Mental health club!

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

@everyone
In case you've been slackin, here's your reminder to drink water, try to get good rest, feel your feelings, to not be hard on yourself, and talk to others about your struggles. Or else.

Figured this would make a good 1000th post for me xD
 

[Keke They/he]

1 hour ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

@everyone
In case you've been slackin, here's your reminder to drink water, try to get good rest, feel your feelings, to not be hard on yourself, and talk to others about your struggles. Or else.

Figured this would make a good 1000th post for me xD
 

AYEE FIRE 1000TH POST

andi totally eat……

ive had 4 serving size cups of fruit from school… thats food,…

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

6 hours ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

@everyone
In case you've been slackin, here's your reminder to drink water, try to get good rest, feel your feelings, to not be hard on yourself, and talk to others about your struggles. Or else.

Figured this would make a good 1000th post for me xD
 

 thank you for the reminder I realized just now after seeing this that the only food I ate today was some crappy school lunch (I'm 97% sure it was raw) and I haven't drank any water today this also reminds me I need to tell my sister to drink water because she tends to forget as well

And YAYYYYY 1000th POST CONGRATS that's awesome!!!

4 hours ago, Hawks said:

AYEE FIRE 1000TH POST

andi totally eat……

ive had 4 serving size cups of fruit from school… thats food,…

hey I had a school fruit cup today too! I can confirm that its most likely food....maybe...

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

7 hours ago, #1 Taln Fan said:

@everyone
In case you've been slackin, here's your reminder to drink water, try to get good rest, feel your feelings, to not be hard on yourself, and talk to others about your struggles. Or else.

Figured this would make a good 1000th post for me xD
 

'Tis a worthy post 

...

Hey guys

I just wanted to say something

I was looking back at some old posts - from around when I first joined this thread, and some more recent stuff too, and I've realized

We've come a long way. All of us. We've come a long way from the dark depths, the relapses, the collapses, the seemingly endless walls of depression and hate and self-loathing. I remember times when the thread would blow up with existential crisis, near-constant mental breakdowns, and we all seemed to share a pain that didn't have an end. The masks and the sorrow. @Pariah, I remember when you were falling apart because your show didn't work out. @Bird Furious, @Through The Living Glass, @Spark of Hope you have all come so far. @Hawks... I remember so much. I remember fear. And I am so happy that fear isn't around anymore.

I'm not saying the struggles are gone. Because they are ongoing. I myself am still struggling with the thing I believe I made one of my first posts on this thread about. But... I no longer hate myself for it. I feel better. SO much better.

I think what I'm trying to get at is:

I remember days when I would frantically respond to posts, promising lights at the end of the tunnel, "candles" to "light" more, and yadayada metaphorical nonsense that was supposed to comfort you guys. I remember things getting worse, and not believing my own words. But...

Now I see those lights. They were there. I can't tell you how to find them. I'll cut the metaphorical crap right now, though, 'cuz that didn't help me. But you know what did? You. This. The solution isn't finding some fancy words that make things sound nice. It's helping each other. And taking steps. Here's what I think helped me:

1. Recognition and acceptance. Recognizing what is happening in your brain is so helpful. I will say I think there's an inherent mechanism in your mind that doesn't want to be proved wrong, so when you try to recognize what's going on, your brain fights it. Fight back. For me, my problem was constantly hating myself for being "unproductive". Realizing where that came from was hard, but once I did, it was a lot easier to fight against. I accepted that I didn't have to be productive. And slowly, the walls my brain put up began to fall.

2. Not procrastinating. Okay this is way harder but it helped me. Specifically, this year, I started working out. Well, not really, but like doing pushups and situps and squats and stuff in my room. It really helped me feel better. I felt like I was making progress.

3. Support. You guys made up a large part of it. Trust me: talk to someone. Anyone. Then talk to someone else. Get a psychologist. Just TALK.

Things do get better. So often we say they do but don't mean it, but they do. This thread is living proof of that. You are living proof of that.

Don't forget it.

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

52 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

'Tis a worthy post 

...

Hey guys

I just wanted to say something

I was looking back at some old posts - from around when I first joined this thread, and some more recent stuff too, and I've realized

We've come a long way. All of us. We've come a long way from the dark depths, the relapses, the collapses, the seemingly endless walls of depression and hate and self-loathing. I remember times when the thread would blow up with existential crisis, near-constant mental breakdowns, and we all seemed to share a pain that didn't have an end. The masks and the sorrow. @Pariah, I remember when you were falling apart because your show didn't work out. @Bird Furious, @Through The Living Glass, @Spark of Hope you have all come so far. @Hawks... I remember so much. I remember fear. And I am so happy that fear isn't around anymore.

I'm not saying the struggles are gone. Because they are ongoing. I myself am still struggling with the thing I believe I made one of my first posts on this thread about. But... I no longer hate myself for it. I feel better. SO much better.

I think what I'm trying to get at is:

I remember days when I would frantically respond to posts, promising lights at the end of the tunnel, "candles" to "light" more, and yadayada metaphorical nonsense that was supposed to comfort you guys. I remember things getting worse, and not believing my own words. But...

Now I see those lights. They were there. I can't tell you how to find them. I'll cut the metaphorical crap right now, though, 'cuz that didn't help me. But you know what did? You. This. The solution isn't finding some fancy words that make things sound nice. It's helping each other. And taking steps. Here's what I think helped me:

1. Recognition and acceptance. Recognizing what is happening in your brain is so helpful. I will say I think there's an inherent mechanism in your mind that doesn't want to be proved wrong, so when you try to recognize what's going on, your brain fights it. Fight back. For me, my problem was constantly hating myself for being "unproductive". Realizing where that came from was hard, but once I did, it was a lot easier to fight against. I accepted that I didn't have to be productive. And slowly, the walls my brain put up began to fall.

2. Not procrastinating. Okay this is way harder but it helped me. Specifically, this year, I started working out. Well, not really, but like doing pushups and situps and squats and stuff in my room. It really helped me feel better. I felt like I was making progress.

3. Support. You guys made up a large part of it. Trust me: talk to someone. Anyone. Then talk to someone else. Get a psychologist. Just TALK.

Things do get better. So often we say they do but don't mean it, but they do. This thread is living proof of that. You are living proof of that.

Don't forget it.

dude.

deep stuff.

[Keke They/he]

12 hours ago, Dilly honor spren said:

 thank you for the reminder I realized just now after seeing this that the only food I ate today was some crappy school lunch (I'm 97% sure it was raw) and I haven't drank any water today this also reminds me I need to tell my sister to drink water because she tends to forget as well

And YAYYYYY 1000th POST CONGRATS that's awesome!!!

hey I had a school fruit cup today too! I can confirm that its most likely food....maybe...

Half the time im not sure its actual fruit ....

10 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

'Tis a worthy post 

...

Hey guys

I just wanted to say something

I was looking back at some old posts - from around when I first joined this thread, and some more recent stuff too, and I've realized

We've come a long way. All of us. We've come a long way from the dark depths, the relapses, the collapses, the seemingly endless walls of depression and hate and self-loathing. I remember times when the thread would blow up with existential crisis, near-constant mental breakdowns, and we all seemed to share a pain that didn't have an end. The masks and the sorrow. @Pariah, I remember when you were falling apart because your show didn't work out. @Bird Furious, @Through The Living Glass, @Spark of Hope you have all come so far. @Hawks... I remember so much. I remember fear. And I am so happy that fear isn't around anymore.

I'm not saying the struggles are gone. Because they are ongoing. I myself am still struggling with the thing I believe I made one of my first posts on this thread about. But... I no longer hate myself for it. I feel better. SO much better.

I think what I'm trying to get at is:

I remember days when I would frantically respond to posts, promising lights at the end of the tunnel, "candles" to "light" more, and yadayada metaphorical nonsense that was supposed to comfort you guys. I remember things getting worse, and not believing my own words. But...

Now I see those lights. They were there. I can't tell you how to find them. I'll cut the metaphorical crap right now, though, 'cuz that didn't help me. But you know what did? You. This. The solution isn't finding some fancy words that make things sound nice. It's helping each other. And taking steps. Here's what I think helped me:

1. Recognition and acceptance. Recognizing what is happening in your brain is so helpful. I will say I think there's an inherent mechanism in your mind that doesn't want to be proved wrong, so when you try to recognize what's going on, your brain fights it. Fight back. For me, my problem was constantly hating myself for being "unproductive". Realizing where that came from was hard, but once I did, it was a lot easier to fight against. I accepted that I didn't have to be productive. And slowly, the walls my brain put up began to fall.

2. Not procrastinating. Okay this is way harder but it helped me. Specifically, this year, I started working out. Well, not really, but like doing pushups and situps and squats and stuff in my room. It really helped me feel better. I felt like I was making progress.

3. Support. You guys made up a large part of it. Trust me: talk to someone. Anyone. Then talk to someone else. Get a psychologist. Just TALK.

Things do get better. So often we say they do but don't mean it, but they do. This thread is living proof of that. You are living proof of that.

Don't forget it.

*hugs*

Deep stuff. 

I canr write a proper response rn but I shall later

[#1 Taln Fan he/him]

11 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

But... I no longer hate myself for it. I feel better. SO much better.

So glad you're feeling better 
 

 

11 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Here's what I think helped me:

Yeppp seconding all of these! I take your essay and raise you one longer essay xD #1 is key! There's research that legit just naming the exact emotion you're feeling, acknowledging "I'm anxious" or "I feel guilty" instead of "I feel bad/depressed" makes those emotions easier to manage. And then digging deeper to find where those emotions are coming from. Same with bad coping mechanisms, like SH. SH itself isn't the problem, you have to figure out what's happening in your brain. Something's happening to make you feel a certain way, and we often turn to poor coping mechanisms or distractions to avoid those negative feelings. But accept those feelings, know that they're valid, and take time to actually *feel* them. Journaling and meditation are both great for this. 

And yeah, highly recommend working out, it's proven to be great for mental health as well as physical. (Also when your physical health is better, it helps your mental health) Even if it's not working out, one of the best ways to fight depression is having concrete, achievable goals to accomplish. Even if it's small, working towards that goal gives you something to live for, and completing the goal is something to look forward to. The important thing is to have them be concrete, and have a way to mark when you've completed it. Not "lose weight", or "get stronger", or "Get better at drawing". "Lose 20 lbs by the end of the year", "Be able to bench 135 by the end of the year", or "Practice drawing at least 2 hours a week". Making that measurable progress brings a lot of satisfaction. And yeah, procrastination is a dangerous trap. Don't start tmrw, or you never will. Start today. And procrastination can apply to mental health too, like "oh I'll start journalling tmrw" or "I'll tell my friends about my problems someday, just not this week". 

And yeah you hit the nail on the head with support. Talk to anyone. Doesn't have to be several people, as long as there's just one person you trust that you can (and do) tell everything, so you're not keeping it inside. There's something so freeing about having someone who knows literally every secret and struggle you wrestle with, and can support you. And then yeah, go to therapy! Even if you don't think it'll help, or you've had a bad therapist before. Friends are great, Sharders can be helpful, but ultimately professional help is often very beneficial, and they know what to do better than some teenagers xD There's lots of diff therapists with different therapy styles, so don't give up, and find one that suits you.

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

16 hours ago, Hoid Slayer said:

'Tis a worthy post 

...

Hey guys

I just wanted to say something

I was looking back at some old posts - from around when I first joined this thread, and some more recent stuff too, and I've realized

We've come a long way. All of us. We've come a long way from the dark depths, the relapses, the collapses, the seemingly endless walls of depression and hate and self-loathing. I remember times when the thread would blow up with existential crisis, near-constant mental breakdowns, and we all seemed to share a pain that didn't have an end. The masks and the sorrow. @Pariah, I remember when you were falling apart because your show didn't work out. @Bird Furious, @Through The Living Glass, @Spark of Hope you have all come so far. @Hawks... I remember so much. I remember fear. And I am so happy that fear isn't around anymore.

I'm not saying the struggles are gone. Because they are ongoing. I myself am still struggling with the thing I believe I made one of my first posts on this thread about. But... I no longer hate myself for it. I feel better. SO much better.

I think what I'm trying to get at is:

I remember days when I would frantically respond to posts, promising lights at the end of the tunnel, "candles" to "light" more, and yadayada metaphorical nonsense that was supposed to comfort you guys. I remember things getting worse, and not believing my own words. But...

Now I see those lights. They were there. I can't tell you how to find them. I'll cut the metaphorical crap right now, though, 'cuz that didn't help me. But you know what did? You. This. The solution isn't finding some fancy words that make things sound nice. It's helping each other. And taking steps. Here's what I think helped me:

1. Recognition and acceptance. Recognizing what is happening in your brain is so helpful. I will say I think there's an inherent mechanism in your mind that doesn't want to be proved wrong, so when you try to recognize what's going on, your brain fights it. Fight back. For me, my problem was constantly hating myself for being "unproductive". Realizing where that came from was hard, but once I did, it was a lot easier to fight against. I accepted that I didn't have to be productive. And slowly, the walls my brain put up began to fall.

2. Not procrastinating. Okay this is way harder but it helped me. Specifically, this year, I started working out. Well, not really, but like doing pushups and situps and squats and stuff in my room. It really helped me feel better. I felt like I was making progress.

3. Support. You guys made up a large part of it. Trust me: talk to someone. Anyone. Then talk to someone else. Get a psychologist. Just TALK.

Things do get better. So often we say they do but don't mean it, but they do. This thread is living proof of that. You are living proof of that.

Don't forget it.

aw

*hugs very tightly*

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

I swear, and I mean these words, that if one more person says to me, "Well, she's not actually your sister, so it's different." I am going to storming hurt them. 
I am going to hurt them, and make sure they know that I don't give a damn whether or not we're related by blood, my family is my family and I have a right to them. And if that means making some people bleed, so be it.

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

4 minutes ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

I swear, and I mean these words, that if one more person says to me, "Well, she's not actually your sister, so it's different." I am going to storming hurt them. 
I am going to hurt them, and make sure they know that I don't give a damn whether or not we're related by blood, my family is my family and I have a right to them. And if that means making some people bleed, so be it.

What?

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

12 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

What?

The people in my life. Mentors, leaders in my church, friends, even my mom, have said that the friend that I was cut off from, the friend who I adopted as my sister, "isn't really" my sister. And that that makes what happened ok. That that means I don't need to worry about anyone messing with my other siblings.

If one more person says that to me they're going to hurt. I don't care what else I've sworn, what ideals I hold, they don't get to say that. I'm done with them. 

[CoderDrag0n8 He/They]

47 minutes ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

The people in my life. Mentors, leaders in my church, friends, even my mom, have said that the friend that I was cut off from, the friend who I adopted as my sister, "isn't really" my sister. And that that makes what happened ok. That that means I don't need to worry about anyone messing with my other siblings.

If one more person says that to me they're going to hurt. I don't care what else I've sworn, what ideals I hold, they don't get to say that. I'm done with them. 

fair valid

And they cut you off from them??? Who [censored for the shard] does that?

[Through The Living Glass She/They]

1 hour ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

I swear, and I mean these words, that if one more person says to me, "Well, she's not actually your sister, so it's different." I am going to storming hurt them. 
I am going to hurt them, and make sure they know that I don't give a damn whether or not we're related by blood, my family is my family and I have a right to them. And if that means making some people bleed, so be it.

*hugs so so so tightly*

[TwinStorm He/Him]

1 hour ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

I swear, and I mean these words, that if one more person says to me, "Well, she's not actually your sister, so it's different." I am going to storming hurt them. 
I am going to hurt them, and make sure they know that I don't give a damn whether or not we're related by blood, my family is my family and I have a right to them. And if that means making some people bleed, so be it.

no I feel this so hard

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

21 minutes ago, CoderDrag0n8 said:

fair valid

And they cut you off from them??? Who [censored for the shard] does that?

People who think they're right. Those who think that they have to cause some harm to prevent greater future harm. Those who think that in a marred world, any relationship that looks suspicious is bad, even if those people say it is good and can prove it. Those who think that appearances are very important. 

Those people do this.

4 minutes ago, Through The Living Glass said:

*hugs so so so tightly*

*hugs* *cries* thanks.

2 minutes ago, TwinStorm said:

no I feel this so hard

*hug* thanks for understanding.

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

hey guys I decided to tell you something 

(trigger warning, self-harm)

Spoiler

so just about a week or so ago I thought everything was great I thought I was getting better and through the dark part but I was wrong because that night something was just off my mom got upset (I made my school honor band but told her I didn't want to try out for the second honor band my school offers and she just seemed upset and disappointed) so I was really sad and just felt that I wasn't enough and idk it just happened I cried for about 30 minutes then I sort of cut, something that I had told myself I was done with and I know its so wrong and I shouldn't but it  just numbed all the other bad feelings I know it was so wrong but I did it and I just don't know what too do anymore dose anyone have some similar aspects parts to their life problems idk just sometimes when everything is wrong its helpful to look to others stories  

(if this is not aloud on the shard I'll take it down(just let me know))

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

4 minutes ago, Dilly honor spren said:

hey guys I decided to tell you something 

(trigger warning, self-harm)

  Hide contents

so just about a week or so ago I thought everything was great I thought I was getting better and through the dark part but I was wrong because that night something was just off my mom got upset (I made my school honor band but told her I didn't want to try out for the second honor band my school offers and she just seemed upset and disappointed) so I was really sad and just felt that I wasn't enough and idk it just happened I cried for about 30 minutes then I sort of cut, something that I had told myself I was done with and I know its so wrong and I shouldn't but it  just numbed all the other bad feelings I know it was so wrong but I did it and I just don't know what too do anymore dose anyone have some similar aspects parts to their life problems idk just sometimes when everything is wrong its helpful to look to others stories  

(if this is not aloud on the shard I'll take it down(just let me know))

*squeeze*

It's allowed

Squeeze to @KnightSkye Reforged as well

I can only imagine how horrible this all is for you, but... if you lash out, how does that make things better? I get that you want to release, but that won't fix the situation - it'll only make you look crazy and worsen things for you

16 minutes ago, TwinStorm said:

no I feel this so hard

OMG OMG OMG

THE REP LEVEL

[TwinStorm He/Him]

NOONE REP ME

3 minutes ago, TwinStorm said:

NOONE REP ME

I SWEAR

WHO JUST REPPED ME

THE *********

[Hoid Slayer He/Him]

3 minutes ago, TwinStorm said:

NOONE REP ME

Bruh whoever repped that is EVIL

@KnightSkye Reforged @Kansas Stormcursed I SEE YOU

[TwinStorm He/Him]

Just now, Hoid Slayer said:

Bruh whoever repped that is EVIL

watch it be Glass trolling . . . 

1 minute ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Bruh whoever repped that is EVIL

@KnightSkye Reforged @Kansas Stormcursed I SEE YOU

. . . . 

if you repped that

. . .  

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 hour ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

I swear, and I mean these words, that if one more person says to me, "Well, she's not actually your sister, so it's different." I am going to storming hurt them. 
I am going to hurt them, and make sure they know that I don't give a damn whether or not we're related by blood, my family is my family and I have a right to them. And if that means making some people bleed, so be it.

*hugs*

This is entirely understandable, and I'm halfway tempted to come back you up.

8 minutes ago, Dilly honor spren said:

hey guys I decided to tell you something 

(trigger warning, self-harm)

  Hide contents

so just about a week or so ago I thought everything was great I thought I was getting better and through the dark part but I was wrong because that night something was just off my mom got upset (I made my school honor band but told her I didn't want to try out for the second honor band my school offers and she just seemed upset and disappointed) so I was really sad and just felt that I wasn't enough and idk it just happened I cried for about 30 minutes then I sort of cut, something that I had told myself I was done with and I know its so wrong and I shouldn't but it  just numbed all the other bad feelings I know it was so wrong but I did it and I just don't know what too do anymore dose anyone have some similar aspects parts to their life problems idk just sometimes when everything is wrong its helpful to look to others stories  

(if this is not aloud on the shard I'll take it down(just let me know))

Yes. Yes I do. Doing martial arts, I can't really afford physical damage (and can't really hide it), so I instead developed a system of physchological torture against myself. I frequently slip back into it, shooting myself in the foot in a way that makes others mad at me, so that I can enjoy their anger and the feeling of finally not having to doubt. (Context for that follows just to give context; this is not necessary for this speech)

Spoiler

I have horrible self-esteem and trust issues; anytime someone is nice to me at all, I constantly pick over their words and decisions to try to determine what they're trying to get from me. It gets so tiring that sometimes I just want people to be openly mad at me, so I don't have to try to sort out what I think they're truly meaning.

It's not great. But, to quote one of my...not favorite, but certainly a song I feel the most, "It helps me cope, knowing I could be that version of myself . . . it's nice to know I've got options."

Having said that, it is, again, not great. So here are the steps I take to kind of deal with that.

Number 1: forgive yourself. Yes, you did it again. Yes, it sucks. Nothing you can do about it now except keep moving forward.

Number 2: if you've really messed anything up, fix it, or at least start the process of trying.

Third, I recommend figuring out some method to keep your brain in check. Have somebody, like a best friend or something, who you can always reach out to if you start to feel like you're close. Make that a focus in your brain: anytime you're close, call them, text them, whatever, and talk to them.

@#1 Taln Fan, I summon thee for better advice

[Dilly honor spren she/her]

3 minutes ago, Kansas Stormcursed said:

*hugs*

This is entirely understandable, and I'm halfway tempted to come back you up.

Yes. Yes I do. Doing martial arts, I can't really afford physical damage (and can't really hide it), so I instead developed a system of physchological torture against myself. I frequently slip back into it, shooting myself in the foot in a way that makes others mad at me, so that I can enjoy their anger and the feeling of finally not having to doubt. (Context for that follows just to give context; this is not necessary for this speech)

  Hide contents

I have horrible self-esteem and trust issues; anytime someone is nice to me at all, I constantly pick over their words and decisions to try to determine what they're trying to get from me. It gets so tiring that sometimes I just want people to be openly mad at me, so I don't have to try to sort out what I think they're truly meaning.

It's not great. But, to quote one of my...not favorite, but certainly a song I feel the most, "It helps me cope, knowing I could be that version of myself . . . it's nice to know I've got options."

Having said that, it is, again, not great. So here are the steps I take to kind of deal with that.

Number 1: forgive yourself. Yes, you did it again. Yes, it sucks. Nothing you can do about it now except keep moving forward.

Number 2: if you've really messed anything up, fix it, or at least start the process of trying.

Third, I recommend figuring out some method to keep your brain in check. Have somebody, like a best friend or something, who you can always reach out to if you start to feel like you're close. Make that a focus in your brain: anytime you're close, call them, text them, whatever, and talk to them.

@#1 Taln Fan, I summon thee for better advice

Thanks your advice it really is appreciated and I'll try to take the next step forward 

*hugs* 

[KnightSkye Reforged They/Them]

11 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

*squeeze*

It's allowed

Squeeze to @KnightSkye Reforged as well

I can only imagine how horrible this all is for you, but... if you lash out, how does that make things better? I get that you want to release, but that won't fix the situation - it'll only make you look crazy and worsen things for you

OMG OMG OMG

THE REP LEVEL

Yeah well, maybe I deserve for things to be worse. And hell, maybe I'll be able.to change things so someone else has it better off. But I'm done. I will go this far and no further. I will not back down and give up anymore. I don't storming care what happens to me. I don't want to live in a world where true bonds, true trust, where sacrificial love and found family is only the stuff of stories. So if I can't make it a reality, I can take down a few obstacles to others with me.

9 minutes ago, TwinStorm said:

NOONE REP ME

I SWEAR

WHO JUST REPPED ME

THE *********

 

5 minutes ago, Hoid Slayer said:

Bruh whoever repped that is EVIL

@KnightSkye Reforged @Kansas Stormcursed I SEE YOU

I didn't rep it! 

[TwinStorm He/Him]

Just now, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Yeah well, maybe I deserve for things to be worse. And hell, maybe I'll be able.to change things so someone else has it better off. But I'm done. I will go this far and no further. I will not back down and give up anymore. I don't storming care what happens to me. I don't want to live in a world where true bonds, true trust, where sacrificial love and found family is only the stuff of stories. So if I can't make it a reality, I can take down a few obstacles to others with me.

 

I didn't rep it! 

you better not of

[Kansas Stormcursed he/him]

1 minute ago, KnightSkye Reforged said:

Yeah well, maybe I deserve for things to be worse. And hell, maybe I'll be able.to change things so someone else has it better off. But I'm done. I will go this far and no further. I will not back down and give up anymore. I don't storming care what happens to me. I don't want to live in a world where true bonds, true trust, where sacrificial love and found family is only the stuff of stories. So if I can't make it a reality, I can take down a few obstacles to others with me.

 

I didn't rep it! 

Alright that's it

I'm packing my sai and tambos and driving to wherever you live

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Seriously, I wish