i  can forgive him for being a [redacted] dad my whole life then i can. 

Tbh i dont think i can. Him and my mom stormed everything up for me and regardless if they changed or not the past is still written deep in my bones. I just wanna sleep and not wake up bro

special thanks to @whirte (still cant tag grr) for helping me a little and @Through The Living Glass abd @Dabi for staying on the phone with me half the night. You’re all the bestest ever. And I couldn’t be more happy to have you as friends 

I could use hugs please

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

Ope

chelly!!!!

*hugs* 

I recommend getting some

Sometimes it’s an about finding the right one. There are a lot of crap therapist out there

 

ok here to rant abt something

tw suicide 

 

 

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well…. Last night was rough. But to sum it up. Talking with dad about lgbtq stuff, turned into an argument turned into be running out of my house literally having a mental breakdown. And the rough part was some of the bs things he said like how it’s satans way of tearing the family apart. I think he forgot we are literally going through a divorce. Yes dad tell me my identity is tearing family’s apart as this is happening. Anyways i started crying he continued bringing up sewerslide rates among trans and guys and like i was swerlisdal as a girl i will be as a boy storm off slontze. And it spiraled and i almost didnt go home but i had to bc i was tired. Eventually i fell asleep and now im so tired i actually fell asleep in class somehow. Five times.

later he apologized and said when i can find it in my heart i  can forgive him for being a [redacted] dad my whole life then i can. 

Tbh i dont think i can. Him and my mom stormed everything up for me and regardless if they changed or not the past is still written deep in my bones. I just wanna sleep and not wake up bro

special thanks to @whirte (still cant tag grr) for helping me a little and @Through The Living Glass abd @Dabi for staying on the phone with me half the night. You’re all the bestest ever. And I couldn’t be more happy to have you as friends 

I could use hugs please

*squeezes*

I couldn't be more happy to have you as a friend, either

Love you, dude

[Through the Living Hope]

2 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ope

chelly!!!!

*hugs* 

I recommend getting some

Sometimes it’s an about finding the right one. There are a lot of crap therapist out there

 

ok here to rant abt something

tw suicide 

 

 

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well…. Last night was rough. But to sum it up. Talking with dad about lgbtq stuff, turned into an argument turned into be running out of my house literally having a mental breakdown. And the rough part was some of the bs things he said like how it’s satans way of tearing the family apart. I think he forgot we are literally going through a divorce. Yes dad tell me my identity is tearing family’s apart as this is happening. Anyways i started crying he continued bringing up sewerslide rates among trans and guys and like i was swerlisdal as a girl i will be as a boy storm off slontze. And it spiraled and i almost didnt go home but i had to bc i was tired. Eventually i fell asleep and now im so tired i actually fell asleep in class somehow. Five times.

later he apologized and said when i can find it in my heart i  can forgive him for being a [redacted] dad my whole life then i can. 

Tbh i dont think i can. Him and my mom stormed everything up for me and regardless if they changed or not the past is still written deep in my bones. I just wanna sleep and not wake up bro

special thanks to @whirte (still cant tag grr) for helping me a little and @Through The Living Glass abd @Dabi for staying on the phone with me half the night. You’re all the bestest ever. And I couldn’t be more happy to have you as friends 

I could use hugs please

*Huuuuge hugs*

I may not agree with your choice, but your dad is not handling this the right way. You can disapprove but still be respectful.

[Mags she/they]

27 minutes ago, That1Cellist said:

I dunno. I did a little for a while, but I'm not sure it helped all that much. I have been looking into it again recently though, since I haven't been too well.

Alright, I hope you find something that works. At the very least, we're here for you 

3 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ope

chelly!!!!

*hugs* 

I recommend getting some

Sometimes it’s an about finding the right one. There are a lot of crap therapist out there

 

ok here to rant abt something

tw suicide 

 

 

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well…. Last night was rough. But to sum it up. Talking with dad about lgbtq stuff, turned into an argument turned into be running out of my house literally having a mental breakdown. And the rough part was some of the bs things he said like how it’s satans way of tearing the family apart. I think he forgot we are literally going through a divorce. Yes dad tell me my identity is tearing family’s apart as this is happening. Anyways i started crying he continued bringing up sewerslide rates among trans and guys and like i was swerlisdal as a girl i will be as a boy storm off slontze. And it spiraled and i almost didnt go home but i had to bc i was tired. Eventually i fell asleep and now im so tired i actually fell asleep in class somehow. Five times.

later he apologized and said when i can find it in my heart i  can forgive him for being a [redacted] dad my whole life then i can. 

Tbh i dont think i can. Him and my mom stormed everything up for me and regardless if they changed or not the past is still written deep in my bones. I just wanna sleep and not wake up bro

special thanks to @whirte (still cant tag grr) for helping me a little and @Through The Living Glass abd @Dabi for staying on the phone with me half the night. You’re all the bestest ever. And I couldn’t be more happy to have you as friends 

I could use hugs please

*huuuug*

I'm so sorry, that's awful.