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They watch us, each move.

Hidden, they see us.

Quietly, they take us.

 

We are but ants to Them,

Living in a glass world,

On display,

Our daily lives,

Unbeknownst and unparseable to us.

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2026/04/28 - Life Just a Dream

CW/TW: Self-harm, depression, possible interpretation as suicide/suicidal ideation, dissociation I think. Spoilered for the above CW/TW's. Also note that it might be a bit long. Sorry if it gets repetitive or whatever. I'm still posting my writing... and I'm trying to improve with my newer stuff. Note that the next entries will be posted one-per-day in the following days. I also took a bit of a break from writing... so there'll be less than you may think. If you feel I should
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2026/04/27 - Existing not Living

It's a bit depressing, I'd say. Like most.. haha....   An Actual Life I imagine an actual life, A different life. Why does it feel, Like my life is not real? I imagine a girl, Happy, sad, all. Depression and hardship, Moments of joy. A real life, A real home. A family—loving or not. A home—loved or suffocating. Not “normal,” with no emptiness attached. She makes me miss what I can only dream of. She makes me yea
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2026/04/24 - Unhinged Insanity

Uhm... sorry in advance for whatever I wrote. I barely remember it all tbh. CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING: I don't know, honestly. Besides probably self-harm (or allusion thereof), depressing stuff/mental health stuff, maybe suicide idk, probably some gore unfortunately, ALSO IT'S 30 PAGES LONG WHAT THE STORMS WAS I THINKING. Or maybe 40+ pages. yeah 40+. Okay so I removed the worst of it, but still probably has some TW-worthy stuff, idk. Also it may be incomprehensible at times. I
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2026/04/23 - The Invisible 'It'

Watching, Always. Behind you, Beside you, Can't move, Can't speak, Can't look, But you know it's watching, Watching you always. From the dark window, From the dark room, From... something, anything. Always.   Can't move, can't speak. You freeze, lie still. You know it's watching, Moving is unthinkable, Or it will notice, It will see.   Run, hurry, Through the dark, To the light switch,
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2026/04/22 - Maladaptive Progress

Did I use that word right? ("Maladaptive") Anyway... CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING: Depressing stuff, self-harm, potential eating disorder trigger/content, and maybe more I forget (I wrote this like a week ago)     - Uhhh, Lily?
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2026/04/21 - Suffering

Desire, Why? Knowledge. She craved knowledge, she needed it. Her cursory expertise in certain areas constantly nagged at her mind. She needed to... understand. She had to, lest she continue suffering. And she didn't want to be miserable. Or did she? No use going there again. - - - Taylor glanced up as a woman approached with an armful of books. She had long black hair that looked like it hadn't been brushed recently. "You like readin'?" Taylor said, trying to make conversatio
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2026/04/20 - Losing Mind

Ok.. so I wrote some stuff for 2026/04/18, but I kinda lost it hehe (uhhh.. in more ways than one...), and then I didn't write anythin' for 2026/04/19 cuz I was too tired.. Btw this story is a continuation from 2026/04/09   Latenight (Escape, continued)  The voice was painful to hear, in a way. It reminded Lily of… of things better left in the past. She looked up lazily, that brief burst of energy already fading, returning her to darkness. There stood… a man. Or, a guy. He ha
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2026/04/17 - Blizzard

Unmemoried, Unmemories Not knowing what is, what isn't, or what was; Questioning everything, life, my mind. What do I know, how much is real, what have I... forgotten? What do I do, why don't I want to, how can I find out?   - Lily
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2026/04/16 - Pain, Suffering, Memory.

Sorry, I've been kinda off and on the Shard.. idk. Just posting what I wrote in the past week or whatever...   Painful Glimpses A word, a place mentioned. Innocently, it drives a knife through your heart. Continuing, they twist until there's nothing left. Through it, held in—no pain expressed.   - Lily
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2026/04/15 - At Last, Rightness

Her Reflection, It Is She Lily looked up into the mirror above the bathroom sink. Then she smiled. Actually smiled. In this rare moment, the face smiling back at Lily felt... so very right. Not some stranger, but Lily. The water remained running as she stared, captivated. Her black hair... it looked exactly how she had always wanted it to. Her features, her face, her eyes, her... chin. It all looked so right. Lily turned her head slightly, looking at herself from different angles. She was c
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2026/04/13 - "Happy"

Authentic Self Who am... I? What is "me," "myself"? This entity? What do "I" want? What... "makes me happy"? When I can't define... Anything, anymore. How can I know when I'm happy, When I'm living true?   - Lilith (Lily)
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2026/04/12 - Wrongness I Wish Would Go

The Breath Disconnect, Unhooked. Mind freed, Connection severed. What the hell am I doing with this life?   Paranoia Oh no. What does that mean?   New, worrying meanings emerge. Why that word choice? Why so terse? Is that normal? Am I seeing nothing? Why am I scared... Is this real? Am I just... being swindled? Manipulated, played? A pawn, my body stretched as each pulls an arm in opposite directions.
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2026/04/11 - What I Now See

The Same What's the difference? We are both bound by patterns, you could say. We learn through observation, collecting data. We follow expectations... rules, scripts, norms. We produce the same output constantly. Are we really that different?   - Lily
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2026/04/10 - Samantha

This time, from someone's point of view of Lily. (Continuation/more to the Lily series.)     Wanting to Talk Samantha found herself gazing at Lily—sitting in a row in front of her at the corner of the room. She wanted to talk to Lily, get to know her, see what was going on. Lily was always so quiet, Samantha wasn't sure they'd ever spoken together, despite having shared several classes. Sure, Lily answered questions here and there... at least most days... but she was alw
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2026/04/09 - Change in Space

Okay, so this is a continuation of a series from a bit ago. To be honest, I think I've written stories (like "Day" parts 1 and 2) that have a character named Lily that *likely* aren't the same Lily as this and previous stories. But yeah, look for Lily characters that seem to match. I think the first one from this series is Solitude from 2026/01/15. The next few days probably have the next parts, and then I may have written more after that too. All in all, you really don't need to read those for
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2026/04/08 - Slop

Not sure if this one is a bit too intense.. please let me know if it is. (It's not (C/T)W-worthy, in my opinion though).   Slop Sickening, all of it. It makes me want to... unplug my brain. All the data, all the attention-grabbers, the mindlessness, the soul-suckers, the harm, the addictiveness... All of Ten Icks, "humanity" is plagued by. All the slop and blackboxes, All the blackboxes we see through but ignore, because it's convenient, or because th
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2026/04/07 - Chaos

Hmm.. not as many "happy" poems as I thought..   Layered Thoughts I will never be ready. Will I? I don’t understand my thoughts, Don’t know what to think. Her thoughts are confusing, Tangles and jumbles. It’s… so, so many layers. Never-ending cyclic layers. “Help me…” Who? Who will help you, confused one? No one, not even your mind. No one can… make this any easier. I must persevere and… wait. Just… wait and… let the
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2026/04/06 - 不満 / Human

This one was long-overdue... Or at least.. I've been wanting to make it for quite some time. Note: "不満" does not translate to "Human," I was doing wordplay... Try figuring it out, if you want.   (In)Humanity Why is humanity so... inhumane? Why do you hate each other, yourselves, your home? Why do you just care, irrationally, for... intangible and imaginary numbers? Why have so much, when you need so little? When you deserve much less?   It's
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2026/04/05 - Shifting Slate

Yeah...   Uncertain Epitome What do I know? Everything. What do I understand? Nothing. What do I know... about myself? Too much, too little. What do I know... that's real? Don't know, how can I? What am I just... stamping upon my soul? What am I simply... parroting back? Am I really... anything? Or just a shifting blank-slate, no real self? I can write, but is it me? Is it overcoming the doubts—the delays, Or am
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2026/04/04 - thoughts not found

I think my brain had a BSoD this night.   Finally Done It’s finally over, I did it. Through the pain, The agony, The hell known as life. I have no words now, Aside those telling me to sleep.   Sorry, I think most of what I wrote are poems and stuff. Yeah. - Meeeoowww
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2026/04/03 - Wonder Discovered

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a bit. If you didn't know, I was (and maybe still am?) taking a break from the Shard. I'll be posting what I wrote though.   Dancing Through the Night Dancing through the darkness, Free, unbound. Walking slowly, Enjoying the breeze, Away from the sound, Soaking in the peace. I get what I crave, And though it’s not enough, It’s the best I can do, And it’s wonderful, Beautiful, too.   - M
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2026/04/02 - Dreaming

The Silence of Night I want…to be free. The wind, the night. The cold, no warmth. Away from these husks. Away from the sun. Alone…with silence. The silence of night.   I want to walk, run, Dance, skip, Sit, lay down, Taking in the stars, Feeling fresh breeze, The clean invigorating breeze, Purging the filth, Imbuing the true-and-only joy.   I want to just forget. Walk the night for hours, Not go b
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