Mental health club!

[Through the Living Hope]

On 5/9/2025 at 11:17 AM, Spark of Hope said:

Hi

So I got

A cat

A duck

A hippo

An otter

An owl

A dog

A dolphin

A lemur

A croc

A penguin

A stingray

Another duck

A snow leopard

A cheetah

A seahorse

Whatchu want

 

1 minute ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

What do you have? I can't find the list

 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, Spark of Hope said:

 

 

Dolphin!

[Through the Living Hope]

19 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Dolphin!

I don’t remember what her name was but here!

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

2 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

I don’t remember what her name was but here!

Much appreciated!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

10 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

Yep!

Das Felicity

*hug*

~~~

Cant sleep rn. Idk why

hmm

*bonk*

there :3

9 hours ago, Just A Silvereye said:

*sigh* gonna be another of those days uh

The ones where I'm tired already even though I just got out of bed, where I'm pissed off at everything and anything

Feeling like I should go hibernate somewhere for a couple years

The rest will wait for after that

 

Been trying-ish to work for my retakes for the past week

Not going well

I get angry basically anytime I try to do anything

So I get angry at myself for not working and destroying my future

Not convince I'll do it chat

And that's really scary

Because I have no idea what happens if I fail

I have already played the "redo that year" card

And I have barely managed to do better than the absolute wreck that I was last year

 

Also the fact that I'm afraid  that the school might make a mess of this all

They have a track record on this

Would be nice for once not to be the one responsible for my failures

 

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Fell upon my old school card in a drawer some time ago

With my photo on it

(Entering high school so 8-ish years ago)

Smiling like there's no tomorrow

And I nearly cried

Because I could barely recognize that kid

Not just because I've changed a bit physically

But because that smile, that light in the eyes, felt so... weird

Like it couldn't be me

And then I wondered

What happened to that boy

What broke him so bad that such a smile would feel alien to him

And I knew the answer

It's me

Me and my stupid choices that brought me here

I knew this would happen

And I still went to that place

I am the one who killed that boy

 

Silver . . .

*squeezes*

Edited May 10, 2025 by Through The Living Glass

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

hmm

*bonk*

there :3

Silver . . .

*squeezes*

I didn’t go back to sleep  I been awake for *math* 11 hours 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

4 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

I didn’t go back to sleep  I been awake for *math* 11 hours 

girl

*hug*

*hugs more*

*hugs most*

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

hmm

*bonk*

there :3

Silver . . .

*squeezes*

 

2 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

What do you have? I can't find the list

 

4 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

*hugs so tight* 

Me too, I fear

 *squeeze*

Can I has an animal??

 

6 hours ago, Hawks said:

*hugs* thanks

Also if anything important happens in how to kill a dragon can you tag me?

I hope i will. *hugs* 

 

Though tbh recently the sh urges have been coming bsck and i dont wanna relapse.

*hugs*

*hugs*

I... dont have any help for that other then your not alone. *hugs*

*hugs*

...Thanks everyone

*snuggles*

 

8 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

We can never go back.

You didn’t kill that boy. Life did. And to shield himself from those challenges, to protect himself from all that pain, that boy created you. You are his champion.

That boy never survived the things you did. He never felt all that pain, and chose to live. So yeah, maybe that boy was so much happier. And maybe that is something worth mourning.

But you are infinitely stronger.

Maybe

Not sure I'm any stronger than before though

Things that would have been a joke to me a couple years ago, now make me panic and go crazy and get sick

I tried to make it better

And I crashed even harder as a result

 

I'm just broken, in ways I can't fix

Probably because the broken bones keep getting hit

But now I have to make as if i wasnt broken if i ever want to go on

 

*nervous laugh* thats a funny joke isnt it?

to get the rest i need to finally fix myself and move on, i need to fix myself first

wonderful

this will definitely end well

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

14 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

 

 

 

...Thanks everyone

*snuggles*

 

Maybe

Not sure I'm any stronger than before though

Things that would have been a joke to me a couple years ago, now make me panic and go crazy and get sick

I tried to make it better

And I crashed even harder as a result

 

I'm just broken, in ways I can't fix

Probably because the broken bones keep getting hit

But now I have to make as if i wasnt broken if i ever want to go on

 

*nervous laugh* thats a funny joke isnt it?

to get the rest i need to finally fix myself and move on, i need to fix myself first

wonderful

this will definitely end well

*way way more hugs*

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

55 minutes ago, Just A Silvereye said:

 

 

 

...Thanks everyone

*snuggles*

 

Maybe

Not sure I'm any stronger than before though

Things that would have been a joke to me a couple years ago, now make me panic and go crazy and get sick

I tried to make it better

And I crashed even harder as a result

 

I'm just broken, in ways I can't fix

Probably because the broken bones keep getting hit

But now I have to make as if i wasnt broken if i ever want to go on

 

*nervous laugh* thats a funny joke isnt it?

to get the rest i need to finally fix myself and move on, i need to fix myself first

wonderful

this will definitely end well

*squeeze*

*hands Cocoa*

You are stronger

And you’re awesome, too

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

I feel like a piece of crap who can’t even make his friends feel better when they’re not doing well they tell me it’s ok but when I try to hep them but make them feel worse besides even outside of trying to make them feel better I can’t make them laugh I’m terrible at being a friend. 
im sorry for this random rant 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I feel like a piece of crap who can’t even make his friends feel better when they’re not doing well they tell me it’s ok but when I try to hep them but make them feel worse besides even outside of trying to make them feel better I can’t make them laugh I’m terrible at being a friend. 
im sorry for this random rant 

*hugs*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

You ever get that feeling where you’re hearing your brother had a great time at the event he went to that ypu stayed home from and danced with so many girls and made a friend of one of them and you’re just wondering if maybe things would have been great if you’d gone and maybe you should have gone but then you rememver that you can’t pull guys and you remember all the half-miserable dances you’ve been to before that always just make you feel utterly hopeless and overlooked like the entire universe hates you and then you look around and realize you’re an abject absolute failure who is doing nothing with her life and has wasted all her chances and should honestly just drive off a bridge because let’s be honest she’s gonna end up on or under a bridge one way or another and she’s so freaking sick of letting down everyone she knows and watching them invest in her only to get nothing in return and watch her throw away her time and energy and waste and waste and waste and waste and honestly objectively she should give up I don’t know why she’s even trying ugh she’s such a freaking idiot nobody wants her around anyway all she does is hurt everyone around her and she’s just gonna end up killing herself anyway right so why not just cut things off now and save everyone the slow descent into madness huh why not I don’t see why not ashshabd ddejrrughhhhhhhhhhhhh

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

8 hours ago, Just A Silvereye said:

 

 

 

...Thanks everyone

*snuggles*

 

Maybe

Not sure I'm any stronger than before though

Things that would have been a joke to me a couple years ago, now make me panic and go crazy and get sick

I tried to make it better

And I crashed even harder as a result

 

I'm just broken, in ways I can't fix

Probably because the broken bones keep getting hit

But now I have to make as if i wasnt broken if i ever want to go on

 

*nervous laugh* thats a funny joke isnt it?

to get the rest i need to finally fix myself and move on, i need to fix myself first

wonderful

this will definitely end well

It'll be okay

4 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

I feel like a piece of crap who can’t even make his friends feel better when they’re not doing well they tell me it’s ok but when I try to hep them but make them feel worse besides even outside of trying to make them feel better I can’t make them laugh I’m terrible at being a friend. 
im sorry for this random rant 

*squeeeeeeze*

It's okay

Don't apologize

13 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

You ever get that feeling where you’re hearing your brother had a great time at the event he went to that ypu stayed home from and danced with so many girls and made a friend of one of them and you’re just wondering if maybe things would have been great if you’d gone and maybe you should have gone but then you rememver that you can’t pull guys and you remember all the half-miserable dances you’ve been to before that always just make you feel utterly hopeless and overlooked like the entire universe hates you and then you look around and realize you’re an abject absolute failure who is doing nothing with her life and has wasted all her chances and should honestly just drive off a bridge because let’s be honest she’s gonna end up on or under a bridge one way or another and she’s so freaking sick of letting down everyone she knows and watching them invest in her only to get nothing in return and watch her throw away her time and energy and waste and waste and waste and waste and honestly objectively she should give up I don’t know why she’s even trying ugh she’s such a freaking idiot nobody wants her around anyway all she does is hurt everyone around her and she’s just gonna end up killing herself anyway right so why not just cut things off now and save everyone the slow descent into madness huh why not I don’t see why not ashshabd ddejrrughhhhhhhhhhhhh

Haly . . .

*squeeze*

Oh girlie

I'm so sorry you feel like that

You're not worthless

You're not an idiot

You shouldn't go drive off a bridge

It's going to get better

I love you

Edited May 11, 2025 by Through The Living Glass

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

5 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

It'll be okay

*squeeeeeeze*

It's okay

Don't apologize

Haly . . .

*squeeze*

Oh girlie

I'm so sorry you feel like that

You're not worthless

You're not an idiot

You shouldn't go drive off a bridge

It's going to get better

I love you

What if I never become a worthwhile person

What if I live with my parents until I’m twenty without having graduated high school 

but that doesn’t matter

By all human standards, I am am utter failure 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

11 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

What if I never become a worthwhile person

What if I live with my parents until I’m twenty without having graduated high school 

but that doesn’t matter

By all human standards, I am am utter failure 

No, you're not. You still work hard, even if you procrastinate. You're still a good friend, even if you can't see how you are. You've always had incredible worth, even if you don't know why.

*squeeze*

You're an amazing person, Haly. I'm happy to call you my friend. We all are

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

9 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

No, you're not. You still work hard, even if you procrastinate. You're still a good friend, even if you can't see how you are. You've always had incredible worth, even if you don't know why.

*squeeze*

You're an amazing person, Haly. I'm happy to call you my friend. We all are

I don’t really work as hard as I should honestly

But thank you

It’s good that I haven’t let you guys down yet

i hope 

at least not too bad maybe

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

I don’t really work as hard as I should honestly

But thank you

It’s good that I haven’t let you guys down yet

i hope 

at least not too bad maybe

Well

We haven't really asked anything of you other than to be a good support and friend

And so far you've done perfectly

I don't think you're going to "let us down" anytime soon

[Existential]

55 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

You ever get that feeling where you’re hearing your brother had a great time at the event he went to that ypu stayed home from and danced with so many girls and made a friend of one of them and you’re just wondering if maybe things would have been great if you’d gone and maybe you should have gone but then you rememver that you can’t pull guys and you remember all the half-miserable dances you’ve been to before that always just make you feel utterly hopeless and overlooked like the entire universe hates you and then you look around and realize you’re an abject absolute failure who is doing nothing with her life and has wasted all her chances and should honestly just drive off a bridge because let’s be honest she’s gonna end up on or under a bridge one way or another and she’s so freaking sick of letting down everyone she knows and watching them invest in her only to get nothing in return and watch her throw away her time and energy and waste and waste and waste and waste and honestly objectively she should give up I don’t know why she’s even trying ugh she’s such a freaking idiot nobody wants her around anyway all she does is hurt everyone around her and she’s just gonna end up killing herself anyway right so why not just cut things off now and save everyone the slow descent into madness huh why not I don’t see why not ashshabd ddejrrughhhhhhhhhhhhh

First off *hug*

 

Second off, I think I just cried...? I wasn't fully sure if I would but idk, It rarely ever happens to the point where I pretty much just can't/don't

(happy tears, btw)

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Dabi said:

First off *hug*

 

Second off, I think I just cried...? I wasn't fully sure if I would but idk, It rarely ever happens to the point where I pretty much just can't/don't

(happy tears, btw)

. . . Why?

Everything okat?

*okay

[Existential]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

. . . Why?

Everything okat?

*okay

I can finally get to a point where I can talk normally with my girlfriend...? I just started laughing and it turned into crying, idk why

I think I'm actually beginning to go insane

Cause that was like the weirdest experience of my life

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Dabi said:

I can finally get to a point where I can talk normally with my girlfriend...? I just started laughing and it turned into crying, idk why

I think I'm actually beginning to go insane

Cause that was like the weirdest experience of my life

ohh . . .

*squeezes so tight*

[Existential]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

ohh . . .

*squeezes so tight*

I wish I could sleep

But I'm overstimulated from working arcade today

Lights and noises

Too many

*spins in chair*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Dabi said:

I wish I could sleep

But I'm overstimulated from working arcade today

Lights and noises

Too many

*spins in chair*

oh-

oh okay

. . .

um

sleep though

plz

goodnight

*kiss*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

oh-

oh okay

. . .

um

sleep though

plz

goodnight

*kiss*

*cheers*

:3