Usseewa

Uhh so idk if this is an autism/ND thing or not.. (idk even if i have autism btw. haven't talked to anyone much abt it, but i might. anyway..) So it's kinda hard to explain (like most everything sigh...) but like I just.. spiral and my thoughts loop and I can't think clearly or if I do then every with every thought... I'm like "no you idiot why would you think that stop just ignore it no that's obviously not true no your making it up obviously no stop shut up you ack ack ack aghh [redacted] eeeeee" ...yeah... i don't rlly wanna say the current example (tho don't worry it's not... bad) but like it happens sometimes with trans stuff, or with autism stuff, or anxiety, procrastination, (though for the latter two it's a bit different but not any better...) idk but it's making it rlly hard sometimes to know what's real. meaning my feelings and thoughts and beliefs and such. not in a hallucinatory way. but in a "am I fabricating this and just looking at all the tiny little things that mean nothing and am I making myself think I feel this or making myself feel or think it" and then sometimes it's just a bunch or self-hate/loathing or self-blame or something. but like how do i do anything and make progress and *know things* if I... don't know what im faking?

uwu why'd'u think?

Holaaaaa

THAT'S-A-ME!!! *nods, holding clipboard* that checks out *nods again*

Holy crap, Ado, and Veil altogether That's so good And sad (but that's just cuz me) But so good

I looked it up and I think it's alt + search actually. But i don't have a chromebook so can't test that

interesante... hmm edit: @Through the living keigs

i mean just read this SU https://www.17thshard.com/profile/40321-frustration/?status=45800&type=status plus the post above a bit

yeah ik but i feel like Frusty and others had a bet or something? Idk

CWHOS!!!!!!!!! UWU JUST RELEASED TODAY I ALMOST FORGOT ABT IT

I love crying as long as there's no one around to see me do it. I make myself cry sometimes. Other times it's more involuntary--like when I'm writing or reading. Though sometimes I also make myself cry while writing or reading lol. Then.. there's the Frustration cries. I don't like those, especially when I'm around people and feel like crying cuz so overwhelmed or something. So I hold it in..

Oh nice I might try learning soon Vomit green (yellow-green) Nah jk Tbh I don't rlly like green.. but.. prolly mint (top-left corner) (Yes i had to look up shades. and?) BLOOOOOOODDDDDD nah prolly a pink-red SCARY AS DEATH nahlol just a funny little thing that's somewhat annoying but a little cute oh dang that's hard... I mean.. English is really cool imo for all its messiness and idioms (which other languages undoubtedly have too), and word origins and new words and abbreviations and slang and such. But that's not really a feature unique to English, is it? I would also say Japanese just cuz I like it and it's cool. So yeah. Tbh I don't have one, sowwy. @Verdance lol (This is the same screenie as before; Lily wuz 2 lazy to reget one)

Reconsider what? TLPW being locked or smth? I feel like I somewhat missed out on smth.

Alas, no i do not.. (Nor do I understand the written form since that was implied but not stated explicitely [how do i spell] lol) i want to learn but ....fajfjeijj Do you? (i just like japanese tho) (quite a bit)

she does j-pop (japanese pop) but i gtg fr now lol her music is similar to... kinda similar to linkin park if you've heard of them? At least imo? i may be totally off also lol we are derailing star's ama hehe uwu :3

yeah i thiink true that is yez i due https://www.17thshard.com/forums/topic/202221-usseewas-uwu-ama/ but ima go sleep *faceplants*

Holy Ado? I think I actually collected it from Verde ( @Verdance ) But I do "holy Veil" sometimes lol.. ALSO ADO IS A MUSIC SINGER ARTIST YOU SHOULD LIS--

I believe in no god(s)... Or.. whatever Passion is considered

holy ado that lined up nicely i was just doing that in case anyone don't know what a caret is ima crash now but... (and ill see this manana) How much do ya care abt spelling and the like? (In informal contexts such as these.) What's your favorite pet, if you like any pets lulz. What's your opinion on the feeling you get when you are so tired and your eyes are drooping and you are falling asleep and just want to sleep... Do you like chocolate? If so, any favorite kinds? Do you hate or are you neutral about stuff like "I'm not not not not not not not... not ___"? What's a question you are hoping (secretly or otherwise) people will ask you? (You don't have to answer this--or any of them lol--if ya dont want to) @Through The Living Star

WHAT is your OPINION ON CAPSLOCK? AND WHAT"S YOUR REACTION TO SEEING PEOPLE OBVIOUSLY HOLD SHIFT? ^ (the caret [^] is pointing to the quote symbol)

..not sure how to respond to that but okay 2518

Heh... :3 I like crying, usually.

Aww dammit.. there goes-- 2515

Relatively? Better/good. Yeh.

The Silence of Night I want…to be free. The wind, the night. The cold, no warmth. Away from these husks. Away from the sun. Alone…with silence. The silence of night. I want to walk, run, Dance, skip, Sit, lay down, Taking in the stars, Feeling fresh breeze, The clean invigorating breeze, Purging the filth, Imbuing the true-and-only joy. I want to just forget. Walk the night for hours, Not go back. Breathe out in relief, Then in, calming, euphoric. Instead I lie in bed, Sit in a chair, Walk these halls, Immersing in that which I hate, Not allowing myself the freedom I crave. I lay here with no energy, Typing away on this brick, Not nurturing, But withering. Oh how I long, To walk in the breeze, To run through a field, Collapse breathing heavily, Lie face-up, in awe at the stars. Stay there for hours, no care in the world. Letting time pass, as comfortable as I’ve ever been. Oh what a dream, What a wish, what a… Beautiful scene. - Me