SmilingPanda19

It’s simple. Stick is my little munchkin. Veil is my nemesis cause she is trying to steal my little munchkin.

“Leave me alone!” She yells, swatting at them. She goes to open Mistress Ahna’s door. @The Wandering Wizard

“No. No. I don’t feel. I don’t think.” She lets go of a breath and starts walking again. “I’m just a tool. That’s all I am.” She purposely tries to walk faster than Aby to get to Mistress Ahna’s room quickly.

She quickly looks down. “I’m s-sorry Miss Aby…” she shifts awkwardly.

“Miss Aby.” She stops walking, turning her head to her slightly. “It is a horrible idea for you to think I am allowed to think and have an opinion. You should be ashamed.” She whispers furiously.

“Do I like what…Miss-“ she catches herself.

She doesn’t look up at her as she walks, she stares blankly forward. “Good evening Miss Aby.” She says quietly.

GMHQ Rosalind walks down the hall with a few towels in her arms. She makes her way towards Madam Ahna’s room, quietly. @Edema Rue @The Wandering Wizard

Yep. Unfortunately. TPBM could be considered a pushover

I usually struggle to focus on important things so my mind wanders. I’ll hyperfocus on things and I have a tendency to be obsessive over things. I have a love for certain textures and a dislike for others. I’m not super picky on food, I like a lot of food, but I eat in snacks usually and not meals. I get fidgety a lot and I’ll bounce my leg in class or carry around fidgets to fiddle with. Loud noises and lots of things and moving parts annoy me a lot, I usually try to avoid them. My anxiety is at a high during times where there’s a lot of people or noise or things to see. I’m a very touchy persons I love physical touch and affection, I dunno if that has anything to do with it but that’s a fact about me. I’m an incredibly observant person I notice waaaay to many details, overhear conversations, focus on random things like how many ceiling tiles there are. I also have a really high emotional intelligence so I’m always noticing changes in peoples behavior. I’m easily irritated by a lot of people and often impatient (I’m working on it tho lol). I also don’t like change so that bugs me sometimes like if we have to move our lunch table it frustrates me cause the noise and stuff is coming from a new angle. Etc. ig. So yeah, some of that might have nothing to do with it lol

It isss okay tell me what habits you think make you feel like you have ADHD or something cause IM PRETTY SURE IM SIMILAR-

‘Cause you’re the one I was meant to find

I’m so glad I have them though! Yeah…It’s okay though I guess. I have diagnosed GAD and depression (I think?) but I believe I have ADHD or ADD and social anxiety. But that doesn’t really matter I guess.

Say you were made to be mine

No matter how bad for me, yes. You know what I hate the smell of if it’s like an inch from my nose? SHARPIES- TPBM thinks lampshades are pretty fun

I have a therapist and my best friend. My parents don’t think I have social anxiety though….

If something goes against the code I’m so confused and I have to “rewrite” it in order to understand. This usually conflicts with emotions too cause emotions are irrational and I’m trying to rationalize them. I have a tendency to apologize a lot and ask people if they want me to say, do, be ____? Lets see. Mind you these aren’t like to die for fears, more like, everyday anxiety and stress. 1. one of my friends or someone I know being in the restroom with me. (They didn’t come in with me) 2. my hair being greasy or icky. (There’s some past ‘trauma’ ? To this one) 3. Throwing away -particularly food- trash in a classroom or around other people. (I shove it into my lunchbox) 4. Eating pasta in particular in front of people. 5. Touching someone’s foot with my bare foot. (It’s just… ew… nobody touch my bare feet please and thank you) 6. someone on an upper bunk falling onto me (it comes and goes lol) those are silly little things tho some more serious things 1. a pet or loved one dying and not understanding how to grieve 2. dropping a knife onto my foot by accident 3. Being replaced by my best friend (I am a jealous and overprotective person I admit. Mostly in self preservation) 4. Moving again 5. Accidentally hurting someone I love physically or emotionally I don’t trust people… like ever my best friend who I’ve known for 3 years… she still literally had to shove me onto her in order for me to give her most of my weight when she was giving me a hug and snuggles. (My love language is physical touch) I NEVER trust enough with my body weight. Hardly even family. I just can’t.

Eh. I’m working on my fears. I have very specific fears in very specific scenarios. My brain works kind of like code and an algorithm I’ve found. (Of course not always, but sometimes) If my friend says they don’t want to be called the nickname ‘Honey’ I won’t ever do it again. if that person got mad at me when I said or did ____ then if I do ____ they will get mad. It’s wonderful and horrible all at once. I can list some specific fears if you want…

….I have a fear journal….

I have decent claustrophobia, I don’t like loud noises or background noise but I’m not particularly afraid of it Im Afraid of being mentally alone or socially alone im afraid of being judged im afraid of being a disappointment Im afraid of rejection im afraid of being abandoned Im Afraid of being replaced im afraid of change Im afraid of being sexually assaulted or r— I’m afraid of loved ones dying Im afraid to put my full body weight on someone or something I’m afraid of trusting people

The pill causes you to foam at the mouth, you start choking up black liquid.

The chicks chirp their goodbyes and the bird keeps an eye on them for a moment before flying back up to her nest and resting there, satisfied with your performance…for now.

The squeak and chirp, nuzzling into her ankles and feet as the wait their turn. “So proud! So proud!” They repeat over and over.

The chicks chirp and nudge it towards her. One hops on top of her foot. The bird eyes then for a moment before flying over to a nearby tree and perching on top of it just within view.

The bird takes Jane up to the nest. @Lotus Blossom the chicks poke at the axe and try to pick it up with their beaks.