Mental health club!

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

Okay, okay

*cuddles*

Don wike bein tickled...

Do wike cuddles doh

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

Don wike bein tickled...

Do wike cuddles doh

*squiz*

hehe

me too :3

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

*squiz*

hehe

me too :3

Heehee

PAYBACK TICKLES!!!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Spark of Hope said:

Heehee

PAYBACK TICKLES!!!

ACK-

*tickles again*

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

ACK-

*tickles again*

AAAAAH!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

AAAAAH!

*cackles*

[Through the Living Hope]

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*cackles*

OKAY STOP ON THREE

ONE 

TWO

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

5 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

OKAY STOP ON THREE

ONE 

TWO

THREE

*puts down*

There.

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

THREE

*puts down*

There.

*stops as well*

No fair those were my payback tickles

You owe me a sugar cookie grrrr

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

Just now, Spark of Hope said:

*stops as well*

No fair those were my payback tickles

You owe me a sugar cookie grrrr

*gives sugar cookie*

There :3

Edited May 9, 2025 by Through The Living Glass

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

woah woah woah dudes

@Mag WHY ARE YOU DYING 

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

What

Happened

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

49 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

What

Happened

@Mag won't tell me why she's dead >:((

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

28 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

@Mag won't tell me why she's dead >:((

Ah

So the normal content of this thread

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

On 5/8/2025 at 7:29 PM, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*HUGS*

23 hours ago, MirkerLurker said:

*hug*

Doing nothing is tiring. It's draining.

As opposite as it sounds, getting moving (physically) - doing some exercising or playing - will usually increase your energy level. Even if it feels like the last thing in the world you want to be doing is pushing yourself to be active. 

I spent two days last week unmoving. ...as in, actually not moving. Lying on the couch and just...not. For no reason, either. I wasn't physically sick. I wasn't feeling like crem mentally. I could have gotten up. I just...didn't. Something didn't connect. All the thoughts of doing things never made it out of my head. I kind of dissociated; dozed in and out a bit. Stared at the ceiling thinking of doing something. Thinking I really should do something. And boy, did that guilt and self-loathing start swirling around in my head. And I only got more tired. It got harder to think and to move, the more I did nothing.

Anyway, so this week I did my workouts like I'm supposed to, and went outside and jogged for a bit, and this week has gotten better, and I have more energy, and actually feel like I'm up to doing things. Enjoying things, even. 

I dunno if that's what you meant by "do nothing". You might have meant "accomplished nothing", in which case I would point out don't dismiss the things you did work on, even if they didn't accomplish anything. 

Either way, more hugs incoming.

*HUG*

23 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeezes*

Thanks, guys

21 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ok guys i got a great metaphor for yalsl

Humans are like glass. We are fragile and can be broken easily. We are really strong and helpful in someways but hirtful in others. And like glass we all have different features. The thing is. When you break glass you think it's done for. Same as when someone finds a broken human. They discsrd it. But if you take time to take that broken glass you can put it together to make something even cooler and prettier then before with the shards. And eventually that broken discarded glass becomes the best glass sculpture in the world!!!!!!

 

YOUR AWESOME DONT FORGET THAT EVER!!!

*hugs*

Noooo hs ur awesome!!! Sometimes we cant do anything and it's not ur fault ok? *hugs hugs hugs*

*hugs*

Ur awesome too, Hawks.

9 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

Hi

So I got

A cat

A duck

A hippo

An otter

An owl

A dog

A dolphin

A lemur

A croc

A penguin

A stingray

Another duck

A snow leopard

A cheetah

A seahorse

Whatchu want

Ooh!

Otter, please

8 hours ago, Mag said:

chat why does the tiredness not make me tired but make my bones hurt

BECAUSE

Life doesn’t make sense nearly as much as it should

*hugs*

8 hours ago, Mag said:

Google told me I'm dying

*sigh*

do not trust everything you see on the internet

Although you ARE technically dying

As in you will die eventually

But for now, cherish the living

And don’t trust Google

2 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Ah

So the normal content of this thread

Aye

Beautiful, isn’t it?

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

29 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Thanks, guys

*hugs*

Ur awesome too, Hawks.

Ooh!

Otter, please

BECAUSE

Life doesn’t make sense nearly as much as it should

*hugs*

*sigh*

do not trust everything you see on the internet

Although you ARE technically dying

As in you will die eventually

But for now, cherish the living

And don’t trust Google

Aye

Beautiful, isn’t it?

Indeed 'tis

[Through the Living Hope]

1 hour ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Thanks, guys

*hugs*

Ur awesome too, Hawks.

Ooh!

Otter, please

BECAUSE

Life doesn’t make sense nearly as much as it should

*hugs*

*sigh*

do not trust everything you see on the internet

Although you ARE technically dying

As in you will die eventually

But for now, cherish the living

And don’t trust Google

Aye

Beautiful, isn’t it?

Das Cocoa. Rewards?

[IcedOutPenguin He/Him]

10 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

Hi

So I got

A cat

A duck

A hippo

An otter

An owl

A dog

A dolphin

A lemur

A croc

A penguin

A stingray

Another duck

A snow leopard

A cheetah

A seahorse

Whatchu want

Oh, can I have one?

[MirkerLurker she/her]

9 hours ago, Mag said:

chat why does the tiredness not make me tired but make my bones hurt

When my body is thirsty, I crave...chocolate.

Because we've all got some wires crossed up in our brains 

1 hour ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Ah

So the normal content of this thread

Yep lol

Another day, another death, another resurrection.

10 hours ago, Spark of Hope said:

Hi

So I got

A cat

A duck

A hippo

An otter

An owl

A dog

A dolphin

A lemur

A croc

A penguin

A stingray

Another duck

A snow leopard

A cheetah

A seahorse

Whatchu want

Cheetah pls? *gives big hugs and cuddles*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

Heyyy guys ik i just got back but um i have a little bit of a rant

so i have two friends we can call them nix and Elle so basically they used to be dating and they aren’t anymore but they are still friends. Actually that’s irrelevant to my rant but basically i want to be someone’s first choice when someone’s feeling down or even if they just want to talk i want to be at least one persons person that they go to nix is my best friend and she is great but today I was trying to help her and said that she always goes to talk to Elle abt stuff but she can’t with the topic we were talking abt which honestly rly hurt bc she’s who I go to bc she’s my best friend but now even tho ik it’s probably my head it feels as though I’m just deadweight they drag behind them and occasionally talk to . Then the one person who I might bed first option will tell me something’s wrong but not tell me what which makes it rly hard to belp Him. 
idk I just feel useless like not bad enough to be on my own

but not good enough to have someone

[Keke They/he]

I've had alot of thinking time lately. Time to just ponder existence in a school bus or car and question life. 

And so here is your weekly monolog by Hawks. (Should I make my monologes a blog)

Tw suicide, basically mental health issues

As I was moving my stuff I stumbled across my middle school journal. I did this for some time back when and it wasn't for very long but like any normal 13 year old I started like haha if someone finds this when im famous blah blah. And the thing is. I could see my mental health slowly crumble as I wrote. And the last page in the book is a Suicide note I wrote. There's a couple in there. I stopped because I felt words couldn't express my emotions enough. I felt that no one understood how I felt. Looking back now, I wish I could give myself a hug. I see the rust and the pain I went through. The sleepless nights I screamed myself to sleep. The days I felt alone and the panic attacks I kept hidden. How I would wake up and put on a mask to make people think I was OK. I wish I could tell myself to show my emotions and get help. Because I needed it. I see now that it built me. It made me who I am. I see my friends. Alot of people are just friends. But with the recent thing with sprout I told my therapist today about him. 

Hes been there through light and dark. Had he not walked up to the shy weird Minecraft kid in 7th grade I wouldn't be alive. I wish I could tell him how much he means to me. 

Another thing. Mother's day. Its always been a tough day in my house bc my brother would yell at my mom about everything and rhats how it would go. It was worse. This year my parents are broken up and my brother is a good dude now. Its gonna be strange. My present is a work on progress bc I have to animate and im still learning. 

 

Throught my pondering my thoughts drifted here. To the shard I call home. Yall are some of the best people god has ever made. I cant explain how much you mean to me. Snd I haven't been as active lately snd I've been busy. I miss the days where all I did was this. I've drifted away from the shard and started working on my life. Properly fixing myself and focusing on the priorities. I've noticed a change. I feel sadder bc I dont have you all eith me every day. But I am interacting more. Im seeing more. I wont leave the shard. But READ THIS PSRT if you want me to respond then tag me or quote me. I dont check the shard otherwise ok? 

And then I thought about roleplays. I signed up for alot like any sane rper. but I feel I've fallen behind in alot of them. Gsrp and htkad specifically. Idk what to do about thar and I'll reach out to the leaders eventually. 

Tonight I started another project (bc i don't have enough going already) and tbh it's a sad one. I had this friend. My first one in the new city. And we were inseparable. We hung out daily. Every weekend was a sleepover. And, when we went to Jr high we kept it up. (She is at the other school) Then slowly stopped. I haven't seen her in forever. Thinking about it feels painful. Sad. She wad the first person who I trusted, who cared about me. I saw an audio and then the memories came and I was like. We drawing this now. And we both changed so much. We grew in dofferent direction I fear. I want to get back together and talk again. To rwvist the old days. And to tell her how much she means. 

And in this time during the end I thought about one final thing. This guy. Lets name him jory (iykyk ). Jory is awesome right? Smart funny kind and empathetic. Anything a man could ask for. And jory freaking scares me. Hes one of my best friends ever. And he will randomly just disapesr then be back like oh mb I was in the er.   Ok then.  . The thing is we live in different states.  sad sad, but I sent him a message recently about feeling and he hasn't responded yet but I depreatly hope that it doesnt f up our friendship. 

Anyways the point of this whole brain barf is that we need to sometimes not ignore existence and run away in books. Yes books are good but it could pay off to look at your life and think of all the variables. 

*whistle* that's long. Tbh u dont blame you if you dont read it all I just needed to tell someone.

1 hour ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Heyyy guys ik i just got back but um i have a little bit of a rant

so i have two friends we can call them nix and Elle so basically they used to be dating and they aren’t anymore but they are still friends. Actually that’s irrelevant to my rant but basically i want to be someone’s first choice when someone’s feeling down or even if they just want to talk i want to be at least one persons person that they go to nix is my best friend and she is great but today I was trying to help her and said that she always goes to talk to Elle abt stuff but she can’t with the topic we were talking abt which honestly rly hurt bc she’s who I go to bc she’s my best friend but now even tho ik it’s probably my head it feels as though I’m just deadweight they drag behind them and occasionally talk to . Then the one person who I might bed first option will tell me something’s wrong but not tell me what which makes it rly hard to belp Him. 
idk I just feel useless like not bad enough to be on my own

but not good enough to have someone

*hugsiessssssss*

I feel you on that. I get that sometimes. Like. Why cant I be the first choice. 

 

Ok don't think of it like that. Sometimes I don't go to people first because I dont wanna hurt them eith specific issues. Its not that your dead weight its that they dont wanna weigh you down with their issues. *hugs*

[IcedOutPenguin He/Him]

5 minutes ago, Hawks said:

I've had alot of thinking time lately. Time to just ponder existence in a school bus or car and question life. 

And so here is your weekly monolog by Hawks. (Should I make my monologes a blog)

Tw suicide, basically mental health issues

As I was moving my stuff I stumbled across my middle school journal. I did this for some time back when and it wasn't for very long but like any normal 13 year old I started like haha if someone finds this when im famous blah blah. And the thing is. I could see my mental health slowly crumble as I wrote. And the last page in the book is a Suicide note I wrote. There's a couple in there. I stopped because I felt words couldn't express my emotions enough. I felt that no one understood how I felt. Looking back now, I wish I could give myself a hug. I see the rust and the pain I went through. The sleepless nights I screamed myself to sleep. The days I felt alone and the panic attacks I kept hidden. How I would wake up and put on a mask to make people think I was OK. I wish I could tell myself to show my emotions and get help. Because I needed it. I see now that it built me. It made me who I am. I see my friends. Alot of people are just friends. But with the recent thing with sprout I told my therapist today about him. 

Hes been there through light and dark. Had he not walked up to the shy weird Minecraft kid in 7th grade I wouldn't be alive. I wish I could tell him how much he means to me. 

Another thing. Mother's day. Its always been a tough day in my house bc my brother would yell at my mom about everything and rhats how it would go. It was worse. This year my parents are broken up and my brother is a good dude now. Its gonna be strange. My present is a work on progress bc I have to animate and im still learning. 

 

Throught my pondering my thoughts drifted here. To the shard I call home. Yall are some of the best people god has ever made. I cant explain how much you mean to me. Snd I haven't been as active lately snd I've been busy. I miss the days where all I did was this. I've drifted away from the shard and started working on my life. Properly fixing myself and focusing on the priorities. I've noticed a change. I feel sadder bc I dont have you all eith me every day. But I am interacting more. Im seeing more. I wont leave the shard. But READ THIS PSRT if you want me to respond then tag me or quote me. I dont check the shard otherwise ok? 

And then I thought about roleplays. I signed up for alot like any sane rper. but I feel I've fallen behind in alot of them. Gsrp and htkad specifically. Idk what to do about thar and I'll reach out to the leaders eventually. 

Tonight I started another project (bc i don't have enough going already) and tbh it's a sad one. I had this friend. My first one in the new city. And we were inseparable. We hung out daily. Every weekend was a sleepover. And, when we went to Jr high we kept it up. (She is at the other school) Then slowly stopped. I haven't seen her in forever. Thinking about it feels painful. Sad. She wad the first person who I trusted, who cared about me. I saw an audio and then the memories came and I was like. We drawing this now. And we both changed so much. We grew in dofferent direction I fear. I want to get back together and talk again. To rwvist the old days. And to tell her how much she means. 

And in this time during the end I thought about one final thing. This guy. Lets name him jory (iykyk ). Jory is awesome right? Smart funny kind and empathetic. Anything a man could ask for. And jory freaking scares me. Hes one of my best friends ever. And he will randomly just disapesr then be back like oh mb I was in the er.   Ok then.  . The thing is we live in different states.  sad sad, but I sent him a message recently about feeling and he hasn't responded yet but I depreatly hope that it doesnt f up our friendship. 

Anyways the point of this whole brain barf is that we need to sometimes not ignore existence and run away in books. Yes books are good but it could pay off to look at your life and think of all the variables. 

*whistle* that's long. Tbh u dont blame you if you dont read it all I just needed to tell someone.

*hugsiessssssss*

I feel you on that. I get that sometimes. Like. Why cant I be the first choice. 

 

Ok don't think of it like that. Sometimes I don't go to people first because I dont wanna hurt them eith specific issues. Its not that your dead weight its that they dont wanna weigh you down with their issues. *hugs*

Thats a lot of writing

*hugs* 

I do honestly wish I knew how you felt, but I don't; I've never experienced this before. I truthfully wish I could help more than just online. 

It's hard. But I know you'll find your way through it and be better because of it.

*hugs*

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

2 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Heyyy guys ik i just got back but um i have a little bit of a rant

so i have two friends we can call them nix and Elle so basically they used to be dating and they aren’t anymore but they are still friends. Actually that’s irrelevant to my rant but basically i want to be someone’s first choice when someone’s feeling down or even if they just want to talk i want to be at least one persons person that they go to nix is my best friend and she is great but today I was trying to help her and said that she always goes to talk to Elle abt stuff but she can’t with the topic we were talking abt which honestly rly hurt bc she’s who I go to bc she’s my best friend but now even tho ik it’s probably my head it feels as though I’m just deadweight they drag behind them and occasionally talk to . Then the one person who I might bed first option will tell me something’s wrong but not tell me what which makes it rly hard to belp Him. 
idk I just feel useless like not bad enough to be on my own

but not good enough to have someone

hmm

sounds like a classic case of unimportant syndrome

which I also have

.....

*sigh*

*hugs*

Someday we'll both find someone who will always put us first, and we can do the same for 

And we'll look back on all the people who hurt us without meaning to and we'll realize that we treasure our person so, so much more because of it 

but sometimes 'someday' feels so far away

It's gonna be okay 

*hugs again*

56 minutes ago, Hawks said:

I've had alot of thinking time lately. Time to just ponder existence in a school bus or car and question life. 

And so here is your weekly monolog by Hawks. (Should I make my monologes a blog)

Tw suicide, basically mental health issues

As I was moving my stuff I stumbled across my middle school journal. I did this for some time back when and it wasn't for very long but like any normal 13 year old I started like haha if someone finds this when im famous blah blah. And the thing is. I could see my mental health slowly crumble as I wrote. And the last page in the book is a Suicide note I wrote. There's a couple in there. I stopped because I felt words couldn't express my emotions enough. I felt that no one understood how I felt. Looking back now, I wish I could give myself a hug. I see the rust and the pain I went through. The sleepless nights I screamed myself to sleep. The days I felt alone and the panic attacks I kept hidden. How I would wake up and put on a mask to make people think I was OK. I wish I could tell myself to show my emotions and get help. Because I needed it. I see now that it built me. It made me who I am. I see my friends. Alot of people are just friends. But with the recent thing with sprout I told my therapist today about him. 

Hes been there through light and dark. Had he not walked up to the shy weird Minecraft kid in 7th grade I wouldn't be alive. I wish I could tell him how much he means to me. 

Another thing. Mother's day. Its always been a tough day in my house bc my brother would yell at my mom about everything and rhats how it would go. It was worse. This year my parents are broken up and my brother is a good dude now. Its gonna be strange. My present is a work on progress bc I have to animate and im still learning. 

 

Throught my pondering my thoughts drifted here. To the shard I call home. Yall are some of the best people god has ever made. I cant explain how much you mean to me. Snd I haven't been as active lately snd I've been busy. I miss the days where all I did was this. I've drifted away from the shard and started working on my life. Properly fixing myself and focusing on the priorities. I've noticed a change. I feel sadder bc I dont have you all eith me every day. But I am interacting more. Im seeing more. I wont leave the shard. But READ THIS PSRT if you want me to respond then tag me or quote me. I dont check the shard otherwise ok? 

And then I thought about roleplays. I signed up for alot like any sane rper. but I feel I've fallen behind in alot of them. Gsrp and htkad specifically. Idk what to do about thar and I'll reach out to the leaders eventually. 

Tonight I started another project (bc i don't have enough going already) and tbh it's a sad one. I had this friend. My first one in the new city. And we were inseparable. We hung out daily. Every weekend was a sleepover. And, when we went to Jr high we kept it up. (She is at the other school) Then slowly stopped. I haven't seen her in forever. Thinking about it feels painful. Sad. She wad the first person who I trusted, who cared about me. I saw an audio and then the memories came and I was like. We drawing this now. And we both changed so much. We grew in dofferent direction I fear. I want to get back together and talk again. To rwvist the old days. And to tell her how much she means. 

And in this time during the end I thought about one final thing. This guy. Lets name him jory (iykyk ). Jory is awesome right? Smart funny kind and empathetic. Anything a man could ask for. And jory freaking scares me. Hes one of my best friends ever. And he will randomly just disapesr then be back like oh mb I was in the er.   Ok then.  . The thing is we live in different states.  sad sad, but I sent him a message recently about feeling and he hasn't responded yet but I depreatly hope that it doesnt f up our friendship. 

Anyways the point of this whole brain barf is that we need to sometimes not ignore existence and run away in books. Yes books are good but it could pay off to look at your life and think of all the variables. 

*whistle* that's long. Tbh u dont blame you if you dont read it all I just needed to tell someone.

*hugsiessssssss*

I feel you on that. I get that sometimes. Like. Why cant I be the first choice. 

 

Ok don't think of it like that. Sometimes I don't go to people first because I dont wanna hurt them eith specific issues. Its not that your dead weight its that they dont wanna weigh you down with their issues. *hugs*

Ah, self reflection. 

I'm glad you're in a better place right now. *hugs* 

You're gonna keep growing and keep getting better and become someone you're proud of. 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

4 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*sigh*

do not trust everything you see on the internet

Although you ARE technically dying

As in you will die eventually

But for now, cherish the living

And don’t trust Google

truth

2 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Heyyy guys ik i just got back but um i have a little bit of a rant

so i have two friends we can call them nix and Elle so basically they used to be dating and they aren’t anymore but they are still friends. Actually that’s irrelevant to my rant but basically i want to be someone’s first choice when someone’s feeling down or even if they just want to talk i want to be at least one persons person that they go to nix is my best friend and she is great but today I was trying to help her and said that she always goes to talk to Elle abt stuff but she can’t with the topic we were talking abt which honestly rly hurt bc she’s who I go to bc she’s my best friend but now even tho ik it’s probably my head it feels as though I’m just deadweight they drag behind them and occasionally talk to . Then the one person who I might bed first option will tell me something’s wrong but not tell me what which makes it rly hard to belp Him. 
idk I just feel useless like not bad enough to be on my own

but not good enough to have someone

*squeeze*

That's hard

I'm sorry

1 hour ago, Hawks said:

I've had alot of thinking time lately. Time to just ponder existence in a school bus or car and question life. 

And so here is your weekly monolog by Hawks. (Should I make my monologes a blog)

Tw suicide, basically mental health issues

As I was moving my stuff I stumbled across my middle school journal. I did this for some time back when and it wasn't for very long but like any normal 13 year old I started like haha if someone finds this when im famous blah blah. And the thing is. I could see my mental health slowly crumble as I wrote. And the last page in the book is a Suicide note I wrote. There's a couple in there. I stopped because I felt words couldn't express my emotions enough. I felt that no one understood how I felt. Looking back now, I wish I could give myself a hug. I see the rust and the pain I went through. The sleepless nights I screamed myself to sleep. The days I felt alone and the panic attacks I kept hidden. How I would wake up and put on a mask to make people think I was OK. I wish I could tell myself to show my emotions and get help. Because I needed it. I see now that it built me. It made me who I am. I see my friends. Alot of people are just friends. But with the recent thing with sprout I told my therapist today about him. 

Hes been there through light and dark. Had he not walked up to the shy weird Minecraft kid in 7th grade I wouldn't be alive. I wish I could tell him how much he means to me. 

Another thing. Mother's day. Its always been a tough day in my house bc my brother would yell at my mom about everything and rhats how it would go. It was worse. This year my parents are broken up and my brother is a good dude now. Its gonna be strange. My present is a work on progress bc I have to animate and im still learning. 

 

Throught my pondering my thoughts drifted here. To the shard I call home. Yall are some of the best people god has ever made. I cant explain how much you mean to me. Snd I haven't been as active lately snd I've been busy. I miss the days where all I did was this. I've drifted away from the shard and started working on my life. Properly fixing myself and focusing on the priorities. I've noticed a change. I feel sadder bc I dont have you all eith me every day. But I am interacting more. Im seeing more. I wont leave the shard. But READ THIS PSRT if you want me to respond then tag me or quote me. I dont check the shard otherwise ok? 

And then I thought about roleplays. I signed up for alot like any sane rper. but I feel I've fallen behind in alot of them. Gsrp and htkad specifically. Idk what to do about thar and I'll reach out to the leaders eventually. 

Tonight I started another project (bc i don't have enough going already) and tbh it's a sad one. I had this friend. My first one in the new city. And we were inseparable. We hung out daily. Every weekend was a sleepover. And, when we went to Jr high we kept it up. (She is at the other school) Then slowly stopped. I haven't seen her in forever. Thinking about it feels painful. Sad. She wad the first person who I trusted, who cared about me. I saw an audio and then the memories came and I was like. We drawing this now. And we both changed so much. We grew in dofferent direction I fear. I want to get back together and talk again. To rwvist the old days. And to tell her how much she means. 

And in this time during the end I thought about one final thing. This guy. Lets name him jory (iykyk ). Jory is awesome right? Smart funny kind and empathetic. Anything a man could ask for. And jory freaking scares me. Hes one of my best friends ever. And he will randomly just disapesr then be back like oh mb I was in the er.   Ok then.  . The thing is we live in different states.  sad sad, but I sent him a message recently about feeling and he hasn't responded yet but I depreatly hope that it doesnt f up our friendship. 

Anyways the point of this whole brain barf is that we need to sometimes not ignore existence and run away in books. Yes books are good but it could pay off to look at your life and think of all the variables. 

*whistle* that's long. Tbh u dont blame you if you dont read it all I just needed to tell someone.

*hugsiessssssss*

I feel you on that. I get that sometimes. Like. Why cant I be the first choice. 

 

Ok don't think of it like that. Sometimes I don't go to people first because I dont wanna hurt them eith specific issues. Its not that your dead weight its that they dont wanna weigh you down with their issues. *hugs*

*hugssssss*

21 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

hmm

sounds like a classic case of unimportant syndrome

which I also have

.....

*sigh*

*hugs*

Someday we'll both find someone who will always put us first, and we can do the same for 

And we'll look back on all the people who hurt us without meaning to and we'll realize that we treasure our person so, so much more because of it 

but sometimes 'someday' feels so far away

It's gonna be okay 

*hugs again*

Ah, self reflection. 

I'm glad you're in a better place right now. *hugs* 

You're gonna keep growing and keep getting better and become someone you're proud of. 

*hugs*

Yes, you will

Edited May 10, 2025 by Through The Living Glass

[Through the Living Hope]

6 hours ago, IcedOutPenguin said:

Oh, can I have one?

Yep!

6 hours ago, MirkerLurker said:

When my body is thirsty, I crave...chocolate.

Because we've all got some wires crossed up in our brains 

Yep lol

Another day, another death, another resurrection.

Cheetah pls? *gives big hugs and cuddles*

Das Felicity

5 hours ago, Hawks said:

I've had alot of thinking time lately. Time to just ponder existence in a school bus or car and question life. 

And so here is your weekly monolog by Hawks. (Should I make my monologes a blog)

Tw suicide, basically mental health issues

As I was moving my stuff I stumbled across my middle school journal. I did this for some time back when and it wasn't for very long but like any normal 13 year old I started like haha if someone finds this when im famous blah blah. And the thing is. I could see my mental health slowly crumble as I wrote. And the last page in the book is a Suicide note I wrote. There's a couple in there. I stopped because I felt words couldn't express my emotions enough. I felt that no one understood how I felt. Looking back now, I wish I could give myself a hug. I see the rust and the pain I went through. The sleepless nights I screamed myself to sleep. The days I felt alone and the panic attacks I kept hidden. How I would wake up and put on a mask to make people think I was OK. I wish I could tell myself to show my emotions and get help. Because I needed it. I see now that it built me. It made me who I am. I see my friends. Alot of people are just friends. But with the recent thing with sprout I told my therapist today about him. 

Hes been there through light and dark. Had he not walked up to the shy weird Minecraft kid in 7th grade I wouldn't be alive. I wish I could tell him how much he means to me. 

Another thing. Mother's day. Its always been a tough day in my house bc my brother would yell at my mom about everything and rhats how it would go. It was worse. This year my parents are broken up and my brother is a good dude now. Its gonna be strange. My present is a work on progress bc I have to animate and im still learning. 

 

Throught my pondering my thoughts drifted here. To the shard I call home. Yall are some of the best people god has ever made. I cant explain how much you mean to me. Snd I haven't been as active lately snd I've been busy. I miss the days where all I did was this. I've drifted away from the shard and started working on my life. Properly fixing myself and focusing on the priorities. I've noticed a change. I feel sadder bc I dont have you all eith me every day. But I am interacting more. Im seeing more. I wont leave the shard. But READ THIS PSRT if you want me to respond then tag me or quote me. I dont check the shard otherwise ok? 

And then I thought about roleplays. I signed up for alot like any sane rper. but I feel I've fallen behind in alot of them. Gsrp and htkad specifically. Idk what to do about thar and I'll reach out to the leaders eventually. 

Tonight I started another project (bc i don't have enough going already) and tbh it's a sad one. I had this friend. My first one in the new city. And we were inseparable. We hung out daily. Every weekend was a sleepover. And, when we went to Jr high we kept it up. (She is at the other school) Then slowly stopped. I haven't seen her in forever. Thinking about it feels painful. Sad. She wad the first person who I trusted, who cared about me. I saw an audio and then the memories came and I was like. We drawing this now. And we both changed so much. We grew in dofferent direction I fear. I want to get back together and talk again. To rwvist the old days. And to tell her how much she means. 

And in this time during the end I thought about one final thing. This guy. Lets name him jory (iykyk ). Jory is awesome right? Smart funny kind and empathetic. Anything a man could ask for. And jory freaking scares me. Hes one of my best friends ever. And he will randomly just disapesr then be back like oh mb I was in the er.   Ok then.  . The thing is we live in different states.  sad sad, but I sent him a message recently about feeling and he hasn't responded yet but I depreatly hope that it doesnt f up our friendship. 

Anyways the point of this whole brain barf is that we need to sometimes not ignore existence and run away in books. Yes books are good but it could pay off to look at your life and think of all the variables. 

*whistle* that's long. Tbh u dont blame you if you dont read it all I just needed to tell someone.

*hugsiessssssss*

I feel you on that. I get that sometimes. Like. Why cant I be the first choice. 

 

Ok don't think of it like that. Sometimes I don't go to people first because I dont wanna hurt them eith specific issues. Its not that your dead weight its that they dont wanna weigh you down with their issues. *hugs*

*hug*

~~~

Cant sleep rn. Idk why