Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

12 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

Lovely! Tis is what thine interviews were for?

Indeed, my friend. 'Tis, and such.

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

21 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeeze*

LUCK!!

*pre-homework squeezes*

 

 

 

 

Okay, I DO have some good news for once :D:D

AFTER MONTHS OF LOOKING FOR A JOB I FINALLY GOT ONE TODAYYYYYYYY

'Tis an ice cream place

TOOK ME SO LONG AHHHHHH-

Yay!

[MirkerLurker she/her]

Ok I'll go back and read through and reply to stuff in a minute but first!! Behold what I found!

 

because ok ok but think about it

We're like the dogs.

Golden retriever energy is great and wonderful, but this dude's right: the scraggly mutt that wanders into your life is irreplaceable and more special than any other dog will every be. And that's us. We're the scraggly dogs. Miserable, broken, shy, nervous, and absolutely beloved. 

Everybody remember that broken and hurt doesn't mean less loveable.

[MirkerLurker she/her]

On 4/21/2025 at 11:25 PM, Hawks said:

Sometimes I struggle to word things. And alot of people know that I talk through music. So like I send a song and if you read into it there's something there so...

all of it. 60 percent the second verse ans past tho. 

lyrics 

  Reveal hidden contents

[Verse 1]

Feeling so anxious, I step in your office

Hear: "How was your week? How do you feel?"

It's hard to be honest

All I can think about is shutting back down

What's wrong with me? I should be better by now

You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it

All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface

All of the demons through the years I've bottled up

But I'm exhausted, and the past is too much

 

[Pre-Chorus 1]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

I'm not ready

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful

When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral

I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart

It's so unfair that every day is this hard

I wanna be normal for so many reasons

Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving

Basic functioning's becoming such a chore

What would I be like if they cared a little more?

 

[Pre-Chorus 2]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

Stop pushing me, just let me be empty

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Bridge]

'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need

To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons

I know you say these thoughts are liars

But I don't wanna live this tired

With very little proof and everything to lose

I'm scared you're getting sick of me

So tell me honestly

 

[Pre-Chorus 3]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

I don't have to feel

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Outro]

Am I better off broken?

Better off broken?

Am I better off, better off broken

 

Yep yep, this one's a good song too. (surprise surprise)

A lot of people have pointed out that being broken can make you beautiful. I will add a different note: It's ok to take healing at your own pace.

Healing hurts. It's hard. It tears open old scars. It's exhausting - and if you push it too fast, you burn yourself out again. Healing is good, so good in the long run. But it's not easy, or pleasant, a lot of the time. It's ok to take breaks; it's ok to go slow; it's ok to rest. And then to stand back up and go "ok, back into the fray" when you're ready to start moving again.

21 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

 

Motivational Message from me!!!

also... oooo... voice reveal

*hug*

Also, you sound a lot like someone I know, and it's kind of amusing. Also also, I like knowing what you sound like. It's nice to have a voice to put to the words you write.

10 hours ago, Mag said:

how to make depresso expresso go away

I don't really have anything to add, but I love how many different answers you got! 

7 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*sigh*

sad/tired/lonely/*screams*

*hug*

*big wrapping-arms-around hug*

6 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I wish I could visit my sister. She's in the psych ward at the local Children's Hospital. (If you know where I live, then you should know which hospital.) I'm not allowed to visit her because it'll stress her out. I'm sad. She was the 'peacekeeper' of the house. My younger sister and I fight a lot, and she would be the one who'd break it up. But she's in the psych ward. I'm worried I won't see her before I turn 18 and leave the house.

That's so hard. I'm sorry. *hug* If you don't mind me asking, when do you turn 18? Are you planning to leave the house the moment you turn 18, or did you mean more the general "graduate and move" thing?

47 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Okay, I DO have some good news for once :D:D

AFTER MONTHS OF LOOKING FOR A JOB I FINALLY GOT ONE TODAYYYYYYYY

'Tis an ice cream place

TOOK ME SO LONG AHHHHHH-

Woohoo! Congrats! 

Also...DISCOUNT ICE CREAM
Best job ever.

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, MirkerLurker said:

Yep yep, this one's a good song too. (surprise surprise)

A lot of people have pointed out that being broken can make you beautiful. I will add a different note: It's ok to take healing at your own pace.

Healing hurts. It's hard. It tears open old scars. It's exhausting - and if you push it too fast, you burn yourself out again. Healing is good, so good in the long run. But it's not easy, or pleasant, a lot of the time. It's ok to take breaks; it's ok to go slow; it's ok to rest. And then to stand back up and go "ok, back into the fray" when you're ready to start moving again.

Thanks *hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, MirkerLurker said:

Ok I'll go back and read through and reply to stuff in a minute but first!! Behold what I found!

 

because ok ok but think about it

We're like the dogs.

Golden retriever energy is great and wonderful, but this dude's right: the scraggly mutt that wanders into your life is irreplaceable and more special than any other dog will every be. And that's us. We're the scraggly dogs. Miserable, broken, shy, nervous, and absolutely beloved. 

Everybody remember that broken and hurt doesn't mean less loveable.

T~T

42 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

Yep yep, this one's a good song too. (surprise surprise)

A lot of people have pointed out that being broken can make you beautiful. I will add a different note: It's ok to take healing at your own pace.

Healing hurts. It's hard. It tears open old scars. It's exhausting - and if you push it too fast, you burn yourself out again. Healing is good, so good in the long run. But it's not easy, or pleasant, a lot of the time. It's ok to take breaks; it's ok to go slow; it's ok to rest. And then to stand back up and go "ok, back into the fray" when you're ready to start moving again.

*hug*

Also, you sound a lot like someone I know, and it's kind of amusing. Also also, I like knowing what you sound like. It's nice to have a voice to put to the words you write.

I don't really have anything to add, but I love how many different answers you got! 

*hug*

*big wrapping-arms-around hug*

That's so hard. I'm sorry. *hug* If you don't mind me asking, when do you turn 18? Are you planning to leave the house the moment you turn 18, or did you mean more the general "graduate and move" thing?

Woohoo! Congrats! 

Also...DISCOUNT ICE CREAM
Best job ever.

Free ice cream, actually

hehehehehehehehehe but yeah thanks

*hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

9 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

T~T

Free ice cream, actually

hehehehehehehehehe but yeah thanks

*hugs*

FREE ICE CREAM I gotta get me a job at a ice cream place

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

[Keke They/he]

4 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

Dead, gay and dead lol

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

26 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

Mischievous and gay

[Mags she/they]

31 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

magical and ok at the same time loll

[Through the Living Hope]

32 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

Blessed, yeehaw, stabby, and radical lol

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

42 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

Mischievous and gay definitely 

[Keke They/he]

35 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Mischievous and gay

 

18 minutes ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Mischievous and gay definitely 

Yay more gay people!!!

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

3 minutes ago, Hawks said:

 

Yay more gay people!!!

We're everywhere

[Wierdo he/him]

1 hour ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Today's check-in, which shremp are you today?

I'm a Nostalgic shremp I think

I'd say.. dead, stabby, mischievous, and nostalgic but if I was to choose only one... Mischievous

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

Me when I'm in class and learn that teenagers have anxiety  

Who would've guessed

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

On 4/21/2025 at 8:53 PM, alittleinsane said:

if someone ever says something "get on my level"ish, or makes you feel like you're somehow lower than them

remember:

if they are not willing to get down to your level and cradle your healing soul in their hands

while a dreamworks soundtrack plays behind it all

are they really worth hanging out with

this works with familial, romantic, and platonic relationships

ideally you find a middle ground, but even that means that they need to move too

don't give an inch until they do

stand proud where you are, and you will always be above them

Thank you for this. It is lovely.

 

 

 

Bonus Hoid-like response to use one them:

"And why would I lower myself to your level?"

On 4/21/2025 at 11:25 PM, Hawks said:

Sometimes I struggle to word things. And alot of people know that I talk through music. So like I send a song and if you read into it there's something there so...

all of it. 60 percent the second verse ans past tho. 

lyrics 

  Reveal hidden contents

[Verse 1]

Feeling so anxious, I step in your office

Hear: "How was your week? How do you feel?"

It's hard to be honest

All I can think about is shutting back down

What's wrong with me? I should be better by now

You tell me be patient, that it'll be worth it

All the suppression, session by session, pulled to the surface

All of the demons through the years I've bottled up

But I'm exhausted, and the past is too much

 

[Pre-Chorus 1]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

I'm not ready

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna breathe deep, I'm tired of mindful

When even the smallest things in my life are making me spiral

I had no say, inherited a hemorrhaged heart

It's so unfair that every day is this hard

I wanna be normal for so many reasons

Like I'll never have the time that I need for anger and grieving

Basic functioning's becoming such a chore

What would I be like if they cared a little more?

 

[Pre-Chorus 2]

I'm not ready, it's too heavy

Stop pushing me, just let me be empty

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Bridge]

'Cause fifty minutes every week is not enough for what I need

To give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons

I know you say these thoughts are liars

But I don't wanna live this tired

With very little proof and everything to lose

I'm scared you're getting sick of me

So tell me honestly

 

[Pre-Chorus 3]

Why is healing so hard?

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars

I don't have to feel

 

[Chorus]

Why is healing so hard? (so hard, so hard)

And why does numb feel like my only friend?

'Cause when I swallow my scars (my scars, my scars)

Then I don't have to feel it all again

I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open

Am I better off, better off broken?

 

[Outro]

Am I better off broken?

Better off broken?

Am I better off, better off broken

 

This is a good song.

*hug*

20 hours ago, The Shattered Cosmere said:

I wish I could visit my sister. She's in the psych ward at the local Children's Hospital. (If you know where I live, then you should know which hospital.) I'm not allowed to visit her because it'll stress her out. I'm sad. She was the 'peacekeeper' of the house. My younger sister and I fight a lot, and she would be the one who'd break it up. But she's in the psych ward. I'm worried I won't see her before I turn 18 and leave the house.

*hugs* 

I hope you get to see her.

19 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

uhhhh

honestly

productivity helps me sometimes

barring that, microwave chocolate and marshmallows and eat the resulting sugary goo. 

*hugs so tight*

That... seems like too much sugar. By a lot.

[Keke They/he]

2 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Me when I'm in class and learn that teenagers have anxiety  

Who would've guessed

Wooow

Just now, KnightSkye said:

Thank you for this. It is lovely.

 

 

 

Bonus Hoid-like response to use one them:

"And why would I lower myself to your level?"

This is a good song.

*hug*

*hugs* 

I hope you get to see her.

That... seems like too much sugar. By a lot.

*hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

6 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Me when I'm in class and learn that teenagers have anxiety  

Who would've guessed

Huh I had noooo idea

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

Huh I had noooo idea

Ok please

tell me who the poeple in your pfp are

one looks like Mel from arcane

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

21 minutes ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

Me when I'm in class and learn that teenagers have anxiety  

Who would've guessed

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

18 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ok please

tell me who the poeple in your pfp are

one looks like Mel from arcane

lol it’s ead and sabran from the priory of the orange tree

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

lol it’s ead and sabran from the priory of the orange tree

Ah ok *notes*

[Shatter He/Him]

I've posted an SU on this, but:

My parents have taken my technology away indefinitely at home due to my behaviour. Just wanted to let you guys know that this is why you can't contact me at night now. It's because I'm slightly erratic and can get a bit out of hand. Last night, my brain wasn't fully on board and I annoyed them one bit too much. Now I've got no tech at home except for homework. They don't understand the full reason why I'm on the Shard, even though I've tried explaining it to them. They're Generation X, so that's part of the problem; they don't fully trust the internet and the people on it. I've tried explaining that the Shard is tight-knit, and I am Internet-aware.

The worst part is that I feel I'm on the edge of a mental breakdown. I can feel one incoming. I don't know why or how I can feel it, but I can, and it's the worst feeling. So now I'm anxious. (Reference @#1 Taln Fan's post above)

My sister is still in the psych ward in the hospital, and I'm also freaking out about living on my own.

When I turn 18, it's out of the house for me because over the last 17 years, I've worn my parents down, and they have very little patience, and they want me out. So, I'll have to find an apartment or shared house or someone's basement to live in until college starts. 

I also need a job. 

I'm not doing well in calculus.

So… yeah…

I ain't doing well.