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Care to elaborate? (Not offended, the opposite actually, but i'm just wondering what gave off the vibes Alright, so, me and her, how did it happen, you ask? Well, funny story actually. Of course, the Secret Operation happened. (search for it in this thread if you're unfamiliar, basically it was her coming out as trans to me) She announces that she's begun a new operation. One named [REDACTED ACRONYM]. (I'll explain why it's redacted later). Now, I already suspect that she has a crush on me, and that this is what this operation is about. But I'm not completely sure. I have reason to believe that the acronym is some acronym in German, but I'm unsure as to what. Eventually, she starts mentioning a random organization. It seemed related to the operation, but I wasn't sure how. One night, she texts me that she's reading the Wikipedia page for that organization. I decided to check it, and I used Ctrl+F to check if my name was on there. Sure enough, there was a link that was an acronym that was my name. (I might be being really confusing in this syntax, but I just want to keep my name private) I ask her about it, and she actually lies, claiming it's a coincidence. She says she was nervous. But eventually, she confesses that she lied at some point to throw me off. I suspected it was this, so I clicked on the wiki link. I then copy-pasted the acronym into Google translate into German. And wouldn't you know it, the acronym now, instead of my name, spelled [REDACTED ACRONYM]. At this point, my theory of her having a crush on me has been pretty much confirmed, and I spent the entire night thinking about how I should respond. But, in the morning, I decided that I wanted to be partners with her. And now we're super gay for each other :3 This all happened January 23-24th btw.
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Alright, for everyone who missed what I've been getting at the entire time Me and @certifiedcranedriver are girlfriends now. It's peak. I'll tell you more about how it happened when I have more time.
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Read :3s for further understanding
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The subtext? :3
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Oh well uh, I just kinda thought y'all would react more to that. Also there's more subtext actually.
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Ugh, unfortunately, as someone who has been lucky to the point of me being guilty about it with supportive environments, I don't have much advice. Best bet is (sadly) probably waiting until you're not a minor. There are ways to get estrogen outside of a medical setting, which are legal I think (it's a little confusing), but I know next to nothing about them.
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Uh it's nice that you all like the poem but did any of you get the subtext? What it's about?
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Heya, guess who just wrote a second poem in a week! (It's me, if that wasn't clear)
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I mean, logically it can't be anything else? You enjoy transition, and it literally has the word trans in the name. Well when I experience something like that, I usually set my brain halves up in discussion, and I try to convince the uncooperative part. Cause the thing is, typically to get HRT first you're gonna have a doctor talk about it and stuff, and they're gonna make sure that you're happy with all the effects, so by going through that process, you're already making sure that it's what you want.
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Don't stress about it. I wanted HRT within days of cracking my egg. But, it's not wrong to wait, of course. If that makes you feel comfortable, sure! I just don't want you causing unnecessary dysphoria to yourself. There's no rush, other than your own feelings. Edit: Besides, I don't think any cis person would even consider HRT for a moment.
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That... sounds relatable actually. Really, what I'd do there is convince the 'logical' part of you that this is what you really should have. I can't think of any reason you wouldn't be 'supposed to'. You seem like you really want HRT, and it's been wonderful for me, so I don't think there could be anything wrong with it.
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Lily, while I understand that you want to 'play it safe' I don't want you to end up waiting as long as I did. The process takes a while to start anyway, so it might be worthwhile doing that, and you can always stop it if you change your mind.
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Well, I don't relate right now, but that's actually really similar to how I felt pre-transistion.
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I've felt this before, but in the end, I always have ended up realizing I'd rather be myself. Become one of those people? No, I think it'd make you be yourself, but happier. Maybe you'll be like them, in that you'll be content with your life too, but you'd still be yourself. Maybe I'm misinterpreting you though. Anyway, read the whole thing, it seems interesting, and I relate to a lot of it, but I'm not entirely sure how to respond to it all. Regardless, it's good to keep thinking about stuff, and who you are, and what you want and all that.
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Oh I forgot, estrogen can also apparently make you crave sodium, with pickles being a stereotypical comfort food for transfems (including myself). Tessa had a lot of good information, but just one quick sciency nitpick, Spironolactone doesn't prevent testosterone production, rather it just neutralizes it. Your body still produces it, it just won't have any effects anymore. This should not matter in the slightest to you, but does matter for sciency reasons.
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You can do fertility preservation if one wants to keep one's options open. I considered it, but didn't. Just something irreversible I guess. I expect most wouldn't consider it one. (Also surgery can undo it, but that's costly) It typically manifests as an increase in all emotions, happiness, sadness, anger, all of them. Passion as a whole. As well as the libido and dysphoria stuff I mentioned before.
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Idk what you're talking about, me and pretty much every other HRT user I know has been happy with mood changes
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Really? Me and other trans people I know haven't. Maybe it's different in Canada?
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I would hope so Around 18 months, far longer than I would have liked, but it is possible to get it faster, and my circumstance was in part due to some miscommunications. If you did everything as fast as possible, I'd say 3-9 months would be reasonable. (I'm not sure on the actual numbers)
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Oooh, I'm always up for infodumping about a topic like this! Ok, so, feminizing HRT is composed of two main thingies. Spironolactone, the anti-androgen, and estradiol, the estrogen. Sometimes other chemicals are used, but these are the most common by far. The former (sometimes taken on it's own as a puberty blocker) prevents testosterone from acting in one's body. It stops your voice from getting any deeper than it already is, and will prevent further masculine characteristics. Eventually, you might stop taking it if either your body has stopped producing it, which can happen after bottom surgery, or if your estrogen dosage is high enough. Estrogen on the other hand, is where the real effects are. It takes a while, but it's real good. Breast development for me started around 2-3 months after starting HRT, though it's not much. Wikipedia says it can take 2-5 years for them to grow fully. Of course, my dosage is pretty low, but will likely be increased soon. Oh, I should mention that, you'll typically be started off with a low dose, and then after a few months you'll have a blood test and look at the effects so far and potentially increase your dosage. Anyway there's other effects that aren't so obvious. Supposedly, it changes one's figure and face to be more feminine, but I'm honestly not very observant and haven't noticed if that's happening, and also increases thigh size. There's also a decrease in libido that is typical, but temporary. I've heard that after 9 months or so, it comes back, even more powerful than before, and sexuality just feels better in general. And then the emotional changes are just wonderful. I've felt really good for a good while, and best of all, it's almost completely cured my body-related dysphoria, independent of physical changes. For some reason, I just feel good about my body now. Oh it also makes one infertile, which might be a problem for some, but there's ways around that. There's also progesterone, which is mainly for trans women who've been on HRT for years, and I'm not a huge expert on it, but I hear it increases breast size more, and improves mood as well. Idk though, not super relevant anyway. Lemme know if you have any questions!
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It's euphoria all right. Sometimes thinking about being a girl specifically to make oneself euphoric works.
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I write stuff too, actually, could I join?
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Yup that's right :3
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New @Hmmm lies poem just dropped!
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(quoting is annoying on mobile, this is for Lily) I'd say it's probably be good to say she/they, and then if you don't end up liking it, you can always ask them to change what they use. Edit: you can even mention that you're still figuring things out
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