The Aspiring Archivist

What's going on with the Sharder minecraft server? I tried to join and it says that the server has "Insufficient Credits" and can't be started.

What's going on with the Sharder minecraft server? I tried to join and it says that the server has "Insufficient Credits" and can't be started.

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Panda Life Update #3:

Today has been pretty good so far, I might post another update tonight depending on if anything big happens.

I spent four hours this morning singing literally every single song in the first act of Mean Girls the musical while sitting in a cold plastic chair. It was kinda fun though. 
 

I have an RP I’ve been considering, you know how we are all hopeless romantics? What if we created a thread for it.

Everyone can play between 1-3 characters of any gender. The race should stay human and the age somewhere between 18 and 28 so most characters can date each other. 
The general plot could possibly be: The world ends in (x number of days) and everyone is trying to cross off everything from their bucket list, the one thing everyone in the group has in common is that they want to find love before the end of the world. So everyone would complete bucket list items together, find love, and create drama and chaos. You can model the character after yourself or partially after yourself if you’d like or you can make it the complete opposite of you.

I think in the character sheet we should have like “Your characters top three bucket list things other than finding love” or something. 

Let me know if anyone’s interested, I don’t know how much time I’ll have to participate but id try we could start it. Tag anyone you think would enjoy this.

Anyways. Just thinking. 

Counting until somebody messes up Day #18

High score: 71 (yay!)

It's been a while

1

Counting until somebody messes up Day #18

High score: 71 (yay!)

It's been a while

1

Happy Birthday!

Back when I was on the shard a year or so ago, I thought I didn't have a 1000th(ish) post thing. I was wrong! It's called being back. 

I don't plan on doing much besides RPGs but, um, yeah. It's cool to be back. Hi again guys

G'day.

G'day.

G'day.

So, some news. Beginning on Sunday around 2pm PST, I will be off the Shard for about 4 weeks. As those of you who have seen my recent SUs may have gathered, my mental health situation isn't really improving. I'm fact, it's been worsening. This week, I was mostly unable to get to school, and I've overall been in a bad place, even sometimes in a dangerous one.

For this reason, I'm going to go into a residential care facility. I've heard a lot of good things about it, and I hope it'll help me more than what I've been able to do at home. It does mean, unfortunately, that my internet access will be extremely limited to none. It should be just about four weeks, though extensions are possible depending on how the care goes. I'm a little nervous, and definitely not thrilled about being away from you all for so long, but it should be for the best.

As for the RP situation, I have a plan for the Clinic, so that should be fine. I'm not really sure what to do with the few others, though I think the Threnodite Hunger Games are almost over (sorry,  @DefiantAllomancer).

So... yeah. I'll miss you all, but hopefully see you in not too long. I'll still be on plenty for the rest of today, as well as tomorrow and Sunday morning.

So, some news. Beginning on Sunday around 2pm PST, I will be off the Shard for about 4 weeks. As those of you who have seen my recent SUs may have gathered, my mental health situation isn't really improving. I'm fact, it's been worsening. This week, I was mostly unable to get to school, and I've overall been in a bad place, even sometimes in a dangerous one.

For this reason, I'm going to go into a residential care facility. I've heard a lot of good things about it, and I hope it'll help me more than what I've been able to do at home. It does mean, unfortunately, that my internet access will be extremely limited to none. It should be just about four weeks, though extensions are possible depending on how the care goes. I'm a little nervous, and definitely not thrilled about being away from you all for so long, but it should be for the best.

As for the RP situation, I have a plan for the Clinic, so that should be fine. I'm not really sure what to do with the few others, though I think the Threnodite Hunger Games are almost over (sorry,  @DefiantAllomancer).

So... yeah. I'll miss you all, but hopefully see you in not too long. I'll still be on plenty for the rest of today, as well as tomorrow and Sunday morning.

Is the S or the C in "scent" silent?

To the theatre, regarding dreams:

Hello.

That’s a good place to start, right?

Hello.

I…

I need you to know something.

I don’t blame you.

I don’t blame you for what you’ve given them.

I don’t blame you for what you’ve never given me.

I don’t blame you for any of it.

I don’t…

I don’t.

Not for the tears,

Or the dripping mascara,

Or the shattering heart.

Not for their love,

Or for my lack thereof,

Or for

My

Broken dreams.

I dreamed a dream

Of days gone by…

Oh, it was a beautiful dream.

I dreamed of you.

I dreamed of lights,

Curtains,

Fog.

Of props,

Sets,

Costumes.

I dreamed of family.

Oh, how wonderful you made my dream. You…you are everything I’ve ever wanted. You are the only real magic I’ve ever been able to find. You are a team so close I’ve only ever imagined anything so perfect. You are in the moments when the cast huddled together for a selfie. 

The moments when it’s okay to skip class,

Because this family matters more.

The moments before shows,

And the moments after.

All the moments.

You

Offer something

That’s stopped existing

Everywhere

But within your walls.

As they tear your hope apart…

As they turn your dream to shame.

Is my dream shame?

Should I regret ever wanting you? 

How can I? I don’t regret a moment of it. I don’t regret the longing, or the wishing, or the pain that comes with the failure. 

Maybe they mock me.

The ones you’ve let in.

The ones whose dreams you’ve brought into reality.

And it hurts…

But I choose to hope

Anyway.

But there are dreams that cannot be,

And there are storms we cannot weather.

Maybe this is one of them.

Those cheers,

The ones that aren’t for me…

They never will be.

That hug,

The one I’m not in…

That I never will be.

I still dream of you.

Every night. Every night, I can see the stars and I imagine how it would feel to be one of them. I can see them all together and you, you give me hope that someday I will be a part of that. How can I regret the hope you’ve given me?

If you kill me,

At least it will be a happy death.

If this is where I end,

At least my heart

Is full of love for you.

At least

I’ve known

How it could have been.

And if I live on,

Then thank you.

Thank you for the dreams.

Thank you

For letting me

Care.

Rue

 

welcome to:

potential trauma instance number who-knows-i’ve-lost-track-at-this-point

 

i swear if i lose or almost lose one more person im going to fall apart

someone in my life i care about very much has a scary disease

its not fatal. it’s been most likely taken care of.

however that doesn’t stop my anxiety joining forces with my past trauma to put me on the verge of a complete mental breakdown.

 

man. life be craaaazy.

People: "What is your gender?"

Me: "Yes."

Them: "What are your pronouns?"

Me: "Yes."

Somebody scream at me to do math.

1. I don’t understand it

2. I hate geometry 

3.  FREAKING TRIANGLES

4. I have a D in math right now

5. IM DYING-

6. I can’t focus

Somebody scream at me to do math.

1. I don’t understand it

2. I hate geometry 

3.  FREAKING TRIANGLES

4. I have a D in math right now

5. IM DYING-

6. I can’t focus

Somebody scream at me to do math.

1. I don’t understand it

2. I hate geometry 

3.  FREAKING TRIANGLES

4. I have a D in math right now

5. IM DYING-

6. I can’t focus