Unum est duo
Entry posted by CoderDrag0n8 in Poetry
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I say I’m one thing
Im really two
I call myself one thing
I realize I’m two
It would be so much easier to be insane
I look at those with voices
And yearn for that security
I have problems, we all do
But it would be so much easier
To call me crazy
To say I’m insane
There’s a reason I’m like this
2 voices, that’s the reason
I wish I could be insane
I pretend to be
I want to have voices
But I don’t
Maybe that’s really why I’m insane
I see 2 paths,
One well kept and logical
Full of happiness and reason
One faded and worn
Full of soul and pain
I want to be a poet
A writer
A wordsmith
But I love spreadsheets
And math
And coding
I feel two things
Battling and fighting
I want to be both
But they feel so different
I wish I was crazy
I wish I could be insane
Then I could find reason,
Pin the blame.
I’m like this because of the voices
I wish I could say
None of us are okay
But I wish I could say
The 2 are voices
Different from me
Neither are me
But both of them are
I wish I had did
Maybe schitzo
I know this is offensive
But I wish I could say
This is the reason
This why I am
I am crazy,
Here’s the name
My insanity has label
I’m not normal,
That’s why I am this was
But deep down I know I’m not
I know it’s all a facade
But I wish I could say
Look at this
I can hear the voices
Look at me
I can hear the voices
The 2 aren’t me
Their my insanity
But I can’t
Cause they’re both me
And maybe that’s worse
Cause I feel them both
And definitely can’t choose
print(“Error: purpose not found”)
for i in purpose:
print(i)
- - -
Error: purpose not found
Spreadsheets and coding and data science
Poetry, writing, and stories
I feel a rush of joy as I’m typing my code
I feel accomplishment when I see the spreadsheet
But at night when I go swinging
I imagine a world
A world of my creation
A world of my own
Storyweavers and dreams
Poetry and confusion
I write my story
And feel the divide
I wish I was crazy
I wish I was insane
It would be so easy
If I could pin the blame
There’s a reason I’m like this
A reason for all this
It’s because of the voices
Because my mind is amiss
I can point at a diagnosis
And tell myself why
There’s a reason I’m like this
But is there really?
I want there to be a reason
But maybe I’m just human
We’re all fed up,
Maybe I’m not special
Maybe I’m like everyone else
Maybe I don’t have a problem
But then why?
I feel these 2 things
Both living inside my soul
I feel both these things
Fairly equally
They are both me
Feelings not voices
I’m not insane
Just kinda crazy
There is something wrong with me
It doesn’t have a name
I want to write my feelings
And escape in code
console.log(poetry(“Unum est duo”));
“One is two”
“Is there a reason I’m like this?”
“But does it really matter?”
“I wish there was a reason”
“But maybe I don’t need one”
“Maybe I’m just me”
“And that’s crazy enough”
“Maybe both of me”
“Maybe all of me”
“Maybe I can work together”
“Maybe I can walk down both roads”
“Maybe I don’t have to be crazy”
“For me to decide what to do”
“I can write and I can code”
“Maybe I can do both…”
“And that’s beautiful.”
I’ve talked about this before
And I’m glad I went down this path
The path in the middle
With the joy of both
Maybe I, the one
Can be both 2
Maybe I can be both
More than one thing
Edited by Through The Living Coder
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