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uh
hi
maybe I'm back
maybe not
I don't know yet
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I have been!
Mostly good, but with some random crying thrown in.
My family missed seeing the long eclipse even though we drove a few hours to be in the path of totality because clouds happened.
I got to take care of small children after their school day ended. This went on for several weeks and was quite fun, but also not.
Also, College. It do be.
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Okay so. I have two options.
1: live in my college town for the summer, it would be $775 plus utilities (about $25/month) for the full summer. I'd have to pay for my own gas and buy my own food. I would continue working my current job, which doesn't have very regular hours, but it pays pretty well. I would also want to get a more regular job, maybe at a thrift store or a coffee/drink shop or a cute little local restaurant. I would be near a lot of my college friends, so I could do things with them and continue wearing my less "modest" outfits and going by a more gender-neutral nickname sometimes and using multiple pronoun sets and just in general continue figuring myself out in that way.
2: move back in with my parents. Free housing, free food, they'd probably even pay for my gas, I'd already have a regular, well-paying job that I mostly enjoy lined up, and I could try out for a production of Aida that would also pay. But I would either have to act like the version of me that my parents knew from when I was in high school, or let them meet this version of me when I'm not even sure I like this version of me and I'm actively trying new things to figure myself out. I know everyone is always a "rough draft" of themselves, but my current draft feels especially rough, and I don't feel ready for my parents to see it. There have already been times just over phone calls where it's felt like my parents and I are on the brink of a breaking point regarding my identity, and if I live with them over the summer it'll be even more difficult.
However, my program is also next year incorporating travel opportunities, so next year I could travel with a faculty mentor to New York, and the following year to London. I would, however, have to pay my own way. So, saving money by going home would be really helpful for that. But is it worth it if I would be living a lie all summer??
Oh and I need to decide by Tuesday, because the girl whose lease I'd be buying if I stay needs to know by then.
Any input/advice is welcome, lmk if you have any questions lol
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Okay so. I have two options.
1: live in my college town for the summer, it would be $775 plus utilities (about $25/month) for the full summer. I'd have to pay for my own gas and buy my own food. I would continue working my current job, which doesn't have very regular hours, but it pays pretty well. I would also want to get a more regular job, maybe at a thrift store or a coffee/drink shop or a cute little local restaurant. I would be near a lot of my college friends, so I could do things with them and continue wearing my less "modest" outfits and going by a more gender-neutral nickname sometimes and using multiple pronoun sets and just in general continue figuring myself out in that way.
2: move back in with my parents. Free housing, free food, they'd probably even pay for my gas, I'd already have a regular, well-paying job that I mostly enjoy lined up, and I could try out for a production of Aida that would also pay. But I would either have to act like the version of me that my parents knew from when I was in high school, or let them meet this version of me when I'm not even sure I like this version of me and I'm actively trying new things to figure myself out. I know everyone is always a "rough draft" of themselves, but my current draft feels especially rough, and I don't feel ready for my parents to see it. There have already been times just over phone calls where it's felt like my parents and I are on the brink of a breaking point regarding my identity, and if I live with them over the summer it'll be even more difficult.
However, my program is also next year incorporating travel opportunities, so next year I could travel with a faculty mentor to New York, and the following year to London. I would, however, have to pay my own way. So, saving money by going home would be really helpful for that. But is it worth it if I would be living a lie all summer??
Oh and I need to decide by Tuesday, because the girl whose lease I'd be buying if I stay needs to know by then.
Any input/advice is welcome, lmk if you have any questions lol
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I found these in my clipboard.
I may have written this one, it sounds like something I maybe did: "It broke. It broke and I cannot fix it. I cannot build it, I cannot break it again. I cannot name what is broken, I only know that it Is and I will never know how to mend it again." Did I steal it and forget I stole it?
I'm sure I didn't write this one, it doesn't sound like me (it's too good) and I have not even a vague memory of writing it (or something similar) like I do with the other one: "One day the world will be too much for me. Too big. Too vast. I will be unable to stomach it. I will take my first sip of despair and I will watch as the light in my chest goes out. I will keep living, knowing what it once was like to be hopeful."
If one or both of these are yours, or you might know whose they are, please tell me?
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How's everyone doing?
Tell me one hard thing from this year, and two good things :))
For me, I had a hard time managing my time and actually having time for myself, so I got pretty burnt out at times.
But two good things are:
1: I've been in four shows this year, and they've all been super fun, and I've made a ton of progress in my acting both in those shows and in my classes!
2: I've gotten closer with my cohort, closer with some of my other friends, and been able to keep in touch with the friends that I'm now kinda far away from!
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Hard thing: I did badly in almost all of my classes this semester.
Good things: I get to go home and see my family soon. I have friends I wouldn't have met without leaving home.
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I could probably count on my hands
all of the things I did today
Instead of being one to understand
I'm the kind of guy who takes away
the world from other peoplebecause they think I need it more
It doesn't matter than I'm less than null
they think I have great things in store
But I don't
that should be obvious
I'm tired of growing up and fighting on
And I won'tmake any promises
just so I can keep on breaking them upon
the hearts of people I've betrayed -
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Y'know, when my father first taught me about the Oxford comma he gave an example that I've never forgotten...
"I gave money to my parents, Mother Theresa and the Pope." versus "I gave money to my parents, Mother Theresa, and the Pope."
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I'm curious.
What's everyone dressing up as for Halloween?
And if you're not dressing up, why not?
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Idek what I'm gonna do. Probably go to DI and get something Pretty and Halloweeny but idek...
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Does anyone else remember learning about the American Gilded Age's Captains of Industry? About the lack of child labor laws, unhealthy working conditions, low wages, highly treacherous factories; back when the billionaires kept getting richer because they funded the politicians willing to turn a blind eye to their unethical means of wealth, convincing themselves that the money would "trickle down" to the poor and that really this was best for everyone? Back when they were pumping tonnes of gaseous waste into the atmosphere; back when women and foreigners and people of color were treated as less than human; back when workers had no choice but to go on strike and starve for days as the only alternative?
- Man. I'm so glad we put those days behind us.
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We should mandate all-gender restrooms. That may sound stupid but it isn't because we should also mandate stalls that go from floor to ceiling with locks that work and amenities for all walks of life readily available.
- And remove urinals altogether, because men are incapable of wielding them properly.
- Are there any bona-fide Professional Mathematicians around anymore? Like, just people who pour all their time and effort into finding patterns in numbers so that all other Mathematicians and no one else can appreciate them?
- Why do we still have popcorn at the cinema? Why not something quiet to eat, that doesn't stick in your teeth or dry your mouth to a crisp two-thirds the way into the movie? Why not, like... boba pellets? Or grapes?
- "Fellowship of the Ring at 99% strength" you fool, each member is exactly 1/7th of the total strength, and I can explain at length why that is. 99% is after the journey's over and Frodo's lost one of his fingers.
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Does anyone else remember learning about the American Gilded Age's Captains of Industry? About the lack of child labor laws, unhealthy working conditions, low wages, highly treacherous factories; back when the billionaires kept getting richer because they funded the politicians willing to turn a blind eye to their unethical means of wealth, convincing themselves that the money would "trickle down" to the poor and that really this was best for everyone? Back when they were pumping tonnes of gaseous waste into the atmosphere; back when women and foreigners and people of color were treated as less than human; back when workers had no choice but to go on strike and starve for days as the only alternative?
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Can I… can I get some hugs?
please
I feel like I should talk, but I don’t know how or what I would say.
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We love giving hugs. Please ask anytime you have an inkling of wanting one.
*more hugs*
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Can I… can I get some hugs?
please
I feel like I should talk, but I don’t know how or what I would say.
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*all the hugs*
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Oh hey btw if anyone happens to be an absolute MC Redstone genius and know exactly how to make a fully-automated Pokemon-style TCG system then lmk
SpoilerThings that I can do easily:
- Player Health (it's a vertical 6*1 line of red concrete powder, which I think is neat)
- Player Mana (it's a vertical 6*1 line of lime concrete powder, which seems like it should follow the same exact same system but NOPE)
- Monster Health (redstone lamps)
- Monster Mana (redstone lamps)
- Card Shuffler / Dispenser (it's called "Droppers")
- Card Processor (it's called "Item Sorter with Passion")
Things I cannot do quite so easily:
- Card Effect Processor (Each card has pretty basic functions, like "Heal Player" or "Damage Creature" or "Focus Mana" - the problem is that trying to hook up the Item Sorter system to the actual circuits for those things has become massively overcomplicated, with lines upon lines of redstone completely overlapping each other at an exponentional rate)
- Mana Check (Some cards require Mana to use, which makes sense; but due to the already nigh-on unnavigable mess of redstone lines, I can't fit a system to check if you have enough Mana for a card. If it needs to drain 1 Mana and you have 0, it'll just dry-run the circuit and play the card anyway)
Things I did but probably shouldn't have:
- Minecart Rail junction for various creatures to act as the Not-Pokemon sprites (the Player Creature selection is simple enough... the Monster selection is randomized, and therefore more complicated).
- Half-Effect (If a card does 1.5 Damage, it'll do 1 flat damage and then roll a 50/50 chance of dealing another - which seems harmless enough, buuuut...)
- Defend (I just had to make an additional system that completely locks out any Chance Damage with two separate stats for Defense and Duration, meaning I not only have to wire an entire blocking system into the Chance circuitry, but I also have to give it a turn-by-turn countdown for how long it lasts, that can also also be turned off after the effect has been effectively "broken"; which, as you might expect, only adds to the mess of wiring by a lot).
- Creatures in General (There are currently a total of 9 creatures: four Player Starters, and five Randomized Monsters. I need to come to terms with the fact that this system cannot stay, as there simply aren't enough minecartable entities in vanilla minecraft to fill out what would eventually become a full roster of various creatures... and I also have to come up with creature-specific cards, which means I eventually have to rig up a whole system to check if you played the right creature before using a card with their move, and I had to add another item sorter to give the Randomized Monsters their own Randomized Attacks, which will also have to be hooked up to everything else...)
- Maybe this whole thing (Guys I need a Eureka Moment or a Miracle; quite possibly both)
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So I saw that Fadran pointed out that X's ex Branding is probably in or around the public domain, so now it is time to ask ourselves:
What will we work on and brand as Twitter?
My Ideas, so far:
- Ornithology Forum
- We rename the 17th Shard, Twitter for the Time to Come Clean Anniversary
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heyyyyy
guess whattt
im alive again
wheeee!
Also, college. Adulting is hard and annoying and I know, first world problems. Still tho.
Why are people scary, and why is doing homework different now than it was in high school?
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Fact: Microsoft is stupid
I can't open Minecraft because the Microsoft Store isn't up-to-date. I can't update the Microsoft Store because the option to do so is missing. I can't repair this problem because I don't have access to the admin account.
No one uses Microsoft Store. We have Standards. I couldn't care less about any of the problems this pointless app has if it didn't screw with my other things.
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that was not french >>
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Idea: A character who really wants to swear but feels like they shouldn't, so they come up with clever ways to circumvent this barrier
- "Aw, bucket - I'll do it myself'
- "Sand of a witch!"
- "Buttersucker"
Feel free to add to this list