Usseewa

Disclaimer: i'm just going off my thoughts but they probably just put some generic crem there. tbh whenever i see crap like that i just glaze over it cuz it all says the same thing in the end, so it really doesn't matter. basically just saying "this story is good. watch/read it. thank you for coming to my ted talk." EDIT: basically when u see a boilerplate enough, it ends up meaning nothing. it's like ai-generated text. it's like ... you either know what it's gonna end up saying or know it's basically gonna end up saying nothing (or, something with very little meaning / nothing meaningful). If I see something like "Blah Blahson was a revolutionary figure who pioneered the field of BlahBlah" then I'll just stop reading. If I see "this is a tale of hardship, joy, overcoming something, yada-yada" then I don't needa read the rest. i hate generic/boilerplates. Sure, they have their uses, but that doesn't mean I can't dislike them. At the very least, I just ignore them, unless it's of a variety that could be important or I haven't seen before. overall, hope is just a generic filler word and probably doesn't mean anything, or at least something very vague that applies to too many things to be meaningful. Hopefully that all wasn't too off-topic

I mean, no, ofc not. But ur also trans. Idk lol. I was in the mindset i was a cisman, so saying i was a woman felt/would be like lying. Edit: ig i wasn't aware of the concept of exploring ur identity, perhaps. or that it was okay to? or something i'd actually do? i've always been like, yep...i'm just a cishet (tho i didn't know that term, so it was just, like, not queer.) Like, yep im not queer so why would i explore my gender identity or why would i do queer stuff? cuz im not? i still thought i might be gay a few times i also didnt rlly know the concept of being trans, or at least not rlly, until pretty recently.

thx, ill chekc it out true, I suppose sometimes i used to online, i think. just to tell tehm to use they/them or whatever. most times i dont. cuz..like.. when they used he/him i wanted to correct them and be like "don't assume ppl's pronouns/genders!" but..at the time i was also going by he/him, at least irl, so technically they were right, so it would've been odd. (also i didnt tell anyone my pronouns but most assumed he/him unfortunately.)

Reality

I wrote this kinda late yesterday, so I'm publishing it now the next day. Unlived She sat with them, happy. She sat with them, a rare joy. She sat with them, being herself—or trying. She sat there in one of the few amazing moments of her life. … She walked with them, through the night. She listened as they talked, sometimes joining. She rarely spoke, however. That was her way—as long as she could remember. It could be hell, but it was life. … She ate with them, laughing and talking occasionally. She ate with them, the so-so meal much better with friends. And, yes, these were her friends, she supposed. These were her friends, she hoped. … And then she had to leave. If only she could stay. She wanted to stay all night. She wanted to be with them. She wanted to have that experience. She wanted to live. … She lay in her bed in the dark in the silence. She stared at the ceiling and thought of her life and what she’d not done. She, unmoving unblinking unfeeling, Unknowing yet knowing, Uncaring yet dreaming, Unconscious yet watching, Unlived. … She found it hard to Be a human When not near Other humans She found it hard to Feel good When she wasn’t Who she could She thought this was life And she’d just live it She thought she’d grow old Or die young She thought she’d do nothing Nothing she wanted She thought she’d do everything Everything she displayed dispassionate passion in. Now she knew That she could be better. Now she knew That she could be happy. Now she knew She could love herself. And now she knew That she could be herself. For all that is unlived, Is yet-to-be-lived. All that is not-done, Is simply not-yet-done. All she was missing, For all her years, All she wasn’t feeling, For those cold dark years, All she was wanting, Yet believed were beyond reach, All that she needed, Was suddenly hers. … And so she returned, To her friends. And so she gained, A lived-loved life. And so she stayed. - Lily

I hate the ones where my shoes stick to the floor.... The ones where the seats are horrid... Or the stalls are so cramped and the door opens inward... And...the gaps in the stall doors...like wth. I went to the women's restroom and they have, like, no gap between the door and stall wall, but in men's they have like an inch or two. At minimum. i felt like i would be tricking ppl and... being a creep maybe. so i just didnt specify my pronouns most of the time. pronouns are kinda weird and i didnt give them much thought cuz i didnt want to. uh, anyone else?

Then wouldn't that make it easier? Because, like, you could use that as a reason for getting some fem clothes? Ok, I would probably get weird looks but currently I look kinda like a woman. But also i've only encoutnered one person somehwaat so idk. That don't seem too healthy. i still use 'em. gender-neutral ones are amazing tho, even just cuz they're bigger (relatively) and private. when i used the men's restroom, i basiclaly try to get it done with and kinda hope i dont encounter anyone. like if i see someone go in, i often wait. yw :3 i was too scared to, i think Oui, merci

come out maybe or dont they think ur genderfluid?

i don't feel comfortable in either bathroom tbh. have u tried more fem clothing? even if not overt

I don't rlly think u needa pass, but idk also never say never maybe not with that mindset

heh lol i get that i do be that mmm,,.. u forgot a hyphen i think

Ok, I might do voice training. I think I want ppl to see me as a girl and not a guy, idk. "Anyway, I honestly dealt with this by simply never using bathrooms at school. Even now, I don't really like to." That's not good. Did they have gender-neutral ones? ...may I ask why you've said this a few times? Is it just one of those disclaimers that u like to put? Ah, thx u tbh i didnt even know informed consent was a thing until recently; i thought i had to, like, get diagnosed from the DSM-5 or WPATH or whatever and get a letter from a therapist person and stuff before getting hrt. informed consent is great.

Morality

Like maybe this respond to? basically im worried abt passing, especially since i started using the women's restroom. like, should i try voice training? i probably should. also see my edit: That's good to know, I suppose. yes, i was thinking both abt passing and ig abt girls liking me.

ty, appreciate it Uhh sure i'd like smth, yeah. do i needa give specific stuff? EDIT: oh, how/where did u get ur HRT? (Pls don't tell me if it is something local, I don't wanna know where u live.) Did u, like, go to a planned parenthood?

Ah, nice. I know someone who uses procreate+iPad and their art is so fire lol.

Just curious.. do u draw digitally or physically? It kinda looks digital? Do u, like, use an ipad + stylus or smth?

Wow, these are great! Ur rlly talented :3 "doodle"....

Oh, it's very fun. No, I don't use exec or eval or whatever the heck the python one is called. I map lambdas lol. I can give you a specific example if you give me a (relatively simple) program to make. I also use all the inline stuff like ternary if-else, the inline for loop, etc.

...an hs freshie? interesting lol

Eloquence

Holy crap I looked at ur post a bit and that looks freakin' awesome unfortunatley i suck at rps, am pretty busy, ... and it looks like signups have ended lol. edit: wait guys do u usually have items or powerups or equipment or whatever? Stuff u can buy that do stuff? and why are there so many SE formats. gosh. this is one of those things thats so exciting/interesting that it's overhwelmging. Also sorry if this posrt shouldn't be here. at least i didnt make the mistake of puttin git in the game thread again. and, yes, i know i can read the welocome post or wheatver,,,,,,,......