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They watch us, each move.

Hidden, they see us.

Quietly, they take us.

 

We are but ants to Them,

Living in a glass world,

On display,

Our daily lives,

Unbeknownst and unparseable to us.

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2026/04/13 - "Happy"

Authentic Self Who am... I? What is "me," "myself"? This entity? What do "I" want? What... "makes me happy"? When I can't define... Anything, anymore. How can I know when I'm happy, When I'm living true?   - Lilith (Lily)
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2026/04/12 - Wrongness I Wish Would Go

The Breath Disconnect, Unhooked. Mind freed, Connection severed. What the hell am I doing with this life?   Paranoia Oh no. What does that mean?   New, worrying meanings emerge. Why that word choice? Why so terse? Is that normal? Am I seeing nothing? Why am I scared... Is this real? Am I just... being swindled? Manipulated, played? A pawn, my body stretched as each pulls an arm in opposite directions.
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2026/04/11 - What I Now See

The Same What's the difference? We are both bound by patterns, you could say. We learn through observation, collecting data. We follow expectations... rules, scripts, norms. We produce the same output constantly. Are we really that different?   - Lily
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2026/04/10 - Samantha

This time, from someone's point of view of Lily. (Continuation/more to the Lily series.)     Wanting to Talk Samantha found herself gazing at Lily—sitting in a row in front of her at the corner of the room. She wanted to talk to Lily, get to know her, see what was going on. Lily was always so quiet, Samantha wasn't sure they'd ever spoken together, despite having shared several classes. Sure, Lily answered questions here and there... at least most days... but she was alw
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2026/04/09 - Change in Space

Okay, so this is a continuation of a series from a bit ago. To be honest, I think I've written stories (like "Day" parts 1 and 2) that have a character named Lily that *likely* aren't the same Lily as this and previous stories. But yeah, look for Lily characters that seem to match. I think the first one from this series is Solitude from 2026/01/15. The next few days probably have the next parts, and then I may have written more after that too. All in all, you really don't need to read those for
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2026/04/08 - Slop

Not sure if this one is a bit too intense.. please let me know if it is. (It's not (C/T)W-worthy, in my opinion though).   Slop Sickening, all of it. It makes me want to... unplug my brain. All the data, all the attention-grabbers, the mindlessness, the soul-suckers, the harm, the addictiveness... All of Ten Icks, "humanity" is plagued by. All the slop and blackboxes, All the blackboxes we see through but ignore, because it's convenient, or because th
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2026/04/07 - Chaos

Hmm.. not as many "happy" poems as I thought..   Layered Thoughts I will never be ready. Will I? I don’t understand my thoughts, Don’t know what to think. Her thoughts are confusing, Tangles and jumbles. It’s… so, so many layers. Never-ending cyclic layers. “Help me…” Who? Who will help you, confused one? No one, not even your mind. No one can… make this any easier. I must persevere and… wait. Just… wait and… let the
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2026/04/06 - 不満 / Human

This one was long-overdue... Or at least.. I've been wanting to make it for quite some time. Note: "不満" does not translate to "Human," I was doing wordplay... Try figuring it out, if you want.   (In)Humanity Why is humanity so... inhumane? Why do you hate each other, yourselves, your home? Why do you just care, irrationally, for... intangible and imaginary numbers? Why have so much, when you need so little? When you deserve much less?   It's
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2026/04/05 - Shifting Slate

Yeah...   Uncertain Epitome What do I know? Everything. What do I understand? Nothing. What do I know... about myself? Too much, too little. What do I know... that's real? Don't know, how can I? What am I just... stamping upon my soul? What am I simply... parroting back? Am I really... anything? Or just a shifting blank-slate, no real self? I can write, but is it me? Is it overcoming the doubts—the delays, Or am
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2026/04/04 - thoughts not found

I think my brain had a BSoD this night.   Finally Done It’s finally over, I did it. Through the pain, The agony, The hell known as life. I have no words now, Aside those telling me to sleep.   Sorry, I think most of what I wrote are poems and stuff. Yeah. - Meeeoowww
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2026/04/03 - Wonder Discovered

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a bit. If you didn't know, I was (and maybe still am?) taking a break from the Shard. I'll be posting what I wrote though.   Dancing Through the Night Dancing through the darkness, Free, unbound. Walking slowly, Enjoying the breeze, Away from the sound, Soaking in the peace. I get what I crave, And though it’s not enough, It’s the best I can do, And it’s wonderful, Beautiful, too.   - M
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2026/04/02 - Dreaming

The Silence of Night I want…to be free. The wind, the night. The cold, no warmth. Away from these husks. Away from the sun. Alone…with silence. The silence of night.   I want to walk, run, Dance, skip, Sit, lay down, Taking in the stars, Feeling fresh breeze, The clean invigorating breeze, Purging the filth, Imbuing the true-and-only joy.   I want to just forget. Walk the night for hours, Not go b
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2026/03/31 - sli.. ping

? I stumble in a dance, there are people around me walking, lips moving. Are they talking, I can’t hear them, but oh it’s alright. Where am I, I don’t know, it’s strange. What was I doing, who am I, oh this dance is nice, pleasant, who are these people though? … I wake up sweating, heart racing, breathing quickly, why? I’ll just… I’ll just rest some more… … I’m a child again, such wonderful times… oh oh nevermind, must have slipped my mind. It’s all… all… … I…
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2026/03/29 - Searching

Allowing Rest She did not allow herself to rest, not yet. She could feel herself getting close to the Answer. She strained, reaching across her bedroom floor—the desk had grown too crowded, sagging under the weight of stacked tomes and hundreds of loose papers—and awkwardly grabbed an unorderly pile of papers, almost toppling a nearby stack of books in the process. She filed through the loose stack of pages—some upside-down, sideways, or folded in half—looking for one in particular. She rea
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2026/03/28 - Cold Cold Cold

Sorry I just got some poem stuff that I wrote last night.   Climbing The icy wind stings your skin. The bitter chill numbs your limbs. You pull your hood tighter. You silver and head higher.   Your gloveless hands bleed. You pay them no heed. The wind blows back your hood. You look down at the road, Down the ice-stained-red, Back the way you came, And keep climbing.   You are shaking and numb, In pain, teeth cha
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2026/03/27 - Woe from Joy

I was basically asleep while writing these, especially that last one. So... idk if they'll make sense or be written poorly or anything.   Endless Aisles Browsing the lines, The endless rows. Selecting from mass-produced items, Picking cute clothes.   Arms grow tired, A small piece of infinity explored. That's how our brains are wired; We always want more.   Browsing the lines, The endless rows. Too many highs, Sparin
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2026/03/26 - .

Sentenced It was his time. They unlocked his cell door and roughly hauled him up from where he was sitting on the stone ground with no care whatsoever. They hadn’t told him when this day would come—or even if it would—but they didn’t need to. Ever since his capture, he knew his fate. He had to admit, though, that he had been holding out hope. Just a small hope, a faint longing for a miracle, as they sometimes had in tales. He was aware that this wish for salvation was ultimately never going
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2026/03/25 - Trapped and Sealed

"They can survive on very little, in their cells. They barely need to be fed, and simply need daily watering. Why give extra? After all, we are doing them a favor keeping them alive..." — Mono Guidebook (Abridged 30th Edition), Chapter 17, Page 9.     CAUGHT;NO-HOPE YOU MUST COMPLY, UNLESS YOU WISH TO DIE.   AND EVEN IF YOU DO, WE WON'T BE KIND TO YOU.   YOUR FATE IS SEALED, IT WILL NOT BE REPEALED.   WE HAVE CAUGHT YOUR EY
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2026/03/24 - Too Late

"Two meanings, too late both ways, as we are all late and may as well be." — The Sixth of the Ten Icks, Late   Eyes Eyes watching me all around, I see Them. Eyes in jars on the floor in the mirror. The mirror! They use my eyes, My eyes are Theirs now, My eyes become Their Eyes. You are Seen now.   “I must…” “Do what I can,” “To delay Their spreading Influence.” “I…” I’m scared.   “I must leave,” “It’s
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2026/03/24 - Compliance to Her

[CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING] Contains some elements that may be interpreted as self-harm and/or schizophrenia I think. Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong for the latter, as I don't know too much about it.   See Her;She Guides I see her here. Don’t you? She’s at my side, Holding a knife. Why don’t you see her?   She whispers to me, Guides me. She hands me the knife, I take it. She directs my hand, I comply.   I se
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2026/03/23 - Dark Halls and Living Hell

Insanity Book It resides on a dusty shelf, In a forgotten Dark Hall. No still-sane mind, Has glimpsed its pages. It seeks unstable minds, Whose insanity must be Revealed. It seeks you, my friend. As it sought me.   Sought It was a late-summer night, Not too long ago. I was helpless, confused, And it sought me. I will soon seek it too, As it gave me a vision.   Restless Visions A vision of it, In t
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2026/03/22 - Insanity Book

Secrets Unknowable (The Page (2025/12/31), pt. 2) A single page, the most unknowable secrets. A single sheet, the Unraveler of Minds. A single paper, held in a hand. A single mind, now gone.   - Lily
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2026/03/21? - Rightful Terror

The tangled webs converge and Meet. The Unaware go through their motions precisely. They follow the Script.   Laughter We drive through the cool night, Through the buildings and lights, We take a right.   We drive down the boulevard, We enter the courtyard, Into a line, behind cars.   We state our wishes, Pay with our riches, Receive our dishes.   We head on out, Back to the mount, And I have no doubt.
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2026/03/21 - Drifting

This is a continuation of Space from 2026/01/08   Time… (Space (2026/01/08), pt. 2) She had been here for months, headed toward Salvation. She would get there any day now. Just a few more years. Just a… Just… She tried not to dwell on… time. She had turned off the clocks on all the holographic displays; she had taken down the old-school wall calendar and hid it somewhere—she didn’t know where, and hoped she didn’t remember. She just let the days slip by, sleeping when she felt lik
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