Mental health club!

[MirkerLurker she/her]

oof. Yeah. I'm sorry. *hug*

...I forgot to quote, this is in response to @Heřãłðøfľõvê

Edited May 31, 2025 by MirkerLurker

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

12 minutes ago, MirkerLurker said:

oof. Yeah. I'm sorry. *hug*

...I forgot to quote, this is in response to @Heřãłðøfľõvê

Thx*hug*

[Keke They/he]

7 hours ago, Through The Living Glass said:

bruh

*hugs*

Ik bruh moment *hugs*

7 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

*HUGS* 

im sorry hawks that’s the worst

 

 

ok so um *breaks down crying* my friends aren’t talking to me again bc I lie too much and then today I said something that wasn’t a lie but was instead just a mistake I thought one thing when it wasn’t true I said to a friend we will call Lee that another friend sophia  had sent me a screenshot of some kids, who were also Sophia’s friends but not me and lees bc they are mean, at our school calling Lee a really mean word that I cannot put on the shard. Then Sophia texts me and is like why would you lie abt me? Are you trying to make me look bad and at first I was confused bc like to my knowledge I hadn’t lied and I would never want to make her look bad but it turns out that the message I thought she had sent me was from someone else about someone else but the people who had said the mean thing where the same I had just messed up the other details but now they aren’t talking to me bc this isn’t my first time lying abt Sophia and I have lied before but never maliscously but  she said that doesn’t change that I still said something untrue about her.

if you made sense of that advice might help? Idrk what helps anymore I’ve been talking to my therapist abt lying and stuff but it’s just so ugh… idek what to do. Hugs? Honestly I just want to like die and be reincarnated if that happens so I can do better. 
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Honestly I kinda want to die even if I’m not reincarnated

 

*hugs* nooo dying isn't worth it. 

4 hours ago, MirkerLurker said:

 

...geez. 

*hugs*

Can you ask your parents and psychiatrist about having a joint session? A session (or more) where your parents (maybe one at a time tho...) are there with you, and the psychiatrist helps guide the talk and provide professional commentary? Ask the psychiatrist first though, to see whether they think it would be helpful.

...i mean. we prolly would. soo. I'm amused at this problem.

 

That's tough. *hug*

You didn't mean it. But it did hurt Sophia even though you didn't mean it. 

I think what you can do is apologize - to Sophia and also to Lee - and ask how you can help make it better. Whether they accept it or not is up to them. 

Possible advice to consider - but I don't know your friends, so take it or leave it, as it may not be a good idea.
Know what's really, really hard? Admitting that you lied right when you do it. Say the lie, realize you're supposed to not do that...and immediately, right then, say "Wait. I'm sorry. That wasn't true. This is actually what's true." The person/people you're speaking to will probably still get upset - but they'll also be able to see that you're working on it, and actively trying to get better about not lying. I don't know your friends; that might help them feel better about you. It might not. 

 

 

Oh wait! I came on to link the "off topic mental health" thread that Stormcursed got up and running. It's currently got the religion/subjective truth debate going. Anyone can feel free to pop in, whether to join the debate or just read for fun. 

 

Im going to do that. 

Yeah kidnap me and take me to a better place

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

Ik bruh moment *hugs*

*hugs* nooo dying isn't worth it. 

Im going to do that. 

Yeah kidnap me and take me to a better place

I'd bring you down here but uh....outside of my dojo it's not great down here

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

I'd bring you down here but uh....outside of my dojo it's not great down here

I'll sleep in the dojos walls

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

I'll sleep in the dojos walls

Yes. You can become the uchi deshi

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I probably totally spelled that wrong, i don't actually know how to spell it in English

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Then again, it's not in a language that uses the Arabic alphabet, so....

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Did you click through all of these?

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If you did, you get a hug

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*hug*

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

7 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

*HUGS* 

im sorry hawks that’s the worst

 

 

ok so um *breaks down crying* my friends aren’t talking to me again bc I lie too much and then today I said something that wasn’t a lie but was instead just a mistake I thought one thing when it wasn’t true I said to a friend we will call Lee that another friend sophia  had sent me a screenshot of some kids, who were also Sophia’s friends but not me and lees bc they are mean, at our school calling Lee a really mean word that I cannot put on the shard. Then Sophia texts me and is like why would you lie abt me? Are you trying to make me look bad and at first I was confused bc like to my knowledge I hadn’t lied and I would never want to make her look bad but it turns out that the message I thought she had sent me was from someone else about someone else but the people who had said the mean thing where the same I had just messed up the other details but now they aren’t talking to me bc this isn’t my first time lying abt Sophia and I have lied before but never maliscously but  she said that doesn’t change that I still said something untrue about her.

if you made sense of that advice might help? Idrk what helps anymore I’ve been talking to my therapist abt lying and stuff but it’s just so ugh… idek what to do. Hugs? Honestly I just want to like die and be reincarnated if that happens so I can do better. 
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Please

Please don't die

It won't make things better

I know stuff may seem really hard right now. But that will pass. It will fade. Things will get better.

In this specific scenario, I would just come clean to both friends, make it clear there was a misunderstanding, and ask for forgiveness. And listen to them.

*hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

14 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Ik bruh moment *hugs*

*hugs* nooo dying isn't worth it. 

Im going to do that. 

Yeah kidnap me and take me to a better place

 

3 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Please

Please don't die

It won't make things better

I know stuff may seem really hard right now. But that will pass. It will fade. Things will get better.

In this specific scenario, I would just come clean to both friends, make it clear there was a misunderstanding, and ask for forgiveness. And listen to them.

*hugs*

Ik there’s a part of me that knows dying isn’t worth it and won’t make stuff better but it’s so dang hard sometimes *hugs* thanks hoid slayer I will try that.

 

10 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Yes. You can become the uchi deshi

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thanks for the extra hug

[Keke They/he]

11 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Yes. You can become the uchi deshi

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I probably totally spelled that wrong, i don't actually know how to spell it in English

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*hug*

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yay?

Just now, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

 

Ik there’s a part of me that knows dying isn’t worth it and won’t make stuff better but it’s so dang hard sometimes *hugs* thanks hoid slayer I will try that.

 

thanks for the extra hug

*hugs* yeah

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

13 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yay?

*hugs* yeah

The uchi deshi was just the student who lived at the dojo. It's a little more complicated than that, it was a whole tradition, but basically they'd just clean everything, since that's pretty much all they had to do back then, and use the same attention to detail to improve their techniques.

[Keke They/he]

10 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

The uchi deshi was just the student who lived at the dojo. It's a little more complicated than that, it was a whole tradition, but basically they'd just clean everything, since that's pretty much all they had to do back then, and use the same attention to detail to improve their techniques.

Oh.. ok

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

11 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

The uchi deshi was just the student who lived at the dojo. It's a little more complicated than that, it was a whole tradition, but basically they'd just clean everything, since that's pretty much all they had to do back then, and use the same attention to detail to improve their techniques.

Oh that’s rly cool I didn’t know that.

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

On 5/30/2025 at 9:32 PM, Hawks said:

Why the storm is it so hard to explain emotions. So my dad came over and went to take down my old bed and my room is messy. Now its not as messy as it has been in the past but it could be better and I've tried to do it but as previously stated im dead and trying my best to survive rn. That's not an excuse ik but. Anyways my dad gets there and texts my mom like hey you should have had him take down his bed and she goes I did then my mom tells me. "You should have cleaned your room when I told you to." Thenni try saying that when I get home from school im dead snd- then she goes "you want a day to relax but you never do anytjing when you get home from school. And your dad says you can sleep on the floor till you get your room cleaned because hes not going to do musical chairs with the mess." And she says that i disappointed my dad and im trying to keep my rust together

She just glady suggested that I can temporarily move said "mess" (its not that messy) to her room so my dad can set up the bed and I xont have to force myself to do anything right now.

Im thinking of writing a note to my parents with all my emotions in it since i cant verbalize anything. 

*hugs* its ok I just need support.

 

On 5/31/2025 at 4:54 AM, Hawks said:

*hugs*

 

Uh well I sent a note. And uhm..... my dad has yet to mention anything about it. My mom said that maybe we should increase my antidepressants and get a family session in councilor. Im kinda scared and I kinda need hugs. Rn. 

 

On 5/31/2025 at 5:46 AM, Hawks said:

*hugs*

We will.besides im on the lowest dose and even the doctor was like so you wanna go higher and my dumbass said no.

Kk

 

 

Ok sorry for the spam posting my ibe had a roller coaster of emotions. 

After crying at the party bc im just sick of my family and them all being awesome and hugs and hand holding and everything and scream singing karaoke. I get picked up and when my dad saying good night and he goes. I have no problem calling you Hawks bc its a nickname. Then when he leaves he says goodnight Hawks and closes the door. 

Ahahhahaahahahah *cries bc life*

 

On 5/31/2025 at 6:23 PM, Hawks said:

*hugs*

*hugs*

 

Eh well that went poorly....... I had a panic attack and spent the night in a psychiatric hold at the hospital and was just discharged. To say the least my parents hate being trans and the new revelation of alterhuman. And I was forcibly talked to about how im wrong and living in a delusion and disassociating and when I talked to the psychiatrist she said that she doesnt see any of that. I domt want to live at my house anymore. Damn I just want to live with my friends. Speaking of, they blame my friends for 'making' me this way and that im just trying to fit in. 

*covers you in hugs*

I'm so sorry dude

I hope things can get better eventually

Do you think that you could get the psychiatrist to talk with your parents? After all, they implicitly trust her judgment if they take you to her. So if you tell her what you've got on your heart, maybe... i dont know, they would understand whats actually happening and change their mind somewhat

That's a fine line to walk but i dont really see many other options

 

and also re: the antidepressants thing

My experience was that... imo antidepressants are mostly a crutch. That's certainly a good thing to have! It helps you keeping a somewhat normal life through what would be a really disabling injury otherwise, and to fullfill some of your obligations

But a crutch never healed anyone

That's not what they're made for

What actually heals is time, rest, care, and no more blows on the injury

The real role of the crutch is to help you to survive and live until the healing is done

But if you can't secure conditions to heal... then all the crutch will do is hide the extent of the damage to the others

until it can't 

On 5/31/2025 at 8:35 PM, Hawks said:

*hugs*

Thanks

*hugssss* 

 

Oh and my mom is convinced that yall are actually planning on kidnapping me.... so I cant meet anyone until dragonsteel. Valid concern tho so just FYI. 

17 hours ago, Hawks said:

Ik bruh moment *hugs*

*hugs* nooo dying isn't worth it. 

Im going to do that. 

Yeah kidnap me and take me to a better place

I mean, I wouldn't be against that

On 5/31/2025 at 9:23 PM, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

*HUGS* 

im sorry hawks that’s the worst

 

 

ok so um *breaks down crying* my friends aren’t talking to me again bc I lie too much and then today I said something that wasn’t a lie but was instead just a mistake I thought one thing when it wasn’t true I said to a friend we will call Lee that another friend sophia  had sent me a screenshot of some kids, who were also Sophia’s friends but not me and lees bc they are mean, at our school calling Lee a really mean word that I cannot put on the shard. Then Sophia texts me and is like why would you lie abt me? Are you trying to make me look bad and at first I was confused bc like to my knowledge I hadn’t lied and I would never want to make her look bad but it turns out that the message I thought she had sent me was from someone else about someone else but the people who had said the mean thing where the same I had just messed up the other details but now they aren’t talking to me bc this isn’t my first time lying abt Sophia and I have lied before but never maliscously but  she said that doesn’t change that I still said something untrue about her.

if you made sense of that advice might help? Idrk what helps anymore I’ve been talking to my therapist abt lying and stuff but it’s just so ugh… idek what to do. Hugs? Honestly I just want to like die and be reincarnated if that happens so I can do better. 
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*hugs all the way*

I don't have much to add to what Mirker said. Talk to them honestly, apologize, and hope they understand.

They might still be angry at you for some time, but hopefully they'll eventually come to their senses and realize you just messed up and never meant to do harm

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, Just A Silvereye said:

 

 

 

*covers you in hugs*

I'm so sorry dude

I hope things can get better eventually

Do you think that you could get the psychiatrist to talk with your parents? After all, they implicitly trust her judgment if they take you to her. So if you tell her what you've got on your heart, maybe... i dont know, they would understand whats actually happening and change their mind somewhat

That's a fine line to walk but i dont really see many other options

 

and also re: the antidepressants thing

My experience was that... imo antidepressants are mostly a crutch. That's certainly a good thing to have! It helps you keeping a somewhat normal life through what would be a really disabling injury otherwise, and to fullfill some of your obligations

But a crutch never healed anyone

That's not what they're made for

What actually heals is time, rest, care, and no more blows on the injury

The real role of the crutch is to help you to survive and live until the healing is done

But if you can't secure conditions to heal... then all the crutch will do is hide the extent of the damage to the others

until it can't 

I mean, I wouldn't be against that

*hugs all the way*

I don't have much to add to what Mirker said. Talk to them honestly, apologize, and hope they understand.

They might still be angry at you for some time, but hopefully they'll eventually come to their senses and realize you just messed up and never meant to do harm

*hugs* I am going to talk to my counselor then take my parents in during one of my sessions. *hugs* thanks silver

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

3 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs* I am going to talk to my counselor then take my parents in during one of my sessions. *hugs* thanks silver

*hugs back*

Great

Hope it can happen soon

And hope it works

*hugs even more*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

What do I have to do to be able to feel? Like I just numb all my emotions most of the time to get away from them because anytime I show my emotions I get yelled at or figuratively burned, so I just lock them all up and slap on the mask. Like why can't I just be able to feel how I feel, without being told that I'm wrong?

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

37 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

What do I have to do to be able to feel? Like I just numb all my emotions most of the time to get away from them because anytime I show my emotions I get yelled at or figuratively burned, so I just lock them all up and slap on the mask. Like why can't I just be able to feel how I feel, without being told that I'm wrong?

*hugs* 

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

2 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

What do I have to do to be able to feel? Like I just numb all my emotions most of the time to get away from them because anytime I show my emotions I get yelled at or figuratively burned, so I just lock them all up and slap on the mask. Like why can't I just be able to feel how I feel, without being told that I'm wrong?

*huuuggggggssss*

I... dont really know

But I can promise you, you're not wrong to feel what you feel 

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

This isn’t rly important or anything but the logo for the shard being gay reminded me

So I have not come out to my parents mostly bc I’m not sure what I am but they’ve always made it clear they’re accepting of whatever I am and so today my friend asked if I wanted to go to pride w them and I said yes (duh) and asked my parents and they said yessssss which makes me happy and my friends letting me borrow her pride shirt from last year and it’s gonna be so fun and I’m rly excited.  

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

23 hours ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

What do I have to do to be able to feel? Like I just numb all my emotions most of the time to get away from them because anytime I show my emotions I get yelled at or figuratively burned, so I just lock them all up and slap on the mask. Like why can't I just be able to feel how I feel, without being told that I'm wrong?

Oof

Masking, eh?

I feel you

Your feelings aren't wrong, though

Sometimes our society makes us think they are, tries to force us to conform. Or not even conform; to all participate in a grand, shared lie. I don't really know how to help you, but I offer my support.

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

20 hours ago, Just A Silvereye said:

*huuuggggggssss*

I... dont really know

But I can promise you, you're not wrong to feel what you feel 

Just now, Hoid Slayer said:

Oof

Masking, eh?

I feel you

Your feelings aren't wrong, though

Sometimes our society makes us think they are, tries to force us to conform. Or not even conform; to all participate in a grand, shared lie. I don't really know how to help you, but I offer my support.

Thanks guys. That actually means a lot

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

Thanks guys. That actually means a lot

*huuuuuuuuuuug*

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*huuuuuuuuuuug*

*hugs back*

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

1 minute ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs back*

*joins group hug*

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Kaladin Stormcursed said:

*hugs back*

Do you need anything?

*squishes*