Usseewa
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Sameeeeee. Definitely cuddling, and maybe hugging, and maybe kissing but probably not. Yeah, sorry 'bout that. Hmmm (Lies. I didn't actually intend that lol) I'm not sure if I feel this or not. For me it's nothing like this. I basically just see women and be like "she's pretty" or "cool" or something. I think some of it may be "I want to be her..." . Idk. I guess I might get a little distracted, but barely. More like my eyes keep returning to her or I make excuses (to myself) to look in her direction... which hopefully isn't weird or bad... anyway or I look away but want to look that's one thing i related to in the GDB uhmmmm also I think my thoughts have changed from the above since I started questioning because now I'm constantl thinking of me and trans, though not as much as the first few days. but every time I see a woman I think of me trans. every time I see a man i think of what my feelings are or should be and how guys arent as cool as girls. i dont think ive ever felt the melty brain thing. also I think I was gonna say something else but forgto lol basically i want cuddles and very close friendship. at least that's what I "fantasized" about before. now i dont even know if I like (as in "have a crush on" or "attracted to") anyone... in the past few days, if u asked me about who i am attracted to, I wouldve said "I think I like girls and idk about guys." also...I get a little uncomfortable? when ppl talk about "creepy guys" if you know what I mean cuz Im not one (not creepy and not a guy) so idk mb thats cuzz anyway now im starting to sound like a loser ummmmmmmmmm i never understood "hot." Like irl or in movies/shows/books, people call each other hot. I find people "pretty" or "attractive." Is that the same as hot? I just don't feel like "hot" describes what I feel. eeeeerrrrrr what else... ive never been in a relationship but also didnt have much opportunity i guess. And perhaps the same could be said for desire. ummmmmm yeah anyway edit: 777th post
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Idk if it's me or not yet
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Yep! Thx! I guess this is one one those things where sometimes it's hard to tell because you don't know what the other side is like. For example, I've heard/read about trans ppl thinking "everyone does/thinks this" or like not knowing that cis ppl don't feel like that, since they're not cis. So, how do I know what sexual attraction feels like? I'm not sure if I've ever experienced it or not, but I find people attractive. Which, again, might also be gender envy... Or just in general finding people attractive but still being asexual. Is that a thing? I might be ace or something @Hmmm lies you were the one who talked about being super attracted to women, right? Can you tell me what it's like so I can see if I relate or not? Because I think I might be on the ace spectrum. POV Me: Also these are literally my favorite colors (I'm fr):
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It's hard for me to decide if that's me or not. I think I sometimes feel like that. Or it depends. I actually edited my post to include something similar.
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Yes pls. Are u aroace? What's it like? How do you know? Basically I realized that I am kinda...not interested, or even possibly disgusted but idk - when I actually think - about it in you-know-what (idk if I can say it on the Shard). And the thoughts I mentioned were that I really wanted a relationship that basically involved, like, cuddling and stuff. And talking to each other. And all that. Like a friendship but where you're closer to the person and yeah. Idk. I also might not even be aroace idk but I might be. Also what's the terminology? Like what specifically does "aro ace"/"AroAce" mean? Does it mean you are both asexual and aromantic? Or just a general term form "asexual and/or aromantic"? Also I'm reading up a bit on it cuz I know very little. @Akimikoisthecutest Edit: Also I'm reading a website about aroace so hopefully I'll get an answer to the question I don't really wanna ask here.
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huh? I actually wrote over 900 words in the time it took u to respond (not meant to sound rude), and realized I might be asexual, because I literally had thoughts a couple months/years back and probably multiple times that now sound verrrrry ace. Tho I'll have to research aro ace some more since I know next to nothing aside from the definitions. So I guess the journaling is going good lol. I also wondered that a few days ago here if u recall. Also I'm realizing that maybe all the times I was "attracted" to people could've been gender envy. Or ace attraction? Idk how this all works i need to look it up. Actually maybe I'm alloromantic? I mean I only just learned that term a few seconds ago so idk. Or maybe I'm aro ace? Which I think means both aromantic and asexual but I always thought it meant aro/ace not aro & ace. Help... Good idea, thx. I don't use a shared device but still.
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Wow that actually helps. I guess I needed to hear that. Not sure why. Also...is it fine to write the journal on my computer? Like type it in a document or something? Because...I suck at handwriting and can't keep up with what I want to say. I might worry more about the privacy tho if I use my computer... Especially a document (MS Word, Google Docs, etc.)
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@Aeoryi Yall any tips for journaling (abt trans stuff)?
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Yawn
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Did you see her post?
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me too pls asking for a friend
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Oh I thought the email was a bad response lol *smacks forehead but not fr* Well that's great!
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I don't get it
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That sounds like a bad response, am I correct?
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@Chaos
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Maybe from him. But not from the reason he's here. Not from ourselves.
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yes ur typing again @Edema Rue
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yeah... altho it's not always anonymous if there's only one person viewing the thing but yeah. also yall u should listen to "Sky Over Tokyo" by RADWIMPS on REPEATTTTTTT no lyrics but whatevs
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Waht i dont like is when someone reps my post but noone replies
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But then that's reverse psychology or whatever cuz u know ppl will give u rep
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Last lage? Oh, page
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uh-oh edit: phew for context: (Chaos's profile a few minutes ago)
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guys is this a fine meme? I love this template lol
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How you been?
