Usseewa

thank you.. thank you you're not bad though... like... yk. lives are different, and some are better or worse in different ways. we can make our own lives better. or try. it's okay to envy, but don't stay static. also my shoes are crap at least what i wore today

ig.. i can't wait to... get away...

mhm i just needa calm down ig..

blasting music to hopefully escape

just gave myself some new scratches god i hate this

I've never had that. I desperately want it. ugh oh ado help me

I wish I could do that more. It's basically heaven. I love it. That's probably part of why I stay up so late sometimes; I love the night. I love when I go outside after being in hell and it's so cool and refreshing

ugh i got deadnamed like 5 or more times in the last hour ugh by someone i came out to sure, they were........... but still and ugh now i know what it feels like. it's like a reminder of that...old self. that thing you thought you'd forgot, thought everyone had.

why offline? college blocks shard? ez fix: cellular data anyway... have a good life. hope u do well and enjoy yourself you know @Through The Living Grass I love being out in the cold night/evening air... if only i could stay there longer before entering the unwelcome heat again..

yes true at least you're moving out soon, right? that's a hope

i didn't say catharsis sucks just this. life sometimes.

Idk i guess it just sucks maybe i shouldn't dwell on it act like them and ignore it pretend like im happy fake it till you make it pretend they didn't make we want to get the hell out of dodge and just sleep ok the cold street or something. would've been fun to. ive been gritting/grinding my teeth more i never really did it and when i hold my phone i scratch my fingers with the other fingers you think im just blowing this up to be something it isn't? getting so ... feeling so crappy and then whatever?

no not work stress other stress people stressful situation i wrote a poem about a similar one a few weeks ago ugh and what's maybe worse is when it just goes back to normal

I'm not doing it anymore but i was i was so tense but I'm slightly better but tense it's more very stressed "fidgeting"

no that's not why. it's that i just can't so tense

yes.. I'll be fine.. doesn't make hell any better any my legs are probably red from scratching them a lot i can feel the redness

WWIII

because idk.. whatever sigh okay yes. it's just that these things happen times multiple

just... something but it's stressful and stupid and i don't like it

1945

yeah... I got some rn.. ... but I'll not be able to finish for a bit probably..

this sucks life this situation

IM WRITING SOMETHING RN

1939!

DEPRESSION (because he basically feels like living crem)