Yes
it doesnt really vibe with me, i don’t know why i like it so much
but i can scream and feel some sort of power over myself, like i used to not be able to and now im seeing progress, proficiency. Plus thats not like a socially appropriate thing usually so it feels good when im alone and get to do those vocals in those songs i love
but also because ive learned the wrong kind by accident, i dont sound like myself, so its both incredibly freeing and empowering but also kind of… the only word that comes to my sleep deprived mind is dysphoric, idk.
one of my favorite screamy lyrics songs has very much helped with venting loneliness (yes, loneliness)
i quote: “i see the gods avert their gaze from me, my broken form is but a wreck beneath them, and there are always people i can count on, its all so easy for me”
being able to scream that with all my heart helped contextualize my pain next to someone who has gone through much more than me, and really helped me feel hope over it