Certified Gay Disasters

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

28 minutes ago, Hmmm lies said:

Yo hey everyone, sowwy, I got here late for all the stuff.

@Honors Ghost, super peak that you have a bf, though I thought you were closeted?

 

To all the single people feeling sad, don't worry. While things might seem difficult right now, one never knows when things are going to change. And don't be so hard on yourself.

Not too close friends

[Hmmm lies she/her]

Just now, Honors Ghost said:

Not too close friends

Ah ok, that's pretty peak, I know of a similar relationship actually.

[Aeoryi she/her]

2 hours ago, Usseewa said:

hmmm?

I hate the way I look I can confirm

[momadrac they/them]

On 2/7/2026 at 8:56 PM, Usseewa said:

YAY!! Congrats!!!  

 

16 hours ago, VieB13 said:

Yeah I came back!

COOOOOLLLL nice job!!!

Thanks!!!!

16 hours ago, Honors Ghost said:

Mmmm no but he said we can read and cuddle together so I think I can forgive him 

damn I need someone like this

Spoiler

can I have your boyfriend

Spoiler

jk

 

 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

19 hours ago, Honors Ghost said:

Um A. That’s a fartin lie

B. Trust me if I can pull you can

I'm also not out to anyone who's not already dating

[Aeoryi she/her]

5 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I'm also not out to anyone who's not already dating

People stop dating y'know 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

2 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

People stop dating y'know 

I doubt this couple will though. I just doubt it's going to happen

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I doubt this couple will though. I just doubt it's going to happen

Maybe it will never know

Spoiler

any crushes 

 

Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

I doubt this couple will though. I just doubt it's going to happen

Maybe it will never know

Spoiler

any crushes 

 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

4 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

any crushes 

uhhhhh...

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

Just now, Akimikoisthecutest said:

uhhhhh...

Oooo spillll

[Akimikoisthecutest]

1 minute ago, Honors Ghost said:

Oooo spillll

Well, there's a few people, but they're not gay so...

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Well, there's a few people, but they're not gay so...

Oh man 

[Akimikoisthecutest]

2 minutes ago, Honors Ghost said:

Oh man 

Yeah, there is one person, but they're already involved with someone, and I don't think that we'd be a good personality match

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 minute ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Yeah, there is one person, but they're already involved with someone, and I don't think that we'd be a good personality match

*hugs* I’m sure you’ll find someone

[Akimikoisthecutest]

2 minutes ago, Honors Ghost said:

*hugs* I’m sure you’ll find someone

prolly not

Edited February 9 by Akimikoisthecutest

[Aeoryi she/her]

15 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Well, there's a few people, but they're not gay so...

so I mean at least you have prospects Ig

[Akimikoisthecutest]

1 hour ago, Aeoryi said:

so I mean at least you have prospects Ig

What do you mean by this

[Aeoryi she/her]

2 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

What do you mean by this

idk just don't lose hope etc etc etc like if not now maybe in the future 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

hey guys what if I'm enby or maybe genderfluid?

cuz idk how I actually feel about ppl referring to me as female or as male. IRL, that is. And I sorta liked when ppl used they/them for me? (I didn't tell them what to use, rlly. Or I did and they used it on their own.) For some reason one time I disliked it (a few months back), but now I don't mind? Idk. And maybe it's just my new view telling me I shouldn't like male he/him and stuff and should like female and she/her and stuff? But it feels awkward? Or I don't know what to feel? Or aren't ready? Idk. When ppl I'm out to use she/her/female stuff.

Idk how I feel but I know how I'm "supposed" to feel.

And, I've started to have doubts. Possibly because I've been feeling more comfortable abt myself and now I'm like "wait, I'm feeling good/better now. That means nothing's wrong!" when in reality I'm feeling better ... cuz I'm wearing new clothes and painting my nails etc. At least I'm fairly sure.

It's also hard to compare present to past since I didn't/don't? have a life, kinda.

I also feel like I'm different from other trans ppl. And yes, "everyone has their own journey." But ppl seem surprised when I say I figured out a month ago and don't mind wearing new clothes in public and am considering coming out and stuff.

And...I thought about HRT but it's only been a month so yeah. Ppl said I should probably wait. I could not be trans anyway. I hope I'm not cis at least. I hope I'm queer in some way. I guess...I said/thought a few days ago I was comfortable being trans, but now that ppl I'm out to talk abt it and call me trans and woman and stuff, I'm not so sure... Part of it could also be because I don't feel like I...pass as a woman. Don't feel like a woman? Not yet?

Since I'm talking not just abt trans stuff (and so I don't double-post) I'm putting this in CGD, but feel free to continue it in THT. But, I would like to hear from some of the enbies or gender-fluid ppl here. @Ink and Embers are you enby? I forget. Sorry if that's a mistake, but I think yous said you were.

Plus, what if I'm wrong? Yes, everything is reversible. Idk. Yada-yada.

And talking about it to ppl has made me doubt and think I might be fine with male. How do I know if I like/want to be a woman? How do I know? How do I know feelings? Maybe it's just that I feel I'm not quite or not fully a woman or not a woman. I want ppl to see me as a woman but know/fear they probably don't. I want them to see me as at least queer but I doubt they do. Maybe they do. Maybe they don't. My hair isn't even dyed yet. I don't even know what people think when they see me. I wish I could know what ppl are thinking and they could know what I am. Probably more the latter. Then I wouldn't have to talk to strangers and they'd talk to me..Then I'd talk to people. Then they'd possibly know what I think/feel and relate.

Do ppl see me as a woman? How will I know when? I don't feel like women will like me unless they see me as one. I fear men will still...*pause to think*...see me as one of them. I have a friend, maybe, but he's a guy! (I think.) I want. I want to. I want to ... idk. Do I even want to? Do I even want to be friends with women? Do I want to be friends with men? Why don't I. Why am I slightly disappointed that my first friend is a man? He's cool, yes. And I'm glad I have a friend (I think I have one, that is). But I wish I could (also?) have a woman friend. One who wanted to talk to me and didn't see me as a man. I want people. I want to talk to people. I want to be with people. I want to be a person. Why am I different? Why am I so very different? Are y'all different? Is it the neurodivergence? The possible being trans? Is it just cuz I'm weird? WhyYYY!‽!?

I want to get to know people, to. But it all feels weird. Perhaps not truly what I want. I want friendship, and at the same time think it's not-all-it's-cracked-up-to-be. It's work, right? Or maybe just not Me. Like any friendship would be "me," not Me. Not whoever Me is, whether woman or not. Maybe that's why I don't feel fulfilled or satisfied from the "friendships" I've had. They've all been..."friendships"...but also didn't quite feel friendship-y enough. Not a deep enough bond or connection. Not close. Not friends. Not truly. Not. Maybe it's because they were also all male. Maybe that's why. Of the single-digit, single-hand number of friends I've had, they've all been males. From boys2men, they've all been male. I've wanted to be friends with some of the women I've met. I always mistook that for attraction. Or perhaps it was both. Perhaps I thought... wrongly or not wrongly.

But...I can be a woman and be friends with men, and can be a man and be friends with women. It just doesn't feel that way. Not at all. Unless...yeah. Maybe I just don't like guys. Never have. You all probably like having friends men and women and all the every. But I don't particularly like men, even if I am around them. IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT. IT DOESN'T FEEL TRUE, OR FULL, OR WHAT I COULD HAVE. NOT THE FULL POTENTIAL OF FRIENDSHIP OR COMMUNICATION. 

When I'm in a room of men, it's... it's something. It's perhaps not what I'd like. It's perhaps like I don't belong. When I'm in a room with...women. When I'm in a room with women, I fear they'll see me as the outsider. I fear they won't want me there.

When I talk to a man, what do I feel? When I talk to a man, he's fine. He's a man. Hmm. When I talk to a man, ...

When I think of a man, it's odd. It's a feeling. I don't particularly like it. They're men; beer and talking weirdly and sports and videogames and beards and not and that-type-of-clothing and loud and boisterous and move-y-around-y and...manspreading maybe? I also don't particularly like stereotypes. Maybe just because I thought of myself as a man and therefore felt they included me when, in fact, I saw myself as (and probably am/was) outside those stuff.

Is what I'm saying bad? I feel like I can't talk about women at all. I fear I'll be like one-of-those-men and...yeah.

Ugh.

Whelp...I would maybe write more but unfortunately life calls. Life. Life. Duties. Work. Ugh. Life. Yes. Great..Kay. uh-huh. yeah. sure. I'll do it. I'll do it..oh i forgot. oopsie. oops. yes. *wants you1 to leave and shut up* *wants you2 to talk to me or me to talk to you.*

hehheheheheheheheh3è2êèie8ßjfí

i hate proofreadjng........ughhhhhhh.....hope i wont regret posting thiss.....sss.s..s.s.s.lemmeknow if i will...

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

5 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

hey guys what if I'm enby or maybe genderfluid?

cuz idk how I actually feel about ppl referring to me as female or as male. IRL, that is. And I sorta liked when ppl used they/them for me? (I didn't tell them what to use, rlly. Or I did and they used it on their own.) For some reason one time I disliked it (a few months back), but now I don't mind? Idk. And maybe it's just my new view telling me I shouldn't like male he/him and stuff and should like female and she/her and stuff? But it feels awkward? Or I don't know what to feel? Or aren't ready? Idk. When ppl I'm out to use she/her/female stuff.

Idk how I feel but I know how I'm "supposed" to feel.

And, I've started to have doubts. Possibly because I've been feeling more comfortable abt myself and now I'm like "wait, I'm feeling good/better now. That means nothing's wrong!" when in reality I'm feeling better ... cuz I'm wearing new clothes and painting my nails etc. At least I'm fairly sure.

It's also hard to compare present to past since I didn't/don't? have a life, kinda.

I also feel like I'm different from other trans ppl. And yes, "everyone has their own journey." But ppl seem surprised when I say I figured out a month ago and don't mind wearing new clothes in public and am considering coming out and stuff.

And...I thought about HRT but it's only been a month so yeah. Ppl said I should probably wait. I could not be trans anyway. I hope I'm not cis at least. I hope I'm queer in some way. I guess...I said/thought a few days ago I was comfortable being trans, but now that ppl I'm out to talk abt it and call me trans and woman and stuff, I'm not so sure... Part of it could also be because I don't feel like I...pass as a woman. Don't feel like a woman? Not yet?

Since I'm talking not just abt trans stuff (and so I don't double-post) I'm putting this in CGD, but feel free to continue it in THT. But, I would like to hear from some of the enbies or gender-fluid ppl here. @Ink and Embers are you enby? I forget. Sorry if that's a mistake, but I think yous said you were.

Plus, what if I'm wrong? Yes, everything is reversible. Idk. Yada-yada.

And talking about it to ppl has made me doubt and think I might be fine with male. How do I know if I like/want to be a woman? How do I know? How do I know feelings? Maybe it's just that I feel I'm not quite or not fully a woman or not a woman. I want ppl to see me as a woman but know/fear they probably don't. I want them to see me as at least queer but I doubt they do. Maybe they do. Maybe they don't. My hair isn't even dyed yet. I don't even know what people think when they see me. I wish I could know what ppl are thinking and they could know what I am. Probably more the latter. Then I wouldn't have to talk to strangers and they'd talk to me..Then I'd talk to people. Then they'd possibly know what I think/feel and relate.

Do ppl see me as a woman? How will I know when? I don't feel like women will like me unless they see me as one. I fear men will still...*pause to think*...see me as one of them. I have a friend, maybe, but he's a guy! (I think.) I want. I want to. I want to ... idk. Do I even want to? Do I even want to be friends with women? Do I want to be friends with men? Why don't I. Why am I slightly disappointed that my first friend is a man? He's cool, yes. And I'm glad I have a friend (I think I have one, that is). But I wish I could (also?) have a woman friend. One who wanted to talk to me and didn't see me as a man. I want people. I want to talk to people. I want to be with people. I want to be a person. Why am I different? Why am I so very different? Are y'all different? Is it the neurodivergence? The possible being trans? Is it just cuz I'm weird? WhyYYY!‽!?

I want to get to know people, to. But it all feels weird. Perhaps not truly what I want. I want friendship, and at the same time think it's not-all-it's-cracked-up-to-be. It's work, right? Or maybe just not Me. Like any friendship would be "me," not Me. Not whoever Me is, whether woman or not. Maybe that's why I don't feel fulfilled or satisfied from the "friendships" I've had. They've all been..."friendships"...but also didn't quite feel friendship-y enough. Not a deep enough bond or connection. Not close. Not friends. Not truly. Not. Maybe it's because they were also all male. Maybe that's why. Of the single-digit, single-hand number of friends I've had, they've all been males. From boys2men, they've all been male. I've wanted to be friends with some of the women I've met. I always mistook that for attraction. Or perhaps it was both. Perhaps I thought... wrongly or not wrongly.

But...I can be a woman and be friends with men, and can be a man and be friends with women. It just doesn't feel that way. Not at all. Unless...yeah. Maybe I just don't like guys. Never have. You all probably like having friends men and women and all the every. But I don't particularly like men, even if I am around them. IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT. IT DOESN'T FEEL TRUE, OR FULL, OR WHAT I COULD HAVE. NOT THE FULL POTENTIAL OF FRIENDSHIP OR COMMUNICATION. 

When I'm in a room of men, it's... it's something. It's perhaps not what I'd like. It's perhaps like I don't belong. When I'm in a room with...women. When I'm in a room with women, I fear they'll see me as the outsider. I fear they won't want me there.

When I talk to a man, what do I feel? When I talk to a man, he's fine. He's a man. Hmm. When I talk to a man, ...

When I think of a man, it's odd. It's a feeling. I don't particularly like it. They're men; beer and talking weirdly and sports and videogames and beards and not and that-type-of-clothing and loud and boisterous and move-y-around-y and...manspreading maybe? I also don't particularly like stereotypes. Maybe just because I thought of myself as a man and therefore felt they included me when, in fact, I saw myself as (and probably am/was) outside those stuff.

Is what I'm saying bad? I feel like I can't talk about women at all. I fear I'll be like one-of-those-men and...yeah.

Ugh.

Whelp...I would maybe write more but unfortunately life calls. Life. Life. Duties. Work. Ugh. Life. Yes. Great..Kay. uh-huh. yeah. sure. I'll do it. I'll do it..oh i forgot. oopsie. oops. yes. *wants you1 to leave and shut up* *wants you2 to talk to me or me to talk to you.*

hehheheheheheheheh3è2êèie8ßjfí

i hate proofreadjng........ughhhhhhh.....hope i wont regret posting thiss.....sss.s..s.s.s.lemmeknow if i will...

I think that whatever you are it’s great, I think that if your cis, enby, trans, genderfluid, I think the important thing to remeber is that this is a journey for yourself to discover who you are and there is no Right or wrong.

[Akimikoisthecutest]

3 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

hey guys what if I'm enby or maybe genderfluid?

cuz idk how I actually feel about ppl referring to me as female or as male. IRL, that is. And I sorta liked when ppl used they/them for me? (I didn't tell them what to use, rlly. Or I did and they used it on their own.) For some reason one time I disliked it (a few months back), but now I don't mind? Idk. And maybe it's just my new view telling me I shouldn't like male he/him and stuff and should like female and she/her and stuff? But it feels awkward? Or I don't know what to feel? Or aren't ready? Idk. When ppl I'm out to use she/her/female stuff.

Idk how I feel but I know how I'm "supposed" to feel.

And, I've started to have doubts. Possibly because I've been feeling more comfortable abt myself and now I'm like "wait, I'm feeling good/better now. That means nothing's wrong!" when in reality I'm feeling better ... cuz I'm wearing new clothes and painting my nails etc. At least I'm fairly sure.

It's also hard to compare present to past since I didn't/don't? have a life, kinda.

I also feel like I'm different from other trans ppl. And yes, "everyone has their own journey." But ppl seem surprised when I say I figured out a month ago and don't mind wearing new clothes in public and am considering coming out and stuff.

And...I thought about HRT but it's only been a month so yeah. Ppl said I should probably wait. I could not be trans anyway. I hope I'm not cis at least. I hope I'm queer in some way. I guess...I said/thought a few days ago I was comfortable being trans, but now that ppl I'm out to talk abt it and call me trans and woman and stuff, I'm not so sure... Part of it could also be because I don't feel like I...pass as a woman. Don't feel like a woman? Not yet?

Since I'm talking not just abt trans stuff (and so I don't double-post) I'm putting this in CGD, but feel free to continue it in THT. But, I would like to hear from some of the enbies or gender-fluid ppl here. @Ink and Embers are you enby? I forget. Sorry if that's a mistake, but I think yous said you were.

Plus, what if I'm wrong? Yes, everything is reversible. Idk. Yada-yada.

And talking about it to ppl has made me doubt and think I might be fine with male. How do I know if I like/want to be a woman? How do I know? How do I know feelings? Maybe it's just that I feel I'm not quite or not fully a woman or not a woman. I want ppl to see me as a woman but know/fear they probably don't. I want them to see me as at least queer but I doubt they do. Maybe they do. Maybe they don't. My hair isn't even dyed yet. I don't even know what people think when they see me. I wish I could know what ppl are thinking and they could know what I am. Probably more the latter. Then I wouldn't have to talk to strangers and they'd talk to me..Then I'd talk to people. Then they'd possibly know what I think/feel and relate.

Do ppl see me as a woman? How will I know when? I don't feel like women will like me unless they see me as one. I fear men will still...*pause to think*...see me as one of them. I have a friend, maybe, but he's a guy! (I think.) I want. I want to. I want to ... idk. Do I even want to? Do I even want to be friends with women? Do I want to be friends with men? Why don't I. Why am I slightly disappointed that my first friend is a man? He's cool, yes. And I'm glad I have a friend (I think I have one, that is). But I wish I could (also?) have a woman friend. One who wanted to talk to me and didn't see me as a man. I want people. I want to talk to people. I want to be with people. I want to be a person. Why am I different? Why am I so very different? Are y'all different? Is it the neurodivergence? The possible being trans? Is it just cuz I'm weird? WhyYYY!‽!?

I want to get to know people, to. But it all feels weird. Perhaps not truly what I want. I want friendship, and at the same time think it's not-all-it's-cracked-up-to-be. It's work, right? Or maybe just not Me. Like any friendship would be "me," not Me. Not whoever Me is, whether woman or not. Maybe that's why I don't feel fulfilled or satisfied from the "friendships" I've had. They've all been..."friendships"...but also didn't quite feel friendship-y enough. Not a deep enough bond or connection. Not close. Not friends. Not truly. Not. Maybe it's because they were also all male. Maybe that's why. Of the single-digit, single-hand number of friends I've had, they've all been males. From boys2men, they've all been male. I've wanted to be friends with some of the women I've met. I always mistook that for attraction. Or perhaps it was both. Perhaps I thought... wrongly or not wrongly.

But...I can be a woman and be friends with men, and can be a man and be friends with women. It just doesn't feel that way. Not at all. Unless...yeah. Maybe I just don't like guys. Never have. You all probably like having friends men and women and all the every. But I don't particularly like men, even if I am around them. IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT. IT DOESN'T FEEL TRUE, OR FULL, OR WHAT I COULD HAVE. NOT THE FULL POTENTIAL OF FRIENDSHIP OR COMMUNICATION. 

When I'm in a room of men, it's... it's something. It's perhaps not what I'd like. It's perhaps like I don't belong. When I'm in a room with...women. When I'm in a room with women, I fear they'll see me as the outsider. I fear they won't want me there.

When I talk to a man, what do I feel? When I talk to a man, he's fine. He's a man. Hmm. When I talk to a man, ...

When I think of a man, it's odd. It's a feeling. I don't particularly like it. They're men; beer and talking weirdly and sports and videogames and beards and not and that-type-of-clothing and loud and boisterous and move-y-around-y and...manspreading maybe? I also don't particularly like stereotypes. Maybe just because I thought of myself as a man and therefore felt they included me when, in fact, I saw myself as (and probably am/was) outside those stuff.

Is what I'm saying bad? I feel like I can't talk about women at all. I fear I'll be like one-of-those-men and...yeah.

Ugh.

Whelp...I would maybe write more but unfortunately life calls. Life. Life. Duties. Work. Ugh. Life. Yes. Great..Kay. uh-huh. yeah. sure. I'll do it. I'll do it..oh i forgot. oopsie. oops. yes. *wants you1 to leave and shut up* *wants you2 to talk to me or me to talk to you.*

hehheheheheheheheh3è2êèie8ßjfí

i hate proofreadjng........ughhhhhhh.....hope i wont regret posting thiss.....sss.s..s.s.s.lemmeknow if i will...

Ok, that's a lot. I felt that for a while. Ok let's break it down

4 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

cuz idk how I actually feel about ppl referring to me as female or as male. IRL, that is. And I sorta liked when ppl used they/them for me? (I didn't tell them what to use, rlly. Or I did and they used it on their own.) For some reason one time I disliked it (a few months back), but now I don't mind? Idk. And maybe it's just my new view telling me I shouldn't like male he/him and stuff and should like female and she/her and stuff? But it feels awkward? Or I don't know what to feel? Or aren't ready? Idk. When ppl I'm out to use she/her/female stuff.

 

Ok so this sounds kind of like you might be Genderfluid to me. I'm certainly not the expert on it, but that's what I'm getting from it.

5 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

And, I've started to have doubts. Possibly because I've been feeling more comfortable abt myself and now I'm like "wait, I'm feeling good/better now. That means nothing's wrong!" when in reality I'm feeling better ... cuz I'm wearing new clothes and painting my nails etc. At least I'm fairly sure.

That's valid and really hard to figure out

5 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

And...I thought about HRT but it's only been a month so yeah. Ppl said I should probably wait. I could not be trans anyway. I hope I'm not cis at least. I hope I'm queer in some way. I guess...I said/thought a few days ago I was comfortable being trans, but now that ppl I'm out to talk abt it and call me trans and woman and stuff, I'm not so sure... Part of it could also be because I don't feel like I...pass as a woman. Don't feel like a woman? Not yet?

 

Well, not all trans people want to medically transition. A lot of times I even struggle with not feeling trans enough

7 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

Do ppl see me as a woman? How will I know when? I don't feel like women will like me unless they see me as one. I fear men will still...*pause to think*...see me as one of them. I have a friend, maybe, but he's a guy! (I think.) I want. I want to. I want to ... idk. Do I even want to? Do I even want to be friends with women? Do I want to be friends with men? Why don't I. Why am I slightly disappointed that my first friend is a man? He's cool, yes. And I'm glad I have a friend (I think I have one, that is). But I wish I could (also?) have a woman friend. One who wanted to talk to me and didn't see me as a man. I want people. I want to talk to people. I want to be with people. I want to be a person. Why am I different? Why am I so very different? Are y'all different? Is it the neurodivergence? The possible being trans? Is it just cuz I'm weird? WhyYYY!‽!?

I want to get to know people, to. But it all feels weird. Perhaps not truly what I want. I want friendship, and at the same time think it's not-all-it's-cracked-up-to-be. It's work, right? Or maybe just not Me. Like any friendship would be "me," not Me. Not whoever Me is, whether woman or not. Maybe that's why I don't feel fulfilled or satisfied from the "friendships" I've had. They've all been..."friendships"...but also didn't quite feel friendship-y enough. Not a deep enough bond or connection. Not close. Not friends. Not truly. Not. Maybe it's because they were also all male. Maybe that's why. Of the single-digit, single-hand number of friends I've had, they've all been males. From boys2men, they've all been male. I've wanted to be friends with some of the women I've met. I always mistook that for attraction. Or perhaps it was both. Perhaps I thought... wrongly or not wrongly.

But...I can be a woman and be friends with men, and can be a man and be friends with women. It just doesn't feel that way. Not at all. Unless...yeah. Maybe I just don't like guys. Never have. You all probably like having friends men and women and all the every. But I don't particularly like men, even if I am around them. IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT. IT DOESN'T FEEL TRUE, OR FULL, OR WHAT I COULD HAVE. NOT THE FULL POTENTIAL OF FRIENDSHIP OR COMMUNICATION. 

People are generally pretty accepting of each other. I don't think that anything is wrong with you

9 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

When I'm in a room of men, it's... it's something. It's perhaps not what I'd like. It's perhaps like I don't belong. When I'm in a room with...women. When I'm in a room with women, I fear they'll see me as the outsider. I fear they won't want me there.

 

Women are really accepting if you're a kind person. You don't have to worry about it

9 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

When I think of a man, it's odd. It's a feeling. I don't particularly like it. They're men; beer and talking weirdly and sports and videogames and beards and not and that-type-of-clothing and loud and boisterous and move-y-around-y and...manspreading maybe? I also don't particularly like stereotypes. Maybe just because I thought of myself as a man and therefore felt they included me when, in fact, I saw myself as (and probably am/was) outside those stuff.

 

That's a stereotype. Not all men are "manly". There are a lot of men who hate beer, video games, are always clean shaven, hate man spreading, and sports. 

10 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

Is what I'm saying bad? I feel like I can't talk about women at all. I fear I'll be like one-of-those-men and...yeah.

 

It's fine. Nothing you said is wrong. 

 

I wish I had more to say but I don't. But remember this:

YOU ARE ENOUGH! NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS! NO IFS, ANDS, OR BUTS ABOUT IT! YOU ARE AMAZING

Thank you for coming to my TED talk

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

25 minutes ago, Honors Ghost said:

I think that whatever you are it’s great, I think that if your cis, enby, trans, genderfluid, I think the important thing to remeber is that this is a journey for yourself to discover who you are and there is no Right or wrong.

Ty Izzy...I guess...yeah, you're right. Maybe I should't worry too much. Or try not to. Just do what feels good and right and maybe not worry about the perfect label yet? I think I should put an effort toward that.

 

21 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Well, not all trans people want to medically transition. A lot of times I even struggle with not feeling trans enough

Yeah...everyone keeps saying that. Now I feel like I want to HRT/Med. Transition just cuz other ppl do. Could be true, even. Or...idk. Yeah. Time. Give it time, Lily.

21 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Women are really accepting if you're a kind person. You don't have to worry about it

I worry what kinda person I am though. I like to think of myself as kind, and I probably generally am, but then I don't wanna slip up and say something bad or mean or...something that ppl don't like. Or somehow mess up. OK. HOLD ON. Just had an epiphany. Love when I get those.

So: ALLLLLLL the bad things I semi-constantly to somewhat-somewhat WHATEVERR. All the bad stuff I think about myself doing/being...are in my head. Ok? Yeah. Ok nvm..wait. They're in my head but I still worry about them and yeah btw I'm talking about something..ggg..g.g.. Uhhhhhhûhhü

Yeha anyway that's just something so anyway how do I be kind when I constantly worry I'll do something bad and be not kind? Like I worry I'll be not-kind and then only realize too late and then realize what a horrible person I was and then feel terrible and hate mself and stuff and then never wanna be around people again cuz they'll hate me but also cuz I'll be not-kind and yeahhhh?

Like that's also a worry I have online. What if I end up being toxic without realizing and then do realize and feel horrible? I think that's actually happened a few times. Maybe not here, though. Or, even if not toxic, just in general...not the kinda person I wanna be.

Like I worry I'll get carried away. Again.

21 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

That's a stereotype. Not all men are "manly". There are a lot of men who hate beer, video games, are always clean shaven, hate man spreading, and sports. 

Yeah.. that's true. There are some nice dudes out there.

21 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

It's fine. Nothing you said is wrong.

Maybe it's what I didn't say

21 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

YOU ARE ENOUGH! NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS! NO IFS, ANDS, OR BUTS ABOUT IT! YOU ARE AMAZING

21 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

Thank you for coming to my TED talk

Thank you, Aki. I appreciate it.

 

*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* I gotta do so much darn work.

Edited February 10 by Usseewa

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 minute ago, Usseewa said:

Ty Izzy...I guess...yeah, you're right. Maybe I should't worry too much. Or try not to. Just do what feels good and right and maybe not worry about the perfect label yet? I think I should put an effort toward that.

Ye that’d be good

[Akimikoisthecutest]

23 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

Maybe it's what I didn't say

What didn't you say that you feel like you need to?

[Usseewa ✾ She♡Her ✾]

7 minutes ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

What didn't you say that you feel like you need to?

idk maybe i'll say it later.

Just what I feel about women.

 

but im way too busy rn

 

edit; 7,00th reply...yippee

Edited February 10 by Usseewa