Zephrun’s Imperium

Wait I just realized it's September not October is that normal

It'll be a long month waiting to start this art... Although, school has me so busy this year, I'll probably start early.

ah ok thanks :p.

I wish I could help

I wish Zephrun's Imperium that I could offer magic words to make all of the cremness of life just disappear! If you ever find then I'd like to borrow them sometime. However, let me offer you these insufficient words instead. That dreaded black pit so inescapable, it does not actually matter whether you can clamber out. What truly matters is can you for but a moment see something outside it. If you can you have already won. Stare toward the horizon and look for the smallest gleam. It's fleeting, but it will keep being fleeting for the only eternity that matters that moment that lives in the blink of an eye.

Are you ashamed of of your fear? We all fear. I fear a great deal and find it paralyzing at times. It's terrifying. What makes us strong is not a lack of fear or even conquering it. No, what makes us strong is that confrontation that we have with it every day where we tell it you may win. However, I will not lose. I admit that you exist.There will be days when you are my master, but that will not be every day. That is enough.

This road of constant exhaustion is my companion. Covid it ruined me and made no amount of sleep sufficient to quench my thirst. I'm lost in a desert parched for it as you are. We fight this monster not by cursing, but by digging deeper and breaking those wretched shackles that pull us about as though we were on a leash. Somewhere there is a well of strength which I have little doubt is more a vast sea within you and less of a simple well to quench a momentary thirst.

Your longing is your might. You wait for the one that you love impatiently. You jerk and fight against it with good reason. It is your love which drowns this hate. This longing is how you are victorious. Every minute and every hour that you don't let that drag you down is your greatest triumph. It makes you powerful in ways that is scarcely fit for my meager words.

Victory is yours seize it tightly and do not let it go! My words cannot be enough. They are all that I have.

If you need to vent my DM's are open.

We're here for you.

Yes, happy birthday!

Firstly, thank you.

Did someone say musicals?

A musical about neutrons?

That sounds storming awesome.

Wait. Star is mentioning a musical??? Consider me mind-blown.

Quite so, and for me I find myself confused at what I’m supposed to be doing at any given time.

I tried to copy and paste a meme I made  Didn’t work apparently. 

I started to cry when I read that. Truly inspiring!

...try drawing something with the express intent of destroying it later?

Mmm, I understand that. My advice is to just keep trying. Keep moving forward. No matter how much you stretch, torture, or ridicule yourself and your art, you always fight back.

I've been in the place where I just gave up on my creativity; actually, it was pretty recently. Anyhoo, what I'm trying to say is that I know what you're feeling and it's real. It's not a switch that you can easily turn on and off, but it takes work. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. You're not alone, man <3

Don't know if you're still stuck, but this happens to everybody. One thing that helps me is to get a big stack of cheap printer paper and just draw some random shapes, and then turn them into something. Or use a medium that I haven't drawn as much with, again on cheap paper, realizing that hey this is going to be fun, and it doesn't matter what it looks like because it's destined for the recycle bin.

Another thing you can always do is set up a still life (like a flower in a vase) and just draw that, again on disposable paper.

When I was younger I used to freeze looking at a blank page of my sketchbook, getting tense and thinking "I don't want to mess up my drawing". But any drawing that you do where you're having fun and learning is never a mess up, and it's liberating to know that not all drawings are worth keeping. 

Another fun thing to do is draw on the newspaper, a white prismacolor colored pencil is especially fun to use.

Another thing you can do is just practice technique things, like shading 10 tints of gray, from 5% to gray to black, using any medium. Or practice cross hatching, or look up pictures online and try and draw the base shapes for different poses, and then maybe draw one of your OC characters in that pose. Fun stuff.