Thaidakar the Ghostblood

*sings happy birthday*

mmm... good food.

Ranch and ritz cracker chicken... simple, yet so good.

I have an important question.

What is your favorite Christmas song? Hymn, pop song, or otherwise?

I have a few faves: O Come O Come Emmanuel (the version put out by the church gives me chill every time), The Carol of Joseph (Specifically the For King and Country version), and Heavenly Hosts (aaaalso for king and country version).

Honorable mentions: Silent Night, In the Bleak Midwinter (trust me, For King and Country makes this one amazing), Oh Come All Ye Faithful.

I was going to post about something kinda melancholy and bittersweet yesterday.

It was going to have an epically long poem. Two parts, each half with 7 stanzas. each stanza with seven lines. It was going to have a haiku in the middle of it to tie the two parts together.

Then... I realized something as I was making it. 

Something like what I was writing isn't what I want to put out into the world. It's something that gives a very wrong impression and... doesn't fit. It wasn't what I wanted it to be.

Today, I got on my computer, kinda intending to write that SU still, then... my previous SU happened sporadically.

I've realized, that's the kind of thing I want to post often.

So, basically, what I'm saying is that I'm going to be posting more things that I honestly think might help someone. I'm going to try only saying things that feel genuine and are what I feel needs to be said when I'm saying it. I made the last SU because I felt like I had those feelings inside of me, I felt like I needed to share it. I want to do more of that.

From now on, the only SUs I'll be releasing are updates on my irl life, important shard stuff, the last SU kinds of things, book reviews, and some silly stuff.

For clarification, silly stuff is genuine. Laughter is so good and brilliantly well for health. Especially the mental sort. I'm going to still post silly things in my SUs, but they're going to be more grounded, I guess. They are going to be posted for a reason, not merely for... well... getting a post in every day. Which, I realize, is kinda what I've been doing, which I don't want to be doing.

And... I've rambled on for quite a bit now... I need to get doing some math stuff, so good night, y'all!

Remember, there is always a choice!

bot. Look at it's about me.

You aren't perfect.

Everyone is destined to fail at one point or another. That's life.

Everyone makes mistakes, everyone does the wrong things at times. Sometimes for the right reasons, even. Sometimes it's so bad that you wonder if it would've been better if you hadn't tried to do anything at all.

Everyone will fail. That is guaranteed. 

It's what we do with failure that defines us. Do we wallow in the misery of failing for weeks on end, or do get back up, wipe off the dust, and try to do right by it. Do we try again?

Except, it isn't like that. It isn't "Are you this person or this person?" It never is. It's "Which one are you more like right now and what kind of positive change can you make? What can you do to take steps towards trying again?"

It's horrible after doing something so wrong. Something that leaves you feeling terrible. I know that feeling all too well. I was in that recently. But... you know what I realized? 

Life is ups and downs. It's constantly shifting between bad and good. We get better over time, but we also get worse over time. It will be like that. A lot. If it's worse, then it's bound to, eventually, get better. Not instantly, not tommorow, not next week.

Eventually.

Better isn't great. Better is easier. Easier can mean so many things.

It'll probably get harder before it gets better, my friends. And, it will feel like there's no end to pain.

But there is.

That's why we endure to the end. That's why we keep going even when it's hard. That's why you're going to do your best to pick yourself up and keep going. It's like falling off a bike ride. You're in the middle of your ride, a mile or two from your destination. You've scraped your knees badly, don't know if you can walk. But you have to. You won't get your relief fully until you're at your destination. There's still a long, painful walk to make it there, but there's that end. There's that destination.

It's a good thing, however, that there's people who help. People who help bring your bike there, people who lend you their water bottle, people who give you kind words to keep going. You can make it!

And, a lot of the time, they're in the same situation you are. They are, often, feeling that pain too. And they smile. They smile and try to help because they know the secret.

The best way to help yourself is to help others.

Keep going, my friends. We'll make it to the destination eventually. We'll finish the journey. We'll get bandages for our bruises. We'll get better.

"He that loseth his life for my sake shall find it." - Matthew:10:39