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They watch us, each move.

Hidden, they see us.

Quietly, they take us.

 

We are but ants to Them,

Living in a glass world,

On display,

Our daily lives,

Unbeknownst and unparseable to us.

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2026/03/19 - Psyche

Blots of Ink Shadows on paper, Shadows of mind. Images emerge, Images I see. Fear manifest, Fear revealed.   What I see? I won’t say. What I see? I’m not sure. What I see? Better unseen.   Images entrancing, Mind dancing, Eyes failing, Insanity prevailing, No longer sane, Brain a haze.   Dazed I’m in a daze—eyes heavy brain tired body slow. I’m so tired—so very tired. Star
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2026/03/18 - This Is Not Life

The End(less Loop) Life as we know it is over Life Life does not exist Nor do our minds Our minds Our minds are long-gone We are but husks and shadows long-dead Enacting lives we remember in past Past What is the past We have no past and no future, And arguably no present For we do not exist We are all dead We will all die And we have not lived   Hooked Hooked like your mind on the bait, And the r
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2026/03/17 - They Enter!

Faith I am enamored, intrigued. In your faith, When I have none.   Those Ancient With maws gaping dark abysses and eyes that see all, The Beings From Beyond They come to Feed we must not See we must hope for our Sparing or our Sacrifice. Those Ancient, Those Sacred Those Feared They Enter They Enter! Their reasoning is Their own we must not Understand we cannot Understand lest we lose our minds what little may be left. Our minds our precious frag
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2026/03/16 - Hopelessness

[CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING] Some of the following poems/stories are kinda depressing and may be triggering. Consider not reading these if you are depressed or get triggered by certain things.   PA "Attention all! Attention all! Please be aware that we are undergoing technical ... hindrances, and thus our systems will be offline until further notice while we investigate and remedy these issues. I repeat, all non-critical systems will be offline until further notice! We apologize
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2026/03/15 - Hiding, Fearing

Help Aug 2, 2025 I don’t know what to do. They’re gonna find me, I can’t hide forever. Even if they don’t I’ll need food and water eventually. I don’t even know why I’m writing this, it’s not like anyone will find it. I just wish someone would. I wish someone was out there to help me. I wish I could just escape this awful place. Why does life have to be so cruel? Why did I have to end up with them? And why did I have to just… ugh. This is all my fault… I shouldn’t have done that, I’m s
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2026/03/14?

Rambler “They’re coming I know it I’ve seen they they’ve seen me we know we know we know we know…” … “I should just give up they’re probably here already it’s no use I’m dead I’m dead I’m dead…” … “No please no no no stop touching me stop touching me stop touching me please please please…” … “Why can’t I see why can’t I see turn on the lights what is that sound where am I where am I oh where am I…” … “No what are you doing no no no no no please I don’
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2026/03/14 - Hap-pi-ness

Sorry I didn't write much today.. I'll probably write more soon but no promises ofc. I have some ideas though...   Happy Why What Why am I happy, and what do I do with it? I don’t want to lose it, but that means I can’t do it— What I want, what I usually would do. I can’t ensadden myself—can’t sink myself. I need to preserve this feeling, Nurture it, And want it.   π - Lily the Happy I Think
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2026/03/13 - May_1

I made another.   b3b5…8938.exe May sat at her desk, navigating through the mess of tabs and windows she had open. She had so many things stored in her clipboard that she lost track of what each was for. What May was doing wasn’t exactly…encouraged by the law, but she had to know. Concentrating, May worked through each step, luckily coming across very few errors. She had to get this right, and there were no second chances. At last, May clicked “download” and sat back, anticip
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2026/03/13 - Withered World

Depending on how invested you are in the lore, you may want to review some of my previous entries, as they May connect to this Content. Specifically some of the very first ones, but also later on.   Nothing Was Ever Okay letter.txt We don’t know exactly when it started—the abductions, the interrogations, and the sculpting of humanity. Some of us theorize that they have operated in the background—pulling strings, subtly influencing life as we know it—for centuries. Millenia, e
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2026/03/12? - Loathing and Administration

Wrote most of these too late, now I'm running on five hours of sleep. sigh   Nobody Cares Nobody cares about us. Nobody actually cares. They say "we respect your privacy," As they sell your identity. They say "we care about you," As they pat their wallets. They say "we value your opinion," As they boot up the paper shredder. Nobody cares. Nobody listens.   Unappealable Dear user,   We hope this message finds you
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2026/03/12 - Living Hell

Wrote this today, while in hell.   Let Me Leave, Let Me Rest I just want to leave. I’m so uncomfortable, I can barely think. I just want to leave, But I can’t. Not yet.   I must endure, These hellish conditions, For just a bit longer, And then I’ll be free. Just a bit longer, And then I’ll stop thinking.   She sits here, In a pool of her blood. She sits here, Awaiting her freedom, From this h
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2026/03/09 - Un-Necessary Sustenance

Necessary Sustenance Sometimes I don’t want, This necessary sustenance. Sometimes I don’t get, Enough necessary sustenance. Sometimes it’s too much work, Too few appetizing options, Not worth it.   - Lily
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2026/03/10 - Suffering is Life

Times/Hardship "Kids these days," They say. "Back in my day," They say. "These are difficult times," They lament.   "Things were better back than." "We went outside." "We could breathe."   "We got sick and died." "We had no rights."   "We spent time with family." "We didn't have this dumb slang."   "We missed out on so much connection."   "We could use the Internet."   "We didn't have the Internet."
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2026/03/07 - Life... and Death

I think this was the start--or, rather, continuation--of my anxiety.   YOLO You only live once. One life, so live your best. Or at least enjoy it. You don’t want to be lying, On your deathbed, By saying you have no regrets.   Life can feel short, Or feel long. It can feel like you have so much time—that you don’t have to worry. Or it can feel as if, before you know it, you will be six feet under.   Do what you love,
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2026/03/06 - Failure

Holding Back Tears I take a ragged breath, Trying to hold them in. Trying to hold back emotion? But the tears leak anyway, And more follow as the break in the dam widens.   A Failure, Me Why do I keep failing? Making mistakes? What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be kind? Why do I keep causing pain? Am I selfish? Perhaps. If so, the hate I receive is deserved, is it not? The hate from myself and others? What though
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2026/03/05 - Rain and Insane

Cold and Rain When it rains, I’m happy. I get replenished, Like the ground and green. When it’s cold, It’s refreshing, Cool and crisp, Welcome. I long for when I feel the cold winter air, On my exposed skin. I long for the comfortingly bitter wind, That banishes the unbearable heat. I walk slowly, So as to prolong it, So as to stay a while longer, In the cold, rain, or snow, Before becoming trapped in a room,
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2026/03/04? - No One To Cry To

No1 2Cry2 (No One To Cry To) When I am sad, Depressed, frustrated, Lonely, confused, Anxious and stressed.   When I am these, The worst thing, Is having no one to cry to. I just have to sit or lay here, Keeping it all inside. I can’t even cry out, Can’t do anything, And it hurts. It hurts so very much, Having no one to cry to, No one to listen, No one that cares, No one there, To hear you. You mig
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2026/03/03? - Sick and Empty

Sick of Home I’m homesick, in that, I’m sick of this home. This dreary and unexciting, Uncomfortable and cold, Long-lived, too-long, Home.   I long for a new home, One I enjoy being in, One I seek refuge in, Not refuge from. One I await, Not one I return to with reluctance.   I’m sick of this home, And long for a new one.   Missed Experiences;Missed Life Where is my life? Have I had one? I ge
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2026/03/02 - Discomfort and Longing

Unpleasant Environment I hate this place. This place where I struggle; To find comfort, To find motivation, To find productivity, To find joy.   I shift and stir, Awaiting my next break, From this place. Awaiting tomorrow, Awaiting comfort, Awaiting the ever-closer…salvation.   It may take weeks, I might be here months more, But at least I have, A hope. A hope of escape.   A Step Away A
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2026/02/28 - Living, Not

One-Way Mirror I watch from the shadows, Apart. I listen from this bed, Paralyzed. I am like a spirit, Invisible, Not physical. I am watching through a one-way mirror. And yet I’m the one in distress.   Numb-But-Not;Helpless;Separated Each day, more distress. Each day, another horror. Each time, I feel awful.   I am scared and angry but conditioned. I can’t do anything; nothing at all. I am separated; not c
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2026/02/27 - Not Alone

Not Alone Oh my. I feel very…different. Relieved? Realizing I am not alone. My experience is one others share; It can be explained. People get me. I am not…a bad person. I am not…wrong. It is not…my fault. And help will work. I spent so long —too long— Thinking. Thinking that what I was going through, Was somehow untreatable. I believed for so long —to long— That I had to explain, And still no one
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2026/02/25?

Wrote this at night, falling asleep. Wrote this as a dream came to me. Wrote this while I cried, Wrote this and forgot it.   A Knock on the Door A knock sounds, at my door. I open it, and gasp. Who is she, with no mask? Who is she?   “I am you,” she says happily. “Who you will become,” continues Lily.   I stand breathless, then begin sobbing. I don’t stop for hours, and she’s at my side. I just can’t believe it, but
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2026/02/25

Posting backlogg   Helpless I can’t watch this, I can’t read this, I just can’t.   It’s all too much, this hate. It’s all so wrong, our fate. Was I born too late?   I feel something deep within—watching this unfold. I feel fear, anger, and deep deep wrongness. I can only ignore it so long—until they come for me.   I feel helpless—paralyzed—watching I feel sorrow and depression. I can only dream, hope, and plea.
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2026/02/22?

Ok. The reason for the odd title and thumbnail is because I'm gonna start keeping the after-midnight writing separate from the daytime ones. I wrote these after midnight last night, which was technically today, but that's just confusing. Plus, I want to post them now, but also might write more today, and then would have to go back and edit to add them. So it makes sense, right? Also the reason for "22?" is because it works I guess and still fits alphabetically between .../22 and .../23. So yup.
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2026/02/21

Better Person Sometimes you just have to suck it up, And be the better person. Sometimes you just have to realize, That your feelings don’t matter. Sometimes you just need to see, That you don’t need to argue. You don’t need to complain, You can just do it, And enjoy it, Enjoy helping others.   Deeper Understanding You know when you really get someone? When they say something, And are ridiculed? Dismissed? Silen
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