Mental health club!

[Usseewa ✾ She♡They ✾]

1 minute ago, Aeoryi said:

well yeah but like you have to look at your issues as a set of physical problems rather than something that nearly fits under an umbrella. 

idk what mine are tho

'sides there are some other (prolly minor) physicaal health/care things a bit not good rn but idk so idk

i wish i dint hafta think

i think

 

also ive been having awful/violent thoughts and uhm they dint rlly disturb me and they used to..

and sometimes i say them our loud to/around ppl and rhey get kinda concerned and i dont like it and i slso dint know if i care anymore ehich should scare me...?

thats unrelated seryy but i havnt tslked much wbtbit to snyone

sorry for bed typingim holding a soda

[Aeoryi she/her]

3 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

idk what mine are tho

'sides there are some other (prolly minor) physicaal health/care things a bit not good rn but idk so idk

i wish i dint hafta think

i think

 

also ive been having awful/violent thoughts and uhm they dint rlly disturb me and they used to..

and sometimes i say them our loud to/around ppl and rhey get kinda concerned and i dont like it and i slso dint know if i care anymore ehich should scare me...?

thats unrelated seryy but i havnt tslked much wbtbit to snyone

well okay just think of like a list

What problems are you facing that interfere with your life, what problems are you worried about becoming worse, and what causes them

so like, for example if you don't eat frequently, that would be a problem, and then the thing that causes it is probably "poor self care" and then you think about what causes that and it could be "I don't feel like I care about my body" and then there's your reason

or something like having violent thoughts, the problem is that they could get worse and you could start acting on them, putting others in harm. The cause is violent thoughts. and the cause of that could be many things but if they sorta appear out of nowhere then it would be "I keep on having these violent thoughts that come from seemingly nowhere and I'm worried that I might act on them someday"

then you present these issues to a professional and ask for advice on how to address or deal with them

[Usseewa ✾ She♡They ✾]

2 minutes ago, Aeoryi said:

well okay just think of like a list

What problems are you facing that interfere with your life, what problems are you worried about becoming worse, and what causes them

so like, for example if you don't eat frequently, that would be a problem, and then the thing that causes it is probably "poor self care" and then you think about what causes that and it could be "I don't feel like I care about my body" and then there's your reason

or something like having violent thoughts, the problem is that they could get worse and you could start acting on them, putting others in harm. The cause is violent thoughts. and the cause of that could be many things but if they sorta appear out of nowhere then it would be "I keep on having these violent thoughts that come from seemingly nowhere and I'm worried that I might act on them someday"

then you present these issues to a professional and ask for advice on how to address or deal with them

i dont rlly uhm have much opportunity to act on things

or i just secretly dont want to and they are fake

 

idk but good idea bye

[Aeoryi she/her]

1 minute ago, Usseewa said:

i dont rlly uhm have much opportunity to act on things

or i just secretly dont want to and they are fake

idk but good idea bye

I wish I could help you more, but I really don't know what to say. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡They ✾]

Just now, Aeoryi said:

I wish I could help you more, but I really don't know what to say. 

its alright

 

ehy am i back

 

uhh luckily most/all the thoughts arent at other peolple but ate at me or "wtrangers" (random faceless ppl i made up, like just situations) or at like..... ..... pets/ppls pets/animals?.... uhh

 

i daydream about doing bad things to myself/having them done to me/having them happen and i cant wait to make them reality

 

but uh i pribably wont im probbly scared like last time

[Aeoryi she/her]

2 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

its alright

 

ehy am i back

 

uhh luckily most/all the thoughts arent at other peolple but ate at me or "wtrangers" (random faceless ppl i made up, like just situations) or at like..... ..... pets/ppls pets/animals?.... uhh

 

i daydream about doing bad things to myself/having them done to me/having them happen and i cant wait to make them reality

 

but uh i pribably wont im probbly scared like last time

wanting to harm yourself or even daydreaming/looking towards it is like, a major red flag. like a "call ems" kinda point. or a hotline. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡They ✾]

Just now, Aeoryi said:

wanting to harm yourself or even daydreaming/looking towards it is like, a major red flag. like a "call ems" kinda point. or a hotline. 

it gives me a rush sometimesss

like agoodfeeling one

 

it doesnt feel disturbing it feels good i dont eanna go thru that wgain tho (hospital/inpatient)

i think im doing it for bad ressons

maybe the ggood feeling feeling is just the stupid me wanting help or reassurance dopamin e crap ppppp

[Aeoryi she/her]

Just now, Usseewa said:

it gives me a rush sometimesss

like agoodfeeling one

it doesnt feel disturbing it feels good i dont eanna go thru that wgain tho (hospital/inpatient)

... you have no idea how concerned I am for your safety rn...

okay well let me ask you this is there anything I can do right now to help you

[Usseewa ✾ She♡They ✾]

 

oh also u dont needa feel pressured to help or anything if u cant or its too much or u dont wanna

cuz thats bad anyway

[Aeoryi she/her]

2 minutes ago, Usseewa said:

 

oh also u dont needa feel pressured to help or anything if u cant or its too much or u dont wanna

cuz thats bad anyway

do you really think that I could see someone like you struggling and just turn around and not care about it? I could never live with knowing I left someone behind. 

[Usseewa ✾ She♡They ✾]

17 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

... you have no idea how concerned I am for your safety rn...

okay well let me ask you this is there anything I can do right now to help you

uhm idk thx

17 hours ago, Aeoryi said:

do you really think that I could see someone like you struggling and just turn around and not care about it? I could never live with knowing I left someone behind. 

idk i dont think im steuggling

eepecially when i feel hapy

 

oh uhm also what it i have the somatofor. thingy and my trans is just fake 

tbh i dont rlly see why my saefty mmatters and the only think i look forward to is hurting myself and stuf

 

edit: ugh i also just feel eereird and cant thinkk of anything like i dont even think about hurting myself like i did last night and its weird cuz like its harder to pocture it and idk idk i get anxiety panic stuff things thinking abt it or having to answer quesitons

idk...

maybe its dependent on time of day or summmin or its just gone or something or nothbing

 

but i srill feel rlly like sick and appetite is awful and thinking of drinking water feels sickening and ive been deinking more like sips like slowly small amounts or just not becuz

 

edit2: god ado when ppl compliment me i feel hotrible and idk i love it and feel horrible and horribly anxious too like eaiting for the bad stuf or sayin the bad stuff to myself or seeing bad stuff in what they say or how its generic or fake or how i dont deserve it or like why cant i accept it or how to act or thank them or like ehy are they saying all this nice stuff when im so ... idk when i wasnt loke that when i was am bad or lame or stupid or foolish or everything or lazy like gah gah gah i know i should accept them and it feels good and bad at once

and thinking of self harm makes me sick now and idk why and i feel conflicted about what to do with my life and naybe i shoukd actually care abt myself and idk idk idk idk idk

 

also @Aeoryi im sorry for all this and actong like this and stuff

 

also when i dont live up to compliments or feel pressure to or isk idk then they expect me good and idk 

Edited July 9 by Usseewa

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