Pestis the Spider

Thanks. I wanted to write a long response, but decided that it is just another way of avoiding the essay. So I just won't write it, and just go try to write this thing. Or at least that's the plan. Keeping to the plan is not my forté. EDIT: I just had to hide my scissors, because the urge to do something destructive to my hair was getting too strong. Oh well. Eh, sorry for this random complaining. EDIT2: Oh. Also today someone stole my t-shirt from the locker room at my work. That's not a good day. O.o

Oh. I thought that you thought I was younger. I actually did write that I though you're 2 years older than me, and then you said that you thought that I thought you were a teenager. So I assumed that you thought that I was a teenager. Now I am confused a little. Maybe I just think too much. xD I wonder a little why you thought I was older. People usually think I'm a teen.

So I was supposed to write an essay today (that I was supposed to write a week ago, but I didn't because I'm stupid as hell). However I managed to forget to take my antidepressants on time today, and took them 5 hours late. But because I just started to take them like less than a month ago, I'm still getting used to them (and I'm still not sure I like them), so even these barely 5 hours late made some of my antidepressant side-effects to come back (these pills have a annoying tendency to cause side-effects when you just start them, later it gets better), and basically made me waste half of the day (the other half I was at work) sulking on my chair in front of my computer. I'm so angry with myself. However today at least gave me some sort of proof that antidepressants do indeed work for me. What I mean is that today I have this thought that maybe it's better to end my miserable existence instead of writing the essay, because my life is already destroyed either way... eh. I didn't have this sort of thoughts for like last 2-3 weeks, and at least now I know it was because of the meds. Omg, they actually work. I'm a little surprised, to be honest. Do not worry, people, I'm not going to try anything stupid. I'm not that far. I just wanted to write that I need to write an essay and that I feel miserable. Misery makes my essay writing worse, and essay writing make my misery worse. That is annoying. Essay deadline is Monday 10 am. 30 hours to go (well, 36, but I work tomorrow). I'm not going to make it. EDIT: I forgot to mention that my misery makes me listen to something called Take me to church by Hozier on repeat for last 2 hours. I'm not exactly sure who is this artist or what is the song about (I don't listen to lyrics) but I have a weird tendency of listening to this song on repeat when I'm down. It's a little weird.

No, I actually thought you're like 24-25. I'm 22.

That makes sense. O.o Sorry for that. xD

Hm. Portal was quite popular when I was in middle school, and I am just 2-3 years younger than you, Twi. Or at least i think so. O.o

I agree. As I said, I think it really depends on a person's background. I also think that English is generally easier for European people thant Asian or African etc. It's because English shares a lot of similarities with other European languages, while Asian/Africa/far away from UK languages have totally different structure. It's always like that. The easiest language for me to learn is Czech or Slovak, because that's just across the border and they're super similar to Polish. And the further from Poland the less similar the language is to Polish. And also romanic languages are generally considered to be rather easy (but beautiful and romantic ). Well. French has this funny issue of having half of the word silent. And somehow French spelling still makes more sense than English spelling. It amazes me. xD Oh, c'mon, it;s not that bad. I think German has more irregular verbs. And there are also languages with so many irregular verbs that no one even bothers to make lists of them. Or that there are no regular verbs at all. So English is not that bad.

Are you saying that English is difficult? Because I've never heard anyone say English is a difficult language. The only problem is pronunciation, because in English it's totally random, with almost no rules whatsoever. English pronunciation is annoying and impossible to guess by just looking at the word. But you can just remember most of these, so it's only slightly hard memory-wise. But English grammar is really simple. There are no cases, almost no genders. Verbs are not modified by persons (only 3rd person gets an "s"), word-order is much more fixed than in Polish, and there are no randomly dropped words from sentences (In Polish we drop a lot of words in the sentence, and it still makes sense. It's actually not really correct not to drop these words.). Also in English there are basically no moods, no aspects, almost no inflection (numbers, adjectives, adverbs are not inflected, and the rest is barely inflected). There are articles (a/the) though, which are fun, and a little hard to learn to use properly. I probably don't use them properly in 100% cases. The only problem English has is 16 tenses. It's a lot of tenses. Fortunately the rules of how to use them are not that complicated. Also most normal people use about 4-6 cases (I think) in everyday conversations. I don't mean that English is super simple. It's definitely not the simplest one. For example Chinese has much simpler grammar than English (but Chinese has other difficulties...). All languages are really difficult to master. But if I was to make a scale of difficulty for languages I would put English closer to the "simple end" rather than "difficult end". But it's just my personal opinion that depends on my background (I am Polish) and my personal preference. So I think that if I were from other place in the world, my opinion would be different. I also think that a lot of Polish people would agree with you that English is hard.

Ah, declension is the pain of many central and eastern European languages. In Polish we also have seven cases ("questions") and I heard that this is a fairly normal number for Slavic languages (though Russian has 6 cases only). But for example Finnish has 15 cases and Hungarian has 18 cases. xD But I actually heard that it's because they don't use prepositions like "in", "on" etc. so they just inflect nouns instead. So I understand that they basically use different suffixes instead of prepositions and that's why they have 18 (that's a crazy huge number) cases. That's interesting. The problem of cases is why learning German was a real pain for me. English is simple, it doesn't have any cases, so it's fine. But German has 4 cases, while Polish has 7 cases. It's really difficult to learn how to fit 7 cases into 4 cases, when I try to translate something from Polish to German. It just doesn't want to fit. Oh well.

Well, let me just mention that there are 3-7 genders in Polish (depending on how you count), and then you have to modify every single word in a sentence according to this gender. But I do agree that German der, die , das is really annoying. It's just so much to remember, without any reasonable rules, really. I'm still wondering why girl is a neuter gender in German - das Mädchen. It's a girl, why would she be neuter gender? O.o Nah, not really. It's a little odd one for European languages, true, but not that much. It has some basic genders of the nouns remaining though. Like you know that all non-personal nouns are neuter (it) by default. Except for ships. Ships are a "she". English used to have gendered nouns like German, but it disappeared. EDIT: Oops, looks like I'm too traditional. Apparently nowadays "she" for ships is only optional in Modern English and "advised against" in American English. My mistake. But other than European language, I don't think English is that much a odd one out. There are languages that are classified as completely genderless (while English has some genders reamining, though mots is gender-neutral). As far as I know Hungarian (though really difficult language with lots of grammar) does not use genders. Similarly Finnish and Estonian. Chinese grammar is all based on word-order in a sentence (and pretty simple in fact), so there are no grammatical genders either. Japanese has these differences in male and female speech, but despite that they don't really have a grammatical gender. Well, I just really like to talk about languages.

I just want to say that there are two marked placed in Spain, and both of them are called "Thorontir". Is that intentional? O.o

Well. In Polish everything is gendered. Nouns (have fixed gender), adjectives, verbs, pronouns, numbers (seriously) are all gendered. Everything. We do have a neuter gender, but it's only possible to use in 3rd person (so it's not usable in dialogs, really), and it sounds stupid a hell, when used to describe a person. So yeah. I understand your problem. xD

As a waste of time, I decided to think about languages. Usually I really like tha fact that Polish has a lot of grammar, as I think it makes it really expressive. This amount of grammar allows me to say exactly what I mean, while in English it's usually just "more or less". But I just remembered (just a random thought) why so much grammar is sometimes really annoying. So my parents have some friends. I know most of them all my life, so I call them aunts and uncles. So that's simple. But they have some friends that I don't know that well. And that's the problem, because Polish grammar makes it dificult for me to determine what I should call them. And as an adult I usually participate in conversations with my parent's guests, so I need to call them something. - I can't call them "aunts" and "uncles". - I can't call them by their names, because that's not be polite. I am not their friend and I am much younger, so I can't do that. Maybe they would allow me to call them by their names, but I am not exactly comfortable with that. - I can't call them Mr. or Mrs., because it's too formal for the situation. And they also told me not to call them that. And here's where Polish grammar starts to cause problems. In English I could avoid the problem, by not calling them anything and just using "you" when I talk to them. However in Polish the structure of the sentence changes completely depending on whether we talk to a friend (and use "you") or to Mr./Mrs. Basically when Polish people talk to Mr./Mrs. we talk in 3rd person (like he/she, but instead we use Mr./Mrs.), while "you" is a 2nd person. Therefore in Polish every single word I say to these people determines whether I call them by name (and use "you") or call them Mr./Mrs. (and use 3rd person). So I struggle to say anything to them at all. So basically Polish grammar creates a problem for me that I would not have in English. That is so annoying sometimes. xD Sorry, just random thoughts.

I am a native Polish speaker. That's my first language and the language I know best. However right now I am technically bilingual, as I use English on daily basis, I think in English a lot and so on. So basically I am totally fluent in English, and only my accent really differentiates me from an average English native speaker (my accent is very Polish ). However despite my accent I am rather easily understandable, so it's all good. I also used to speak quite decent German, but forgot most of it, because of lack of practice. I also know some basic Italian, and some extremely basic Chinese. At some point I would like to continue learning German, Italian and Chinese, and also learn Swedish. However, currently I have no time and no money for that.

Sorry, what? I'm sorry, but for me this statement is utterly ridiculous. You mean that one has to deserve the truth first? You're joking, right? I'm seriously surprised that so many people here state that lying to people we care about is excusable is any way. For me any type of lying is a breach of trust. If I find out that someone lied to me "because they care", I'm done. For me it's a deal breaker, as I am no longer able to trust that person in any way (I usually have problems with that, but I can deal with it as long as people around me are honest). The fact that people have tendency to be lying makes me constantly suspicious of everyone and everything. This is ridiculous. If I want to trust someone and want them to trust me, I never lie and I expect total honesty. Of course, you don't have to be brutal. Saying "Your food is terrible" is plainly offensive, but there are many better ways to say the same truth. Of course, I do lie and use half-truths sometimes. It happens. I think lying is a useful tool for self-protection, survival and manipulation. But I do it only in cases when I don't trust a person and I don't exactly expect any trust in return. If someone I care about told me they lied for my own good... well, let's say I just wouldn't care about them anymore.

Aaah, that looks so amazing. This trailer totally made me want to rewatch the first season of Daredevil.

Sorry for being terribly unhelpful, but have you tried the tvtropes website? I think you might fins it really useful.

So the only anime this season that I find enjoyable is (was) Boku dake ga inai machi. I was interested, so I decided to read the manga to spoil myself the anime. I also heard that at some point the plot turns ridiculous. And that is correct. It is incredibly predictable and ridiculous. Maybe I just read too many books, so I can no longer be surprised, but still. I am disappointed.

Could you maybe quote it? i can't find it, so I'd be grateful. Well, if it was in WoB, then it doesn't count. I appreciate WoBs greatly and they are a great addition for the fans, but the book should be self-contained and the plot should make sense within itself without the need of further explanation. So the WoBs don't count. Maybe because Brandon didn't want to make the book to dark? Honestly, I don't know. She was actually shot in the face, so I guess that wasn't too late.

Do you mean in the books or in WoB? Because as far as I remember they weren't mentioned in the books, but maybe I've missed something. As I said, my opinion about romance in this book is strictly personal. Ok, I get that he is not omnipotent etc. But he had the power to change planet's orbit, all the plants etc. but didn't notice that there are people living further south? Really? I want more foreshadowing. Basically I would like something that at least suggests that she might have some metalminds on her before she got shot. That moment was from Telsin's POV, so it could easily mention at least something about them before she got shot. I don't need a straightforward excalamation "I have metalminds, I can heal", just a little tiny bit of forshadowing. It would be better than having Wayne randomly explain the whole situation after it happened. Deus ex machina. Allik never said that he was from the south. Marasi and Wax guessed that because apparently there were old books that said that oceans were boiling near the equator. I realise that the "boiling oceans" was probably a guess on behalf of the author of these "old books", but it still means that someone had to go south at least some distance. Also I am pretty sure that the Southern Scadrials were mentioned in these "old books" as well. I don't think Marasi and Wax could've guessed that easily that Allik is from the south and that's why says the world got frozen if they didn't at least read about Southern Scadrials once. That would be too big of a stretch. And therefore I think that some more foreshadowing was possible and would be nice.

I just want to warn people that I am not trying to offend anyone, I am not trying to start an argument and I am not trying to diss the book. I am sorry, if it looks this way. I just want to give an oppossite point of view. But it's all just my personal opinion, so you are welcome to disagree. So I did not like the book. I've never been a huge fan of Wax & Wayne series, but BoM is just the worst. To be honest I found it a total let down, and I think it was just plainly ridiculous at times. I'm sorry to say that. First thing: Steris. I love her, she is a wonderful character. She was my favourite ever since she was introduced in AoL and I shipped her and Wax all the time. So theoretically I should be happy that Wax ended up with Steris and not with Marasi. I thought I would be happy. But I'm not. I never liked the way Brandon writes all these happy romances in his book, so I thought that if Steris and Wax get married I'm going to see something different form the usual Brandon's style romances. But the way it went in this book... I just feel like I've already seen it 100 times= (chich is probably true). It's boring. And to be honest it also feels incredibly forced and not authentic. I mean look at this: Their wedding is destroyed, so that they have time to happily fall in love during an adventure together (this trope is aso overused) and then marry for love. Why? Really, why? I would prefer it 1000x over if they would marry because of the contract they had and then slowly grow closer to each other, because they are both great people. Also it feels like Brandon had a rather sudden change of heart somewhere at the very end of writing SoS, and was like "Oh, let's go with Steris instead of Marasi as Wax's romance interest." This whole situation felt rushed and coming out of nowhere, just like most romance plots that Brandon writes. I just don't buy it. But that's possibly mostly my problem with understanding romance rather than Brandon's problem with writing romace. That's just my personal preference, obvioulsy. I just really feel dissapointed, because I shipped Wax and Steris together, and then Brandon managed to write their happy romance in a way I did not like. I did not expect that to happen. Second thing: The Info Dump. I don't dislike info dumps in books. I enjoy them actually. But they need to make sense, and they can't be totally random. And what we get in this book? Southern Scadrians (sorry, who?) that have super advanced technology (really?), because Kelsier (???) that wasn't dead (Oh c'mon) taught them. Not to mention that these Southern Scadrians (that we never heard about) had to be saved by technology from freezing, because God (!) just somehow forgot about them during remaking of the world (good job, God). Nope, nope, nope. It was way too random for me. I understand that Scadrial is much bigger than just Elendel and neighbouring cities, but I would love to get some warning before being suddeny introduced to some people that are able to survive in temperatures that boil oceans and that just happen to have awesome tech. For me it makes more or less as much sense as having aliens suddenly come to save the day, because that's basically what it is. Just these 'aliens' are from the South not from space. Slight difference. Third thing: The Deus ex machina marathon: a) Wax is dead. He is so dead that the God in person tells him, he's dead. But look. This random aluminium thing in Marasi's bag is actually the BoM and it has a power to resurrect the dead! How convienient that she realised that just now. Ok, I guess we can assume that it was just clinical death. But still. b ) Telsin is shot in the face. But look, she's alive, because she just happens to have Bloodmaker powers that no one knew about. But Wayne just happened to guess her powers and let her live, but shot her either way just because apparently there was not enough (cliche) drama in the book. What and amazing plot twist. Yes, I'm sarcastic. Ok, I'm going to finish here, because I'm getting annoyed.

What are the chances I'll become a Zucchini after saying that I just finished BoM and I did not like it?

Sorry, I did not explain myself propepryl Seriously sorry for confusion I am not saying that I like swearing in books. It's not like I read books beacue I like to look at swears, no. I just really don't mind swearing in books and I also think that often swearing is necessary for the book to feel authentic. But, no. I do not prefer fake swearing. I don't have preference as long as everything sounds more or less authentic. But I am glad that Brandon decided to use fake swearing instead of no swearing at all. I really think that this book needs some swearing, even if it's fake.

I have to say I haven't noticed Wayne was vulgar at all, even after I found this thread. So basically I mean that Wayne is not vulgar enough for me to even notice it, and far too little vulgar for me to consider it any problem. I find swears and vulgar words rather offensive and uncomfortable in real life, but when I read books I generally don't have any issue with them. I also tend to read a lot of rather dark fiction, so I guess I'm just used to it. Actually, my mind is already so broken that I still struggle to understand why Cosmere novels are considered adult fiction and not YA... And I am also personally really glad that Brandon decided to create his own fake swear words for these books (vide 'Rusts and Ruin'). I think that because of the events presented in the book, the characters need to swear at least to some degree to feel authentic. I am aware that not everyone is as accepting to vulgarity in books as I am. Therefore I think that fake swears are perfect, because they show the mental state of the character, but do not unnecessarily offend the readers. But that's all just my personal opinion, so feel free to disagree if you wish to.

So if I didn't have enough problems with mental health, it seems that my physical health is not that pretty either. I just learnt today that I will need to have a surgery done in the next few weeks. It's a minor thing, so they said they'll let me go home the same day, but I should have someone to pick me up from hospital and stay in the flat over the night. So I asked my flatmate, and he agreed, because he's a really nice guy. But it's just really scares me to talk to him for some reason, omg. Also, I barely know him, and now he knows more about me than my mother. And I'm wondering if I should tell my parents about the surgery. I seriously don't want to, because I seriously don't like my parents, but I think like maybe I should... I don't know? My life is complicated.