InfiniteInsanity

I think I found the thing that maybe might be the thing that makes me happy. Like really really happy.

Fixing things and building things. 

I love the concept of being an engineer but the reality is it's lots of computer work that I am not good at and don't understand it.

But y'all... I got covered from head to toe in grease and other things because I spent hours fixing a car. And doing things hasn't made me that happy in a while. People have but not my own actions. 

But I was happy and I actually want to be doing it. Like every bit of me wanted to be doing it. But not only that but I could see myself doing those kinds of things in the future. Course my dad thinks that's rather stupid and that engineering is better but I'm just gonna try to ignore that for now.

My mom's dad came to help and that was so much fun. I didn't actually get to do much while he was there but he told me lots of stories about when he was in the Air Force and may have accidentally planted a few seeds in my head. 

And I'm starting to think that my dad doesn't really like fixing the cars all that much and just does it because it's cheaper. 

But I LOVE it.