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  1. Lol how. Yes, it's Khriss. P.S.: did u see my ping in CGD?
  2. Ok I might be a bit busy but I'll do the first clue: 1. This character has held a gun.
  3. ...ok. Well technically I think Python comes with ur machine. But....yeah . You can also run Python through an online interpreter. Perhaps this? https://www.online-python.com/ Supports multiple files'n'stuff. Idk, maybe check it out.
  4. Ty! I'll respond tmrw if i remmeber! i read it all, and it was rlly helpful, but i gotta do work so can't respond. I love y'all
  5. thINK;mINd;machine

    Why?

    Why do you surrender your mind?

    Your thoughts?

    You have no mind.

    You don't think.

    That machine does.

    It tell you what to think,

    and you comply.

    Willingly.

    You want it to think for you.

    You want it to turn you into this drooling, sleep-deprived, mindless, idiotic, half-human, horror.

    I hate you.

    I hate them.

    I hate every. Damn. Thing.

    In that vicinity.

    I hate him.

    I hate him.

    I hate him.

    I hate them all.

    They can all just,

    Do as you do and,

    Willingly donate their brains,

    Their potential,

    Their souls,

    Their lives,

    Their...them.

    To it.

     

    Wake up, fool.

    It isn't what you think.

     

    Wake up, victim.

    And see the sunshine.

  6. That kinda helps, I think. Also srry; I might respond to the rest of what u said but I'm also busy and shouldn't be on the Shard since I have a cremton of work. Kinda. Edit: "Kinda" as in I'm workin' through it and finished some alr.
  7. Pressure...Surface

    "I work best under pressure," she says.

    Yeah right.

    "I have plenty of time," they say.

    Sure you do. And plenty of stress.

    "I'll do it tomorrow," he says.

    Uh-huh, I'd like to see that.

    You know you'll just keep pushing it off, Lily.

    "But--but I still get things done!" Lily says.

    Yeah...but is it worth it? It's not like you use that free time.

    "I-- yeah...you're right. I end up feeling guilty or just wasting it away. Or Staring at the Blank Page," Lily concedes.

    So...? What are you gonna do about that?

    "Uhm...well...NOTHING!!!! TOO MUCH WORK!" Lily says. "Anyway, I got something to finish tonight...so unless you have anything else to say...?"

    Fine. But keep it in mind. Please, Lily.

  8. Yes lol... bro idk....im srry.... maybe...i feel like - and i could be totally off - it's sci-fi...? Wait a sec didnt i just watch that? or read? wait no i dont think so maybe?
  9. idk maybe i'll say it later. Just what I feel about women. but im way too busy rn edit; 7,00th reply...yippee
  10. I know it sounds so familiar but idk.... ...Harry Potter...? Lol idk. What abt mine?
  11. Easy;Waste

    IT'S EASY BUT IT'S NOT

    or maybe i just don't want to do it

    IT SHOULD BE SIMPLE; I DO IT ALL THE TIME

    yet i waste hours--delay hours--on what inevitably takes ten minutes.

    WHY!! WHY MUST I DO THIS!!

    i just do. i do. i...do. whether i like to or not.

    I LIKE TO THOUGH!! AT LEAST...it depends.

    and yet i write this. and yet i write this instead.

    Just. Do. It.

    Please.

  12. Wait a sec I think I actually know that. But idk srry. I'm also terrible at remembering first-lines and stuff. And some quotes. Ash [...]
  13. hundred
  14. Ty Izzy...I guess...yeah, you're right. Maybe I should't worry too much. Or try not to. Just do what feels good and right and maybe not worry about the perfect label yet? I think I should put an effort toward that. Yeah...everyone keeps saying that. Now I feel like I want to HRT/Med. Transition just cuz other ppl do. Could be true, even. Or...idk. Yeah. Time. Give it time, Lily. I worry what kinda person I am though. I like to think of myself as kind, and I probably generally am, but then I don't wanna slip up and say something bad or mean or...something that ppl don't like. Or somehow mess up. OK. HOLD ON. Just had an epiphany. Love when I get those. So: ALLLLLLL the bad things I semi-constantly to somewhat-somewhat WHATEVERR. All the bad stuff I think about myself doing/being...are in my head. Ok? Yeah. Ok nvm..wait. They're in my head but I still worry about them and yeah btw I'm talking about something..ggg..g.g.. Uhhhhhhûhhü Yeha anyway that's just something so anyway how do I be kind when I constantly worry I'll do something bad and be not kind? Like I worry I'll be not-kind and then only realize too late and then realize what a horrible person I was and then feel terrible and hate mself and stuff and then never wanna be around people again cuz they'll hate me but also cuz I'll be not-kind and yeahhhh? Like that's also a worry I have online. What if I end up being toxic without realizing and then do realize and feel horrible? I think that's actually happened a few times. Maybe not here, though. Or, even if not toxic, just in general...not the kinda person I wanna be. Like I worry I'll get carried away. Again. Yeah.. that's true. There are some nice dudes out there. Maybe it's what I didn't say Thank you, Aki. I appreciate it. *sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* I gotta do so much darn work.
  15. hey guys what if I'm enby or maybe genderfluid? cuz idk how I actually feel about ppl referring to me as female or as male. IRL, that is. And I sorta liked when ppl used they/them for me? (I didn't tell them what to use, rlly. Or I did and they used it on their own.) For some reason one time I disliked it (a few months back), but now I don't mind? Idk. And maybe it's just my new view telling me I shouldn't like male he/him and stuff and should like female and she/her and stuff? But it feels awkward? Or I don't know what to feel? Or aren't ready? Idk. When ppl I'm out to use she/her/female stuff. Idk how I feel but I know how I'm "supposed" to feel. And, I've started to have doubts. Possibly because I've been feeling more comfortable abt myself and now I'm like "wait, I'm feeling good/better now. That means nothing's wrong!" when in reality I'm feeling better ... cuz I'm wearing new clothes and painting my nails etc. At least I'm fairly sure. It's also hard to compare present to past since I didn't/don't? have a life, kinda. I also feel like I'm different from other trans ppl. And yes, "everyone has their own journey." But ppl seem surprised when I say I figured out a month ago and don't mind wearing new clothes in public and am considering coming out and stuff. And...I thought about HRT but it's only been a month so yeah. Ppl said I should probably wait. I could not be trans anyway. I hope I'm not cis at least. I hope I'm queer in some way. I guess...I said/thought a few days ago I was comfortable being trans, but now that ppl I'm out to talk abt it and call me trans and woman and stuff, I'm not so sure... Part of it could also be because I don't feel like I...pass as a woman. Don't feel like a woman? Not yet? Since I'm talking not just abt trans stuff (and so I don't double-post) I'm putting this in CGD, but feel free to continue it in THT. But, I would like to hear from some of the enbies or gender-fluid ppl here. @Ink and Embers are you enby? I forget. Sorry if that's a mistake, but I think yous said you were. Plus, what if I'm wrong? Yes, everything is reversible. Idk. Yada-yada. And talking about it to ppl has made me doubt and think I might be fine with male. How do I know if I like/want to be a woman? How do I know? How do I know feelings? Maybe it's just that I feel I'm not quite or not fully a woman or not a woman. I want ppl to see me as a woman but know/fear they probably don't. I want them to see me as at least queer but I doubt they do. Maybe they do. Maybe they don't. My hair isn't even dyed yet. I don't even know what people think when they see me. I wish I could know what ppl are thinking and they could know what I am. Probably more the latter. Then I wouldn't have to talk to strangers and they'd talk to me..Then I'd talk to people. Then they'd possibly know what I think/feel and relate. Do ppl see me as a woman? How will I know when? I don't feel like women will like me unless they see me as one. I fear men will still...*pause to think*...see me as one of them. I have a friend, maybe, but he's a guy! (I think.) I want. I want to. I want to ... idk. Do I even want to? Do I even want to be friends with women? Do I want to be friends with men? Why don't I. Why am I slightly disappointed that my first friend is a man? He's cool, yes. And I'm glad I have a friend (I think I have one, that is). But I wish I could (also?) have a woman friend. One who wanted to talk to me and didn't see me as a man. I want people. I want to talk to people. I want to be with people. I want to be a person. Why am I different? Why am I so very different? Are y'all different? Is it the neurodivergence? The possible being trans? Is it just cuz I'm weird? WhyYYY!‽!? I want to get to know people, to. But it all feels weird. Perhaps not truly what I want. I want friendship, and at the same time think it's not-all-it's-cracked-up-to-be. It's work, right? Or maybe just not Me. Like any friendship would be "me," not Me. Not whoever Me is, whether woman or not. Maybe that's why I don't feel fulfilled or satisfied from the "friendships" I've had. They've all been..."friendships"...but also didn't quite feel friendship-y enough. Not a deep enough bond or connection. Not close. Not friends. Not truly. Not. Maybe it's because they were also all male. Maybe that's why. Of the single-digit, single-hand number of friends I've had, they've all been males. From boys2men, they've all been male. I've wanted to be friends with some of the women I've met. I always mistook that for attraction. Or perhaps it was both. Perhaps I thought... wrongly or not wrongly. But...I can be a woman and be friends with men, and can be a man and be friends with women. It just doesn't feel that way. Not at all. Unless...yeah. Maybe I just don't like guys. Never have. You all probably like having friends men and women and all the every. But I don't particularly like men, even if I am around them. IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT. IT DOESN'T FEEL TRUE, OR FULL, OR WHAT I COULD HAVE. NOT THE FULL POTENTIAL OF FRIENDSHIP OR COMMUNICATION. When I'm in a room of men, it's... it's something. It's perhaps not what I'd like. It's perhaps like I don't belong. When I'm in a room with...women. When I'm in a room with women, I fear they'll see me as the outsider. I fear they won't want me there. When I talk to a man, what do I feel? When I talk to a man, he's fine. He's a man. Hmm. When I talk to a man, ... When I think of a man, it's odd. It's a feeling. I don't particularly like it. They're men; beer and talking weirdly and sports and videogames and beards and not and that-type-of-clothing and loud and boisterous and move-y-around-y and...manspreading maybe? I also don't particularly like stereotypes. Maybe just because I thought of myself as a man and therefore felt they included me when, in fact, I saw myself as (and probably am/was) outside those stuff. Is what I'm saying bad? I feel like I can't talk about women at all. I fear I'll be like one-of-those-men and...yeah. Ugh. Whelp...I would maybe write more but unfortunately life calls. Life. Life. Duties. Work. Ugh. Life. Yes. Great..Kay. uh-huh. yeah. sure. I'll do it. I'll do it..oh i forgot. oopsie. oops. yes. *wants you1 to leave and shut up* *wants you2 to talk to me or me to talk to you.* hehheheheheheheheh3è2êèie8ßjfí i hate proofreadjng........ughhhhhhh.....hope i wont regret posting thiss.....sss.s..s.s.s.lemmeknow if i will...
  16. yesterday
  17. I would make a programming joke here but you probably don't code. Or maybe you do, idk. Yes, of course.
  18. Kids then:

    "Why was six afraid of seven? Because seven eight (ate) nine!"


    Kids now:

    Me: "Why was six afraid of seven? Bec--"

    Them: "SIX SEVEEEEN!!!"

     

    Also kids then:

    Them: "Yo, what time is it?"

    Me: "It's 🕕 or 🕖, I don't know."

    Them: "K, thanks!"

     

    Also kids now:

    Them: "Yo, what time be rizzin' the skibidis?" 

    Me: "Uhh, it's about 🕕 or 🕖, idk."

    Them: "Girl I don' speak unc"

    1. Akimikoisthecutest
    2. Usseewa

      Usseewa

      I realized that what I said may have multiple layers of meaning or whatevs. Or just meanings

    3. Keteᛕ

      Keteᛕ

      SO true 'bout this new generation. Geez. I'm on the cusp of the last one, And I'm thankful for that every day.

  19. Ok...uh that's a lot. also I reallllyyyy gotta study so I yeah but I'll probably respond to this in more depth later or tomorrow.
  20. You got ninja'd
  21. Hi, is @67_Pagerunner your account? If so, multiple accounts are prohibited.

    Also, you should consider making an intro post to let us know a little about you and going over the FAQ so you can understand this site better.

    Thanks!

    1. 67-Pagerunner

      67-Pagerunner

      Yes! I tried on a different email so but I couldn't find the request in my gmail so I used this Account. I can't figure out how to delete it.

    2. Usseewa

      Usseewa

      It's probably fine as long as you don't use it. Maybe let an admin or mod know, if you want.

    3. 67-Pagerunner
  22. Probably a generic fantasy base (collectibles, enemies, etc. etc.) You mentioned lore. I think (since we have limited graphic capabilities) we could have some good/decent lore. Idk if I would be the one to ask, but yeah. Like you know those RPGs with the character textbox popups, or just like at the top of the screen above the level it gives you some lore and advice throughout the game? We don't want a loreless generic. I mean, since it seems we want a good ame. I can work on anything. I was kinda eyeing save systems lol. What're ur thoughts on that? A save code or just save the data to a text file or smth? I think we need a basic idea or basic playable (maybe just a graphics.py (or smth) file?) That would help me, at least. Then we can more easily add movement, walls, and then collectibles, enemies, lore, multiple levels, powerups or smth, etc. etc. I also like the idea of exploration and potentially hidden/hard-to-find rooms. Think Atari's Adventure
  23. K, cool. Got any immediate ideas or anything?
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