Mental health club!

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

2 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

I’ve gotten nothing done today

Not that I know of 

You’re telling me to keep putting myself through hell just for the people around me

you realize that, right?

No

He's telling you to keep going

Because things might be bad right now, but they'll get better

And it's worth it to stick around

Even though you feel like this today

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

3 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

I’ve gotten nothing done today

Not that I know of 

You’re telling me to keep putting myself through hell just for the people around me

you realize that, right?

 

Just now, Spark of Hope said:

Haly, you are strong, and things will get better. Just because a puzzle piece can’t find its place on its own doesn’t make it useless. Missing one piece makes the whole puzzle so much worse 

I mean, it’s a legitimate argument, but when that and religion are really the only arguments, I really start wondering 

And of course “things will get better”

I hope they will but they never seem to and I’m tired of being me and waiting for things to get better 

1 minute ago, Through The Living Glass said:

No

He's telling you to keep going

Because things might be bad right now, but they'll get better

And it's worth it to stick around

Even though you feel like this today

Is it 

is it worth it

i have such a hard time believing that 

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Bird Furious said:

 

I mean, it’s a legitimate argument, but when that and religion are really the only arguments, I really start wondering 

And of course “things will get better”

I hope they will but they never seem to and I’m tired of being me and waiting for things to get better 

Is it 

is it worth it

i have such a hard time believing that 

You might be in the middle of a hurricane right now. But you need rain to have a rainbow 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 minute ago, Bird Furious said:

 

I mean, it’s a legitimate argument, but when that and religion are really the only arguments, I really start wondering 

And of course “things will get better”

I hope they will but they never seem to and I’m tired of being me and waiting for things to get better 

Is it 

is it worth it

i have such a hard time believing that 

It is

It really is

Maybe you do now, but later you won't

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

18 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

You might be in the middle of a hurricane right now. But you need rain to have a rainbow 

 

18 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

It is

It really is

Maybe you do now, but later you won't

I don’t freaking care about rainbows

i never appreciate them when I have them anyway which yes is a character flaw I’m working on but I am never going to be happy. I’m positive I’m never gonna be happy. 

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

3 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hey

yeah i'm here

xuvoicyxbviuweasfkdjhgaa;ljsdfeq 

i'm very useless

stayed up until 12 am mostly to punish myself for not doing important things all day and wrote 1000 words and finished the rough draft but I feel bad because one of my sons stayed up with me but I feel awful about that because what kind of fake mother lets her son do that when he has to wake up super early to go to work 

;adfsioj and then I always tell everyone I'd never actually commit but I find myself angry at that fact and I try and hold my breath until I black out and then I'm mad when I don't have the willpower and I also find myself at twelve with a headache having eaten or drank nothing and I wonder how long I could go before I eat something but I guess i'm not close enough because I always end up eating something 

I'm just tired

I've done nothing today

I freaking hate myself 

I want a speeding semi truck for my birthday 

*hugs*

You aren't useless. If someone stays up with you it's because they want to be there for you. Don't lessen that by making it a problem that is your fault; it is a kind act from another person. Let him have helped, don't make it your fault.

I get that feeling, that you are worthless and a drain on the people around you because they do things for you that will make their life a little harder. But having been on both ends of that situation, no one does that, stays up with you, talks with you, sacrifices their time and comfort for no reason, or for no worth. They do it cause they care. Take that. Take what people have given or offered you. Even if it feels selfish, even if it feels like you are draining even more from them. 

I can't speak for all people, but I know that for me and a few others, it helps us to help others. I don't stay up all night with a friend because I "have to" like homework. I stay up because I love that person and am grateful that they trust me and allow me to support them. For me, it's also part of fulfilling my oaths. 

3 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

;adfsioj and then I always tell everyone I'd never actually commit but I find myself angry at that fact and I try and hold my breath until I black out and then I'm mad when I don't have the willpower and I also find myself at twelve with a headache having eaten or drank nothing and I wonder how long I could go before I eat something but I guess i'm not close enough because I always end up eating something 

oh Haly. *hugs*

I understand that too. That feeling of not wanting to be alive, but feeling you don't have even enough will power, enough self-discipline to even kill yourself. 

Then you feel utterly useless, and you can't even be useful enough to remove yourself and make everyone else's lives easier. 

I'm sorry. I hate that feeling. 

Not having that "willpower" is not a bad thing. It is in fact that last dim flickering bit of strength you have to stay alive, and stay here, even though it is hard, and awful, and hurts, and doesn't seem to be worth living in.

 

 

 

*hugs* I'm sorry.

Haly, not every day will be sunshine. Many days, it will feel like most, will be dark, and rain, and sadness. 

But you will be warm again. Remember that.

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

1 minute ago, KnightSkye said:

*hugs*

You aren't useless. If someone stays up with you it's because they want to be there for you. Don't lessen that by making it a problem that is your fault; it is a kind act from another person. Let him have helped, don't make it your fault.

I get that feeling, that you are worthless and a drain on the people around you because they do things for you that will make their life a little harder. But having been on both ends of that situation, no one does that, stays up with you, talks with you, sacrifices their time and comfort for no reason, or for no worth. They do it cause they care. Take that. Take what people have given or offered you. Even if it feels selfish, even if it feels like you are draining even more from them. 

I can't speak for all people, but I know that for me and a few others, it helps us to help others. I don't stay up all night with a friend because I "have to" like homework. I stay up because I love that person and am grateful that they trust me and allow me to support them. For me, it's also part of fulfilling my oaths. 

oh Haly. *hugs*

I understand that too. That feeling of not wanting to be alive, but feeling you don't have even enough will power, enough self-discipline to even kill yourself. 

Then you feel utterly useless, and you can't even be useful enough to remove yourself and make everyone else's lives easier. 

I'm sorry. I hate that feeling. 

Not having that "willpower" is not a bad thing. It is in fact that last dim flickering bit of strength you have to stay alive, and stay here, even though it is hard, and awful, and hurts, and doesn't seem to be worth living in.

 

 

 

*hugs* I'm sorry.

Haly, not every day will be sunshine. Many days, it will feel like most, will be dark, and rain, and sadness. 

But you will be warm again. Remember that.

Me too

i like helping people

but I’m just legitimately not worth that

 

in my head I know it’s a good thing

but I just really would like to be done existing some days 

 

But I won’t

 I won’t be warm again

 even if I am I’ll just ignore it until the cold comes back because I can’t seem to register happiness for some reason 

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

31 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

I’ve gotten nothing done today

Not that I know of 

You’re telling me to keep putting myself through hell just for the people around me

you realize that, right?

Well

I mean

a little...

Spoiler

Honestly, I don't know

I'm not in a good place right now either

At all

I need help, and from the sound of this, so do you

But isn't it nice to imagine being something better?

To imagine who you could be?

I don't know how to word this rn

but I guess

You're not just putting yourself through hell for the people around you. You're doing it for yourself too. Or at least, I hope so

 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

6 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

I don’t freaking care about rainbows

i never appreciate them when I have them anyway which yes is a character flaw I’m working on but I am never going to be happy. I’m positive I’m never gonna be happy. 

2 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Me too

i like helping people

but I’m just legitimately not worth that

 

in my head I know it’s a good thing

but I just really would like to be done existing some days 

 

But I won’t

 I won’t be warm again

 even if I am I’ll just ignore it until the cold comes back because I can’t seem to register happiness for some reason 

But you will

You really will

I wish I could offer more but Haly, I promise you it will get better

*hug*

Just now, Hoid Slayer said:

Well

I mean

a little...

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Honestly, I don't know

I'm not in a good place right now either

At all

I need help, and from the sound of this, so do you

But isn't it nice to imagine being something better?

To imagine who you could be?

I don't know how to word this rn

but I guess

You're not just putting yourself through hell for the people around you. You're doing it for yourself too. Or at least, I hope so

 

*hugs also*

[Through the Living Hope]

32 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

 

I don’t freaking care about rainbows

i never appreciate them when I have them anyway which yes is a character flaw I’m working on but I am never going to be happy. I’m positive I’m never gonna be happy. 

I just mean

Life sucks. But things get better and there’s good in everything 

[Keke They/he]

5 hours ago, Heřãłðøfľõvê said:

*hugs* I’m sorry *hugs* we love you forever and always no matter what

*higs* thanks

4 hours ago, Bird Furious said:

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hey

yeah i'm here

xuvoicyxbviuweasfkdjhgaa;ljsdfeq 

i'm very useless

stayed up until 12 am mostly to punish myself for not doing important things all day and wrote 1000 words and finished the rough draft but I feel bad because one of my sons stayed up with me but I feel awful about that because what kind of fake mother lets her son do that when he has to wake up super early to go to work 

;adfsioj and then I always tell everyone I'd never actually commit but I find myself angry at that fact and I try and hold my breath until I black out and then I'm mad when I don't have the willpower and I also find myself at twelve with a headache having eaten or drank nothing and I wonder how long I could go before I eat something but I guess i'm not close enough because I always end up eating something 

I'm just tired

I've done nothing today

I freaking hate myself 

I want a speeding semi truck for my birthday 

Hallyyyy your awesome ok? Dont forget that ever. Though your probably going to deny deny deny, but it doesnt change the fact that its true. Sometimes we dont do anytbing snd that's ok. 

4 hours ago, Mag said:

thanks!

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DOn't welcome me I'm not diagnosed . . . it might just be the (also undiagnosed) mental illness . . .

undiagnosed! Yay! Join my club!

1 hour ago, Bird Furious said:

I’m very useless

No your not. I cant name one example of a time you were useless. You have been very very helpful throught my entire time here on the shard

55 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

I’ve gotten nothing done today

Not that I know of 

You’re telling me to keep putting myself through hell just for the people around me

you realize that, right?

No.

Sometimes life can be hell snd it sucks but geuss what. It doesnt stay forever. 

51 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

No

He's telling you to keep going

Because things might be bad right now, but they'll get better

And it's worth it to stick around

Even though you feel like this today

Yes. This 

50 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

 

I mean, it’s a legitimate argument, but when that and religion are really the only arguments, I really start wondering 

And of course “things will get better”

I hope they will but they never seem to and I’m tired of being me and waiting for things to get better 

Is it 

is it worth it

i have such a hard time believing that 

It is worth it. All of it. Because I swear haly. It takes time. Snd it can seem like its never ending and just a parrelel of pain and misery but it gets better. And though time cab drag out. 

29 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

 

I don’t freaking care about rainbows

i never appreciate them when I have them anyway which yes is a character flaw I’m working on but I am never going to be happy. I’m positive I’m never gonna be happy. 

And im positive that statement is incorrect. 

Again life can be hell but if you hunt the good stuff, or look for little details that aren't bad then it makes it alot easier. 

29 minutes ago, KnightSkye said:

*hugs*

You aren't useless. If someone stays up with you it's because they want to be there for you. Don't lessen that by making it a problem that is your fault; it is a kind act from another person. Let him have helped, don't make it your fault.

I get that feeling, that you are worthless and a drain on the people around you because they do things for you that will make their life a little harder. But having been on both ends of that situation, no one does that, stays up with you, talks with you, sacrifices their time and comfort for no reason, or for no worth. They do it cause they care. Take that. Take what people have given or offered you. Even if it feels selfish, even if it feels like you are draining even more from them. 

I can't speak for all people, but I know that for me and a few others, it helps us to help others. I don't stay up all night with a friend because I "have to" like homework. I stay up because I love that person and am grateful that they trust me and allow me to support them. For me, it's also part of fulfilling my oaths. 

oh Haly. *hugs*

I understand that too. That feeling of not wanting to be alive, but feeling you don't have even enough will power, enough self-discipline to even kill yourself. 

Then you feel utterly useless, and you can't even be useful enough to remove yourself and make everyone else's lives easier. 

I'm sorry. I hate that feeling. 

Not having that "willpower" is not a bad thing. It is in fact that last dim flickering bit of strength you have to stay alive, and stay here, even though it is hard, and awful, and hurts, and doesn't seem to be worth living in.

 

 

 

*hugs* I'm sorry.

Haly, not every day will be sunshine. Many days, it will feel like most, will be dark, and rain, and sadness. 

But you will be warm again. Remember that.

Yes all of this haly. @Bird Furious

All of it.

And besides. Its not that yiu dint have willpower to end your life its that your strong enough to keep on trying. 

25 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Me too

i like helping people

but I’m just legitimately not worth that

 

in my head I know it’s a good thing

but I just really would like to be done existing some days 

 

But I won’t

 I won’t be warm again

 even if I am I’ll just ignore it until the cold comes back because I can’t seem to register happiness for some reason 

*hugs* its ok. It takes time. And i say that alot and it seems never ending but just hold it out please haly

21 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Well

I mean

a little...

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Honestly, I don't know

I'm not in a good place right now either

At all

I need help, and from the sound of this, so do you

But isn't it nice to imagine being something better?

To imagine who you could be?

I don't know how to word this rn

but I guess

You're not just putting yourself through hell for the people around you. You're doing it for yourself too. Or at least, I hope so

 

*hugs*

 

And haly. Being able to help someone is a talent on its own. 

Whenever you think you csnt do snytbing know you did. You help people. You helped me. You helped all these people snd dont downgrade anytbing. Even small things because when it all adds up the smallest moments are going to be the most cherished. 

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

1 hour ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Well

I mean

a little...

  Reveal hidden contents

Honestly, I don't know

I'm not in a good place right now either

At all

I need help, and from the sound of this, so do you

But isn't it nice to imagine being something better?

To imagine who you could be?

I don't know how to word this rn

but I guess

You're not just putting yourself through hell for the people around you. You're doing it for yourself too. Or at least, I hope so

 

*hugs* Hey feel free to PM me ok? 

And... I'm not doing it for me right now. Not at all. But I want to. 

1 hour ago, Through The Living Glass said:

But you will

You really will

I wish I could offer more but Haly, I promise you it will get better

*hug*

*hugs also*

*hugs*

41 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

I just mean

Life sucks. But things get better and there’s good in everything 

I wish I could appreciate it more 

34 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*higs* thanks

Hallyyyy your awesome ok? Dont forget that ever. Though your probably going to deny deny deny, but it doesnt change the fact that its true. Sometimes we dont do anytbing snd that's ok. 

undiagnosed! Yay! Join my club!

No your not. I cant name one example of a time you were useless. You have been very very helpful throught my entire time here on the shard

No.

Sometimes life can be hell snd it sucks but geuss what. It doesnt stay forever. 

Yes. This 

It is worth it. All of it. Because I swear haly. It takes time. Snd it can seem like its never ending and just a parrelel of pain and misery but it gets better. And though time cab drag out. 

And im positive that statement is incorrect. 

Again life can be hell but if you hunt the good stuff, or look for little details that aren't bad then it makes it alot easier. 

Yes all of this haly. @Bird Furious

All of it.

And besides. Its not that yiu dint have willpower to end your life its that your strong enough to keep on trying. 

*hugs* its ok. It takes time. And i say that alot and it seems never ending but just hold it out please haly

*hugs*

 

And haly. Being able to help someone is a talent on its own. 

Whenever you think you csnt do snytbing know you did. You help people. You helped me. You helped all these people snd dont downgrade anytbing. Even small things because when it all adds up the smallest moments are going to be the most cherished. 

Thank you

*hugs 

[Keke They/he]

2 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

*hugs* Hey feel free to PM me ok? 

And... I'm not doing it for me right now. Not at all. But I want to. 

*hugs*

I wish I could appreciate it more 

Thank you

*hugs 

*hugs* here for you always 

[Through the Living Hope]

8 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

*hugs* Hey feel free to PM me ok? 

And... I'm not doing it for me right now. Not at all. But I want to. 

*hugs*

I wish I could appreciate it more 

Thank you

*hugs 

I’m here for you too

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

9 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

*hugs* Hey feel free to PM me ok? 

And... I'm not doing it for me right now. Not at all. But I want to. 

*hugs*

I wish I could appreciate it more 

Thank you

*hugs 

Same here.

[Bird Furious she/her/un/important]

8 minutes ago, Hawks said:

*hugs* here for you always 

3 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

I’m here for you too

2 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

Same here.

Thanks guys 

sorry about all that 

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Bird Furious said:

Thanks guys 

sorry about all that 

DONT APOLOGIZE

Your ok

[Through the Living Hope]

1 minute ago, Bird Furious said:

Thanks guys 

sorry about all that 

Don’t be sorry about how you feel. We love you and we’re here for you 

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

12 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Thanks guys 

sorry about all that 

Don't apologize

We get it, and we love you

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

34 minutes ago, Bird Furious said:

Thanks guys 

sorry about all that 

Don’t apologize you don’t have to feel bad abt talking abt what’s important to you.

[Keke They/he]

Ok so I learned something

Energy drinks go brrr 

Make brain focus

And make brain fast

But also make energetic. So my friends banned me from them because i wont shut up. 

Talk fasstttrrr go zooooooom

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Hawks said:

Ok so I learned something

Energy drinks go brrr 

Make brain focus

And make brain fast

But also make energetic. So my friends banned me from them because i wont shut up. 

Talk fasstttrrr go zooooooom

More espresso less depresso

[Keke They/he]

Just now, Spark of Hope said:

More espresso less depresso

ABDND ITS 200 MG

BUT SINCE ME SMALLLL

IT DOUBLE CAYSE IM SMOL

SO MORE

HAGAGAGGAGWHE

EYEYYAHA

ENENERGYYY

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

11 minutes ago, Spark of Hope said:

More espresso less depresso

You too

*hugs*

[Through the Living Hope]

Just now, Through The Living Glass said:

You too

*hugs*

I was more angry and annoyed than sad