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    I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory; this is where it gets me, on my feet, the enemy ahead of me, if this is the end of me, at least I have a friend with me, weapon in my hand, a command, and my men with me. ~Hamilton
  • AIM
    Woke up in a cell, where am I at? Yeah, it's cold, but I like that What am I, trapped? Heart's beating out of my chest Door's locked, but the keys are in my hands Hmm, yeah, that's where it doesn't make sense, does it? I make songs, I don't make friends,
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    judge me Might smile, but it ain't that funny Sing along to the pain, they love it Life's like a merry-go-round And I'm still tryna figure it out I like space, I don't fit in the crowds ~ Outcast, NF
  • ICQ
    I see you Crying in a gown that's blue Screaming through a breathing tube "How'd I get to this place?" I see you Wondering how you came unglued Feeling like your whole life's screwed "Who could love me this way?" ~ ICU Citizen Soldier
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    All my life I had to keep fighting And I'm a prove 'em wrong or I'm a die trying Head like a stone, heart like a lion I'm a prove 'em wrong or I'm a die trying ~ Die Trying New Medicine
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    Used to pull down my sleeves Used to put makeup on So everyone would think I'm fine and nothing's wrong I buried all the pain, used to feel so ashamed Of all the things I wrote about myself with razor blades ~ Tattoos Citizen Soldier
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    Broken legs, but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion ~ Mansion NF

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    I didn’t grow up in an abusive home. I am one.
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    With @SmilingPanda19 and @Part of The Narative in our Walmart dumpster
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    I love books, books, books, Brandon Sanderson books, God, asking questions, my cats, my family, my friends, my house, buying expensive Stormlight Archive t shirts from Etsy, writing my own stories with my writing group ( aka my three best friends and me) making valiant attempts at writing romance, writing "juicy" scenes, avidly hating math, being socially awkward, drawing, memes, nightblood, singing songs from various musicals (HAMILTON!) and movies, country music, gardening, animals, foreign cultures, the beach, the mountains, geeking out with my friends about all kinds of junk, eating gummy bears, exercising. POETRY! oh, and did I mention reading? ( This is NOT in order of importance)

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  1. Guys!

    I went to dinner

    and wrote a poem

    Spoiler

    Mental Picture

     
    I’m imagining
    Somewhere quiet,
    Peaceful.
     
    I’m whisking myself away ,
    Creating a mental picture.
     
    I can go anywhere,
    For imagination has
    No limits.
     
    I’m ignoring the
    Noises.
    The hustle and
    Bustle of
    A crowed
    Restaurant.
     
    I’m ignoring
    The dizziness
    Ignoring the headache.
     
    Trying not
    To focus on
    The banging
    Clanging
    Voices
    Can’t breathe-
     
    Heart racing
    Mind numbing
    Tunnel vision
     
    Blinking back
    The black spots
     
    People behind me
    Reaching for
    Knives
    Kill my family
     
    Can’t breathe-
    Swirling
    Always swirling
    Not hungry
    Have to escape
     
    Run
    Hide
    Disappear
     
    Feel hot and cold
    Flushed
    Dizzy
     
    Good thing
    I’m sitting
    Down
    Or i might
    Pass out
     
    Watch
    Buzzes
    Heart rate
    To fast
     
    Can’t slow down
    Racing
    My mind
    Have to
    Pay
    Attention to
    The children
    Need me
    Can’t not be okay
    For them
     
    Calling my name
    Snap out
    Play their games
    Sit on shaking
    Hands
     
    Mental picture
    Dissipates
    Fading
    Popping into
    Dark swirling
    Mist.
     
    No escape
    Not yet
    Chest feels
    Tight
    Legs shake
    Can’t breathe
    Trying not to
    Hyperventilate
    Hot
    Hot hot hot
     
    Take a sip of
    Water
    The burns my
    Tongue with
    Cold
    But does nothing
    To rid of the
    Internal heat
    And pressure
     
    Can’t find
    My mental picture.
    It’s gone.
     
    ~ Stick 4-26-24

    this is how I write when I'm literally dying.

    my heart great was 106 bpm the ENTIRE time T-T

    I love restaurants guys-

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      Maybe, I don’t know what I would write it about though...

    3. Anguished_One

      Anguished_One

      PM me if you need help :) 

    4. Block

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      Will do!👍

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