Mental health club!

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

4 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Bro im literally 2 seconds from either having a panick attack or just curling ina ball and crying. 

Idk why

well i do its c cause im so tired my anxiety and depression are on steroids and im gonna hit my head into a wall. I could list at least 5 things that are bugging me but idk if i wanna blab some of it to everyone online

anyways.

Yay!!!! Thats great dilly!!

*hugs*

Im glad you do have people on your side. *Hugs*

and thats good that you’ve decided to not actually fight them!

 

*hugses*

D'you want to message it over Discord?

[Keke They/he]

1 minute ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

*hugses*

D'you want to message it over Discord?

Im at school so i cant use my phone

*Hugs*

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

7 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Bro im literally 2 seconds from either having a panick attack or just curling ina ball and crying. 

Idk why

well i do its c cause im so tired my anxiety and depression are on steroids and im gonna hit my head into a wall. I could list at least 5 things that are bugging me but idk if i wanna blab some of it to everyone online

anyways.

*so many hugs* do you wanna talk about it? I have some time if you do.

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, Hawks said:

Im at school so i cant use my phone

*Hugs*

Aww

[Keke They/he]

Just now, KnightSkye Reforged said:

*so many hugs* do you wanna talk about it? I have some time if you do.

Maybe. *hugs*

[NerdSandwich she/her]

Guys I think I'm finally over the period in my life where I hated everything.

I hated my family.

I hated my religion.

I hated my brain.

I hated most foods.

I hated PEOPLE!

I hated life.

But now...

What's the point in hating everything?

Waste of time.

[SpartanBrigade He/Him]

1 hour ago, YouCantHaveMySandwich said:

Guys I think I'm finally over the period in my life where I hated everything.

I hated my family.

I hated my religion.

I hated my brain.

I hated most foods.

I hated PEOPLE!

I hated life.

But now...

What's the point in hating everything?

Waste of time.

BARS

*hugs*

Happy for you

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

2 hours ago, Hawks said:

Bro im literally 2 seconds from either having a panick attack or just curling ina ball and crying. 

Idk why

well i do its c cause im so tired my anxiety and depression are on steroids and im gonna hit my head into a wall. I could list at least 5 things that are bugging me but idk if i wanna blab some of it to everyone online

anyways.

Yay!!!! Thats great dilly!!

*hugs*

Im glad you do have people on your side. *Hugs*

and thats good that you’ve decided to not actually fight them!

 

*hugs*  aww that's upsetting panic attack are the worst

[Keke They/he]

To everyone who gave me hugs *hugs back*

i spent the past class crying in my counslered office. I feel a bit better. Still crappy but not as crappy as before 

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

*hugs everyone*

You all deserve so much better than this. You're some of the loveliest people I have ever had the fortune of encountering.

[NerdSandwich she/her]

aww thanks

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

Wow it’s been a min since I’ve been on here I’m sorry I haven’t been paying attention I’ll read and respond to some later but for now *hugsssss* for all that need them and know that you are loved bc like your awsome 

[Keke They/he]

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

[NerdSandwich she/her]

yeah it's so hard to sleep in the daytime

 

 

Edited November 7, 2025 by YouCantHaveMySandwich

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

11 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

I use Wall, close door, turn off lights, and shut the blinds.

Then darkness!

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

13 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

*hugs*

[Ink and Embers Any pronouns]

20 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

*Hugs*

[Honors Spectral Image She/her]

28 minutes ago, Hawks said:

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

*hugssss* I’m sorry being sick suckss

[Shatter He/Him]

On 11/6/2025 at 10:09 AM, YouCantHaveMySandwich said:

Guys I think I'm finally over the period in my life where I hated everything.

I hated my family.

I hated my religion.

I hated my brain.

I hated most foods.

I hated PEOPLE!

I hated life.

But now...

What's the point in hating everything?

Waste of time.

Wise words.

3 hours ago, Hawks said:

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

You require blackout curtains.

[Throw TheLiving Silverware he/him/il/lui]

4 hours ago, Hawks said:

Yesterday was one of the worst days this year. I was in like a constant state of a panic attack until like 1:15. I got insanely sick out of the blue. And im still sick meaning im missing school!

*sighs*

*lays down* 

AND I CANT SLEEP CAUSE ITS DAYTIME 

*huuuugs*

hey even resting with your eyes closed helps a little

not as good as actual sleep, but you gotta do with what you got

 

*sends anti-sick mental waves*

hope you get better quick my dear step great-uncle

[Tam Tucker]

This is bugging me a lot, so I wrote a letter, and I don't know if I should send it off or not. whether its too harsh. The whole mess with my biological mother. I just find it disrespectful, and this irks me to no end. I am torn between whether to keep trying and being rejected by my own mother or just give up and allow sleeping dogs to lie. 

Stuff in parenthesises is me talking to you to give more context. its not part of the oringinal letter.

Spoiler

At this point I don’t know what to do or if there is anything that I can do. Made a choice all those years back, and here we are. I chose to allow my adopted mom to sell you that house, and now I am paying a mortgage that is way higher than what you had to pay. Keeping up with it pretty much the same way that you guys are. (i am the only breadwinner in the household since my wife is disabled.) 

To be completely honest, this whole situation leaves a sour taste in my mouth. How can I not see it as disrespectful? 

Now if you pay your boss to keep the house. What have you been doing for the past five years? 

All I know is that I would never do what you guys did. You can keep telling yourself that I am spoiled, but I got what I got by working hard and suffering through. 

Sure, I get things from others like gifts, but that is from a place of love. I will do anything for those people. Well, I just don’t think you will do anything for me. (My in-laws, I think, are grateful that I accept my wife for who she is and that I stepped up all those years ago and took their daughter to prom. Wonderful people that I love very much. I mean, I gave them like three weeks to plan a small wedding and they pulled it off.) 

I know this now since I was dead to the world and my adopted mom was just getting by since my adopted dad died. You guys still didn’t pay us. (That was a hard time for me; everything just happened all at once. Both my dads died My girlfriend, whom I just traveled out for a week to see, broke up with me on the way back home, through a text, I might add, which just seemed disrespectful. on top of all that, the whole world was going crazy since it was 2020. I think I would describe that depression as a grayness; all I saw was gray. Which for an artist like me is a living hell. i never want to feel that way again.) 

It’s just I can’t stand disrespect, and we have been putting up with it for the past five years. I just don’t know where this relationship can go, and that makes me sad. This isn’t the way that it should be, and this is a mess that should never have happened in the first place. 

 

[Keke They/he]

I wanna just run. Not anywhere specifically. Jsut run. Maybe if i run fast enough i the wind will blur out my thoughts. Maybe if i go long enough i will collapse. Maybe then I’ll be able to magically verbalize to my family why i don’t Iike stuff. Or maybe ill go far enough that ill reach my old city. I’ll be able to talk to my old friends. Maybe someone there will understand ME. Maybe ill go long enough that my dad will finally be able to see that e doesnt know who i am

TW suicide mentions

Spoiler

they say oh i know you your my Daughter i know you enough to know that this isn’t you. KNOW YOU stormING DONT DAD STOP SAYING THAT. STOP PRETENDING YOU KNOW rust! My mom will say she knows im not me “true self” with my friends at school. HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW WHO I ACTUALY AM! Stop saying you do you dont. You guys I didn’t even know i was storming suicidal until I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND YALL HEARD ME TELL THE stormING DOCTORS!! SO STOP PRETENDING YIU KNOW WHO I AM~! I get it we all stormed up before. And how about we just stop trying to go based of the past. Im not the kid you thought i was. Please see me for who i am. Not who you think i am!

and the stupid thing is all of this happened a bit ago but i never expressed anything and i tried to just ignore it and for some storming reason now im just needing to scream about it cause it kinda related to stuff now but sorta not really and I shouldn’t be mad about it now anyways.

*breath*

ok guys thanks for reading my ted talk.

Edited November 10, 2025 by Hawks
Ok done

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

7 minutes ago, Hawks said:

I wanna just run. Not anywhere specifically. Jsut run. Maybe if i run fast enough i the wind will blur out my thoughts. Maybe if i go long enough i will collapse. Maybe then I’ll be able to magically verbalize to my family why i don’t Iike stuff. Or maybe ill go far enough that ill reach my old city. I’ll be able to talk to my old friends. Maybe someone there will understand ME. Maybe ill go long enough that my dad will finally be able to see that e doesnt know who i am

TW suicide mentions

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they say oh i know you your my Daughter i know you enough to know that this isn’t you. KNOW YOU stormING DONT DAD STOP SAYING THAT. STOP PRETENDING YOU KNOW rust! My mom will say she knows im not me “true self” with my friends at school. HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW WHO I ACTUALY AM! Stop saying you do you dont. You guys I didn’t even know i was storming suicidal until I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND YALL HEARD ME TELL THE stormING DOCTORS!! SO STOP PRETENDING YIU KNOW WHO I AM~! I get it we all stormed up before. And how about we just stop trying to go based of the past. Im not the kid you thought i was. Please see me for who i am. Not who you think i am!

and the stupid thing is all of this happened a bit ago but i never expressed anything and i tried to just ignore it and for some storming reason now im just needing to scream about it cause it kinda related to stuff now but sorta not really and I shouldn’t be mad about it now anyways.

*breath*

ok guys thanks for reading my ted talk.

*hugs*

I don't know how to help. All I can do is tell you that I know that feeling of wanting to run, run and keep running till somehow things are better, till either you're happy or dead. I'm sorry you have to feel that right now.

I'm sorry people aren't listening to you and caring. I know that feeling too.

*hugsss* I'm sorry. 

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

guys im literally falling apart

like its not bad but i just want to punch them so hard T^T

i hate them because they hated me first

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

40 minutes ago, Hawks said:

I wanna just run. Not anywhere specifically. Jsut run. Maybe if i run fast enough i the wind will blur out my thoughts. Maybe if i go long enough i will collapse. Maybe then I’ll be able to magically verbalize to my family why i don’t Iike stuff. Or maybe ill go far enough that ill reach my old city. I’ll be able to talk to my old friends. Maybe someone there will understand ME. Maybe ill go long enough that my dad will finally be able to see that e doesnt know who i am

TW suicide mentions

  Hide contents

they say oh i know you your my Daughter i know you enough to know that this isn’t you. KNOW YOU stormING DONT DAD STOP SAYING THAT. STOP PRETENDING YOU KNOW rust! My mom will say she knows im not me “true self” with my friends at school. HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW WHO I ACTUALY AM! Stop saying you do you dont. You guys I didn’t even know i was storming suicidal until I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND YALL HEARD ME TELL THE stormING DOCTORS!! SO STOP PRETENDING YIU KNOW WHO I AM~! I get it we all stormed up before. And how about we just stop trying to go based of the past. Im not the kid you thought i was. Please see me for who i am. Not who you think i am!

and the stupid thing is all of this happened a bit ago but i never expressed anything and i tried to just ignore it and for some storming reason now im just needing to scream about it cause it kinda related to stuff now but sorta not really and I shouldn’t be mad about it now anyways.

*breath*

ok guys thanks for reading my ted talk.

*hugs*

29 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

guys im literally falling apart

like its not bad but i just want to punch them so hard T^T

i hate them because they hated me first

*hugs*