That1Cellist

I'm using face swap to put my face on my face a ton of times until it can't recognize a face anymore. Then I'm going to turn it into a gif. This is an excellent idea and my face will not be deformed at all.

Sorry, no music recommendation today. I can't think of anything to share. Sorry.

Kinda bored in school today. But at least I get to be here with friends.

K, so, I'm watching Your Lie in April right now, (No spoilers please) and I just finished episode twelve. I've been taking the show really slowly in order to savor it. It's really, really good so far. Maybe I'm simply sleep deprived and emotional but the ED 2 is so beautiful. Actually, it's all beautiful. It's all so very beautiful. Perhaps it's only because of my perspective as a musician, but it is truly a beautiful thing. Thus far, I have thoroughly enjoyed each episode, and I am quite excited to be able to watch the second half.

Music recommendation: Celeste OST: "Mirror Temple - Mirror Magic Mix" by 2 Mello. Maybe this one doesn't feel right if you haven't played the game, but, even though it's a somewhat strange track, I do like it.

As for the list of characters I who have lots of suffering, I put together a list of a few, but then I became concerned that you guys would all think I'm a weeb.  (There's other characters on there too I promise) So now I feel self conscious about it and may or may not actually give you guys a list. Unless you can read my mind or otherwise threatenconvince me to overcome my self-consciousness.

Alright, as a continuation of a rant I went on in an SU quite some time ago, I now want to think about well-written characters who are severely traumatized. If you can think of any, please reply to this SU and mention the ones you can think of. It might jog my memory of some, or perhaps it will introduce me to some new characters I will enjoy! I plan to put out some sort of list including a few of my favorites before too long (Though knowing my reputation for actually doing these things it probably won't happen)

Music Recommendation: Bach Cello Suite #2, "Sarabande".

On another note, I really just need to sit down and read WaT. I have a copy, I just haven't gotten around to reading it yet.

Okay, okay. I'm back from not being on here to post another rant about a relatively niche topic that nobody cares about. Sorry, but thank you to everyone who actually reads it.

Music Recommendation: Parasyte-the Maxiim OST: "NEXT TO YOU".

Anyway...

I believe that The Trolley Problem is fundamentally misunderstood by most people. Most of us see it and think, "Ah, so it's a numbers game." and flip the lever to keep the five people alive. However, this is due to a lack of understanding. In the trolley problem, when you do nothing, you don't really bear responsibility for the deaths of those people. Sure, you chose to not save them, but you didn't actively choose for them to die. Plus, if you hit the lever, you are actively deciding to kill somebody. If you look at the problem as just pure numbers, you obviously flip the lever. But if you truly understand that flipping the lever means you take direct responsibility for the death of a person to save others, the option of not flipping the lever and just having those people die becomes a lot more logical. The question of the trolley problem isn't as much about numbers as it is about responsibility, and I believe that if most of us were actually put into the situation of the trolley problem, we wouldn't pull the lever. (Even assuming bystander effect doesn't kick in, which is a pretty big if) I don't want to kill someone, and even though five people might die, I didn't technically kill those people. Sure, I would feel guilt for not saving them, but, in my opinion, choosing to actively flip the switch and kill someone would be terribly frightful. 

     I've been thinking about physical affection/physical contact with other people lately. It's really quite interesting to me. I find it amusing that people need to be able to be around other people. Not just that, but it's emotionally important for people to be able to feel other people. It's fascinating, especially as I realize I definitely am not nearly as averse to physical contact as I thought I was. In fact (though this may admittedly be because I'm thinking about it a lot) I've been going out of my way to encounter this sort of stuff. (Not that I have very good access to physical contact. Mostly, I just hold my baby sister) Regardless, this is a curious realization I have made about myself.

Music Recommendation: "Luma" from Super Mario Galaxy. We SMG and SMG2 fans know that this one always makes us want to cry. It's funny that a song from a Mario game could elicit so much emotion, and yet it does, for those of us who have played the game at least.

It is occurring to me that maybe the first paragraph might be a little weird. Oh well.

In other news, I got into All-State Orchestra! It's a really big time commitment over three days, but it will be a good experience. Plus, there's something special about being selected as 1 out of 16 high school cellists from the entire state to play in an excellent group of musicians. And, I don't doubt it will look good on a resume.

Hey, I just wanted to say that I really like your new profile picture!

Hahahahaaeeeeheheheheheeeeee not getting enough sleep makes me feel emptyyy insideeee. It's like a hole, and all of the dark liquid sliippps in and fills the hole. So then I feel empty and sad and guilty and don't know what to dooooo about it.

Music Recommendation: "You're in Love" by Joe Hisaishi. It's a short, cute little instrumental song.

I want to write something happy, but I truly am quite tired right now. There are many things to think about in this world, many of which I am very thankful for, and many of which I find saddening. However, I count myself very  blessed that there are so many good things so close to me. Good people, good opportunities, good music, and so much more. I wish I could do them all more justice.

Haha, I think I'm too tired to put thoughts together well.

Anyway, I'll work on that list, and hopefully by the time I reach 1000 posts I'll be able to put something out. (I know, my post count increases very slowly) Thank you all for reading my SU, and I'll be talking to you all more soon!

I'm staying up a bit too late tonight. There are things to be thought of. Questions to be considered.

Why is it that the English language works fine for me most of the time, but when it's important I get it to work well, it doesn't cooperate at all? It's really quite unfortunate.

Music recommendation: "Cookin' in Hateno Village" by Wizard of Loneliness. It's Lofi, but with BotW cooking sounds! I really enjoy this one.

So, anyway, I'm up late trying to think up how to accurately convey complicated emotions through this language, and am being inhibited by my own ability. Does doing background tasks help any of you think? Well, I often find that when I'm considering something that doing another, less involved activity helps me think. As of now, the result is the image I'll include in a spoiler at the bottom. A few of you who know me better will probably understand the background behind this image, and the rest of you will just be confused, I suppose. (Hopefully it's amusing anyway)

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Oh wait, I'm having the same issue that other people seem to be having. No files will get attached to my SU for some reason. Sorry guys. I guess I'll just have to tell you that I edited the Lay's potato chip bag to have dead stick figures on it instead of potato chips, the bag says it's human flesh flavored. If this issue gets fixed, I'll upload it later. Sorry!