My younger self would not be happy with me; I was really, really transphobic when I was younger
Gender for me was kind of something I ignored for years and years because it sort of didn't affect me? Like, I didn't talk to people enough to really notice being misgendered, if that makes sense? And then even when I first started wondering if I was queer, I distinctly remember sitting on my bed thinking "questioning my sexuality is exhausting, I'll postpone questioning my gender", which probably delayed my coming out the egg by almost two years
And yea I still go through phases of "wait what if I'm just faking" on a. Like. Monthly basis.