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Thanks everyone I appreciate it I kinda really needed to hear that I’ll try not to shut down or silence or up play whoever is me at the moment and I’ll try to get back comfortable in my own skin

I’m going to finish this, even if you never see it. And if I return, yall are 100% going to get to see it.

Very informational, thank you Oh, I did have a question about #2 (the 45GB one). Wdym by that?

DARKNESS AND LIGHT MEAN DUALITY

I think that’s fine, I’d say just put a content warning at the beginning. I do, tho reporting is also fine to get a hold of a mod, and preferred, as Kansas said

People need to stop justifying violence with my God He is a god of love, grace, and mercy, and the amount of atrocities accredited to his name… it makes me sick. They discredit themselves, they discredit god, and it disgusts me i dont get angry often, but when people call christianity a hate cult because of a million racist idiots… ugh. Makes me sick.

It's still honestly shocking to get called a girl by my friends, even though some of them are also trans (I don't know any trans fems irl), but it still gives me a jolt, and I get really nervous

Girl, how did you find my unwritten biography that’s like almost the exact same as me, either way *huggs* so happy you figured it out

*hugs* it’s beautiful

Who knew my name was so pun-able lol

I am here to save the day. not sure if that's the file, but eh. Looks like it. Yuri do be fire.

A Ryn's a Ryn however a Ryn Ryns You're both the chaotic, energetic woman and the more serious and mature woman And we all think you're pretty storming sick whatever your mood or tone

*hugsss* we love you whether your a chaos gremlin or like uhhh like who’s someone serious idk like a ceo or smthin we love you for who you are and your personality changing doesn’t change that i don’t miss ryn the chaotic or ryn the anything else I’m just happy that ryn is still here

naturally, if you were to look at my past on the shard, the way I talked was... kinda so different that it feels fake we see how different I am now. we all change over time. we become different, as our experiences shape us. people will miss the old you, so cherish her. but do not attempt to replace the current person you are with nostalgia of the past

maybe I should start a blog...

I think the beautiful thing about music is that people are open to interpret it how they like

Can you give a blog post on reverse image searches? I know it's not super crazy relevant to the blogs theme, but I only have google as a good reverse image search, and was wondering if you had any recs.

Ever heard of stream-of-conciousness style writing? I think you'd be very good at that. I'm happy you're doing better. One thing I'd like to address: "How can I think, How can I speak, When I question everything? I constantly double-check, I continuously re-assess." To this, I'd like to share a small bit of writing. I don't do this often, but here it is: "To act? What does it mean “to act well?” To make good decisions? To act on instinct is folly. To act on volition is folly. For instinct is by nature flawed, And volition is by bias flawed. “To act well”, is to act minimally, is it not? “To despise”; Each act of despicableness is perceived by a thousand eyes. “To act”, is to be a fool. “To act well”, is to avoid doing so. But I ask you, who does this benefit?" Something I wrote when I was a bit younger. I was typing my immediate thought processes, so it isn't very coherent. To elaborate: Double-checking, reassessing, etc. all of your actions, thoughts and such: This is analysis paralysis. It's always good to keep a close eye on your views. Ensure that you let them change. But you need a balance, I think. As the above points out: It's impossible to make an objectively "good" decision. The alternative is to do nothing at all. Are you willing to do that? Strip away your ability to act and change things, take away your own humanity, for the purpose of consistency? Make your mistakes. Look back at them, and never regret. Live with the knowledge that whatever decision you made, was one made by you and because of you. Funnily enough, in my opinion there is little worse than not being able to take responsibility for a decision. Because that means YOU weren't really the one acting. Another, in one way or another, forced your hand. Who's life are you to live, if not your own?

Can I just say these are amazing and it always makes me really happy when I log on and go "aha, today's yuri!" Because this is genuinely awesome

Wait this beats everything else

Lesbians and jellyfish!!! Awesome!!

Good, good. Just making sure. Glad you're doing better

You alive, Ghost? *hugs a lot*

(Sorry for the very late response lol) I'd personally recommend waking up at 6:30 or 7 on the weekends too if that's when you wake up on weekdays, yes. But it's up to you and how much you care about your sleep quality and maximizing your overall health. You ofc don't have to turn your life into an 100% optimal machine lol And fair on the parents. Tis easier after moving out when you have full control over your schedule. Don't stress it too much, and just do what you can. Most TV's also have a warm light filter like iphones, so if you can turn that on, then that's great

This poem is basically my way of saying that people will surprise you. it's really easy to judge people and say, "they wouldn't care" or "they have no idea who I am" but trust me when I say, You are important, you are heard, and people do care about you, even if it doesn't seem that way. Thank you! Really? Reallyreallyreally? *jumps up and down giddily*. That is the entire point of me writing and posting that writing here. My entire dream with my writing is that it impacts someone for the better. I'm not in it for the rep or anything else. I just want my writing to make the world a better place, even if it is only in a small way.

Thank you so much! It means a lot!

that's cuz i made a bunch of them then got rid of them also im testing how to replicate the odd CKEditor bar in this blog entry (and it has appeared elsewhere too) (It does this for you too, right? On that linked blog? When you go to post a comment?) So far I've spent literal hours (more like wasted and now i wanna kms) and have made some progress. found some odd things in the html and such. apparently it's probably caused/related to the fact that it uses the Moono CKEdtor "skin" instead of the regular IPS one (which is also loaded), and for some reason there are two HTML source files, and also a CKEditor at the end of the page that's hidden, but also causes all the element IDs for the regular CKEditor to shift up, which may or may not be an issue. Anyway... gotta go [redacted] oh yeah and the reason i'm doin' this is so i can report it to the mods

This is awesome! I do not know nearly enough about Internet privacy as I ought to! Thank you for making this!!!!

I did indeed

*kdj* i slayeth this dragon, and told everyone that YOU slayeth the dragon so you get to be in the story *yjh* NO YOU DIDNT *kdj* *smug smile* *yjh* well i killed three gods and saved a country and now the entire world thinks you did it so you cant top that. *kdj* *literally dies for yjh* *yjh* nooooo rust you i hate you so much and you’re ugly goddamnt it

Thank you both. I was swinging, and just felt the need to write it down. It STEMs (heh) from always feeling joy in math and sciences (STEM stuff) (Especially Data Science, Coding and Spreadsheets) and also being a very creative person who likes to write and make stories. I always like to say my sister inherited my dad's creative capabilities (my dad was a scriptwriter, my sister is also a writer) and I inherited my mom's coding brain (My mom is a data scientist, I love coding), but as the year went on, I began to see this as flawed. My sister showed an interest in coding and spreadsheets, and I began writing poetry and stories. Maybe we both inherited both, after all.

It is both. She’s acknowledged that there are good people and bad people in the church, and so have I.

God, I’m so sick of what hatred has done to my faith. Why people still think that any human being is different than another I don’t understand. Shouldn’t it be basic theology that every person is born a sinner? Shouldn’t everyone who claims to worship the same God as I do have inherited the same humility, the same humanity? There are hypocrites destroying quite literally the greatest love in the world, poisoning out reputation and spreading hatred towards people. God, does my faith need reform, revival. The Cross stands for love, hope, and mercy, and the people you meet are twisting that into a sword.

yes. Probably for the better of both of us.

"Now this is all to say, you have a very easy way to protect and help the children you supposedly care so much about that provides zero consequences to you or other children and you decide you’d rather kids die?" Nobody cares about us. Nobody actually cares. They say "we respect your privacy," As they sell your identity. They say "we care about you," As they pat their wallets. They say "we value your opinion," As they boot up the paper shredder. Nobody cares. Nobody listens. Oop i just wrote a poem. gotta put that in MFD later but fr i like ur rant. Hopefully not too politicky

Oh and that thing about trans people going into the bathroom to prey on people? We won’t do that, in fact we’re more likely to get harassed going into the bathroom then someone going into a bathroom with us in it, so yah that’s not a problem. So maybe do your storming jobs and protect kids before more storming die yk bc like that’d be cool thanks.

Nooooo! Math is red Science is blue History is green English is yellow This is not a hard concept to understand Also huh In my mind pride is blue and failure is shiny dark grey

I like short poems! I think that if you stop trying to fill a lot of space, and just focus on smaller stuff, then the stuff you do make has more thought! I would recomend not trying to keep at the same level as enthusiasum as you started, maybe try to go slower.

Totally nothing significant

thx :3 totally just randomly named the character Lily, nothing significant about that

I was stealing organs long before joining the shard Convergent evolution then?

Yo why do you have a queer blog and I don't? I should get on that.

Hhmmm… Should I have the Scribe’s ghost explain the Notblade and their eventual role? Pain and Illusion are still out there (disappearing after Bat, who had held them, died), and I plan on returning to the stuf when I’m not in the middle of junior year midterms a lot of people are sometimes confused about what a Notblade is and I need to explain

Everyone else just seems like they have everything together and I feel like I am just lagging behind and just getting further and further away from my goals. I wish I knew how to just be like everyone else.

Yes it doesnt really vibe with me, i don’t know why i like it so much but i can scream and feel some sort of power over myself, like i used to not be able to and now im seeing progress, proficiency. Plus thats not like a socially appropriate thing usually so it feels good when im alone and get to do those vocals in those songs i love but also because ive learned the wrong kind by accident, i dont sound like myself, so its both incredibly freeing and empowering but also kind of… the only word that comes to my sleep deprived mind is dysphoric, idk. one of my favorite screamy lyrics songs has very much helped with venting loneliness (yes, loneliness) i quote: “i see the gods avert their gaze from me, my broken form is but a wreck beneath them, and there are always people i can count on, its all so easy for me” being able to scream that with all my heart helped contextualize my pain next to someone who has gone through much more than me, and really helped me feel hope over it

math is yes it's interesting it's brain-numbing it's fun

hehe like idk why but i just want to be depressed sometimes. maybe i am depressed those times. or i wanna be depressed all times? kinda hard to know when i'm always depressed haha. but even if im "depressed," i dont necessarily feel it or i want it worse. then when im not depressed or less so, or not feeling waht i was before, i dont like that cuz I want to be depresded. EDIT: sometimes i struggle knowing what i think and feel is real and what im "making myself feel" or "making up" cuz iddkkkkkk im also neurodivergen as well and have been depressed my whole life

Well here’s the thing, pride in the context of lgbtq is the rainbow but as someone not lgbtq, I think that people can feel proud or confident in whatever colors they want, so it’s very subjective. that is to say, there isn’t one objective interpretation of color. The idea that there is has been misused enough. It’s subjective at the end of the day

THIS IS PERFECT I LOVE IT