Mental health club!

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Do you need anything?

A wider crew of irl friends? To be able to hug all y'all in person? For the next arc of Stormlight to come out sooner?

Spoiler

A partner?

Spoiler

Yeah that won't happen for reason 1

 

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

A wider crew of irl friends? To be able to hug all y'all in person? For the next arc of Stormlight to come out sooner?

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A partner?

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Yeah that won't happen for reason 1

 

 

*squeezes tightly*

come to Utah 

I can solve two of those problems

[Keke They/he]

23 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

What do I have to do to be able to feel? Like I just numb all my emotions most of the time to get away from them because anytime I show my emotions I get yelled at or figuratively burned, so I just lock them all up and slap on the mask. Like why can't I just be able to feel how I feel, without being told that I'm wrong?

*hugs*

7 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

This isn’t rly important or anything but the logo for the shard being gay reminded me

So I have not come out to my parents mostly bc I’m not sure what I am but they’ve always made it clear they’re accepting of whatever I am and so today my friend asked if I wanted to go to pride w them and I said yes (duh) and asked my parents and they said yessssss which makes me happy and my friends letting me borrow her pride shirt from last year and it’s gonna be so fun and I’m rly excited.  

YAY *HUGS*

3 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

A wider crew of irl friends? To be able to hug all y'all in person? For the next arc of Stormlight to come out sooner?

  Reveal hidden contents

A partner?

  Reveal hidden contents

Yeah that won't happen for reason 1

 

 

*HUGs* reason 1?

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

*squeezes tightly*

come to Utah 

I can solve two of those problems

I really want to go, but I don't think I can 'cause my parents would want to accompany me since I'm not adult yet but they wouldn't want to go

But I'll keep trying 'cause I've still got a bit of time

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

*hugs*

YAY *HUGS*

*HUGs* reason 1?

*hugs back*

Reason 1—wider crew of irl friends

Especially those my age, of whom there are, five, and for the purposes here, none

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

16 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

I really want to go, but I don't think I can 'cause my parents would want to accompany me since I'm not adult yet but they wouldn't want to go

But I'll keep trying 'cause I've still got a bit of time

*squeeze*

you should

you should

I'm so sorry

[Keke They/he]

29 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

I really want to go, but I don't think I can 'cause my parents would want to accompany me since I'm not adult yet but they wouldn't want to go

But I'll keep trying 'cause I've still got a bit of time

*hugs back*

Reason 1—wider crew of irl friends

Especially those my age, of whom there are, five, and for the purposes here, none

*hugs* damn

[Keke They/he]

Chat im going to crash out

So we have k and b. Now they are foster kids who come to our house occasionally and its two little boys. They were gone for a while and we got to take care of them again. So like always I jump up to take care of both of them. So I do. We drawing. Go outside and jump on the trampoline. Draw more. And at this point dealing with one little needy 4 year old and one small 3 year old who's always moving around. Im a bit tired from their annoying Ness. So im coloring my drawing and in visible distress bc im getting overloaded and overstimulated im like "can someone entertain B" (he was grabbing at my art stuff. "I thought someone was"

Ok so my sister gets him so whatever. And im dealing with the real problem k bc he is so needdyyyyyyyyyyyy so as im going insane becoming more and more overstimulated with this kid and my responses to his repetitive questions keep getting more annoyed. No one helps. I asked my sister earlier of she would help and she said no bc she was tired feom work. Ok I get that but please I cant be expected to deal with them alone?!! And they are sitting on their phones..... euebeuebeueukwkdkf

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

4 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Chat im going to crash out

So we have k and b. Now they are foster kids who come to our house occasionally and its two little boys. They were gone for a while and we got to take care of them again. So like always I jump up to take care of both of them. So I do. We drawing. Go outside and jump on the trampoline. Draw more. And at this point dealing with one little needy 4 year old and one small 3 year old who's always moving around. Im a bit tired from their annoying Ness. So im coloring my drawing and in visible distress bc im getting overloaded and overstimulated im like "can someone entertain B" (he was grabbing at my art stuff. "I thought someone was"

Ok so my sister gets him so whatever. And im dealing with the real problem k bc he is so needdyyyyyyyyyyyy so as im going insane becoming more and more overstimulated with this kid and my responses to his repetitive questions keep getting more annoyed. No one helps. I asked my sister earlier of she would help and she said no bc she was tired feom work. Ok I get that but please I cant be expected to deal with them alone?!! And they are sitting on their phones..... euebeuebeueukwkdkf

*hugs*

Small ones are really hard to deal with, my little brother is the same age. You shouldn't be expected to handle them, or even one of them, on your own, that's not fair

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

13 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Chat im going to crash out

So we have k and b. Now they are foster kids who come to our house occasionally and its two little boys. They were gone for a while and we got to take care of them again. So like always I jump up to take care of both of them. So I do. We drawing. Go outside and jump on the trampoline. Draw more. And at this point dealing with one little needy 4 year old and one small 3 year old who's always moving around. Im a bit tired from their annoying Ness. So im coloring my drawing and in visible distress bc im getting overloaded and overstimulated im like "can someone entertain B" (he was grabbing at my art stuff. "I thought someone was"

Ok so my sister gets him so whatever. And im dealing with the real problem k bc he is so needdyyyyyyyyyyyy so as im going insane becoming more and more overstimulated with this kid and my responses to his repetitive questions keep getting more annoyed. No one helps. I asked my sister earlier of she would help and she said no bc she was tired feom work. Ok I get that but please I cant be expected to deal with them alone?!! And they are sitting on their phones..... euebeuebeueukwkdkf

*squeeze*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 hours ago, Hawks said:

Chat im going to crash out

So we have k and b. Now they are foster kids who come to our house occasionally and its two little boys. They were gone for a while and we got to take care of them again. So like always I jump up to take care of both of them. So I do. We drawing. Go outside and jump on the trampoline. Draw more. And at this point dealing with one little needy 4 year old and one small 3 year old who's always moving around. Im a bit tired from their annoying Ness. So im coloring my drawing and in visible distress bc im getting overloaded and overstimulated im like "can someone entertain B" (he was grabbing at my art stuff. "I thought someone was"

Ok so my sister gets him so whatever. And im dealing with the real problem k bc he is so needdyyyyyyyyyyyy so as im going insane becoming more and more overstimulated with this kid and my responses to his repetitive questions keep getting more annoyed. No one helps. I asked my sister earlier of she would help and she said no bc she was tired feom work. Ok I get that but please I cant be expected to deal with them alone?!! And they are sitting on their phones..... euebeuebeueukwkdkf

*huuuuug*

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

i graduate on friday and everything is going to change and it feels like if I stop to think about it for a second I’ll burst into tears

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Just now, alittleinsane said:

i graduate on friday and everything is going to change and it feels like if I stop to think about it for a second I’ll burst into tears

*hugs*

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

43 minutes ago, alittleinsane said:

i graduate on friday and everything is going to change and it feels like if I stop to think about it for a second I’ll burst into tears

*hugs*

Yeah... I get that

Don't worry about crying

Change in itself isn't bad, or good for that matter

But it is sure scary

 

Also, congrats on your graduation!

[ANHlittleinsane girl but gendern't mostly]

1 hour ago, Just A Silvereye said:

*hugs*

Yeah... I get that

Don't worry about crying

Change in itself isn't bad, or good for that matter

But it is sure scary

 

Also, congrats on your graduation!

thx!

 

underrated little sibling bonding technique: teach your nine year old sister how to sword fight. give her lightsaber and set her loose

[Mags she/they]

Yeah my anxiety is really not that bad until some of my friends start texting about a topic that is really hard for me and I start physically shaking

its fine and we had a good discussion I just

Hate that my heart tells me to have a different opinion than the one I should have. I can’t even agree with myself.

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

1 hour ago, Mag said:

Yeah my anxiety is really not that bad until some of my friends start texting about a topic that is really hard for me and I start physically shaking

its fine and we had a good discussion I just

Hate that my heart tells me to have a different opinion than the one I should have. I can’t even agree with myself.

I get that *hugs*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, Mag said:

Yeah my anxiety is really not that bad until some of my friends start texting about a topic that is really hard for me and I start physically shaking

its fine and we had a good discussion I just

Hate that my heart tells me to have a different opinion than the one I should have. I can’t even agree with myself.

*hugs*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

On 6/7/2025 at 6:14 AM, alittleinsane said:

i graduate on friday and everything is going to change and it feels like if I stop to think about it for a second I’ll burst into tears

hey!

it'll be okay!

everything will be fine

you'll see

*squeeze*

I am sorry though

we're here for you, okay?

4 hours ago, Mag said:

Yeah my anxiety is really not that bad until some of my friends start texting about a topic that is really hard for me and I start physically shaking

its fine and we had a good discussion I just

Hate that my heart tells me to have a different opinion than the one I should have. I can’t even agree with myself.

oh girlie . . .

*squeeze*

[Keke They/he]

Uh so like..... I found some of these and I wellm... ub just read.  Swearing on the last one btw

Self explanatory 

Spoiler

Spoiler

 

I think I tend to annoy people alot bc I am loud and talk alot ya know. 

 

Spoiler

 

...... self explanatory 

Spoiler

 

So uh today there was alotbof raising of voices and i saw this and it just itd so real it hurts

Why am I so freaking sensitive i freaking hate it so much

Spoiler

 

To both of my parents. I wisg I could tell them this. Bit then if get lectured and im to storming tired to deal witg this bs

Spoiler

 

.............. long story.    .... maybe I'll tell someone if I jave tkme to call and explain it.

Spoiler

 

It doesnt make sense

I have everyone here but I feel so numb inside I can barely smile............ It... hurts... alot. I wish I could...  idk at this point 

 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

2 hours ago, Hawks said:

Uh so like..... I found some of these and I wellm... ub just read.  Swearing on the last one btw

Self explanatory 

  Hide contents

  Hide contents

 

I think I tend to annoy people alot bc I am loud and talk alot ya know. 

 

  Hide contents

 

...... self explanatory 

  Hide contents

 

So uh today there was alotbof raising of voices and i saw this and it just itd so real it hurts

Why am I so freaking sensitive i freaking hate it so much

  Hide contents

 

To both of my parents. I wisg I could tell them this. Bit then if get lectured and im to storming tired to deal witg this bs

  Hide contents

 

.............. long story.    .... maybe I'll tell someone if I jave tkme to call and explain it.

  Hide contents

 

It doesnt make sense

I have everyone here but I feel so numb inside I can barely smile............ It... hurts... alot. I wish I could...  idk at this point 

 

*hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs so many hugs*

You can DM me here or on Discord anytime you want

and also if strangers online are more supportive than your parents then that's on your parents not on you

And for the last one... yeah depression rarely ever makes sense

I wish I knew what to say to make it better

*hugs again*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

5 hours ago, Hawks said:

Uh so like..... I found some of these and I wellm... ub just read.  Swearing on the last one btw

Self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

  Reveal hidden contents

 

I think I tend to annoy people alot bc I am loud and talk alot ya know. 

 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

...... self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

So uh today there was alotbof raising of voices and i saw this and it just itd so real it hurts

Why am I so freaking sensitive i freaking hate it so much

  Reveal hidden contents

 

To both of my parents. I wisg I could tell them this. Bit then if get lectured and im to storming tired to deal witg this bs

  Reveal hidden contents

 

.............. long story.    .... maybe I'll tell someone if I jave tkme to call and explain it.

  Reveal hidden contents

 

It doesnt make sense

I have everyone here but I feel so numb inside I can barely smile............ It... hurts... alot. I wish I could...  idk at this point 

 

*hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

5 hours ago, Hawks said:

Uh so like..... I found some of these and I wellm... ub just read.  Swearing on the last one btw

Self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

  Reveal hidden contents

 

I think I tend to annoy people alot bc I am loud and talk alot ya know. 

 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

...... self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

So uh today there was alotbof raising of voices and i saw this and it just itd so real it hurts

Why am I so freaking sensitive i freaking hate it so much

  Reveal hidden contents

 

To both of my parents. I wisg I could tell them this. Bit then if get lectured and im to storming tired to deal witg this bs

  Reveal hidden contents

 

.............. long story.    .... maybe I'll tell someone if I jave tkme to call and explain it.

  Reveal hidden contents

 

It doesnt make sense

I have everyone here but I feel so numb inside I can barely smile............ It... hurts... alot. I wish I could...  idk at this point 

 

*huggggsssss*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

Uh ok I'm gonna use these words 'cause I spent more time working on them and I just need help. Why am I the way I am. Why do I have to be so broken for no storming reason

Spoiler

I don't feel anything

The pain's all gone away

I'm left with just an emptiness

That will stay for a few days

It may not be healthy

But it sure as hell is useful

‘Cause I don't need to be well

I just need to be functional

I got too many people

Who depend on me

So I hide it away

And never let them see

And I keep on moving

Running as far as I can

And sure sometimes it's draining

But I can be there for everyone

And I wish I had someone to hold

And talk to ‘bout the ghosts

But the ones closest to me

Are the ones who hurt the most

They know the cracks in my armor

And they worm their way to my heart

And then they burrow in

And they start to tear me apart

And I just stand and bear it all

‘Cause just as much as they harm

They sit and listen like nobody else

And talk at all the right parts

So I enjoy it while it lasts

And wait around for the day

When my use to them is outlived

And they cast me away

No, nobody stays forever

Time tears it all apart

Like atoms breaking down

Or an axe that bites through the bark

And I just feel what I can

And hide the rest away

‘Cause yeah it sure ain't healthy

But it gets me through the day

And if my own mind doesn't take me out

Time sure as hell will

Whether my body fails or the world hits

My time here will be cosmically quick

And I accept that I'm broken

And maybe I'll find out how to heal

But I'll get others there first

Before death takes the wheel

It's a broken world we live in

But I got kids who count on me

So I'll be there for them as long as I can

And then maybe

Just maybe

I can be free

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

12 hours ago, Hawks said:

Uh so like..... I found some of these and I wellm... ub just read.  Swearing on the last one btw

Self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

  Reveal hidden contents

 

I think I tend to annoy people alot bc I am loud and talk alot ya know. 

 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

...... self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

So uh today there was alotbof raising of voices and i saw this and it just itd so real it hurts

Why am I so freaking sensitive i freaking hate it so much

  Reveal hidden contents

 

To both of my parents. I wisg I could tell them this. Bit then if get lectured and im to storming tired to deal witg this bs

  Reveal hidden contents

 

.............. long story.    .... maybe I'll tell someone if I jave tkme to call and explain it.

  Reveal hidden contents

 

It doesnt make sense

I have everyone here but I feel so numb inside I can barely smile............ It... hurts... alot. I wish I could...  idk at this point 

 

*hugs*

I know the feeling

well feelings

*squeeze*

6 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Uh ok I'm gonna use these words 'cause I spent more time working on them and I just need help. Why am I the way I am. Why do I have to be so broken for no storming reason

  Reveal hidden contents

I don't feel anything

The pain's all gone away

I'm left with just an emptiness

That will stay for a few days

It may not be healthy

But it sure as hell is useful

‘Cause I don't need to be well

I just need to be functional

I got too many people

Who depend on me

So I hide it away

And never let them see

And I keep on moving

Running as far as I can

And sure sometimes it's draining

But I can be there for everyone

And I wish I had someone to hold

And talk to ‘bout the ghosts

But the ones closest to me

Are the ones who hurt the most

They know the cracks in my armor

And they worm their way to my heart

And then they burrow in

And they start to tear me apart

And I just stand and bear it all

‘Cause just as much as they harm

They sit and listen like nobody else

And talk at all the right parts

So I enjoy it while it lasts

And wait around for the day

When my use to them is outlived

And they cast me away

No, nobody stays forever

Time tears it all apart

Like atoms breaking down

Or an axe that bites through the bark

And I just feel what I can

And hide the rest away

‘Cause yeah it sure ain't healthy

But it gets me through the day

And if my own mind doesn't take me out

Time sure as hell will

Whether my body fails or the world hits

My time here will be cosmically quick

And I accept that I'm broken

And maybe I'll find out how to heal

But I'll get others there first

Before death takes the wheel

It's a broken world we live in

But I got kids who count on me

So I'll be there for them as long as I can

And then maybe

Just maybe

I can be free

 

*hugs so tightly*

[MirkerLurker she/her]

On 6/7/2025 at 8:14 AM, alittleinsane said:

i graduate on friday and everything is going to change and it feels like if I stop to think about it for a second I’ll burst into tears

*hugs*

On 6/7/2025 at 10:43 AM, alittleinsane said:

thx!

 

underrated little sibling bonding technique: teach your nine year old sister how to sword fight. give her lightsaber and set her loose

Yes. Great bonding technique, agreed.

 

On 6/8/2025 at 4:52 PM, Mag said:

Hate that my heart tells me to have a different opinion than the one I should have. I can’t even agree with myself.

Yes. Can't get the different parts of me to agree or even make sense. And it just fractures me apart more, bit by shattered bit.

 

17 hours ago, Hawks said:

Uh so like..... I found some of these and I wellm... ub just read.  Swearing on the last one btw

Self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

  Reveal hidden contents

 

I think I tend to annoy people alot bc I am loud and talk alot ya know. 

 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

...... self explanatory 

  Reveal hidden contents

 

So uh today there was alotbof raising of voices and i saw this and it just itd so real it hurts

Why am I so freaking sensitive i freaking hate it so much

  Reveal hidden contents

 

To both of my parents. I wisg I could tell them this. Bit then if get lectured and im to storming tired to deal witg this bs

  Reveal hidden contents

 

.............. long story.    .... maybe I'll tell someone if I jave tkme to call and explain it.

  Reveal hidden contents

 

It doesnt make sense

I have everyone here but I feel so numb inside I can barely smile............ It... hurts... alot. I wish I could...  idk at this point 

 

*squeezes super tight*

Those are real.

 

11 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Uh ok I'm gonna use these words 'cause I spent more time working on them and I just need help. Why am I the way I am. Why do I have to be so broken for no storming reason

  Hide contents

I don't feel anything

The pain's all gone away

I'm left with just an emptiness

That will stay for a few days

It may not be healthy

But it sure as hell is useful

‘Cause I don't need to be well

I just need to be functional

I got too many people

Who depend on me

So I hide it away

And never let them see

And I keep on moving

Running as far as I can

And sure sometimes it's draining

But I can be there for everyone

And I wish I had someone to hold

And talk to ‘bout the ghosts

But the ones closest to me

Are the ones who hurt the most

They know the cracks in my armor

And they worm their way to my heart

And then they burrow in

And they start to tear me apart

And I just stand and bear it all

‘Cause just as much as they harm

They sit and listen like nobody else

And talk at all the right parts

So I enjoy it while it lasts

And wait around for the day

When my use to them is outlived

And they cast me away

No, nobody stays forever

Time tears it all apart

Like atoms breaking down

Or an axe that bites through the bark

And I just feel what I can

And hide the rest away

‘Cause yeah it sure ain't healthy

But it gets me through the day

And if my own mind doesn't take me out

Time sure as hell will

Whether my body fails or the world hits

My time here will be cosmically quick

And I accept that I'm broken

And maybe I'll find out how to heal

But I'll get others there first

Before death takes the wheel

It's a broken world we live in

But I got kids who count on me

So I'll be there for them as long as I can

And then maybe

Just maybe

I can be free

 

Holy crap, Kansas, that's beautiful.

I mean, it's not 'happy'. But wow, you nailed it.
I remember that. I remember that so well. I spent years living with the broken numbness, taking comfort only from knowing that at least I'm helping others. Waiting with wistfulness, with longing for the day I was no longer needed, so I could finally go, leave, be done. Finally fly, drift away for good. Occasionally hoping again, feeling again, getting broken again, going numb again. Holding to those I cared about, even as the rest of me, everything except my grip on them, crumbled and blew away. Moving, functioning, but empty; a shell with human skin, a mask with nothing left behind it. And sometimes that faded to the background, and I could feel things; but it was always there in the back of my mind, waiting; never gone.

Except now it is.

It's a memory now. I still remember it; I still have the shape it left behind in my mind; but I'm not numb anymore. I get foggy sometimes, slow and have to push through, but not empty, not anymore.

You can heal. It doesn't have to stay. You can learn how to feel again.
It hurts like hell sometimes, that process. But it also brings joy. It's not quick. But it comes. I don't know why you're broken. But you're not broken beyond repair.

I'll be here to help with that if I can. I can't promise to be here frequently, every time you need help. I'm glad we've got a group, to share that helping. But I can promise I will keep coming back. 

And saying it again, I want to hear the songs you write be played and sung. I'll sing them with you if you'd like. I love your songs. They're real. They show the you behind the mask. And I want to see more.

 

 

Right, hey, speaking of songs, this is what I came on to share. I just found this guy's music, and storming crem, this song is good.