Certified Gay Disasters

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

14 hours ago, Akimikoisthecutest said:

What would you like to know darling?

EVERYTHING about her

13 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

I wish I had girls tbh

HIII IM A GIRL WE CAN BE FRIENDSSSSS

[Keke They/he]

On 5/22/2026 at 5:36 PM, Usseewa said:

Hey y'all

I'm back and I wanted to say some things

so uhhh

I was in a psych ward the past week

 

*hugs* welcome back 

 

On 5/22/2026 at 5:36 PM, Usseewa said:

There was also this girl that I mayyyy have liked. She's bi, too. We talked a lot and spent time together and it was amazing. I talked to the other people too and had more IRL socializing than I've ever had, I think. Of course, we were all, like, near each other so it was easier, but still, I feel I grew a lot emotionally and socially and stuff.

Thats great! Im glad you were able to talk to people more, and im proud of you for growing!

 

On 5/22/2026 at 5:36 PM, Usseewa said:

The thing is... I'll most likely never see them again, including that girl who I really would have liked to talk to more. I wish I stayed longer or got some way to contact her again, idk. The regret is very very painful and idk.

But I may have a crush on her?

Also, for the most part people were accepting of me, especially the other girls who I hung out with the most. Before that I'd barely socialized IRL with girls, and this was just great, idk. There were also some great guys (and some ones that made some days awful), and they were pretty accepting too, I think.

Awww thats awesome, and bittersweet *hugs*

On 5/22/2026 at 5:36 PM, Usseewa said:

But... I felt loved, idk. They made me realize that I think of myself way too lowly. I put myself down too much and have done it so long that I don't even see an alternative as a possibility, it's just become ingrained: that no one would ever like me (as a friend or otherwise), and otherstuff

Sometimes it’s good to have others help seeing the parts of you that you dont. 

Ill type more but my teacher is gonna lock my iPad and i need this sent

[Aeoryi she/her]

On 5/27/2026 at 5:41 AM, Honors Spectral Image said:

EVERYTHING about her

HIII IM A GIRL WE CAN BE FRIENDSSSSS

Sure 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 hour ago, Aeoryi said:

Sure 

YAYYAYAY FRENDOASS

[Aeoryi she/her]

7 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

YAYYAYAY FRENDOASS

Yayyayy

 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

29 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

Yayyayy

 

Friends are so cool 

I love my friends

[Verdance he/him]

Yall should watch this series by this trans woman

she does filmmaking using minecraft and also composes some absolutely beautiful music for it, it inspired me to learn piano

honestly some of the best cinema i have seen in a while, ongoing with 10 episodes. Here’s the first;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqZRB4WtqZI

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

3 minutes ago, Verdance said:

Yall should watch this series by this trans woman

she does filmmaking using minecraft and also composes some absolutely beautiful music for it, it inspired me to learn piano

honestly some of the best cinema i have seen in a while, ongoing with 10 episodes. Here’s the first;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqZRB4WtqZI

Wokayyyy

[Aeoryi she/her]

22 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

Friends are so cool 

I love my friends

I do too

which is weird cause a lot of my friends are online

 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 hour ago, Aeoryi said:

I do too

which is weird cause a lot of my friends are online

 

The majority of my friends aren’t but I love all of mine

[Aeoryi she/her]

5 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

The majority of my friends aren’t but I love all of mine

I'm not a social butterfly at all... maybe I should be.

 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

40 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

I'm not a social butterfly at all... maybe I should be.

 

UUUUU SHOULDDDNITS SO FUNNNN

[Aeoryi she/her]

8 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

UUUUU SHOULDDDNITS SO FUNNNN

nah I prefer being alone all the time. besides, I have favorable standing with most people anyways. But that's not always the same thing as being friends, right?

calculus is cooking me

[Factor She/Her]

help

apparently im being brave today

but i will probably chicken out and not post this

or at least hide it within 5 minutes

 

so

despite my pronouns field

(which i wanted to be “screams in frustration” but the field doesn’t like jokes)

i am assigned male at birth.

and assumed cis since then

but

looking back

for at least a year and a half

i havent wanted to be

iv

really

wanted to be a girl

and I’ve realized and started actually going down that path when i got to the shard

i anonymously followed this thread

and others

and it’s been tumbling to here

and me

being trans

 

 

im just gonna post this right now cuz I’m about to chicken out.

help

Edited Friday at 11:45 PM by Factor
don’t let me just hide this, please

[Verdance he/him]

5 minutes ago, Factor said:

help

apparently im being brave today

but i will probably chicken out and not post this

or at least hide it within 5 minutes

 

so

despite my pronouns field

(which i wanted to be “screams in frustration” but the field doesn’t like jokes)

i am assigned male at birth.

but

looking back

for at least a year and a half

i havent wanted to be

iv

really

wanted to be a girl

and I’ve realized and started actually going down that path when i got to the shard

i anonymously followed this thread

and others

and it’s been tumbling to here

and me

being trans

 

 

im just gonna post this right now cuz I’m about to chicken out.

help

Nice to meet you, again. We are here for you however you choose to identify, and will respect you no matter what.

[Aeoryi she/her]

13 minutes ago, Factor said:

help

apparently im being brave today

but i will probably chicken out and not post this

or at least hide it within 5 minutes

 

so

despite my pronouns field

(which i wanted to be “screams in frustration” but the field doesn’t like jokes)

i am assigned male at birth.

and assumed cis since then

but

looking back

for at least a year and a half

i havent wanted to be

iv

really

wanted to be a girl

and I’ve realized and started actually going down that path when i got to the shard

i anonymously followed this thread

and others

and it’s been tumbling to here

and me

being trans

 

 

im just gonna post this right now cuz I’m about to chicken out.

help

well well well

welcome to the club, I guess

 

[Hmmm lies she/her]

23 hours ago, Verdance said:

Yall should watch this series by this trans woman

she does filmmaking using minecraft and also composes some absolutely beautiful music for it, it inspired me to learn piano

honestly some of the best cinema i have seen in a while, ongoing with 10 episodes. Here’s the first;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqZRB4WtqZI

Ah, Whitepine, I love that.

23 minutes ago, Factor said:

help

apparently im being brave today

but i will probably chicken out and not post this

or at least hide it within 5 minutes

 

so

despite my pronouns field

(which i wanted to be “screams in frustration” but the field doesn’t like jokes)

i am assigned male at birth.

and assumed cis since then

but

looking back

for at least a year and a half

i havent wanted to be

iv

really

wanted to be a girl

and I’ve realized and started actually going down that path when i got to the shard

i anonymously followed this thread

and others

and it’s been tumbling to here

and me

being trans

 

 

im just gonna post this right now cuz I’m about to chicken out.

help

Hello, new person. I once posted a similar post in this thread, and everyone here helped me so much, so of course we'd all be happy to do the same.

Taking this step is brave, so good job in that. Would you like to tell us more about this or ask us any questions?

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

32 minutes ago, Factor said:

help

apparently im being brave today

but i will probably chicken out and not post this

or at least hide it within 5 minutes

 

so

despite my pronouns field

(which i wanted to be “screams in frustration” but the field doesn’t like jokes)

i am assigned male at birth.

and assumed cis since then

but

looking back

for at least a year and a half

i havent wanted to be

iv

really

wanted to be a girl

and I’ve realized and started actually going down that path when i got to the shard

i anonymously followed this thread

and others

and it’s been tumbling to here

and me

being trans

 

 

im just gonna post this right now cuz I’m about to chicken out.

help

*hugs* welcomeeeeeee 

[Aeoryi she/her]

Does anyone have trouble associating with their chosen name different than that given at birth? (especially if other people use it for you or whatever)

not saying that I am struggling to disassociate from my deadname, I'm saying that I'm struggling to associate with any at all

Spoiler

Had blood testing yesterday. scary

 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

15 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

Does anyone have trouble associating with their chosen name different than that given at birth? (especially if other people use it for you or whatever)

not saying that I am struggling to disassociate from my deadname, I'm saying that I'm struggling to associate with any at all

  Hide contents

Had blood testing yesterday. scary

 

Not rlyyy but I’d imagine unjust might not have found the right one yet, like I wouldn’t associate with Madison if someone called me that but I can associate with Isabel and izzy

[Verdance he/him]

18 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

Does anyone have trouble associating with their chosen name different than that given at birth? (especially if other people use it for you or whatever)

not saying that I am struggling to disassociate from my deadname, I'm saying that I'm struggling to associate with any at all

  Hide contents

Had blood testing yesterday. scary

 

Is it better or the same as your birth name?

what made you pick that name in the first place? 

 

[Aeoryi she/her]

3 minutes ago, Honors Spectral Image said:

Not rlyyy but I’d imagine unjust might not have found the right one yet, like I wouldn’t associate with Madison if someone called me that but I can associate with Isabel and izzy

Have you looked at birthnames popular in your birth year? That's a good starting point. 

a lot of the time it's just "someone does this name better and it's not *my* name"

2 minutes ago, Verdance said:

Is it better or the same as your birth name?

what made you pick that name in the first place? 

So much better than my birthname oh yeah. it fits me well enough. And it does seem very much like me, sounds decent with my last name and it's so so fitting. 

but I do struggle to pick it up perfectly

[Verdance he/him]

4 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

Have you looked at birthnames popular in your birth year? That's a good starting point. 

a lot of the time it's just "someone does this name better and it's not *my* name"

So much better than my birthname oh yeah. it fits me well enough. And it does seem very much like me, sounds decent with my last name and it's so so fitting. 

but I do struggle to pick it up perfectly

Okay i get that feeling

i dont dislike my name but sometimes i completely disassociate from myself and look in the mirror and think “that’s me? Huh? Right, i guess”. Im fine with my name as well, but sometimes the exact same thing happens- someone else has a name that sounds better to me, and i just shrug to be honest 

maybe it bothers me less but idk

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 minute ago, Verdance said:

Okay i get that feeling

i dont dislike my name but sometimes i completely disassociate from myself and look in the mirror and think “that’s me? Huh? Right, i guess”. Im fine with my name as well, but sometimes the exact same thing happens- someone else has a name that sounds better to me, and i just shrug to be honest 

maybe it bothers me less but idk

I don't know if that's necessarily the same thing I'm experiencing...

This question was moreso posed towards transgender individuals specifically, but thank you for your response! 

[Verdance he/him]

1 minute ago, Aeoryi said:

I don't know if that's necessarily the same thing I'm experiencing...

This question was moreso posed towards transgender individuals specifically, but thank you for your response! 

Oops

didnt read correctly 

my bad