J. Magi

we are on 3 hours of sleep and going strong

look at this silly doodle of Painter I did a while ago and forgot about:

what a silly goofy

that is all

 

Random update on the thing from last SU:

we went to the art gallery thing, and it was just as uncomfy as I thought it would be but it's over now. We didn't stay very long though (because there really wasn't much to do) and so now I'm concerned I offended my art teacher for leaving to soon because he was surprised when we left, but I'm not gonna worry about it. 

So we're good. It wasn't great (for me anxiety), but it's over now.

Life update + random thoughts I guess (It's kind of . . . angsty? idk i'm tired and stressed):

-school is hard and I am always tired.

-There's like this AP art gallery/ art contest thing I have to go to after school today . . . It's a competition and there's prizes and food and stuff but I don't really feel like going. My painting looks kind of dinky (yeah that's the best word to describe it) compared to everyone else's, and it's making me feel very impostor syndromey. I know I'm not supposed to compare myself to others, and I genuinely don't care about winning, but it still makes me feel kind of silly being there idk. Maybe I'll feel better about it later, plus they promised there'd be food so I guess it's worth going for that.

-My grades are dropping because I missed some school, but I should be able to fix it before the end of the semester. Doesn't stop me from being stressed about it lol.

-The plan was to start ACT prep at the beginning of December, and I did do some research on studying, and I even checked out the study manual. But I'm always exhausted when I get home from school . . . now it's Dec 6th and I haven't started at all and so I'm feeling down about that. It just feels so impossible rn with everything else I have to do. Part of it just doesn't want to do it all honestly. I know from the end of level testing last year that if I were to take it without studying at all I'd still get a decent score. Studying would just help me get an above average score so I can get a good scholarship. I don't even know if I want to go to college, but I thought it would be dumb to pass up the opportunity. But now the stress of it all makes me want to just completely give up.

-I recently found a new fandom I'm enjoying, so that's making me happy.

-One of my half year classes that ends in a little less than a month sucks . . . I'm certainly glad it's ending but it's still stressful. The teacher didn't really actually teach us anything (I could rant about how terrible the class was set up for hours), and now at the end of the term we have to:

1- build a complicated final project that requires massive amounts of knowledge and skill that I don't have and the class didn't teach me.

2-Take an end of level exam thing that includes things on it we were never taught, or only briefly covered. (This isn't an exaggeration, I'm friends with the one kid in that class who knows what they're doing, and they told me that even they had no idea what the questions were).

I should be able to manage a passing grade if I flunk both things which is good, but it certainly won't be a good grade. I do know that if I get a C or B, it won't drop my GPA very much at all so at this point I'm having a hard time caring. I just don't think getting a higher grade is worth the stress this class causes me.

-My backpack fell apart and annihilated some of my hair clip thingies with it but that's okay I guess.

-I told my parents (very briefly because that's all I could handle) about how stressed I was yesterday and they were super sweet about it so that was nice.

-The Muppet Christmas Carol is a cinematic masterpiece.

-I've been really enjoying my financial literacy class I've had to take this year. I expected it to freak me out because thinking about the future and being an adult generally terrifies me. But this class is making it seem less scary, I actually understand things now I guess, and I feel much more prepared for the future. Facing your fears kind of works maybe?

-Did I mention how tired I am because I actually am always tired (at least mentally)

 

I have been assigned to spread the word that @Just_a_Fan is looking for Minecraft mods! 

https://www.17thshard.com/profile/54741-just_a_fan/?status=29796&type=status

'n yeh

So

I've been doing my silly goofy little worldbuilding project (which I have yet to write anything down but shhhhhhh)

And I realized that if I ever publish the stories in it as books (or share the stories at all), to avoid spoilers, people would have to read them in near backwards chronological order. Because each story is so dependent on the reader not knowing what happened in the past before it, if that makes sense.

If we order the stories 1-7 chronologically, the reading order would literally be 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 7. (The last story is an outlier, and would need to come last, because it would spoil everything if you read it first.)

Honestly it's kind of a vibe, but I also think people would get mad so lol. 

Like star wars but much, much weirder.

 

Ah yes . . . Ookla season. The time of year when I have no idea who anybody is . . .

(I'm sorry)

Hey everybody, I know rp stuff is happening today, but I won't be active today or tomorrow, and maybe the next day because:

1- I'm sick, like uber duper sick, like woke up with a fever and then went back to bed until 2 p.m. sick . . .

2-It's thanksgiving and so I'm gonna be busy will people and eating and all that 

anyway, have fun! I'll be back later this week maybe probably.

if you had to give this picture a border:

What color would it be?

I'm leaning towards a dark (not quite navy) blue

Are you ever just . . . sitting on the couch, and then you see (1) random thing from a fandom you haven't touched much in a few months, and then all of a sudden your complete and total obsession with it comes slamming back into your soul faster then you can comprehend?

anyway

Everybody party!

Because I got an extension on my AP portfolio!!!! (I don't have to submit it end of this year, instead I'll submit it by end of next year)

One less thing to stress about! Yay!

woah

Do you ever just get so frustrated with something that on the one hand you want to rant about it for hours and on the other you just want to leave it alone?

I'm getting so close to being too tired to care anymore- which is probably good because I tend to care a little too much about what other people think.

 

Yaaaay!

1,000 posts!!!

Me: *explaining what Dead Poet's Society is to Friend #1 because I'm watching it in my English class*

Friend #2: Oh yeah! It's all about, like, Carpe Diem and stuff!

Friend #1: Carpe Diem?

Friend #2: Yeah it means 'Seize the Day!'

Friend #1: . . . So you mean that stone monument thing outside the school that says 'Carpe Diem' on it . . .

Me: Yeah It's like an inspirational thing

Friend #1:

Friend #1

Friend #1: I thought it was a gravestone

 

 

I thought that said "Fullmetal Alchemist" for a second and my brain exploded.

asldkasfjdl a

I just finished Yumi and my brain is broken. It was so so good.

Also here's some fanart I'm not sure I can put in the gallery or not:

 

Happy Birthday!!!

Hey guys, I disappeared for a little while there because I got really sick and didn't have the brain power for social interaction . . .

But I'm back now!!!

 

Happy Birthday!!

We miss you Fadracula!! I hope you're doing okay!

Happy birthday!!!

okay guys, ever since the update I haven't been seeing your SU's, and I think it had to do with my notification settings.

I've fiddled with it and it should work now, but could someone make an SU to test it? That would help a lot.

(I know I just made an SU but)

900 posts!! Wooo!