Edema Rue

Went to the most darling bookstore today, and also a separate but equally darling plant store.

The bookstore was selling these, and might be my new favorite place in the world:

I’m…

Well, I’m a lot of things. My headspace is fluctuating almost constantly. I have more things going on in my life than I ever have, and I can’t help but feel that I won’t last long. But I’m also working on the way that I think and understanding the way I feel for the first time in my life. I feel close to God and less trapped, at least, when I’m in control and not the emotion.

I’ve done hard things before and I’ll do them again. This is something I can do, no matter how much that terrifies me. I love history; stats is so cool. Theatre is a bizarre magic that I fully believe will kill me and I am still utterly enchanted by it.

People are sort of a mess, but I’m not defined by the friendships I do or do not have. I have a crush on a guy, and he’s sweet and thoughtful and has the best fashion sense and definitely doesn’t like me back, but sometimes he does such sweet things that I just have to wonder…either way, I’m glad to know him and glad to be surrounded by people who, though they are still growing, have wonderful souls and free hearts. I’m lonely a lot, but who isn’t? They’ll learn, and someday things will be better, and for now I can trust in that.

Anyway. That was a lot and nobody asked for it. But I figured I’d share since it’s been a while and I’m growing so much. I’d love to hear how you guys have been, I probably won’t be very active but I’ll keep popping in where I can.

With love,

Eddie.