The Sixth Archive
Thaidakar sat in quiet contemplation, his tears long dried. He was broken, he was battered, he'd been running for so long... perhaps it was time to stop running. Something in himself seemed to cringe at the implication. Thaidakar ignored it, he'd been holding on for so long... was it time to finally let go?
He stood up, ignoring the floating armor surrounded by that red glow. Thaidakar shivered with anticipation. The thing in his mind seemed to be excited. Suddenly, a horrifying thought came to him. If you let go, what will happen to Calano, Bookwyrm, Emma and the rest? No, he couldn't let go. At least, not yet. He couldn't seize that power. He couldn't confront it yet. No, not yet, perhaps not ever.
He shivered, this was going to be harder than before. He resisted the desire to just let go fiercely by thinking of what could happen to the others if he did do it. An overpowering desire to do it hit him like a truck and he gripped his head, yelling.
Why do you have to not take the power? It could help you so much... the thing seemed to be saying.
"Because of what I did to Lerya last time..." he whispered. Glyph's pattern buzzed nearby. "I have to hold on... if not for me, for Lerya. I owe her this and much, much more..."
"Truth..." said Glyph softly. "Confront it..."
"I- I killed her. Glyph, I killed her!" He was crying again, tears streaming down his face. "I did it..." he slumped down again. "Why do you have to do this, Glyph..."
"I believe the one known as the Stormfather would've said... these words are accepted." Glyph said happily. "Truth is powerful, Thaidakar. You were on the brink of finally giving up. The only think keeping you from falling off of the edge of the cliff is the knowledge of Lerya. Thaidakar, I've learned some things... the thing that's in you it-"
"I don't want to hear it," whispered Thaidakar. "You seem incapable of listening to my commands, Glyph. Just go away... I told you to before, but you seem incapable of doing what I command. Why don't you go find some other person. Someone not as broken as me, someone... someone who didn't kill an entire universe's worth of people."
Glyph buzzed softly, but went away.
"I hate you..." Thaidakar said to the thing inside him and partially to himself. "I hate you for all you've done to me and to them..." He had to keep holding on, no matter what. He had to. It was simple as that. No matter the cost, he couldn't let the power free itself.