Mags

sorry for disappearing off the face of the earth, darkness took me, and I strayed out of thought and time, and I wandered far on roads that I will not tell

mostly been due to two factors:

the second school ended my personal laptop decided to finally really start falling apart. I was able to purchase my silly little school chrome book before the year ended, so I'm not completely without a computer. Naturally this means I've been spending less of my brainrot internet time on the computer and more on mobile--I have been checking notifs but haven't really posted anything because it's hard to type a lot on mobile. I got the chromebook up and running today though.

My mental health fluctuates so extremely from day to day it's genuinely a really hard whiplash and at this point I'm struggling to do basic stuff like . . . eating meals and spending time with friends. That's so pathetic now that I say It out loud lollllllll  I swear I'll be okay, I'm just having one of those really bad days today. Saturday was amazing, I felt great on saturday for what it's worth. But yeah, the general emotional exhaustion from all that has made it really hard for me to post here, even though I miss you guys a ton   

for everyone waiting on HG: sorry : p

for everyone waiting on FNM: Sorry ;(

Song rec for today cause I like doing that: Value - Ado

As for what I've been doing lately, it hasn't been wholly unproductive bedrotting:

- I graduated!! I'm fully free from school! (until I go to college in the fall lol). I almost passed out from dehydration at the actual ceremony, but I survived and now have a diploma 

- I've gotten really into beading and making my own jewelry which has been a fun thing to do with my hands when I feel like I can't draw.

- My sister came over for my graduation which was great because she and my niece always make me feel better.

- I've been watching the hobbit movies more or less for the first time, and have been thoroughly enjoying them (by turning my brain off and ignoring the bad writing lol).

- I sat down and actually figured out how to take care of my succulents, and I'm currently painting new plant pots for them.

- I actually drew a little in my sketchbook.

- I've started making and collecting stuff for my Tolkien themed ita bag and it's been super fun hehe.

I've sort of been burying my head in creative things as a coping method which . . . isn't the worst way to go about it, I think. 

I also NEED TO GET A job SOOOON AKLJ:LSKDJ:FLKJSDLK

Okay byyyyyyyyyyyye