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maybe im misunderstanding but arent puberty blockers to, like, pause/delay puberty? and by the time ur 18 hasn't puberty basically ended? so what's the use of blockers after puberty has ended? oh, t blockers. idk what those are also they may've just stopped u even so. edit: wait i think im dumb

Wait why would u use blockers if ur out of puberty? unless i misunderstand them..that doesn't make much sense

oof i hate those usually they only last a couple mins :3 like maybe 10 idk

lol maybe you'd have to know me

jus read it it wasnt rlly much idk

ewww ye. (tho not all guys. probably.) ig if ur not lesbian/bi/pan then they're ur only option

lol fr same

Hey, nice to meet you! Momadrac's pretty cool, yah. Do u have a specific book in mind that ur gonna read next?

Hai!! I see ur a friend of Momadrac! Hru? What "flavor of gay" are you?

Oh, cool! You might've mentioned it before, idk. Rlly? Idk, maybe the first two?

It got moved to the Forum Games and Random Stuff (FGaRS) subforum, I believe, where it is okay to necro (post on old threads). As Qian said, however, you usually shouldn't (with some exceptions, such as FGaRS). Okay, so I'm pretty sure this thread was not in Forum Games. It was in the wrong subforum, I believe Stormlight Archive or something. So, yeah it was fine. I saw Chaos (the owner of the site) move it a few days back after you made your post.

are in in the states? maybe look up some places that aren't homophobic. like, states with pro-lgbtq+ laws and trans protection and stuff. there's probably some. also if u have rlly good friends, can u come out to them? what's the progress on MML? edit again: guys i've identified major cause of doubt, I think: I don't feel "official" or "valid." Like, I don't feel like I am allowed to use the title/label of being trans, for some reason. Like I feel less real than others. Everyone else is like "oh yeah, I'm queer. I'm this. Yah."

is ur family... open to moving? is that a possibility at all?

oh, that sucks

why not? worried abt bullies? parents? (minor spoiler for Mimosa Confessions. "Minor" in that it happens pretty early in the book.) Have you watched the show "First Day"? It's short, kinda. Abt a trans girl in high school i think. live-action.

Ok. The reason for the odd title and thumbnail is because I'm gonna start keeping the after-midnight writing separate from the daytime ones. I wrote these after midnight last night, which was technically today, but that's just confusing. Plus, I want to post them now, but also might write more today, and then would have to go back and edit to add them. So it makes sense, right? Also the reason for "22?" is because it works I guess and still fits alphabetically between .../22 and .../23. So yup. Memory of a Memory I have a memory… of a memory. I can’t remember what I felt, Only what I remember feeling. I can’t remember the moments, Just remembering them. I remember remembering, As these tears streak down my cheeks. I don’t know why, But they do. Why can’t I remember? I find it hazy. A confused tangle. The only thing that is clear, Or clearer, Is what I know I remembered. I remember remembering. I remember knowing. And so some things are clearer To me. The only link to them being, A memory of a memory. While others are lost in the fog, Behind tangled vines, Buried under years of nature’s touch. When I try to think of them, I can’t. My mind starts to race in circles, Tripping over itself, Disturbing the fog, Allowing brief glimpses, Or hints, Where I can almost grasp it, But it’s just out of reach. And this is why, I rely, On memories, Of memories, Of my life. Tears Why do I cry? And why do I not? Why do tears form, In moments like these? Moments of expression? Moments of connection? And why am I not sad? When they do? What are tears? These beautiful droplets. It feels great, you know. The wet tears emerging, To follow a path down my cheek, And onto my pillow. Why do I like tears? Is it because I want to feel? And they let me? Or convince me I do? Why do I want to cry? Why do I want tears? Why do I want fears? Why do I want comfort? To provide it? I want to comfort her, And be comforted. I want to exchange tears, Exchange fears, Exchange our doubts, And feel. I want to Be able To love? What I want, I don’t know anymore. Who I want, I haven’t a clue, anymore. And here I am again, Up late again, Laying here in bed, Tears dried, Tired. I am tired, Right now. But not always. Sometimes I want more. No, always. I don’t have what I want. Eyes wet once again. I wish I had what I want—something still unclear. I wish life were comfortable, I wish I was like any other. I wish I could just start over, correctly this time. I wish the button were here, now. I wish I could just…be happy. Why must so much be wrong, In my head. Why must I be like this? I wish I could be like that. Like her. Why must my life have been so…different. So unfortunate, no matter what you say. Now I am more certain than ever; I would do it. I would, if such an opportunity existed. I would do it without hesitation. But alas, I am stuck in this state. For now. I mentally let out an anguished cry: Why must life be so unfair? Why must we be forced to live unhappy for decades? And was that even living? Have I lived? And how will I live in the future? I missed out on so much. I haven’t had a life until but weeks ago. And even now, not completely. I wish I could start over. I wish I could have had a better life. I wish I could have lived. But alas, wishes are no use, are they? For we cannot change the past, But we may influence the future. Our future. Our life. We can live. I can live. I can have what I lost, perhaps. If only somewhat. I love crying while writing poems. - Lily

that sucks, girl can u at least try transitioning in other ways? Also guys i haven't finished but here's a good book, with the main character being friends with a trans girl. It's a "light novel," which idk what that means. seems basically like a manga but as a book lol. i mean, it's set in a rural/backwater japan town in a high school. the trans char. has to deal with a bunch of bullying and stuff too. "The Mimosa Confessions" (And it's part of a series, I think. So if u read it and like it, there are more.)

Better Person Sometimes you just have to suck it up, And be the better person. Sometimes you just have to realize, That your feelings don’t matter. Sometimes you just need to see, That you don’t need to argue. You don’t need to complain, You can just do it, And enjoy it, Enjoy helping others. Deeper Understanding You know when you really get someone? When they say something, And are ridiculed? Dismissed? Silenced? Ignored? Misunderstood? When the true meaning of their words, Goes unheard? But you know what they are feeling, What they mean. You know where they are coming from. Perhaps it’s because you’ve been there, Or simply understand. Perhaps it’s because you spend your life observing; Silent but watching. They think you’re just daydreaming, Spacing out, Bored. Truth is: You can’t help but absorb and listen. And so you understand, when others don’t. You feel what they do, or at least know it. You know what they are thinking, even if they themselves don’t. Not in that way. It takes someone like you to see it. To see the layers. To see beyond the surface. To pick up on it. To read between the lines. To understand the mind. It takes one who’s lived it, too. - Lily

should or shouldn't? edit: or do you mean "although you should be doing it, you won't make any progress."

Yorp. idk iv'e never tried voice trainingg. also guysssssssssss i still have some lingering doubts but...u should've seen me last night i was basically soaking my pillow with tears lol and was like "i would press the button 100%. i wish i could just have been born a girl. i wish so bad." so basically zero doubts then, but now it's day and idk anymore?

uhmm... what's with all the diacritics? śḿĺ i think u could. have u done voice training much?