Kaymyth she/her Posted March 26, 2015 Posted March 26, 2015 I had another fight with my mom. Well, almost fight, I guess. Long story short, she "tried really hard not to lecture me" about the thing is posted about last night. This translated into reminding me three times about how much I needed to email the director this morning. Leaving aside the fact she wanted to lecture me when she KNEW I was close to tears (seriously, I almost cried in front of her), she let it stew all day until she snapped at my sister over nothing at all. My brother explained that she was hurt because she felt like I had been mean to her this morning. Which...maybe I was. I was curt with her. I didn't let her preview my final draft of the email I sent. And when she reminded me the third time, I sort of lost it in front of my brother. I WAS making a big deal about what she said, which wasn't all that offensive. So I apologized. And got a truckload of guilt for my trouble. She told me how she'd been "trying really hard not to lecture me" and how she felt like everything she did I took the wrong way, and how she feels like she can't do anything around me without me getting mad at her. I'm just....I'm done. I know I should feel something over this, guilt or sorrow or like I should try harder to repair our relationship, but I don't. I just feel like moving out and holing up in my room until then. I know I should feel sorry for making another human being feel lousy, but all I feel is like she finally knows how I've felt, on and off, for the last ten years. I know I should feel glad that my apology got a thank you, but I just feel like I let her win and I still didn't give her everything she wanted. I just want to stop feeling this way. I want to go back to the days when I was a kid and thought she was the smartest nicest person ever, but I can't. The issue that your mother is missing here is that really, it's just not appropriate to lecture an adult, even if said adult is your child. I mean, parental types can try it, but it's just not going to end well (case in point). Down that road lies anger and resentment and unnecessary arguments. It's as much circumstance as personality clashes; you're still living with them (or doing so again). There are certain patterns and habits that have been ingrained into both you and your parents that come with the living together dynamic. You have a particular spot in the family hierarchy that you have occupied for your entire life, and trying to break out of that is really, really difficult. It often take the child living on their own for a while for the parents to accept them as adult peers rather than children who need parenting. You also need the opportunity to establish your own patterns in your own space, which will give you better footing for dealing with them in the future. What's funny is that from their point of view, someday they're going to look at you and *poof!* "When did Twi suddenly become a grownup?" when, in fact, you have been doing just fine acting like one for years at that juncture. 1
TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her Posted March 26, 2015 Posted March 26, 2015 Never enough pugs. At this point I'm just looking up cute pug photos for myself... Who cares as long as they're pugs? They're all beautiful. That's horrible. Here they want to tell you that you're awesome. Oh my gosh, it's the Pug League! The Justice Pugs? Whatever, they're so ADORABLE! The issue that your mother is missing here is that really, it's just not appropriate to lecture an adult, even if said adult is your child. I mean, parental types can try it, but it's just not going to end well (case in point). Down that road lies anger and resentment and unnecessary arguments. It's as much circumstance as personality clashes; you're still living with them (or doing so again). There are certain patterns and habits that have been ingrained into both you and your parents that come with the living together dynamic. You have a particular spot in the family hierarchy that you have occupied for your entire life, and trying to break out of that is really, really difficult. It often take the child living on their own for a while for the parents to accept them as adult peers rather than children who need parenting. You also need the opportunity to establish your own patterns in your own space, which will give you better footing for dealing with them in the future. What's funny is that from their point of view, someday they're going to look at you and *poof!* "When did Twi suddenly become a grownup?" when, in fact, you have been doing just fine acting like one for years at that juncture. That makes a lot of since. I've never lived on my own at this point—it just made more financial sense to live with my parents. Although this helped in a lot of ways, I guess it never gave them the chance to see me acting like a responsible adult. I just stayed a kid in their eyes. Hopefully, I'll be moving out soon. I hope that changes the dynamics at least a bit. 1
Curious Anamaximder he/him Posted March 26, 2015 Posted March 26, 2015 Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life is DULL!!!!!! Until I came here:)
TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her Posted March 26, 2015 Posted March 26, 2015 So apparently, I'm supposed to KNOW when I need to run a card, even when I'm just told to keep the number on file. Not to run it. To keep it on file. She called me after she left work just to give me a condescending lecture about how I need to get my psychic connection with her up and running. I cannot stand this woman. Oh, and guess what, lady? I didn't listen to your lecture. I set the phone aside and picked it back up when you'd finished ranting. So you used that time for nothing. 1
TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her Posted March 26, 2015 Posted March 26, 2015 Thanks. And you know the worst part? I thought this lady was making a genuine effort to be more pleasant. Now I'm thinking it was just a ploy to catch people off guard. Terrible, I know.
SmurfAquamarineBodies he/him Posted March 30, 2015 Posted March 30, 2015 (edited) So apparently at any moment my nephew could give himself a seizure if i say no to him. Drama queen. Well at least I now know that I have entertainment only one word away. Edited March 30, 2015 by SmurfAquamarineBodies
TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her Posted March 30, 2015 Posted March 30, 2015 "If I don't maintain at least a one-mile gap between my car and the car in front of me, the other cars will eat me!" --drivers in my city, apparently 3
Kobold King he/him Posted March 30, 2015 Posted March 30, 2015 "If I don't maintain at least a one-mile gap between my car and the car in front of me, the other cars will eat me!" --drivers in my city, apparently --Backtrack, when given a driver's license. 1
Surgebound Rainspren he/him Posted March 30, 2015 Posted March 30, 2015 Microsoft Office: Hello, we have arbitrarily decided that the universes hates you. therefore we have selected a handful of important documents and made it so you cannot open them. also we have teamed up with your terrible laptop to activate every single alt and function key permanently and the only way you can stop it is by completely shutting your computer down. Also VIRUSES we know you love them... so here's a bucket-load. 2
+Slowswift Posted March 31, 2015 Posted March 31, 2015 I don't know if any of you have heard of Collective Soul. If you haven't, go look them up (I recommend Precious Declaration or Shine). I promise you won't regret it. Anyways, they're coming out with an album soon. Now you're probably wondering, "That's great news, Slowswift! Why the storms are you here?" Well. It was supposed to come out summer last year. It's their 20th anniversary album, see. But they postponed it. And it's killing me: there's no hint of a release date, except for it coming 2015. It's rather annoying. TL;DR: Would it kill them to release their 20th anniversary album actually on their 20th anniversary? These guys started in 1993.
Blaze1616 he/him Posted March 31, 2015 Posted March 31, 2015 Would it kill them to release their 20th anniversary album actually on their 20th anniversary? These guys started in 1993. Did they form in 1993, or was their first album published in 1993? Big difference there, and a lot of bands I know of celebrate anniversaries of publication dates, not when the group of them came together and decided to make music cooperatively.
+Slowswift Posted March 31, 2015 Posted March 31, 2015 (edited) They released their first album in 1993. EDIT: Also, Reckonerverse characters are slowly being replaced by SHIELD characters in my head. And I hate it. Grrr. Edited March 31, 2015 by Slowswift
TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her Posted April 2, 2015 Posted April 2, 2015 I'm sick. . Ooohhhh, is it that norovirus that's going around? That stuff is awful.
Kobold King he/him Posted April 2, 2015 Posted April 2, 2015 I'm sick. Ooohhhh, is it that norovirus that's going around? That stuff is awful. I hope for your sake that's not what you have, Winter. It catches like the cold and feels like ebola. Not a pleasant thing to have in your house hold.
Blaze1616 he/him Posted April 2, 2015 Posted April 2, 2015 They released their first album in 1993. Then I feel your pain.
Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her Posted April 2, 2015 Posted April 2, 2015 Mine just feels so terrible and snotty and all hurting and stuff. And now my nose hurts. I'm sorry I was sick as well for an entire week 2 weeks ago. It's awful My rant is that I could barely get any sleep last night so I'm really tired :/
TwiLyghtSansSparkles she/her Posted April 4, 2015 Posted April 4, 2015 I teach Sunday school. Tomorrow is Easter, and as many people know, it's like the Christian equivalent of Super Bowl Sunday. Big day, everyone shows up, the church is expected to bring its A-game, and there's supposed to be something special for the kids. Well, the church I attend is pretty small, so I teach in tandem with one other young woman my age. We'll trade, two weeks on and two weeks off. Due to a schedule change, this week—tomorrow—was supposed to be her week to teach. I was planning to just follow her lead because 1. it's her week to plan and 2. last year, I put a lot of effort into making Easter morning special for the kids with pretty Easter baskets and an egg hunt, and she kicked me out. Took the baskets and said "I'm good, I don't need your help," presumably before taking credit for all the work I did. Well, today, it turns out she had told the pastor that it was my week, so when I told him that it was her week, it turned out we had no plan. So now I'm having to put all this stuff together at the last minute when she should've planned this out, knowing full well it was her responsibility. She tossed out an idea for a play—get the kids to act out different roles in the Easter story while she reads it, which is a good idea….but why didn't she say that on Wednesday when Pastor sent out the text? In other news, I'm quitting the Sunday school thing on Monday. I'll tell my pastor that I can teach for two more weeks, and then I'm done. I can't do this anymore. 4
Kestrel she/her Posted April 6, 2015 Posted April 6, 2015 Made an 88 on my playing test. Band director said she wouldn't put me with the flutes because I played piccolo for it. I made last chair. I'm in the third row. I told her that she said she wouldn't put me in but she was like sit there anyway. Nobody there knows how to play. I trusted her. If I had known I'd end up there I would have redone my test. I was shaking so badly and was nearly in tears. Seriously. Why. I don't even belong there.
Kaymyth she/her Posted April 7, 2015 Posted April 7, 2015 Made an 88 on my playing test. Band director said she wouldn't put me with the flutes because I played piccolo for it. I made last chair. I'm in the third row. I told her that she said she wouldn't put me in but she was like sit there anyway. Nobody there knows how to play. I trusted her. If I had known I'd end up there I would have redone my test. I was shaking so badly and was nearly in tears. Seriously. Why. I don't even belong there. The heck? Piccolo is *harder* than flute! I call shenanigans on your director, because that's just stupid. (Lifelong musician here. Oboe is my primary instrument, but I play the flute family as well.)
Kestrel she/her Posted April 8, 2015 Posted April 8, 2015 I'm not sure why she even put me there, anyway. I don't think it was my grade; I believe it had to do with ensemble sound and all. But it was storming irritating, and really not good for my (already low) self esteem and my growing anxiety. However, there is one pro. After I played my test, some saxophones start muttering things like "wow, she really sucks" and that sort of trash talk. Not only did they straight up bomb the test, but guess who is now sitting by them. I can feel them wincing beside me. They say things like "is that a dog whistle or a flute" and "I wonder what's worse, that thing or having a flute right in your face." It gives me life. 1
Briar King Posted April 8, 2015 Posted April 8, 2015 I think I fell out of bed the other night after my Ambien was good and kicked in. I have to take it or I stare at my ceiling all night. Anyway my back is good and soar the past 4 days so I must have fallen at some point. No amount of Tylenol and Asprin is helping dull it. I have some muscle relaxers but I hate taking them. I may have to though. 1
Kaymyth she/her Posted April 8, 2015 Posted April 8, 2015 I'm not sure why she even put me there, anyway. I don't think it was my grade; I believe it had to do with ensemble sound and all. But it was storming irritating, and really not good for my (already low) self esteem and my growing anxiety. I would hope so. She might've wanted a solid player on the 2nd parts just so that the notes would all get hit. Still, a good director would *tell* you that; in a proper band/orchestra, the first chair player is 1st part, while the second chair is 2nd part. That distributes the parts amongst the strongest players. I can't offer much advice to fix it, but at least I can validate your feelings on the matter. It's not you, it's her. However, there is one pro. After I played my test, some saxophones start muttering things like "wow, she really sucks" and that sort of trash talk. Not only did they straight up bomb the test, but guess who is now sitting by them. I can feel them wincing beside me. They say things like "is that a dog whistle or a flute" and "I wonder what's worse, that thing or having a flute right in your face." It gives me life. Jerkweasels. I'd point out politely that I could play louder and blow out their eardrums if they like. Also, spend warm-up time practicing the piccolo solo from Stars and Stripes Forever. Doesn't matter if you're not actually working on it in rehearsal, finding a copy isn't hard. It's the single most legendarily awesome piccolo part known to man and is really, really shrill. You'll sound cool, and they'll suffer.
Kestrel she/her Posted April 9, 2015 Posted April 9, 2015 I was third chair when I got the picc, mostly because I was the highest chair who had interest. I kinda bugged her into it. But hey, squeaky wheel gets the grease, right? I'll probably ask her a bit more about it soon. I don't want to be there during the concert next week. Nice nice I will try doing that. In all honesty these guys bug me so much. Like.. today. The did nothing but complain. About me, about the band, about the music, about the director(s). It was like.. if you don't want to be here.. leave? Nobody wants you there. They kept trash talking not only our head director, but also one of the assistants that came in as well. Keep in mind that this is also my director's first real teaching job out of college. God, it made me so mad to listen to them. Trash me, I don't care, but at least be respectful to the person who is trying to make us succeed as an ensemble.
Queen Elsa Steelheart she/her Posted April 9, 2015 Posted April 9, 2015 (edited) I sprained my wrist while playing a ball game today and it hurts a lot. Great. Edited April 9, 2015 by Queen Elsa Steelheart
Surgebound Rainspren he/him Posted April 9, 2015 Posted April 9, 2015 I sprained my wrist while playing a ball game today and it hurts a lot. Great. ouch. I sprained a muscle in the back of my leg rock climbing a couple days ago. 1
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