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when your dad passes away and you have no idea how to feel or what to feel because he was never really there for you since you've basically lived with your grandparents your whole life so you make a joke out of it because that's how you cope but then you feel bad because everything else that could go wrong is doing exactly that- what am I supposed to do?

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel

my mom is not taking his passing well and I feel bad because I don't feel the same

he's not even my bio dad, he's just my name dad because he gave me his last name

am I just incapable of mourning?

I don't know why im like this

I feel nothing

I'm supposed to feel sad or something but I don't

it's not his fault he wasnt there for me

I mean it kind-of is because he's the one that accepted his friend's offer of me him and my mom living in the friend's shed when I was a baby and then I got taken away but I don't know

ughhh nevermind I didn't say anything

I'm fine